Journal Entry # 7

Date: 2/5/2024 – Monday

DEPLOYMENT DAY 7

This day feels like I have been in a retreat. I felt charged over the long weekend. Just like usual I
got there at school on time. After I opened the door, I instantly started cleaning the room and arranging
things. I waited for my cooperating teacher to arrive, and I readied the lesson plan I made for correction.
Several minutes later she arrived. My cooperating teacher really got this very relaxed vibe that ensures
there’s nothing I need to worry about. She checked the lesson plans and made minor adjustments and
changes. The students arrived and asked the students regarding the assignment about isometric and
orthographic which they didn’t know how to do. So instead of making it an assignment it was explained
to let the students know what they’ll be doing. The students were given activity about the isometric and
orthographic to further practice and test if they really understood what was taught to them. That was also
the case for the two classes. For the first-class Ms. Exito explained and for the second and third I did. I
happily helped those students who asked for my helped and assist them. After the classes were done, I
waited and logged out.

Journal Entry # 8

Date: 2/6/2024 – Tuesday

DEPLOYMENT DAY 8

A sunny day. I was there before 7 am and cleaned the room. This day was not a productive day on
my end because did not do anything besides watching over the students do their project. I did the same all
throughout the day. They cut metals for welding and some of them drew. But this day brought lessons that
I would really like to bring through my practice teaching journey. Always be the teacher and friend to the
students. Know when to act strict and when to loosen the grip. Today I witnessed a heart-breaking
situation that a student was asked to memorize but looked so worried because according to him he can’t
do it. I was told to test him and so I did. But before that I made him practice and encouraged him a little
and he did it. Even though I did nothing exciting today I have learned a valuable lesson.

Journal Entry # 9
Date: February 14, 2024

DEPLOYMENT DAY 9

This day was valentine’s day and also the day of my second demonstration day. I got to school
early to have time to get ready for my demonstration. But before that I cleaned the classroom. I have
reviewed the topics that confused me and waited for my cooperating to get the signal to proceed with my
plan for the lesson. My teacher arrived and she made minor changes and allow me to do my plan. Since it
was valentines as expected, not many students attended the class expect for the first class. The time was
shortened because the school was having a program in the afternoon and the teachers will be having a
meeting. When I was doing my demonstration, I really felt like a teacher. I have navigated my class on
my own because my cooperating teacher left the classroom during my demonstration and gave me the
authority to make the classroom my own. When I was in front of the class, I felt nervous. It is not because
I feel pressure from the class but from myself. I have this thinking in my mind that I’m going to mess up.
But along the way I have found the confidence thanks to my student’s behavior that really made me eager
to teach them. I will be honest that none of my three classes is perfect, but it has grown in me the
dedication to help them learn. Unfortunately, I only demonstrated in section Gonzales. The time was
shortened but I have made the time enough for me to finish my demonstration. In the afternoon, I only
stayed in the computer laboratory of Mr. Tagoon because my classmate Rhea was his practice teacher
along with my other practice teachers. We spend our vacant time there and waited until 5 o’clock.

Journal Entry # 10

Date: February 15, 2024

DEPLOYMENT DAY 10
 Last day of the week. I have mixed emotions for this day. I experienced being irritated and
considered this day as the best day but at the same time a challenging day so far. The morning went well,
since in the previous day I only demonstrated on section Gonzales I continued to demonstrate the same
topic to the other sections. The section Gonzales only continued to do their activity isometric since none
of them passed the activity. My first demonstration for the day was in the afternoon. For section
Benardos, I was very happy because they were too attentive, and they actually listened to me while I’m
discussing. A lot of the students got a perfect score. While in section Smith, was the complete opposite. I
got irritated when some of the students were not listening to me. I know it is not right, but I told them a
lot of times to move closer to each other since they are just a few. But I have told them more than five
times already. Besides, I’m not asking them to move mountains. That was just a simple instruction.
Although that happened, I proceed to the discussion. I survived. All in all, that was by far the most
exhausting day I had since deployment. I have come to realize at the end of the day that being a teacher
isn’t really easy. You need to lengthen your patience to not be stressed.

Journal Entry # 11

Date: February 19, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 11

New week, new experiences. My Monday started with a bang. My cooperating teacher was one of
the coaches, she is the coach of the athletics of Sogod National High School. The coaches of sports will
be having their seminar, the said seminar will last three days, starting this day until Wednesday. So given
the circumstances I will be the one to conduct classes for three days. So, prior to that week I had already
prepared my lesson plans and the teacher gave me the go signal to use it. So, I got to school early to have
time to prepare for the class. So, I have three classes for the day, repeating the same topic all throughout
the day. So, for this I felt so drained, since it was the first day that I am in charge of conducting all the
classes. But grateful for the experience. This is the time when I get to really feel how teachers go on with
their day.

Journal Entry # 12

Date: February 20, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 12

I felt refreshed. I slept soundly last night but woke up with a feeling of panic. I already made my
presentation last night but not made plan how to deliver it. But while I was on my way, I planned when I
was in the room I practiced. The reason why I practiced was that it makes me more organized in my class.
But not all you practiced would happen, you just have to hope. I spent my day discussing and did my best
to act my part as their teacher. I was so happy when I finished my day with a good performance, I
believed. But one’s thing’s for sure today was better than yesterday. I still have energy left to go home
with a smiley face.

Journal Entry # 13

Date: February 21, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 13

This was a good day. I got to school on time but need to go out to attend the seminar of SSS in
SLSU. I told the first class the case and asked them to do the assignment I gave them yesterday. I ate
lunch and got back to school to conduct classes but to my surprise the third class had only 10 students.
That’s why I decided to tell my cooperating teacher the situation and asked her if I could postpone the
class the next day, she said yes. So, for the day I only conduct for only one class. The students specially
the section smith has this problem of not attending class that I already observed. It was sad, but you can’t
do anything about it. Every day’s not the same.

Journal Entry # 14

Date: February 22, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 14

I can describe this day as effortless yet very tiring. I did not conduct classes, but I spent my whole
day tracing through papers and recording their scores. I did not expect that without standing and talking I
will become too tired. This day really gave me a lesson that even in the future if God allows that I will
become a teacher I will surely remember. I will not leave papers unrecorded. Because I experienced the
consequences today. For the whole day I was just looking, checking tons of papers. It was not because I
became lazy but because I recently got the list of the students and also because the students did not pass
the projects and papers on time. That is why the papers piled up.

Journal Entry # 15

Date: February 23, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 15

I’m mentally tired. It seems like an exaggeration but true. Since we now have our schedule of
grand demonstrations. I hate this feeling wherein I am overthinking everything, which is way out of my
control. I wanted to plan ahead of time to make sure I am prepared but it doesn’t go that way. I already
had my desired flow of the lesson, but it did not seem to meet the standard of my cooperating teacher. So
much has changed, and I have to redo almost all parts of it. Though, I really admire the patience of my CT
for helping me. So, on this day I spend half of the day changing my lesson plan and asking for advice. We
only spend half of the day in the school since we also have class the very same day in SLSU.
Journal Entry # 16

Date: February 26, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 16

Well, I envisioned this day as a good day, but it wasn’t. I did not sleep because I was mentally planning
how I would deliver my lesson plan. Only to know that my lesson plan needs changing again. Don’t get
me wrong, I want to be corrected to learn but there’s this part of me that was disappointed. I thought my
CT already agreed and made her plan, but she changed it again. I was sleepless finalizing what I should
do and then there’s these changes again that I need to adjust. Not to sound ungrateful but I should have
been informed way beforehand, so I get to adjust ahead of time. I only have one night to do my IM’s and
to re-plan my lesson. But I see this as a way of me being flexible, but I regretted not sleeping prior to this
day.

Journal Entry # 17

Date: February 27, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 17

This day was by far the most overwhelming day. Today’s the day that I really nerve wracking for
me. Today’s the day that I got to be observed by my supervisor to see what we have learned from the day
we were deployed. I woke up with an easy feeling it is because I already ready all the things I need to use
for my grand demonstration. When I was already in the room, I finalized my demonstration. My
cooperating teacher asked me to do the demonstration to my first section and also to have a firsthand
experience in doing my demonstration. In my opinion, it was really a good idea. I have adjusted my plan
and made another way to improve my delivery. When it was almost time, I got nervous a little. When I
saw my supervisor, I got a moment of fear but thankfully not for long. I have embedded in my mind that I
can do it, and all of this shall pass. I have executed the lesson plan the way I imagined and I’m happy
with it. I have gained grades and self-confidence. Thankful for the people behind this achievement.
Journal Entry # 18

Date: February 28, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 18

This day was chill. I did nothing major, but my mood was really good. I guess it was because of
the weight lifted in my shoulders yesterday. Just like usual I got there before 7 AM and cleaned the room.
For all the classes I only conducted a quiz, a long quiz. I realized that I really created a bond with my
students. I have created a bond that I will surely miss.

Journal Entry # 19

Date: February 29, 2023

DEPLOYMENT DAY 19

This day I also did nothing major. We only checked the test I gave them yesterday. I have a little
chat with my students about stuffs that I can really relate to and helped with their activities for their other
subjects which really gives me a unique kind of happiness. It’s been really my passion to help specially
those who needed it the most. I am also flattered that they treat me so openly and trust me that I can help
them. It is like I’m their big sister. So, I just now realized while making this entry that it was the last day
of the month. Time really flies so fast that you don’t feel it. I am happy and sad at the same time, like is
that even possible? I am happy that I am close at closing this chapter and opening a new but I am surely
missed this in the future.