Saviour
Saviour
All my life I have always dreamt of having a saviour, a knight in a shining armour that will save me
from my dark days or dark thoughts; I have eagerly waited day and night, for someone else to come
and be the solution to all the problems in my life. But there are also some things that I learnt over
the years and these might come as a spoiler alert to all the people observing the drama of life,
nobody will save you. Infact, the best person who can save you in this paragliding adventure of your
life, is yourself. Believe it or not, you are the one who has to pull the latch for your own parachute. In
my life, in my dark days, there were very few people who stood by my side, I definitely value them
with my soul. But the most important person of them all was, me.
Often in this bullet train of a life, we forget our own worth, our own train of thoughts and
perspectives and ideas. When we move to new places, we see new things we feel lost, we want to
latch onto something or someone, who feels like home. At that time the best thing that you can latch
onto, who are the “greatest dumpees of this world”, according to my favourite writer John Greene,
are books. When I am reading a good book, it makes me feel like I am a part of it, it makes me feel at
home and not strung out of place, like when I am reading a good Agatha Christi murder mystery
novel, I feel like I am the part of an extremely secretive team of Hercule Poirot, trying to investigate
find out who did it, within stolen glances, backstabbing and dirty lies.
The reader might think that my view towards life is rather pessimistic and that if they wanted to feel
low, they could have just watched a sad movie and curled up in bed and cried. Please don’t get me
wrong when I tell you, that only you can save yourself and there would be no one present to be by
your side. I have had good friends who made me feel good in bad days, my parents have been the
biggest support system of my life since I have opened my eyes to this big wide world. Yet still I feel
the best person to solve your problems, in your own way, by understanding your own feelings is no
one but you. Don’t demean yourself, don’t judge yourself, ask yourself for help and you will get that
help if you look within.
Life isn’t fair and sometimes you might feel that justice isn’t done to you by others. That is the point
where you do yourself justice, you love yourself, you become your own safe place. We often try to
look for shade in a sunny day, to cool ourselves, to save ourselves from the heat. All I have learnt
from this crazy whirlwind of life, the best safe place that can never deny you entry, is you. To me, this
place never judges me, never questions me, never makes me feel smaller and always has time for
me. So, be the tree that gives you shade in the sunny day, look within yourself, you are your best
comfort character.
You might feel as if I am giving you a lot of free advice, that is not the case, I am just narrating, some
small donuts of experiences from my life. In life the best person that you can love is yourself and
should be yourself. To me, by putting yourself before everyone, you are not being selfish, rather you
are being quite selfless, how can you love someone else, if you yourself believe that you cannot be
loved? Loving is an individual process and then a collective one. Loving and empathise come from
within a person when they can empathize with their own feelings in life and