Ore No Imouto Ga Konna Ni Kawaii Wake Ga Nai 5
Ore No Imouto Ga Konna Ni Kawaii Wake Ga Nai 5
Even when she was at home, we only talked to each other during our life
counseling.
I feel more comfortable without her. No-one is going to take over the living
room, no-one will bring their friends home and kick me out. I no longer
have to endure the noise from the next room.
Well, of course, I feel a bit disappointed about our last life counseling
session... Ah, but in the end, I think she is cute... somewhat.
She was blushing slightly, her shoulders stiff and her face held a small
smile.
I could tell that she had many conflicted feelings.
I asked the girl in our school uniform, rather than her customary gothic
dress,
"Aren't you... Kuroneko?"
Although still a bit hesitant, she replied with a mocking laugh. Hearing that,
I finally confirmed that she was Kuroneko.
Then she turned toward me and placed her hand on her chest.
"Of course I'm surprised. Are you... going to the same school as me?"
"I knew that your house is nearby, but I never thought you would go to the
same school as me. Why didn't you tell me about that sooner?"
"This is my own choice. Besides, how come it's your business to know
what school I go to?"
Kuroneko's eyes widen, but she quickly returned to her normal self, with
her expressionless face.
"I will have a different name to call you in two months.", huh?
From "Onii-chan" to "senpai"?
I smiled. For some reason, I feel like I can have an honest conversation
with her.
She said in a small voice, then immediately turned and continued to school
at a faster pace.
What's wrong with her? Suddenly getting upset like that. I have seen
Kuroneko's expressions many times, but I still don't understand why she
would suddenly get upset.
I was going to chase after her, but someone called my name from behind
me.
"Kyou-chan! Kyou-chan!"
"Ah…"
Manami…
Allow me to explain. Normally, I go to school with her every day, but today I
completely forgot about her and chased after Kuroneko. That's what
happened.
"Close friend?"
"Yes."
At least I think so. I believe Kuroneko also thinks about me that way.
"We are sort of online friends. Although she can be hard to understand,
she's a good girl."
"So that is it…"
"Okay."
"Kuroneko."
"Huh?"
Manami seems puzzled. I can almost see the question mark over her
head.
As expected.
"All wrong. Sorry, Kuroneko is her nickname. I met her on a fanpage online
several months ago."
"Ah, I see."
"Since we met online, I always call her by her nickname. In fact, I don't
even know her real name."
"I see…"
"Yeah…"
Sadly, this is the truth.
Both Saori and Kuroneko are good friends of mine.
But I don't know their real names, their addresses, their schools, their
families…. I don't know any of that.
The only hint I have is the package that came from Saori before, but I
haven't asked her for confirmation yet. Besides, for an online friend to ask
for real life information is a no-no, so I have no intention of asking her
anyway.
But now Kuroneko goes to the same school as me so things are different
from before.
Everyone would feel happy if a friend suddenly went to the same school as
them, wouldn't they?
"Gokou Ruri."
"Go…dou?"
Gokou Ruri
Gokou Ruri
"Sorry sorry. Don't mind me. I almost called you Kuroneko again."
"..Just as I thought. Even I'm not sure why I let you know my human form's
name. You should continue to call me Kuroneko."
"All right."
I nodded.
By the way, I'm in my room after coming back from the opening ceremony.
"Hahaha! What are you talking about Kyousuke! Shouldn't you ask that
immediately after you enter your room? Why do you ask after you've spent
time talking with us?"
"That's because I was so surprised! I – Hey, Saori, what are you doing?
What are you doing on my bed?"
What I wanted to ask is how can you act like this is completely normal! I
can feel a vein in my forehead about to pop.
Wearing big, round glasses, with "normal" otaku clothes, she is also my
friend.
And as a result, instead of asking why they were here, my still shaken
brain asked Kuroneko's name instead.
"Phew…."
Yes, I'm a magnanimous man! And please, don't casually lie on my bed!
"Kyousuke must have praised you in that uniform right? I think he would be
saying something like "Wow, I almost don't recognize you. You look good
in that.", right? And then – still acting coldly, Kuroneko felt happy, so she
kept wearing that uniform when we came here. Hm Hm, that must be it,
right? Otherwise, there is no way Kuroneko would give up her gothic lolita
outfit."
While Saori let out an evil laugh, I tried to remember this morning. Sure, I
did praise her and she did reply dispassionately. But I think Saori was
overthinking it.
At the same time, Kuroneko started denied it. Standing up from my bed,
she said
"That's completely wrong. I only felt that to go back home to change would
be too troublesome."
After my sister left, I've never felt more relaxed than I do now.
"Yup!"
And so, on the first day of the new school year, two school girls visit my
room.
Some may say I'm lucky. But the truth is, considering how big Saori is and
Kuroneko's sharp tongue, there is no way something embarrassing could
have happened.
This is "Sis X Six – A brocon little sister's story" – something that should
never appear in the room of a brother who has a real little sister.
Saori laughs.
"Nope. I don't have a laptop. And I don't want to use her PC without
permission."
That's why I haven't played it. Beside, I'm not interested in that kind of
eroge in the first place. So I haven't really thought about playing it.
"I can help you. If you want, I can give you my old laptop."
" Ah-Ah, Kyousuke, wait a second. Please accept it for me. Taking care of
an old laptop is quite troublesome, so please help me, okay?"
"Thanks."
"Hmph. She only left some notes in our SNS diary, about what happened.
That's all. Even I have no idea what that's about."
"Me too."
"In other words, Kirino hasn't contacted you guys since she left?"
"Yes."
"That's right."
What is she thinking?
She didn't even tell her best friend Ayase before going to the United
States.
The truth is, only my Mom and Dad knew about it.
Not only that, she has completely cut off all contact with us.
I sighed.
"She's hopeless. It's probably too late, but please allow me to apologize in
her place. Sorry. You guys helped us so much."
"…It's fine with me. I already knew for an online friend, something like that
would happen sooner or later and I'm fed up with her anyway. I even feel
happy now that she is gone."
She looked like a girl who had just been abandoned by her boyfriend.
"I see."
I'm shocked. This is my first time seeing Saori get angry. In my mind, this
girl is only capable of feeling joy and happiness. She always has that
happy smile.
"Saori..."
"And then... no email, no phone call, no online diary updates. She hasn't
appeared on twitter either. I'm even more angry. How could she just quietly
disappear like this? So, how can I forgive her?"
I don't know what to say. She was right. They should be close friends, but
Kirino suddenly disappeared. It's normal for her to feel betrayed.
To the contrary, she gets angry because of her strong bond with Kirino.
"All right."
I clapped my hands.
"Let's just forget about her for now and have fun. Then you guys will write it
in your SNS diary. When Kirino see it, she will deeply regret her actions."
"Hm…not bad."
My otaku friends are here with me. My room turned into our playground,
but my sister is gone.
The second day of the new school year. After the bell signaled that class
had ended, chaos erupted.
"Ok."
As luck would have it, I'm in the same class as her this year. But really, I
think that even if we were in different classes, she would only take a bit
longer to come to me.
I'm in high school, my third year now. My friends have had some small
changes, but as long as Manami is with me, I don't care.
"Something new?"
"Nothing."
I took my bag and stood up. But halfway down the hall I said,
"Wait Manami, I want to go somewhere else first"
"Ok."
I have walked there a few times before, so I remembered the way. The first
year classroom is right below ours.
Of course there wouldn't be any replies. Even Saori and Kuroneko had no
luck. What is she thinking?
"Hmm? What?"
"Really…. What you speak and what you think are so different. You
wanted Kirino to answer, didn't you?"
At that time, we saw a girl walking toward the staircase near the first year
classroom.
"Right."
Still holding her coat, the girl – Kuroneko turned toward me.
Her face showed no expression, making it impossible to tell what was on
her mind.
"Didn't I send you a message telling you to wait for me after class?"
"Hey hey..."
What the heck? The last time I saw her, she was in a good mood.
Why do you become so cold at school?
Of course Manami doesn't understand this word, she turned and looked
behind her.
Sorry Manami.
Kuroneko never met Manami before, how could she know about Manami?
I hadn't thought about it before. Well, it's not something special, so I'll let it
slide for now.
"Hey, Kuroneko. Get a hold of yourself. Come back to reality. This isn't
your manga!"
Although with that being said, I still can't help but feel suspicious.
Kirino once criticized that Kuroneko was the type of author that sometimes
placed themselves inside their story.
Kirino has a strong sense of the distinction between 2D and 3D. However, I
can't say the same about Kuroneko.
Maybe that's why she sometimes acts like an anime character. Her favorite
clothes, her manner of speech... they are all from anime. This isn't
something bad, but now I feel worried about her.
But Manami had already recovered. She smiled, then spoke again:
"Nice to meet you, I'm Tamura Manami."
"Wha-!"
What the? Her tone is clearly different from before! What is with you?
"Sorry sorry. Maschera just got temporarily stopped. Is that okay with
you?"
"Um... then, Kuroneko, how do you feel about this school? Do you still feel
nervous?"
"Nothing."
Ice-cold conversation.
No matter how cold Kuroneko replied, Manami kept smiling. And no matter
how much affection Manami showed, Kuroneko always replied with a very
short and cold line, clearly intended to cut the conversation short.
"No."
Kuroneko said in a small voice but I could see that this wasn't what she
really thought.
Looks like my suspicion was correct. In other words, because Kirino said
something, Kuroneko hates Manami now. That's why when she noticed I
was about to introduce Manami, she tried to retreat to her home.
"I understand."
"Hmm?"
"I said I understand, senpai. You wanted to meet me for something, right?
Although I don't want to do it, but this can't be helped. So don't bring your
boring, depressed face here. I feel depressed just by looking at you."
Exactly what is this "boring, depressed face" you're talking about?
You really are Kirino's friend. You complain about me whenever you have
a chance.
However, just now… shouldn't she have said "I will judge Manami
myself."?
No, what she said means that she agreed for my sake because she
doesn't want to see me like this?
"Gokou-san!"
From the upper floor, a group of first year girls called to us.
"Are you free? We are going to a karaoke bar, do you want to-"
Instantly rejected. Hey Kuroneko, your classmates invited you to play with
them, and that's how you reply? Even if you don't want to go, don't speak
like that.
"Senpai?"
"…."
Look like I didn't have to do anything. This kind girl always wanted to help
others.
"Since we are together, how about you walk home with us?"
"Whatever..."
By the way, considering Kuroneko's personality, can she even make one
friend in her class?
What happened in school made me a little worried. Right now things are
still okay, but if this continues, then her classmates will avoid her.
While I was on my way home, I noticed some tables near the school gate.
"Clubs are now recruiting new members. Don't you remember last year?"
Every year, after the new school year starts, clubs will begin to recruit new
members.
Since classes just finished, there are still many students here.
"Ah..."
I remembered my summer Comiket, how otaku sold their doujins in a
similar fashion.
"Sorry, I'm already a third year." – I coldly replied, and kept moving.
There were still several clubs ahead, but I didn't pay any attention to them.
"Ah, Kuroneko, you haven't joined a club yet, right?"
"…I don't want to. I have too many other things to do."
"Yes."
Normally, when she made such a face I would say something to encourage
her. But Kuroneko was here, so I couldn't say anything. Instead, I
shrugged.
Which I hope she would understand as: we can't do anything about it now.
We need to take it slowly.
Manami nodded.
So, when we had finished our silent conversation, another student came to
us.
"Hey – Tamura! Are you going home with Kousaka?"
"Akagi..."
We both turned toward the voice.
"Ok! Bye!"
Akagi smiled with Manami, but somehow I felt uneasy about it.
I wanted to reveal that he once went to buy "homo eroge", but we signed
an oath of silence, so I held back.
At the same time, Kuroneko glanced at Akagi, but she remained silent.
I'm not really surprised anymore. She always seems anti-social. I
remembered when we first met at Kirino's offline party, she was isolated
until Saori and I joined in.
Because Kuroneko still refused to say anything, I could only help her
answer.
I didn't even want to say anything to him anymore, but Manami seemed to
like it. She put her hands on her cheeks and said shyly,
"Ah... Akagi. Did you hear him Kyou-chan? He said I'm beautiful, right?
Right?"
"What are you doing here anyway? Just get back to your club. Or do you
want me to reveal the game that you bought before?"
"Okay okay! I'm going to go back soon. But Kousaka, I also have
permission from my club president to go meet my little sister."
"Yes, my little sister. Did you see her anywhere? She should be nearby."
"Are you an idiot? I don't even know what she looks like."
"That's not a problem. She's the cutest little sister in the world. You will
recognize her instantly."
The truth is, since we met in Akihabara, I already suspected he was this
kind of person.
For his little sister, he can go to Akihabara in the middle of the night to buy
homo eroge. Not to mention that he was the only male in the line.
That's not what a normal human could do.
Of course I'm not totally normal! I also bought two eroges for Kirino, and
then rode a bike back home despite the trip being 32 kilometers.
Wait, does that mean if me and Akagi got into a perversion ranking, I would
win?
No, no, no. Must stop thinking about that. Stop. Stop!
"Yes. She is wearing glasses, and she looks similar to you Tamura."
So does she look like Manami or is she the cutest sister in the world?
I can't believe this guy. He has a real little sister, and he said he likes her?
What exactly should I do now?
"Ah, later."
I turned and dismissed him, quickly trying to catch up with Kuroneko.
Hmm...
If you are talking about appearance, then my little sister is surely cuter than
yours.
"….."
No reply.
Following Kuroneko's gaze, I noticed that she was looking at the notice
board of the Game Research Club.
The game research club had six tables with three laptops, allowing
students to try their game.
Every club was doing the same too. Like the football club was having a
practice match, and the music club was playing a song.
I had never seen him before, so is he ... a second year student? I noticed
that the laptop displayed a shooting game.
"Yes, it is."
You really are a gamer, aren't you? You already knew how hard it is?
"I'm not sure. The truth is, our club president did the final check, but we
don't have anyone good enough to play on the highest difficulty, so we left
it like that."
"So don't worry. There are normal and easy modes for beginners too."
"Ah, I don't..."
She looked at our school and then the school gate – seems hesitate about
something.
"But..."
Kuroneko looked at the laptop again. She looks like she really wants to
play.
Maybe she was too panicked, she didn't react to Manami like usual.
But at least I knew that she really had to go home quick. Maybe she had a
reason, and that's why she's so hesitant.
"Go on, give it a try. With your skill, this game should be easy, shouldn't
it?"
Even the club member was saying sorry. Look like the club president
named it on his own.
"No problem."
She started playing.
"Very, very good. Just you wait, she will definitely clear this game."
"But I'm a little worried. Even the producer is unable to finish this game..."
Hey hey!
What the heck? You made a demonstration game that even your president
was unable to finish?
"Umm, is this called a... Kuso game?"
"Ha ha ha, senpai, wait just a second. Kuso game doesn't mean a game
with impossible difficulty. In our game, if you take it slowly and carefully
step by step, then – ah, too fast! She's already finished stage one?"
"All I have to do is stay close to the boss and use the single short shot. Too
easy."
"But... this is unbelievable! In very hard mode, not only does the player not
have unlimited ammo, but the enemy's attacks also triple in speed.
Combine that with the controls sometimes randomly changing. Even my
club president admits that this is too much! But you can beat it..."
I can't believe it. There is someone as good as Kuroneko among those first
years?
"Not interested."
Refused again. What is with her today? Why was she always in a bad
mood?
"Impossible!"
"Hm. This is clearly a Kuso Game from the beginning to the end. Tell the
producer that he should go kill himself."
"Uhm..."
Saying goodbye to the still frozen club member, we left the school.
But Kuroneko just kept walking. She didn't show any hints that she heard
them.
Of course, there was no noise next to me, no one forced me to play eroge,
no one threw a tantrum and asked me to bring them to summer Comiket.
This is a totally normal life style.
Kirino still hasn't contacted us, so Saori and Kuroneko were very worried.
"Phew…"
My world history teacher had filled the entire blackboard with words, so
everyone tried to copy it down. But my hand couldn't move anymore…
I was not the only one. Some of my classmates had also stopped and
looked down at the school ground.
Our school's first year girls were having a PE class. I think every male
student can confirm that if you don't pay attention, you could easily miss
your entire lesson.
Our first year students were partnered up. Among them, there was only
one girl that was with the teacher.
"…"
Even her white, smooth thighs couldn't make me feel any better.
And this was not the only time I felt worried.
During break time, I have never seen her classmate speak with her. Unlike
other girls, Kuroneko always stayed alone.
I was afraid of that. She simply didn't like to deal with other people, and
rejected everyone almost instantly.
I had hoped that after a while, she would drop her mask and get along with
her classmates.
Every day, I asked her the same question. Every day, her reply remained
the same.
"How is this not a problem? You refused your classmate's invitation and
went to my house, right? That's why you can't make any friends!"
"Hmph. It really is unfortunate, but I don't have any time for them. They
hated me because of that? I don't care. In fact, I hate them in the first
place."
"You… you…"
You talk big, but in the end, you still refuse to admit that you were wrong?
Obviously, because you couldn't get along with your classmates, you felt
lonely.
But Saori just laughed it off with her usual "Oh ha ha ha ha".
"…"
"But you thought it was the truth, right? It was written all over your face."
"Sorry, my face was like that from the beginning."
"So? What's the problem with that? This is all according to my plan. I don't
need a friend."
"Don't lie."
"I'm not lying. I have no human habits like making conversation or hanging
out together."
Really? So, my worry for you was wasted? Could you at least encourage
me with words?
"Hey… what's with you? You want to tell me "Because you have no
friends, I'm very worried", right? You should mind your own business."
"Yeah, yeah, whatever…"
To tell the truth, I was aware that this wasn't my business. She already
said "I'm fine" and my reaction of "No, you aren't fine" was too forceful.
"How could that be… Kyousuke-shi… do you really, really have no ulterior
motives?"
"Hey, hey. A student worried for his junior without any ulterior motives, are
you really that surprised? I'm offended, you know?"
"Kyousuke-shi, why do you know that you can see her underwear from
your position?"
Ah… damn. I only pointed out that I could see her underwear, I didn't mean
that I had seen it!
"All right, all right, all right! I admit that I had an ulterior motive! I'm glad that
you called me senpai, so I wanted to help – and then try to improve our
relationship – Yes, that's my ulterior motive. But I was truly worried about
you, that's the truth!"
After saying that, I 'hmm' and turned away. A quick peek showed me that
Saori was showing an understanding smiling, while Kuroneko dropped her
head into her knees.
Recently, I found out that she's not just shy: she was very shy.
Just as a game character was about to get stripped naked, her whole body
froze in place. That's just how shy she is.
It's strange; she could draw porn doujins, yet she was this shy. Of course, I
knew that people who spent too much time on porn will end up poorly in
real life, but Kuroneko…
I was sure that she was going to say "I don't need your concern."
In fact, she was already showing signs of agitation. I said I had some
ulterior motives, but I helped her. Now her affection points toward me
should go up, right?
"How about joining a club? After I formed my anime club, I got a lot of
friends with the same hobby, so we can easily strike up a conversation.
How about it?"
"Hmm…"
Ten months ago, in order to help Kirino get some friends, I told her to join
"Get Together, Otaku Girls".
Now, Saori's idea was basically the same. She wanted Kuroneko to join a
group where they can accept her otaku side.
Unlike Kirino, Kuroneko would never hide the fact that she's an otaku.
"I know, you're thinking about that game research club, aren't you?"
"Yeah."
She could see through me. I still didn't know why Kuroneko refused their
invitation when they wanted her so badly. Did they want her because of
her skill? Or because that their club members were all male, so they
needed a cute girl?
Wait a second. Kirino once said how horrible male otakus could be…
Saori smiled.
"Why do you think that I would be at ease because of you? Who do you
think you are? Do you think I like you or what? Honestly. Gross."
"Well, I can't argue against you. But aren't you the one that asked me to
come with you to the publisher?"
"…So what?"
"At that time, I felt at ease. So… I just thought… if we were together, I
could learn something new. Sorry, maybe I'm just over thinking."
"Hmph!"
"Probably."
"Ha ha ha, Kuroneko-shi, how about you give it a shot? If you don't like it,
you can always quit after that."
Even Saori agreed with me.
"…"
Kuroneko stayed silent for a while, then looked at me:
"…Fine. I don't want to waste any more time on this topic, so I will do as
you say. But, do you really have to go with me? Are you… worried about
me?"
"Of course."
I immediately nodded.
"Ah, the truth is, there's is something about Kuroneko that I want to talk
with you about…"
"What is that?"
"Maybe Kuroneko-shi did that because she doesn't want to cut down on
our time together. I don't know if you are aware or not, but she has plenty
of things to do after school. If she does something else, then our time
together will be very short, that's why–"
"She refused the club and avoided her classmates?"
"Of course, that's how she usually is. But as Kyousuke-shi said "How could
this not be a problem?" That's why I think that… maybe because she
treasured our relationship, she was isolated from her class."
I sighed.
So that's what you guys were worried about… That's why even though
Kirino isn't here anymore, you still come to my house.
Just one thing bothers me… I always asked myself "How could she be so
sure about Kuroneko's feeling?" Because in her case–
"Of course, I know that friends will not stay the same forever. Maybe
because of graduation, studying abroad, a quarrel, accidents, transfers,
illnesses, misunderstandings… Someday, friends will disappear. And I fear
that day might be tomorrow.
I got a glimpse of Saori's hidden inner world. I could also understand her
feelings a little. So that was why she always plays a peacemaker.
Because she didn't know how long you can stay together, so she treasured
them as much as she could, hoping that the time would last as long as
possible.
She always creates a cheerful atmosphere. At the same time, she was a
vulnerable and sentimental girl, as both were her personality.
"Is it here?"
We stopped near the end of the corridor on the second floor and looked up
at the number on the door.
"So…let's go in?"
Right after we entered the club room, we were greeted with a strange
scene. How could I describe it…
All right, first, almost the entire floor was filled with black wire cable.
Next was a long table made from several smaller tables put together.
On that table were a variety of game controllers, screens, PCs and laptops.
Of course, all the PC cases were placed under the table in order to save
space. Now, the weather was a bit cold, but the heat from all those
machines renders me unable to make sure if this room was cold or hot.
There were five members inside the room. All of them were male. They
were either holding their controller or mouse/keyboard, focused on their
screen. The one nearest to the door turned to us.
"Um..."
Because Kuroneko kept silent again, I was forced to answer in her place.
I remembered this guy. He was the one we met on the school ground.
"No need to thank me. She decided to come on her own. Besides, she
didn't join yet."
"Still, thank you very much. Here, allow me to introduce you to our club
president."
Second year, and was also capable of doing many of the club's activity, so
I thought he was the club president. But it seems I was wrong.
"Ahaha, I'm only the lowest ranking member. Please, come here."
Makabe led us deeper into the room. Here, there were various eroge game
boxes with figures everywhere. That's enough for me to realize that this
club president is a hardcore otaku.
And at the top of those mountain-like eroge boxes….
"Nothing."
I double checked this guy. Black hair, glasses, tall and slim…
He began:
"Oh?"
"You were the guy who borrowed my Fana bicycle that night!"
"Ah!"
"….Your friend?"
What should I tell her? While I was still trying to find the right words, the
club president already spoke:
"Wow- sorry!"
"I have returned to Akihabara many times, but I never saw you again…"
"Ah, I see."
His anger quickly disappeared. He scratched the back of his head, and
said:
"If that's the case, then I'll forgive you. I'm not really sure, but at that time
you really needed to get back to your little sister, right? Beside, I'm also at
fault for not telling you my name or address, so of course you wouldn't be
able to return my bicycle!"
I bowed.
I felt like a weight had been taken off my chest.
That time, I told him that I would definitely return his bicycle, but in the
end….I was ashamed of myself.
Now, all the club members were gathering around me and their president.
Makabe asked:
"We both love the same girl. You could say that we are like brethren! "
Even Makabe was giving his own death glare, forcing the president to stop
smiling.
"Don't worry Kousaka-senpai. This is just how our president acts. We club
member already knew. I just want to know if you were talking about an
eroge? In other words, president and Kousaka-senpai are both in love with
a 2D girl, right? "
I could only tell the truth. Well, considering it's Kuroneko, she probably
guessed "You must've been asked to do that by your sister ". No, she
definitely thought that.
After I explained, the president added his confirmation.
"Ah – now I finally meet you, I must ask something. How did that go? Did
you succeed in bringing that eroge to your sick little sister?"
Okay, first, those guys think that I have a "little sister will an incurable
sickness."
That's partly my fault too. At that time, I didn't explain it clearly to the
president.
"Ah…I can't really say it…but I did succeed in bringing that back to her.
Allow me to thank you again! Thank you so much! Miura! "
Before I could bow, the president stopped me, and said "don't mention it",
and started laughing again.
"Why do I get the feeling that I can't argue back. Hey, why don't you learn
from Kousaka?"
The president started laughing again. Even though we just met, he's acting
like we were already close friends.
"Not only did I get a new member today, I also met a good friend. Today is
such a good day."
I was so lucky.
The club president, Miura was my savior – although he also seems odd –
somehow.
"…Nothing…I just realize that while I wasn't looking, senpai has become
an otaku."
Compared to one year before, even I couldn't believe that I had changed
that much.
"So ---"
Miura stood right up, fixed his glasses, and said:
"For example …wait, hey Makabe, what have you told them ?"
"I have only told them about club members and a background for club's
activities."
"I see. So, do you have any experience with our club's activities?"
"I have tried once, and she seems has tried many times."
"Allow me to explain. In short, our club's main activity is to create games."
"About creating games, not every member takes a part in it. The truth is,
we have a lot of ghost members. Every day, besides me and Makabe,
those guys over there are the only ones who come."
"Hello -"
"When we get a chance, I will introduce everyone in our club to you two."
"Thank you."
If this club had a lot of ghost members, doesn't that mean that this club is
quite casual?
Crazy! This guy was totally crazy! Thank God that I wasn't his classmate!
"President, no matter what you say, I still feel disgusted. We've got a
female junior here, so can you please not talk about it anymore?"
I could already tell what kind of people that Makabe and Miura were.
"No matter what you say, you can't change the truth. I think it's better if the
new members know about the club beforehand and still decide to join."
"Thank you."
"By the way, I'm already a third year, so I have to study. Is it okay if I act
like a ghost member, and only show up once in a while?"
"That's fine. In fact, even ghost members can use club's fund."
"So …"
"…."
Kuroneko looked like she was thinking about something. After a while, she
nervously asked:
"No, no."
"Equipment?"
"We almost have everything necessary to make a game here. Hardware,
software, program and books for beginners. Any member can freely borrow
these books."
"…You can't possibly buy them all with just club funds."
"Of course we can't. I bought them with my own money. We are still
students, so most of us can't afford a few thousand yen book, or a game
maker's program."
Miura was also a high school student, but he spoke as if he was an adult.
"I see…"
Kuroneko went silent again. Then she slowly looked around at the
equipment and books nearby.
"Everything….?"
"…I'm not sure what is your definition of "pro" means, but at least I won't
need your beginner books."
Kuroneko's voice remained the same, but Miura let out an exciting "Hooo.."
"..What do you think? This club is pretty casual, want to give it a try?"
"..At the first look, this place had some decent equipment, with enough
freedom. And compare that to, say at home. Making games allows
someone to witness my greatness. Not bad…"
Both Miura and Makabe smiled, nodded.
While I also laughed inside my heart. That's because I could guess
Kuroneko's next words.
"Don't be happy. First, I must remind you that I'm very busy…"
So, every week, I met up with Kuroneko in the club room twice.
Kuroneko looked like she is really busy, while I'm on my last year, so twice
per week is our maximum limit. Oh, regarding our original purpose, to help
Kuroneko make some new friends, we failed at that.
This club had no female members. To make friends, the best choice
should be the same gender and age. But Kuroneko was so anti-social that
I had to help her.
One day, after we left the club room, I asked her:
You ask what is the "usual choice"? Of course, this mean – ask someone
else for help.
"Why do you ask that? Want to hit on another girl? You already have such
a beautiful girlfriend."
"What? Girlfriend?"
"I understand. You are worried that being surrounded by so many males,
Gokou-san will feel uncomfortable?"
"…Akagi?"
"Yes. A glasses girl, named Akagi Sena. I once mentioned that besides
Gokou-san, we had another very good member, that is, Akagi-san. Er…Is
something wrong?"
"No, nothing…"
"Was this girl inside the club room when we were there?"
"I see. Is there anyone else? She doesn't have to be a first year."
"No. Girls in general don't like games much…"
"I see…"
In other words, I need to make sure Kuroneko meets with this girl – who I
feel like I've already heard of somewhere…
"You mean Akagi-san? Well….how should I put it…at first glance she is
nothing like an otaku."
"But…the way you said it makes it sound like, she is an otaku. What about
her gaming skills? Must be good, isn't she?"
"Well, that is true, but…"
"She is very good at playing games, but she never talks about gaming.
Even if she shows up at the club, all she does is reading or focuses on her
laptop. Sometimes I wonder why she agreed to join our club."
"She is anti-social?"
"Yes – our club doesn't have any other female members, so maybe she is
afraid of us?"
"True…"
Now, we had a good understanding of our current situation. Next was
trying to find a solution.
"Hmm?"
"Have you heard about our welcoming party?"
"We sometimes hold a party for newcomers. How about we let Gokou and
Akagi sit at the same table? After a little chit chat, they should become
friends, right?"
If you wanted that plan to work, then you need someone to stay nearby.
"Let's do it then."
This day, after school ended, I went home with Manami. Normally we met
Kuroneko on the way, so this has become a route line.
She always has to hurry home, so if we waited at the school gate, there is
a high chance we would meet her.
We were on the way toward the first floor, but then we met Kuroneko at the
staircase leading to the second floor. But she was not preparing to go
home.
"Yes…"
She spared us a glance, then kept sweeping. From the way she is doing it,
she is quite familiar with this work.
Manami asked.
After I made it to the second floor, I turned and walked back to where
Kuroneko and Manami were waiting.
…As I feared.
"Manami…ah."
"Uh?"
The area that those first years are tasked to take care of is two staircases.
One of them was where Kuroneko was working.
In other words, the other first years dumped everything on Kuroneko and
went home.
In fact, things could have been worse. At least there was no bullying – yet.
Maybe they thought that it is too much trouble and tried to play a little
prank with one anti-social classmate – at least I hoped they don't have any
ill-intention. Compare to other kinds of bullying that I knew, this is quite
small.
I did tell Kuroneko that she can't just keep avoiding people, so this is her
own fault to begin with. But even that ---
"Thank you"
Sometimes, I felt that Manami can see through me.
When she saw us, her eyes widen, then turned quite ferocious.
Seems like acting like nothing happen upset her even more. Her voice
hardens:
"Don't play dumb! You saw me sweeping alone and decide to join in? Mind
your own business!"
I already guess she would say that, so I started from this staircase.
"Sorry sorry! But we are already done. Can you forgive me this time?"
"Okay…"
Bitted her lower lip, Kuroneko answered. Her ego made her uncomfortable
when accepting other people's kindness. If Saori were here, she could
even tease her, but I couldn't do that. So I could only apologize.
But…. I didn't expect her to get angry.
Kuroneko closed her eyes. After a few minute, she asked in a small voice:
"I really worried about you – you once said that to me, didn't you?"
"Yes. I know. But…have you wondered where did that feeling come from?
Or…you did notice, but pretended like you didn't?"
What is she trying to say?
"..I didn't intend to say it out, but I can't take it anymore, so listen!"
From above, she proudly pointed her finger at me, and said:
"You worried about me, because the one your usually concerned about –
your sister – is not here. Coincidently, there is a girl her age, she looks
troubled. Because she looked like she may depend on you, so you worried
about her. That's everything about it!"
After saying that, Kuroneko turned around -
"I am not a replacement for your sister. Don't look down on me!"
She left.
If you failed doing that, your time in school would be very difficult.
Of course, I was fine with my situation, but as a high school student, I was
also aware of this problem.
That's why I was worried about Kuroneko. This was my true feelings,
without lie.
But was that all? Was that my entire reason for being worried about her?
Probably not.
I don't expect her to say thank you, but I help her --- because…
Even though she was no longer here, I'm still unconsciously trying to help
her.
I still remembered that happy feeling when she depends on me, but now…
"Ah…I'm so hopeless…"
Although I felt embarrassed because she found out about my motive, I still
wanted to help her. Not to mention my promise to Saori.
Even if I was not sure of my own feelings, I was sure of "what I have to do"
and "what I wanted to do" now.
"All right. Let's do it."
Bracing myself, I noticed that the first year's classes were already in front
of me.
Class had ended, students had started to go home. What if she avoided
me…?
Not here.
"Haizzzz"
I shook my head. There was no time to waste. I need to follow her now.
I harshly turned around ---
"Wahhhh!"
I almost jumped in shock. Because Kuroneko was right in front of me. Her
emotionless face almost touched mine.
"…Sneaking around the first year class like a perverted old man…."
"Ah."
Was she still angry? She always spoke in this tone, so I couldn't guess her
mood.
"About…"
What should I tell her? I had prepared a lot of apologizes beforehand, but
now I couldn't remember any of them.
While I was still trying to figure out what to say, Kuroneko turned her back
towards me, throwing back a cold glare.
Although I'm already familiar with her, but right now – I couldn't guess what
she was thinking.
Of course, our welcoming party wasn't held inside our club room. We
asked to borrow an empty classroom for this. Added some snacks and
drinks and that's all.
Compare to some other parties that I attended, this was quite small.
But that was because all of my previous parties were led by Saori.
"Ah – I'm relieved that you are willing to join in our party. I though you
hated crowds."
I'm about to ask "Then why did you still decide to come", but she
interrupted me:
"I understand…"
"Ah…I think Kuroneko is not angry. If I were her, I would say one or two
harsh line. All you need to do is apologize to her later, she will probably
forgive you."
That was what Saori told me when I spoke with her a few days earlier.
I was not sure what Saori meant when she said "If I were Kuroneko", but
this was not important.
Was she?
"…."
After she gets to the door, still facing that way, she ordered me:
"Go in."
"Yes madam."
This is the first time I had seen so many people in this group. Looks like
even some ghost members were here too.
After everything was ready, everyone moved to their seats.
I just chose a random spot, and Kuroneko quickly sat down next to me.
"Nothing…"
Kuroneko was afraid of strangers, so even if she is still angry, she would sit
next to me. But…where is that Sena girl?
Compare to a girl her age, she is tall. A bit thin, with developed breasts that
gave out a mature feeling.
Short red natural haired, so she doesn't seems too rigid. Girl-like glasses.
All in all, a cute girl.
"A..ah."
Makabe took a look around then announced. Some gave their greetings
too, and then everything went back to normal.
"Everyone, thank you for gathering here today. I hope we can get along
this year – cheers!"
After that, whispers could be heard from every corner of the room.
I took a look at everyone. Of course they are more or less otakus, but in
my eyes, which have seen Comiket or Cosplay parties, they were nothing.
Of course, maybe they still had to obey the rules and wear their uniforms.
But everyone was talking about otaku's related topics. So that's how they
gathered huh.
"……"
She…really hated this kind of atmosphere. I got a bad feeling when I heard
the word "party". Added in the fact that she also hated crowds, so I
planned to help her with conversation. At least until she got a friend.
The best example was Kirino. After she left, Kuroneko seemed so lonely.
She looked emotionless outside, but inside she was still a girl.
"So…"
What next then?
I took a peak at Sena. No matter what she does, as long as Kuroneko kept
her "Don't come near me" aura, she wouldn't respond. I need to lure her
into talking with Kuroneko.
"Nice to meet you. I'm Kousaka, third year."
"I see."
Seems ok so far.
This girl didn't look like she was an otaku. Although she is cute, she in
unlike any of Kirino's friends.
"Ah… I see."
"Ah...I'm not really in a good mood. I can't bring myself to like this club."
"Why?"
"Why? First, because all those filthy men made me want to vomit. Second,
they called themselves game research club, but in fact they all spend time
on random pointless chit chat. And third, they openly brought eroges and
figures to their club room."
Sena flipped her fingers while speaking. And I was unable to say anything
back.
I asked her the first question that came to my mind. Maybe Makabe kept
bugging her, and she didn't want to refuse? No, if she was capable of
saying those cruel words, then refusal should be easy.
So why?
"After that, I found out …true, there were plenty of good equipment in the
club, but ...they are so messed up... But, I still think I made the right
choice."
So similar to Kuroneko, this girl liked the club's equipment and decided to
join.
If this was Kuroneko, she would use the same reason to hide her shyness.
She could beat that game too, so did this mean she also like games?
"What is that?"
"Like this messed up room, those loud ones, those lazy ones, those filthy
ones, not to mention that sometime they steal things – I hate them all!"
Ah…So not only she looked like a "class rep", she also acted like one?
"Thank you – that's why I said I can't stand it anymore. This club is too
casual. Among them, there are only a handful of people seriously doing
something. Not to mention our president hasn't bathed in a while…."
She definitely told her classmate to "clean everything carefully" when she
was in elementary.
I didn't dare speak with her again. Need to change topic, quick!
"You don't look like an otaku. In fact, you don't look like someone who is
interested in games"
Beside, that line…I have heard this before, from my own sister.
So I asked her:
"Does your family know about that you joined this club?"
"I never have to hide it. Well…I don't go boast about it neither, but…even if
they found out, there won't be any problems."
"Are you worried about if someone found out and considered you an
otaku?"
"I will deny it. If they ask my reason for joining, I will answer 'programming
design'. I don't really care if someone called me an otaku though."
"I'm surprised."
I thought she hated otaku, but this? This is getting more and more
complicated.
So she was saying that otaku is now more accepted than before? So it was
good news for otaku, right? Just…
"It depends on how severity it is. What eroge you like is one thing, talking
about them in a public meeting is another."
Kirino once said the same thing. That's the reason she had to hide her
otaku self in school. Although unlike Kirino, Sena still had to consider who
she will talk to before saying anything. In other words, she sets a limit on
how much she can talk.
Well, for a middle school otaku, that was probably the best choice.
"In my opinion, people don't hate otaku because they are otaku. Otaku are
hated because they normally have many unpleasant factors. For
example…."
"For example, some people keep acting strangely whenever they are.
Those are the worst."
"…."
"If you want to live long, you should watch your surrounding before saying
anything."
"..Ah, Gokou-san. So you are here too! Your existence is too small, I didn't
notice you until now – "
"I don't understand what are you saying. Real name? So boring, right,
Gokou-san? By the way, are you okay? How many times do you want me
to repeat my line?"
"Hm. My real name is Kuroneko. No matter what you call me, my soul will
not respond."
..What the hell? I heard that both she and Kuroneko are first year ---
"Wait. Stop!"
"..I'm very sorry senpai, but when I found out that she is in the same club, I
want to lecture her even more. She is a weirdo in my class. From her
actions, her manner of speaking. She also ignores every classmate with
her very blunt way of speaking. I have never seen anyone that horrible.
Everyone said that during lunch break, she must go to toilet to eat."
Please stop that will you? I wanna cry!
"So that is it? In other words I will bring trouble to you because we are in
the same club. Don't worry, I also hate being in the same club with you
too."
Kuroneko stood up (with her moist eyes).
"Since we are in the same club, this is the chance for me to guide you back
to the righteous path. So, if you run away now, this would definitely be a
problem."
We have different motives, but in the end what we plan to do for Kuroneko
is the same.
"----"
The room was filled with immeasurable tension. No one said anything,
until…
"G..Gross!"
Sena eyes turned into > < shape, and then she looked at president with
murderous eyes.
Although it stinks.
"That's troublesome. I though you two will quickly become good friends,
but…"
After he said that, both Sena and Kuroneko had an 'I can't believe it
'expression. I don't know about Sena, but I know that Kuroneko was
thinking 'equal? With me?'
'..Makabe senpai, does that mean Gokou-san is as good as me in
gaming?"
"Yes. Akagi is good at predicting the situation, but Gokou's reaction time is
on par with Matsudo Blackcat, almost godlike."
Sena interrupted.
"Is it?"
"I think it is rude to compare him to a middle school student.
Makabe-senpai, you shouldn't praise her with unbelievable words like that."
"….."
What the heck? Are they still talking about games? Should we choose a
topic that they won't quarrel again?
But I don't think quarreling is a bad thing. The first time Kirino and
Kuroneko meet – no, every time they meet, they would quarrel. But in the
end, they had become good friends. Because both of them wanted a
friend, someone they can share their hobby with.
After Kirino left, Kuroneko lost someone to quarrel against. And now Sena
stubbornly refused to accept her – is this exactly what Kuroneko needed
right now?
When the party ended, Kuroneko and Sena still didn't become friend. I
didn't think that today was useless, but it was too soon to expect any
results. Better wait for a while now.
Sena was both ordering everyone around and cleaning at the same time.
"Senpai, please gather every garbage in there. Anyone who finished their
job can go home. I can take care of the rest."
For a middle school girl to say behind and clean so that her senpai can go
home first – normally this attitude might be very impressive, but in my eyes
it seems like a housewife who eager to holiday so that she could clean up
everything while forcing her husband away.
"Sorry, Akagi. I'm still president. I need to say here until the end."
"No problem."
"Ah, sorry."
Now, there were only me, president, Kuroneko, Makabe and Sena.
For me, those were all trustworthy. This was the perfect condition to use
my last trump card.
"I thought that Gokou was always busy. You can leave if you want to."
In the past….when Kuroneko and Kirino first meet, they quickly realize that
the other was very similar to themselves. But that's because they both
directly said what is on their minds. Of course Akagi Sena wasn't Kousaka
Kirino. But even that, I thought reuse how Kirino and Kuroneko became
friends should still be effective. That's why I prepared a trump card. The
only problem is Sena is not Kirino – she doesn't have any reason to open
up with Kuroneko.
In other words, she didn't have any reason to show her true self to
Kuroneko.
..If this continue, then my plan wouldn't work.
I was not sure it would work, but there was no harm in trying.
"Hey, Sena.."
"Yes?"
"Just now you said that you joined here to learn programing, so what about
gaming? You don't play games?"
"Yes, I do… I like playing games too."
"I think so too. I heard that you are pretty good with games, right?"
"Please stop beating around the bush. What are you trying to say, senpai?"
"You once said that if your friend asked 'why did you join this club' you will
answered 'to learn programing' right?"
"Yes, so?"
"But I felt that this is just an excuse, not your real reason."
"Is it not?"
"Ah – Sorry. Forget what I said. I didn't intend to hide it, but I do have
another reason. Learning programing … is only half of my reason."
"A half?"
"Game designer? You mean like the ones who actually make games?"
"Yes. I hope I can get into a big company."
After she said that, Sena turned away, avoided my gaze. She probably felt
embarrassed about her dream.
"So that's …A..Ha ha..your gaming skill must not be just 'normal' right?"
"Yes – I admit, I like games very much. From playing to designing games."
She was blushing now. Kind of cute, I thought.
I continued:
………………….For real?
"Auuuu…."
This is the first time I had seen Sena like this. Thanks to my friend Akagi
Kouhei's intel "my little sister is a fujoshi", "my sister is a first year, wearing
glasses" and the fact that they looked a bit like each other, so I figured out
this is her. "…You …you…what are you talking about? I don't understand
what you are saying."
But after just a few seconds, she already recovered and acted like nothing
happened.
"Did you see me deny such a claim just now? I can't believe you,
Gokou-san."
Although Sena tried to counter attack, her opponent was not someone who
will let this chance go.
"Ahhhhh"
Sena looked at me and Kuroneko with hateful eyes – I guessed that she
was thinking 'how did this guy know my secret'.
Sorry, blame your brother. His big mouth told me everything about you.
Of course, I couldn't say that out, so I remained silence. At the same time,
Kuroneko showed an unpleasant happy smile.
I felt kind of sorry for Sena because I'm the one who brought that up. I
didn't think that it would end up like this. Beside, why did she announce her
hobby so loudly like that?
Kuroneko licked her lips, and then – like a devil – whispered to Sena:
"I have only heard about it, but I heard Maschera is getting pretty popular
lately."
"What the heck are you talking about? I don't understand a single word.
Stop talking nonsense."
"…Hm..Don't play dumb! You were shrieking in joy those nights fantasizing
about that Shinya X Lucifer coupling, weren't you?"
"You fool!"
With flashing eyes, Sena roared:
"The cute seme X tsundere uke of Lucifer X Shinya is the essence of
Maschera! Reversing that coupling? Impossible! Fake! You are not a
fujoshi! "
Hey…What just happened? Everything was fine just now, but …why did
she react like that? I was sure that no one said anything about fujoshi,
much less about their sensitive spot.
I took a look around, only to find out that both president and Makabe were
looking with their mouths wide opened. And Kuroneko was smiling.
"Heh…"
"I tricked you? What are you talking about? …This is your hobby, and you
said it yourself. What about rules? Are we any different?"
Kuroneko deadpanned:
"..Is that so? If you are so rotten, then I'm sure you can even fantasize
about half-real things like the Prince of Tennis musical?"
"Too easy! I'm not boasting, but I have a very good imagination. Half real
or 2D or inanimate, so long as they brush against my heartstrings, I can
save them in my mind and fantasize. As an example, I can take a fork and
spoon and draw out some form of love."
"I commend your confidence. But do you even fantasize about real men?"
"I have nothing to hide. Just last night, I had a dream where
Makabe-senpai was gang raped by the other club members!"
Even Kuroneko, who used her knowledge about fujoshi to lead Sena here
also took a step back, her eyes widen in shock. I noticed she also broke
into a cold sweat.
Didn't this girl prefer everything clean? What could she fantasize about
with a fork and spoon?
"………"
Makabe didn't answer, his eyes unfocused, his body frozen.
And the next moment, after she realized that she told everyone about her
fantasies during her excited rant, Sena….
"Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!"
"Cough! Cough!"
Sena tried to block her throat.
With teary eyes, she tried to explain to Makabe.
Makabe was unable to answer, due to the fact that he already turned into a
soulless body. Sena held his shoulder, and said:
"Sorry! Sorry Makabe-senpai! I'm sorry I fantasized about you and the
president going out! Because I couldn't hear your polite voice as anything
but tsundere! I think this is so moe! And I also think that the president still
hasn't graduated because he loves you, he doesn't want to separate from
you!"
"Hey hey stop! Stop! Don't cause him any deeper trauma than you already
did!"
"Hmm? Did I just say anything gross again?"
…No wonder Makabe turned into a soulless body! I admit this is so gross!
I felt like this is part of my responsible too, but…. What could I do? Is this
what a fujoshi is really like?
I prayed that Sena is a special case…but now that I think about it, I can't
help but respect Akagi. If I were you, I would have killed myself.
Right! Akagi! He is the only one who can defuse the situation now!
I pulled out my cellphone, hoping that Sena's brother had some solution.
….Ring…ring…ring…
"Tell her 'Sena-chan, you are so cute. Sena-chan, it is not your fault' until
she calms down!"
"..I will give her my phone now, try to calm her down for me."
"Your brother."
"Ohhhhh"
She took her glasses down, and then brought my phone to her ear, and
whispered:
"Onii-chan?"
Onii-chan huh?
We had a bit similar, but that's a big different between me and these
siblings.
While choking her tear, Sena told her brother everything. From her voice, I
knew that she totally trusted Akagi – but... somehow, I felt hurt. For Sena,
her brother is someone she can take off her mask, and become a spoiled
little girl.
"I see…."
"I can see that. I'm also sorry for tricking you. I won't speak about it again."
"Me too."
Both Makabe and the president agree with me. I glared at Kuroneko ….
"You too."
But she could quickly recover, and then she will feel ashamed and regret
about her actions.
Although they fiercely argued with each other, but unlike Kirino, they don't
have the same interest.
I should have expected that. Akagi Sena was not Kousaka Kirino, after all.
Hesitating, I said:
"Sorry"
I could only bite the bullet now. Speaking is not my good point anyway, so I
could only try to express myself as much as I can:
"I admit it. I felt lonely because my sister is not here anymore."
"I see."
I realized it now. No matter how much I deny it, or I don't realize it myself,
the truth is I felt lonely. That's why I was drawn to this girl who called me
"Onii-chan". That's why I considered her my sister, tried to help her, and at
the same time fill my empty heart.
I was so embarrassed right now. I hate my little sister – I still hate her now,
damn it!
"Even with the way she is, I felt lonely without her."
"I see."
We stopped talking. But I thought we were both thinking about the same
thing.
"Can I ask you one thing? Do you not call me 'Onii-chan' anymore because
you don't want to become Kirino's substitute?"
"No. I stopped calling you that while your sister was still here, remember?"
"So why?"
"That is?"
"Lie."
Both of them voiced their complaints. Why were they only united at times
like this?
Miura acknowledged. Of course, how could our free-for-all club have that
kind of strict rule.
"But I think you should consider it. There are two reasons, first to test your
ability and practice team work. But the second reason is that you two
always quarrel with each other, so as president, I have to do something
about it."
"But…."
"We are a pretty lax club. But you two still want to make a game, don't
you? And to make a game, you need to work as a team. Got it?"
"…Yes."
"..Hm…"
Sena unwillingly nodded, while Kuroneko folded her arms, didn't say
anything.
"Of course there is no need to worry. Although we won't help you, but if
there is any trouble we can give you advice."
"That's all. Both of you give it some thought, write it out and bring it here
the next Monday. By the way, how about each of you make half of the
game? You can share your ideas."
"We can't afford to make two games. In Monday, after each of you
presents your idea, we will vote what game our club will make."
"President."
"What, Kousaka?"
"Do you mind if I help out? I'm still technically a member, right?"
"Ummmm"
The president looks at me and gave me an understanding smile.
I don't know how much I can do, but at least I think I should get a few
books about this.
Books in our club are too hard to understand, so I have no choice but to go
get some beginner's books.
"Hm? …Akagi?"
Did she also come here after school? She was still in her uniform.
Although it can easily mess up with Akagi my classmate, but I couldn't just
call her by name here.
"Nah, I just want to grab some beginner's book about game development."
"Ah...yeah…right."
"Ah…ah…"
"Although this book is too simple, there are almost no real examples, so I
don't think there is any help…"
I took that book and looked at a few pages, confirmed that I probably won't
be able to understand this at the first glance.
My relationship with her is not like that. The president wanted to take this
chance for you two to make up with each other, but at this rate no one can
be sure what will happen.
That's why I'm acting as their supervisor.
"But to learn about that now is already too late, you will only drag us
down."
"You're angry?"
"Nope."
If I became angry from just that then I'd already had a bleeding brain.
Because not long ago, there was a devil much worse than her living in the
same house with me.
"In fact, I need to thank you. So, rushing things up is a no-no. Then…how
about small things then?"
"…I can't believe Kousaka-senpai is a responsible type."
"I see…"
"By the way, are you here to buy books for making games too?"
Sena panicked. And I didn't have to ask "why are you here" anymore…
She blushed, trying to hide her books. Completely different from a certain
little sister who happily showed me her eroge.
"Nothing nothing. It's not like they are R18 right? So you don't need to hide
them."
"Why ---"
I saw her eyes flashing again! This girl was beyond saving.
"…."
"About…"
"Hmm?"
"Can I ask – well, what does 'fujoshi' mean? How could I put it…you seems
humble when mentioning your hobby, and yet you can openly talk about it,
so what is with the sudden lack of confidence?"
"Hmm? Hey…"
"..Sorry."
I got a feeling that this is the difference between 'fujoshi' and 'otaku'.
For example, Kirino had to hide her otaku hobby from her friends, and yet
she admitted (with me, at least) that she is an otaku.
While Sena clearly got a bad impression with otaku, she also said she had
no such hobby, and tried to conceal that she is a fujoshi.
"Listen to me, Kousaka-senpai. Fujoshi is a word originally born from
self-discipline and self-deprecating."
Raising a finger, Sena started lecturing me:
"We use that word as a code word during normal conversation or online
chats in order to ensure that no bystanders could get into it by accident.
Also, we can prevent some innocent from that particular topic."
Somehow, during her speech, Sena started moving closer and closer to
me. Even if she's just a middle school girl, I can't help but to feel uneasy.
"Huh? Of course…"
I realized that our current posture is not really okay, but I couldn't stop her
from talking now.
"Of course, this is just my opinion – but I believe that a definition of fujoshi
is based on individual. That's why if we can't get along, we could
immediately disband. I don't think that Kousaka-senpai would understand
that, but for us fujoshi, we can only be good friend or nemesis."
"About what you said 'based on individual', can you be more specific?"
"For example, let's talk about the giver and the receiver."
"Er…in that case…okay, fujoshi …well, long ago, when Japan still had
cultural block, a lot of people could only fantasize about those things.
Because we had to hide it, when we get together we tend to voice them
out loudly, without holding anything back. That's why in case we can't get
along, we will know that we will never get along."
"…Yes"
So, even those fujoshi hesitated when talking about their hobby.
"That's why – recently, all those fujoshi girls in novels and manga are fake.
Of course, those authors can do whatever they want to make their story
more interesting, but inside a fujoshi is much more complicated. But
because of them, most people assume a different view of fujoshi –
normally for the worse."
Wait a second. Were you exactly the same? After listening to you, I
couldn't help but feel that all fujoshi are perverts.
"So… Are you hoping that people get a better view of your kind?"
"I see…"
But didn't you speak loudly about that not long ago?
Aware of their strange hobby, aware of the need to keep it a secret – but at
the same time couldn't help but fantasize about it, then instantly turned into
a pervert.
"What?"
3.The truth is, from the beginning, your breasts are pressed against me.
"Hey hey Akagi. At least don't badmouth your own brother in broad
daylight."
"Definitely not!"
Please, at least don't speak that out loud, I could pretend like I didn't hear
that!
"Don't you remember? When you talked with him with my phone during the
welcoming party, you even said 'Thank you, Onii-chan. Do your best,
Onii-chan'."
"Aa – please forget that!"
"Then what?"
"Then Gokou will get some confidence right? She will probably think 'ah, as
long as I follow Miss Sena, cooperate with her, everything will be fine…
Thank you for helping me realizing it. I love you.', right?"
Saying that, Sena busted out laughing. Her ego was bigger than I thought.
I thought she would have some idea as a team leader, but she was still a
pervert at her core.
But, the part about cooperating with Kuroneko was truly necessary.
Kuroneko and Sena should be friends. They both had similar hobbies, both
liked anime – and I thought comparing to Kirino, she was more suited to
become Kuroneko's friend. Because when Sena's secret was revealed,
they had one less secret with each other. Just a little more help and they
should become good friends – I hoped.
"Of course!"
Haha. Sena seems very excited.
From the first time meeting her, I had felt like we could get along well.
That book was "Maisora 2" [2]. This was the one my sister – Kirino wrote.
…They already published it?
Unknown to me, I let out a tired sigh. My memories returned back to that
Christmas in Shibuya, when Kirino asked me to get some real experience.
I almost snapped, the word "how dare you" was already on my tongue.
"Why?"
"Because the heroine's personality really sucks – the more I read the more
I hate it. Although there are many opinions about the evaluation of this
book, but I really do not find it interesting."
"I see…."
Maybe because the heroine was based on Kirino herself. I could
understand Sena's opinion.
"But this book is selling pretty well."
"Really?"
"Yes. Although I don't know why, but many people find this book
interesting."
"One of the reasons for this book being so well-known is because of that
rumor. She didn't reveal herself, but she post a bit of this online to attract
attention. Frankly speaking, this book can sell so well is only partly thanks
to author's ability… Kousaka-senpai?"
"Hm?"
"I'm fine."
My stupid little sister. Her friend was so worried about her, but she didn't
contact us. Not once.
Pipipipipipipipi…..
"Your phone…"
After I separated with Sena, I came to the place where Fate told me.
Because of her, Kirino was able to get enough money to study abroad.
Well, I knew that this is not the only reason, but whatever, I don't want to
meet her.
After we sit down, she said:
"Whatever. Fa--"
Wait. I remembered that she hated it when people called her Fate.
"Sorry, Fate-san."
However, she had changed. It is hard to explain, but her sharp voice was
gone, replaced by a much softer tone. Even the way she talked was
different.
"About that – let's talk while we are eating. Of course, this is my treat. Hey,
Kyousuke, pick whatever you like."
"Why are you speaking so formally now?"
"Ah, sorry. Recently I reverted back to my former tone. Maybe I was
affected by you?"
Although…. A middle age woman she spoke like a middle school girl….
"I don't mean to boast, but my situation is very bad. Living alone, no family.
My underling was fired. I put almost everything on a gamble and then lost
them all. Now, I need to put my everyday meals on tab…."
And yet you are still laughing?
As if? I think you just begged me. How could I leave you alone after
hearing that?
"I don't care. So? What do you want to talk with me about?"
"You got a fake little sister, don't you?"
"Thanks?"
"Yes, thanks. Not only apologize. I already said that to Kirino, but I haven't
had a chance to meet this girl."
I remained silent, listening to her.
Fate-san smiled. Her face brightened, like she just dropped something off
her chest. I can't help but smile too.
"I will let you know how to contact her, so you can say that yourself."
"So?"
"No…Nothing…"
"Kirino's request?"
What the? This woman almost stole Kirino's work. How could Kirino asked
her for editing?
"Even I didn't believe it myself. But Kirino said 'I could finish this book
thanks to Iori-san's advice. So that the readers can have the best book to
read, I hope you can help me. Beside, I'd rather not spend the opening
ceremony alone with Kumagai-san.' – Even I think this girl is too naïve."
"------"
She definitely would not ask for someone to help because of a personal
reason.
So she knew that in order for her work to become better, she needed
Fate-san's help. And the result showed that Fate-san had the required skill.
And why Kirino didn't try to bring Fate-san to court, I guess because she
wanted a better book.
<Maisora> became a best seller only a part of Kirino's writing skill. Another
part was Fate-san's marketing skill.
Even I also hoped that she could continue what she did before.
"I see…."
"Of course I still don't think I'm worthy for that. Beside…considering what I
tried to do…I doubt any writer wanted an editor who already tried to steal
another writer's work once…I don't really feel fit for this job…"
"I see."
"Ah right Kyousuke. What did you need to speak with me about?"
A same goal to reach to, this is a good way to deepen one's relationship.
Bonus if they got a good prize.
Of course writing novels and making games were totally unrelated, but I
hoped she could give me some advice.
"If this is the case, then I have some advice for you,"
"Really?"
"Ah..Don't set your expectations too high… Because I'm not familiar with
gaming. Well… actually my advice is just something very normal."
"Theme?"
"Yes. That 'Chaos Create' contest probably chooses a winning game from
what the participant brings right? Because different contests have different
themes. So if you look at previous contests, you can know what theme is
easier to win, how about it?"
"I see – Got it. I can do this right after I get home."
"Yes. Um…is that helpful for you?"
"Of course. I will talk with my club member about it tomorrow. We should
make ---- "
"What? Wait wait! You are insane Kousaka-senpai! Do you know what you
just said?"
"Just listen. Chaos Create submissions are divided by genres, like RPG or
FPS. Depend on your game's genres, the number of submission is
different. That's why there are some genres that are very hard to get a
prize, but for some other genres is much easier."
"I see. We are going to choose the genres with the best chance of
winning."
Of course, before that I had locked the door, enter 'Do-or-die' mode.
"How could a high school club make an eroge? Are you an idiot, senpai?"
"Hm? Isn't that a perfectly reasonable suggestion?"
"You…how could you look so confident…Someone smack some sense
into him please!"
Sena turned around for help. But she is meet with the president's smile:
"Another idiot? Hey hey, are there only perverts in this club?"
I wanted to say that "no matter how I look, you are the biggest pervert
here" but then I realize….
Sena shook Makabe's shoulder, while his face showed a very trouble
expression.
"Ah ah ah…."
"Look! Look you idiot! This is what a normal human should think! Here,
Makabe-senpai, help me make them understand!"
"Yes, of course."
I calmly replied.
"Of course! I would give it 120% -- wait! What are you making me say?"
So predictable.
But…
"But I have never written about males in this part before …so until I give it
a try, I won't know how good I will be."
So Kuroneko only wrote about female parts in any erotic scenes.
Looks like she lacked confidence. So I told her in a sincere voice:
Kuroneko suddenly stopped, then hit the table with a loud "bang" and
stood up.
"You…you…how dare you say that to me…. How dare you suggest
something so shameless…"
"Wait wait wait! You are misunderstanding! I didn't mean it that way."
I meant to read your scene then give you my opinion as a male erogamer. I
didn't mean like an eroge protagonist 'Ahahaha I will show you some real
life information'!
Shaking in anger, Kuroneko said:
A week later, during lunch break, I spent time together with Manami
reading books. Recently I was so busy that a chance to relax was so rare.
That's why I more than welcomed this opportunity.
"Manami, thank you."
"Nothing..nothing…but…"
That was all thanks to the people around me. Of course, this was also
thanks to my old lazy self starting to go away.
Even if I didn't want to admit it – but it was thanks to the girl who is not
here. Although considering how much she hated Manami, this result would
probably upset her.
"Ah, Kyou-chan."
"Hmm?"
No wonder I felt so many gazes. But when I looked back at them, they
quickly hide.
"Hm, to think that I'm that handsome…"
"Hey!"
"Because they looked at Kyou-chan and said 'so that is sexual harassment
senpai'."
Damn you Sena! How dare you spread that rumor about me!
My chest hurt just from looking at this scene. She purposely avoided her
classmates, choosing a faraway spot to hide her loneliness.
I didn't want Manami to see Kuroneko like that, but unfortunately her eyes
followed mine, and she let out an embarrassing "ah…".
Didn't know what to say, she hesitated for a while, then said:
She clearly hated that anime. She even had some fierce argument with
Kirino because of that.
So why?
That's when I noticed Manami laid on the table nearby with her arms
straight.
Manami usually sits in a very polite manner, so this was something I rarely
saw.
"Liar."
"…Oh…"
Behind her glasses, Manami's eyes turned moist. Maybe she knew that
she couldn't avoid it, she whispered:
"Sorry for making you worry. But …I…hate myself."
"What? Why?"
"Sorry, this is my secret…"
"Hmm? You are depressed because it's a secret that you can't share with
me?"
"Huh?"
"Nothing…."
Manami laid down again. Looks like she really is depressed. Well, I can't
just let it go anymore.
"Okay, listen. You don't need to tell me why you are depressed. Just tell
me how I can help you. As long as this is something I could do, I will do it.
By the way, don't tell me 'nothing', because I won't be able to stand it. So
just tell me a request or something, okay?"
That's what my heart thought. Although due to my embarrassment, my
voice was a bit forceful.
"Of course. Real men never go back on their words. Just say it."
"…Ha..hi hi…"
"I hope Kyou-chan can tell me what kind of girl you like."
"Wh..what?"
What did she just say? If this was a normal situation, I could just give her a
random answer…but now…I doubted it will work.
"Just…tell me what kind of girl you like."
"No, no! I, I, I…I didn't mean it that way..! Ah…so…Kyou-chan likes girls
who look like Ayase, right?"
"Yes, yes. And I mean her appearance only! I didn't mean her personality!
Not at all!"
"M..Me?"
"Yes. No matter what, amongst girls I know, you are the one I get along
with best. We have known each other for a long time, we are already very
familiar with each other, I do not need to be too polite with you. When I'm
with you, I feel very relaxed. That means I like your personality, do I?"
That was a good idea. With a nearby competitor, those two would probably
get even more motivated.
Makabe asked:
"You can't possible make the same genres, so …what game are you going
to make?"
"Wrath of Justice. This is the game I made earlier for recruiting."
"The first level was a Kuso game, so it is normal for the rest of the game to
be a Kuso game too."
"You are doing nothing but discouraging me! Guys! Help me teach him a
lesson!"
"You guys…! Don't look down on me! I can make other games too!"
I didn't think this is possible. Makabe pointed out the obvious flaw:
"Like this?"
"You! You!...What…!"
Directly to the point! Nice work Makabe!
"In short, you can join, but please don't get in the way of our juniors."
"You guy don't trust me that much – fine! Okay, let's start our briefing!"
She presented her idea, with additional pictures and notes. Her story was
well-prepared and looked impressive.
The fat duo whistled and clapped, completely turning into Sena's fans. But
Sena's face still showed a troubled expression.
So Sena got at least two votes. Looks like it was not gonna be easy for
Kuroneko.
Looks like she was multi-talented like Kuroneko. No wonder she wanted to
enter gaming industry.
" – In other words, I intended to make a dungeon exploration RPG!"
"Yes! I think the reason for Dragon Quest and Final Fantasy to be so
successful is because their ancestor Witchcraft got so many amazing
RPG's traits."
"Since the moment you created a character, you can freely choose to
adventure or treasure hunting – this could become an important part of any
MMO. In fact, I think due to integrating these parts, Monster Hunter sells so
well."
"…Your opinion about RPG is unrelated to me. Tell me, how are you going
to achieve the fun as in the original RPG?"
With mocking voice, Kuroneko interrupted.
"Part of your idea seems to come from World Tree Labyrinths. That game
proved a weak and small game console can still have good RPG."
"Yes that's it! I knew that it's probably not enough, so I plan to add some
more illustrations to lead the story. This is much better than giving the
player a wall of text."
I was not really getting it, but she clearly gave it a lot of preparation.
Makabe asked:
"I'm aware that balancing a RPG is quite hard. Do you think you could do it
in the allowed time?"
"Don't worry Makabe-senpai. For a dungeon exploration RPG, one town is
enough. We don't need any flashy illustrations for weapon and equipment,
just normal ones. Do you remember in Witchcraft, we don't even have
that? My game will not be based on those illustrations, just a few is
enough. Worst case, I could remove all illustrations and focus on a
text-based RPG. In that case, I could even increase game speed, allowing
the player to enjoy the game without any pressure. Isn't that great,
senpai?"
"You are right. But balancing is not as easy as it sounds."
He turned to us:
"Sound good to me. What do you guys think?"
"I think it's interesting. I remember when I was in elementary school, I used
a notebook and pencil to play RPG too. So I agree with Akagi-san's idea."
One guy drew the game on his notebook, and we used dices and pencil to
play with each other…
Sena boasted.
"…I..I know."
She looked panicked. Her movement was rigid.
Pushing Sena aside, Kuroneko took a huge pile of paper from her bag and
distributed it to everyone.
"..What is that?"
"Three routes? Even counting the same parts, this is still a huge
workload…"
"Too long. How about making it a bit shorter?"
"I think so too. We're making a game for fun anyway, so one route is
enough."
After each objection, Kuroneko responded with "Ah, that's because…" but
gradually she became silent. Her eyes darted back and forth between the
questioner and her papers, but she didn't say anything. She had been
completely discouraged, simply unable to properly express her own ideas.
"Even in that case, there is a limit how much you alone can do."
Our president was very experienced with making games, so his words
were very convincing.
But unlike him, I knew Kuroneko better than that. She could draw manga
and write a novel at the same time, so this much is not a problem.
So I turned to her:
"In my survey, because novel game is very famous, they usually get
divided into smaller themes. That's why in 'Chaos Create', visual novel is
also counted as an 'easy to get prize' genres. So Gokou-san's choice suits
our original object, isn't it?"
Because you obviously didn't know what to say, so I had to boast in your
place.
"I ensure you it's not a lie."
Don't be so modest. Now was the time to show off your confidence. Like
usual, when we were alone.
"If I remember correctly, you can also write light novels, right?"
"Yes.."
"Ha ha ha. Good. Good. With enough time, you probably can do everything
by yourself!"
Sena interrupted:
"Then…"
It was….
"She said 'you're writing is just a bunch of self-gratifying masturbation
work'."
"Isn't the situation the same as now? You are worried if the player will be
able to enjoy the game or not, right?"
"At that time, the same friend also told me 'The most important thing for an
author is working on something they enjoy. Without it, then you can't make
anything remotely interesting. This is how an author's proper attitude
should be!'"
She was speaking the truth. Indeed someone told my sister that.
"I agree. It's so correct that I could vomit. That only works for people who
are lucky enough that what they enjoy writing equals what sells. But what
about everyone else?"
True. But now, I doubted Kuroneko was speaking with Sena too.
"I hate that kind of author who can freely write anything they want like that,
from the bottom of my heart. I want to kill them in the most horrible way
possible.
"What?"
"Hm, maybe I don't really want them to kill themselves. I admit that maybe
my jealousy got in the way a bit. But remember, we have our own pride.
Don't you want to show them a thing or two?"
"I once thought…how to make those writers open their eyes, how to make
them kneel before me and say 'I'm sorry for looking down on you'."
This was my first time seeing someone with such a twisted personality.
"Ignore them and defy their idea of what things 'should' be like."
"….."
Due to her excitement, Kuroneko now realized that she just talked a lot
about her idea. Although she was blushing, but she tried to remain calm
and finish:
" --- This is what I wanted to do. I knew that this is my personal opinion, so
please give me your honest answer."
Because her documents were not only big, it was also hard to read.
While Sena even brought a demo, her preparation was more carefully
planned.
…Seems like our chance was not very good….
"Now – first, who votes for Akagi, please raise their hand."
"What…."
Bang!
Recovering from her shock, Sena violently hit the desk. The president
looked at her then answered:
"What do you mean? Just as you have seen…."
"That's abnormal! How could it be? I'm aware that Gokou-san's idea is
good. But… zero votes? You mean… my game is really that inferior to
Gokou-san's?"
Kuroneko just silently closed her eyes, ignoring Sena's pleading eyes.
Noticing our gaze, the president looked like he wanted to say "Hey! You
want me to say it?" and pointed at himself. Everyone responded with a
"Please" nod.
The president let out a pitiful cry, then talked to Sena in a sincere voice.
"About that… Akagi-san, your game is good."
"It's not just kind words. I really wanted to see your game. I plan to
continue that idea even if your game is rejected now. To be honest, I think
if we voted 30 minutes earlier, you would have won."
Of course, Kuroneko was full of hope and enthusiasm, but as she said,
there are a lot of personal arbitrariness parts. In contrast, Sena's game
even made someone like me feel much hope in it. It's almost perfect.
But why would everyone vote for Kuroneko in the end?
"I see. You still don't understand. Then we have no choice but to show it."
The president turned his laptop on. It was showing a scene from Sena's
demo game. As Sena said, this is one of the 'few scenes with CG'.
She replied with a tone 'everyone will understand at the first look, right?'.
Of course, all party members are male.
"Isn't the composition of the warrior getting an arm inserted into his anus
totally awesome? Also, I think the Samurai X Necromancer pairing is so
moe! Now people don't like big, muscle X weak, small pairing anymore!
Here, take a look! The hilt of the Masamune Blade has 'Anal Fuck' written
on it! We need to have Gokou-san draw the scene for this one!"
"You you… And you called me sexual harassment senpai! Modern light
illustration? Are you talking in your dream? Look how heavy they are! You
are not making a RPG, but a homo game!"
"I noticed that! Here, this guy with a tattoo on his ass is me, isn't it?"
"Hi hi hi"
This was the first time a girl gave me such a nauseous feeling.
Normally she suppressed her hobby, but she loses control when she lets it
out. Was she planning to use this game in a contest?
"You…you can't force your senpai to do something so embarrassing! No
matter what, we won't make such a game!
He concluded:
"You see, everyone doesn't like it. Sorry, but give it up."
"…Ah..But…ah…"
Sena started crying. Well, this is her game after all. I think she must have
been unconvinced.
"That's right. You two cooperate and make Gokou's game. That's an
order."
"……"
"…If you don't like it, you don't have to come anymore! So, will you do it or
not?"
"Ah…oh…ah…I…"
"I?"
This girl… she puts up a calm appearance, but inside she was still a kid!
Makabe stood up, trying to follow Sena. But the president stopped him.
"Making a game is a group work. She is well aware that 'this is
unreasonable' yet was still unable to accept it. Until she can accept that,
talking to her is useless."
Sena had her own idea of making a game. And she couldn't accept that
she lost to Kuroneko. That's why she won't back down no matter what.
"I have high hopes for her. She will come back for sure, but I can't say if
she can overcome this…"
What are you saying – president said you two should cooperate with each
other – if you did everything, then that's meaningless.
"….."
Although Makabe talked with her, all he got is 'I won't come back'.
I didn't think that she wouldn't come back only because of Kuroneko.
Although sometime we forget, but… this 'fujoshi' girl is very shy about her
hobby.
After she openly talked about it before everyone, well…. I guess she was
so embarrassed that she didn't want to show up. It was not like she could
pretend like nothing happened, either.
I also talked with her brother, Akagi Kouhei. But according to him, his sister
was not in a good mood and didn't want to talk with him.
In other words, we had no way to solve this situation.
Although I wanted Kuroneko to get another friend, but now there was
nothing I could do. Not like I could tell her to stop her work out of nowhere.
A few days later. I came back home together with Kuroneko.
"Excuse me…"
Still in her uniform, Kuroneko took off her shoes and then carefully placed
them at the door. Unlike normal, today her actions were very slow.
Next, she stood in front of the stairs and looked around, as if checking if
anyone's home.
"Nobody home?"
Her eyes widen in shock, she stopped in front of the stairs, completely
motionless.
You clearly were nervous. Strange, she had come to my home many times
before, so why is she nervous now?
She didn't come here as Kirino's friend. She came here as my friend now –
and besides, this was the first time we are alone.
I should have considered that. She is a girl, after all. I've got to do
something about it.
"………."
"Let's go in."
"Right…"
Finally, Kuroneko stepped inside. But that was such a small step that it
was almost like a cat's.
"..Let's begin."
After we came into my room, Kuroneko didn't wait for me to get water or
anything, just saying that.
"Debug."
"Debug?"
"Yes. I want you to use that PC and play my game. Actually, I'm only
halfway done – so just keep playing those completed parts and help me
find any bugs."
"This is a simple, but very time consuming work. Too bad this is something
I can't do alone."
"…Um… Then.."
During that time, Kuroneko placed her laptop on my bed – pillow position,
to be exact – then lied down and worked. She always did that in my room
(she said it increases her concentration). Since normally we had Saori with
us, this was the first time she did that with me alone.
This girl was too careless. I was glad that she trusted me so much, but
honestly this position made me unable to concentrate.
"U.."
"Huh?"
Me. My room. Lying down next to a girl. How could this not cause a
misunderstanding? Of course I couldn't do that.
"Ah..well…"
Just a while ago, you were so nervous. And yet you are so careless now.
"You could play eroge with your own little sister, and yet you couldn't play a
normal visual game with me. What is the meaning of this?"
I see.
That's what she did? The last call she had with Kuroneko?
This girl… Why did she have to add something like that in a conversation
with her friend?
Damn, there should be a lot for you to say, right?
She didn't even treat me as a male student. How could I have any evil
intentions towards her?
"Well…I have no problem with that, but please avoid doing things that guys
might take the wrong way!"
"What?"
"Thank god…."
That means not much at all. You almost gave me a heart attack.
"Wait, don't agree to that too easily. I mean, I'm just an amateur, so my
opinion – well, maybe is not correct, you understand?"
"That's the part I want to show no matter what, so I won't change it."
"I see."
"Yes. By the way, players can avoid this ending."
"There are three routes right? There is a good ending among them, isn't
it?"
"No."
"No?"
Time passed. We were in the same room, but no one said anything. It's
neither unpleasant nor boring, but it cannot be said to be stable.
The truth was, well, basically all I had to do was keep playing the same
scene again and again. If the game stopped or some strange text
appeared then I reported it to Kuroneko.
…I felt like making games is just daily work, not too hard but very boring.
I felt like Kuroneko just let me be here because she is too shy to deny my
request.
"Hmm?"
"Between 'senpai' and 'Onii-chan', what do you prefer me to call you?"
"Hm…let's see…"
1. Senpai
2. Onii-chan
"Just 'senpai' is fine. We are not family, so it's kind of awkward when I
heard you call me 'Onii-chan'."
"I see…."
Kuroneko let out an evil laughter. Her mouth slowly changed into a
crescent shape.
This is her smile when she is happy. I'm not sure what that means, but
looks like she was satisfied with my answer.
"I see… From now on, when we are alone together, I will call you
'Onii-chan'."
I sighed. Kuroneko was laughing at me, her feet slightly touching each
other. Then she raised her leg (still in black stockings) to me, and said in a
sweet tone:
"Don't be stupid! What's wrong with you? What do you think a normal
brother–sister relationship is like?"
"Ara ara? I though in this house, the brother is his little sister's slave?"
"Definitely not!"
Or so I hoped.
This is the second time I saw her that happy – no, this is the first time.
The next day we repeated this course. I sat at my table while Kuroneko lied
on my bed.
"Hey, Kuroneko."
"What's that, Onii-chan?"
"….Don't you think you're coming to my home a little too much? Like today,
we could just use our club room instead."
Well that's true…. But recently I heard the rumor about "senpai brings a
junior into his room". Beside, my mom still thinks that I'm going out with
Manami, so she gave me a cold shoulder. Like 'die, you two timer'.
People said – you don't know how important something is until you lost it.
"By the way, recently did you have any contact with Tamura-senpai?"
"..For some reason, she's always busy…"
Of course, we still went to school together, so I don't mind that too much.
But still I felt like something is off.
Although her relationship with Sena was completely a failure, this was still
something worth celebrating.
In the final checkup, the game still couldn't run properly. Sometimes the
screen froze, sometimes the game stopped. Or when you went into
different routes, made different choices, some strange symbol appeared
out of nowhere.
"Strange…."
"No, this is not your fault. Besides, I didn't even give you instruction on how
to test the game. I didn't have any expectations from you since the
beginning."
She added:
"We could. But… in order to check where the part that cause the bug is will
cost us a lot of time."
"How long?"
"About… even if president helps out, we have no chance of finishing it in a
week. We won't be able to finish the game in time for the contest."
"…….."
"Yes."
"I agree. I thought forcing that much work on only her alone is too much,
but to be able to make this much. Unbelievable."
"My game still has a lot of complex bugs, so we won't be able to fix it in
time for the contest. That's what you are trying to say, isn't it?"
In that moment, I saw she bit her lower lip. Her eyes burned with
determination.
I followed Kuroneko. I don't know if Kuroneko could hear me, she just kept
running.
Because a third year like me suddenly appeared, the commotion broke out
in the hallway, with me as their focus. But now there was no way I could
just push them away with my glare again.
The classroom's door was pushed open, then Kuroneko stepped inside.
Many students noticed her. A lonely isolated student suddenly came back
to her classroom. What could she intend to do?
I'm not her, but I can guess. Because no one could be both lazy and
unpredictable like me.
She is probably angry at herself. She lost the vote, and then instead of
accepting it, she just ran away, abandoning the club's rules.
"My game has got many critical bugs. I cannot fix it in time for the contest."
"..So?"
"Yes."
Kuroneko went straight to her point – while Sena didn't say anything, her
expression unreadable. There was nothing I could say now.
The commotion was getting bigger and bigger. Maybe because everyone
thought Kuroneko is a silent type, so this was their first time seeing her talk
so much.
But then all of those whispers stopped.
Kuroneko… her hands, her legs... her whole body was shaking.
This was probably the first time she had to do that in front of someone.
Even so, she still lowered her head, and sincerely asked Sena for help.
Sena forced Kuroneko against a wall, then used her breasts to prevent
Kuroneko from getting out.
"Besides, how does that relate to me? I don't intend to come back to that
club anymore."
Kuroneko immediately raised her hand and pushed Sena away from her.
"…No matter what, I want to finish that game. And I want it to get a prize!"
"Of course I knew that! What I want to ask it why must you go that far? Are
you under a curse that will kill you if you don't win or anything? That's
probably it, isn't it?"
Against Sena's mocking voice, Kuroneko just replied:
"Yes."
"Once I started to do something, I will see it through until the end. Set a
high goal, then follow it with everything I got. I have decided to follow a
certain someone's example. If I couldn't do that, then I'll always be a loser
– I can only be a second place, doomed for eternity. My pride does not
allow me to accept that."
"I'm talking about a friend that I hate, who has gone far away."
"Is that… is that the same friend you mentioned during your presentation,
who you said you wanted to open her eyes?"
"Yes… I wanted her to lick my boot. In order to get that, I will accept any
humiliation. I will struggle until my bones break. I won't give up no matter
what."
Saying that, Kuroneko smiled. She licked her lips, like a cat cornering prey.
"Seriously… Driving me this far… She will get divine retribution. I won't just
let her get away with it. The next time we meet, I will make her cry out
loud."
You took this contest as a stepping stone, so when Kirino came back, you
could proudly face her.
"That's why --- "
"Please help me, Akagi Sena. If this isn't enough, then I will kneel down
and beg. Anything you want!"
"Gokou-san, you…"
"Why didn't you tell me any of this before? I know it sounds strange coming
from me, but I'm a horrible person, aren't I? I lost, but then I ran away. And
now you are forced to bow before me…"
"We have more important things than figuring out who is at fault or who
should apologize first. What's more important right now is that I want to
make a game together with you."
I could feel that these were her honest feeling. If she doesn't want to lose
to this girl, then giving up is not an option. That's why she asked Sena. Not
because of she wanted to take advantages of Sena's skill, but because
that's her only choice. I thought Sena realized that too.
"To have a friend you can rely on is a wonderful thing. There are always
things that you can't do alone, but two – or three can. Alone, you may be
too afraid to even take the first step forward, but with your friend, both of
you can. There are times when you try your hardest and still can't get any
result, when it's so tough that you want to cry, but if you have someone
there to give you support, you can keep going through it. Even the smallest
word of encouragement can save you. Yes… That's right.."
I felt like Kuroneko has recalled some of her happy memories.
"If I have a friend to rely on, I will be able to go on. That's what I recently
realized. So please, make a game together with me, alright?"
Looks like I'm not the only one who has changed in this year.
And Sena…
"So, your game's data was left at the club room now?"
After Sena came back, she and Makabe spent just two days and fixed
everything.
Not only that, as if Sena wanted to make up for the time she wasted, she
kept quarreling with Kuroneko. Shouting to each other, disagreeing with
each other, and helping each other at the same time. Unlike 'research and
discuss', for this game, they both made it together.
From my point of view, both Kuroneko and Sena's quarreled about 'my
idea is better for this game' which is the true form of 'research and
discuss.'
The story was written by Kuroneko, while Sena took care of RPG part.
Luckily, both of their games used "dungeon" setting, so they could mix
together pretty well.
--- Why didn't you just do that from the beginning? Well, I think that
everyone wanted to ask too, but we didn't say anything.
The deadline was approaching, so both of them were very very busy. In
the end, Sena even holed herself up in the clubroom (Of course I planned
to help, but one Kouhei Onii-chan chased me away.)
I was not exaggerating, they worked so hard that I thought they were
possessed by a demon.
They pushed themselves to their absolutely limit, and yet inside, they were
having fun.
"I couldn't believe you actually can write 6 kilobytes of script per hour. I
thought you were lying."
"You are pretty good too. To be able to clean so many bugs in such a
small amount of time, is there any secret technique?"
"Sixth sense?"
"Yes. When I'm working on a game, I can see anything that is abnormal.
That's why I'm so good at debugging and balancing. In short, I take an
overlook at everything, then fix whatever is out of place."
Saying that, Sena proudly shook her chest, laughing "Hm hm".
What the heck? Did all gamers have some kind of special ability?
"Are you saying …that if you take off your glasses, your special ability
powers up?"
"…How could that be… do the Mystic Eyes of Death Perception… really
exist?"
"You should feel honored, because from now on I will call you 'The Wielder
of Mystic Eyes'."
Thanks to that game, both Kuroneko and Sena acknowledged each other.
After that, well, although our game didn't get a prize, it still got a good
reputation.
"AAAAAAAA! Why! Why! Why! What the hell are those people thinking!!!"
"…So noisy. Don't get mad just because of some comments. They are
mostly complaining about the script I wrote anyway, so why are you getting
mad?"
"Of course I'm mad! It's our game! They dare to insult our game!"
"Whatever. I did what I wanted to do, then no one liked it. That's my
responsibility alone."
"What about me? No one even complains about the gameplay which I
made! Does that mean it's not even worth being criticized? And don't take
full blame for everything. I have participated in making this game, so I have
the right to feel excited or frustrated because of the outcome. Am I wrong?"
"Thank you Ms. Airhead. So, feel free to go ahead and be as frustrated as
much as you want. Oh, by the way, if the nearby club complains, please go
deal with them."
"Of course I will do that! Ah, that pissed me off so much! Agrrrrr! Damn! By
the way, Gokou-san, why are you not frustrated at all? They bashed your
script so much…"
You meant 'I'm used to it, so I try to avoid displaying my emotions like you'.
You were right. She has endured Kumagai-san's criticism and Kirino's
mockery.
"Until now, I have always believed that getting emotional when faced with
criticism just meant that the creator wasn't grateful enough to the player. I
felt like 'if you have time to get emotional, why not try to make it better
then?' But now, when my game gets criticized, I have changed my mind.
Don't let your emotion get the better of you? Carefully analyze the review
response? Eat shit! I'm so pissed off! You *****!"
"Calm, calm down. Girls shouldn't said things like shit and *****."
"Like I care! I will kill them! I will kill them all! All of them! I will kill every
single one of them! Just you wait, you son of a *****. I will secretly join your
group, then I will kill you all on your offline meeting."
"But…but!...Ah…."
"Never!"
"I knew it. But I couldn't suppress my rage! Aagrrrrr… What should I do
now! I can't focus on anything else!"
"Just make another game. One so good that it will shut all of them up."
"This is much better than simply killing those human who dare to criticize
us."
"Hm, I just simply don't want to waste my time and think of another plan…
Although, I do want to put those monkeys in their place. Are you in?"
"Of course! For the next game I will participate from the beginning – I will
make another amazing game! First, the main character must have some
muscle like in 'Terminator'!"
"Rejected…"
"Yoh."
"............"
I raised my hand in greeting in a friendly manner, but Kuroneko, after
taking a fleeting glance at me, averted her eyes and started sweeping the
stairs.
"Laters."
"It's fine."
That was no longer our job. I turned my gaze to the water-point at the
ground floor, and took a glance at a particular girl who was wetting her
mop. After she's done wringing the mop, she put it into the bucket and
started walking towards here. On noticing me, she called out in a
questioning voice.
With a tinge of loneliness, together with warm contentment, I left the place
behind me.
While making our way to the shoe cupboard, I told Manami about what
happened.
"Yeah, I think."
The reason for that was --- probably. Because it was the case of me having
the intention of doing something for her sake. It was fine if she could make
a friend and enjoy her school life here. Even if it's not by my hand.
Because that was how I felt, I guess.
Being conscious of the unsophisticated motive that I had, if there was one
thing that was strange.
A few petals fell from the roadside cherry trees whose cherry blossoms
had already scattered quite some time ago.
It was at that time when the mobile at my butt was vibrating from a new
message received.
"Ugh, sorry, got mail."
I excused myself, took out my mobile, and verified that two messages were
received.
One was from Kuroneko, with no subject, and the body was a single short
sentence written, I'll be waiting behind the school building at half past
three. It sounded like a letter of challenge.
It's kinda scary to receive such a mail from a junior. So to speak, if you
have some business with me, you should have told me just now when you
saw me. While tilting my head, I affirmed the second message.
And what was displayed was ---
"Eh? Really?"
"Ah, ahh. The title is "Re: Contact me", so she replied to the mail I sent
out......"
"Huh? Yeah...... right. Well, it's not like I'm going to reply, just so you know.
There's no harm taking a look, I guess ~"
Even if I thought about it, I couldn't figure it out. I didn't choose to accept
the contents of that message at face value. While it did flash into my mind
for an instant, it was immediately cast aside. Because, it just wasn't
possible.
How much she treasures that collection of hers...... aside from my little
sister herself, in this world, the person who knows this best would be me.
This was what I declare. There was no way that she would say throw away
my collection to me. No way. Neither did I want to think about this.
Inside that collection, there is this "EX Meruru Special Figurine" which was
jointly given by me, Ayase, Saori, and Kuroneko.
It also contains the "Stardust ☆ Witch Meruru" boxset that Kuroneko and I
had watched together.
And also that "Let's fall in love with my little sister ♪" which led to her first
life consultation with me ---
Something like --- throwing them away. There's no way she'd say that,
right?
I half ignored the incredulous looking Manami and called my little sister's
mobile right away.
No one picked up. Even after about ten rings, even after about twenty rings
--- I couldn't get to hear my little sister's voice.
If I don't clarify it, I can't keep calm. Since there is too little, too little
content.
That will be fine, right? There's no way Kirino will somehow contact me first
before her best friend, Ayase, if it's Ayase, she might know something
about Kirino.
Since I'm extremely hated by her, I'm hesitant about calling her without any
reason. Thinking about it, this may be a good pretext.
"Alright, alright......"
We are unable to comply with your wishes and cannot connect you to the
number you are calling ---
Click, tuu, tuu, tuu, tuu......
"...... it's, it's the end....... heh, hehe...... anything and everything...... has
ended......"
Ter, terrible...... is it okay for such a cruel end to exist in this world?
"Eh?"
As I raised my face covered in my snot, Manami took out her own mobile
and showed it to me.
Eh, isn't it that this fella normally doesn't carry her mobile along with her?
Even if it's impudent, seems like she has come to the stage of adapting to
modern times. Then again, I'm digressing.
"Wait! How did you become on such good terms with Ayase!?"
Well...... even for me, I've made new friends with Saori and Kuroneko, and
I don't really care who she becomes on good terms with...... but what is
it...... somehow, it feels kinda lonely...... kinda irritated...... Wait, what's with
me getting jealous of Ayase! Am I an idiot!
Manami put her phone readily to her ear, and after exchanging one or two
lines, "Here you go", and she passed it to me. I took it from her and
switched it with mine.
"Long time no see my foot! Why did you block my number!? Did I do
something!?"
No, indeed, during last year's Natsukomi, there's one particular matter
where I really did something! But, arguably, since then, a matter which
could earn me a communication block --- isn't there like none!
"Eh? You've only notice it now? The block was in place since half a year
ago however."
"Seriously!"
The truth was that I've been blocked ever since summer...... Sob...... I
never knew that......
"...... what is it? Could it be that you've purposely asked Onee-san for help
in calling me just for that? If that's the case, it's really a bother, and I'd like
for you to stop."
Ever since I've met her, whenever I play eroge, I'll definitely start with
clearing the routes of girls with long black hair, but yet, I feel upset when
I'm treated like a hentai. It seems like there is no way I can impress her on
my upright and clean-handed character.
Well, since I have to resolve her misunderstanding, there's no helping it.
"That's not it. It's just that there's something I want to ask you."
"About...... Kirino?"
Even over the phone, I could tell Ayase's seriousness just went up a few
notches.
After Kirino went for overseas studies, there was one time Ayase and I
meet up to talk.
At that time, she had never heard anything from Kirino. She appeared to
be in a pain as she talked about how Kirino never contacted her.
After several months had passed...... I was wondering about whether there
was any change in the situation on her side.
"...... no. Not even once since then...... I've sent out tons of mail but......
there was no reply...... at all."
"...... I know full well about how much pain she was in...... when she had a
fight with you...... Just going by that alone, there's no way she'll hate you.
Then again, even if I don't say that...... you should be most aware of that
right."
So it seemed.
Kirino that brat --- since then, she didn't even contact Ayase once......
If that's the case, what's with that mail? She sent one and only to me ---
and the content was, "throw away all my collection"......
A joke? A bad prank? If so, it's still fine, after getting in touch with her, I'll
just go "Don't mess around with me!" at her, and that would be the end of
the story.
However, joke and bad prank aside, for her not to contact even her best
friend......
"Is that so...... she didn't even contact Onii-san...... …... I...... I think Kirino
must have a very strong reason for not contacting us."
"Yeah."
I thought so too. As to why it was, I have no idea, but it's certainly strange
for her not to contact the people she likes a lot, such as Ayase and
Kuroneko.
"But...... but even so...... if say Kirino were to contact us...... I think she'll
contact Onii-san. At that time......"
....................................
...... how?
After ending our conversation, I said goodbye to Manami and headed off to
the appointed place to meet Kuroneko.
However, my head was filled with the matter regarding Kirino's mail.
I took out my mobile and once again gazed at the mail Kirino had sent.
I had thought that if Kirino were to contact one of us, it would have to be
Ayase.
This is stupid. Why will that be so, I don't get it. Certainly, I was the one
with whom she secretly engaged in life consultation several times. But that
would be because there wasn't any other suitable candidate, and even if I
were to hate her after knowing her secret, it wouldn't be a problem for her
---
--- no, that's not it.
I know. She has only said it to me. I returned the words which I yelled at
Ayase back to myself. I should be most aware of this.
After all, I heard it with these ears. I'm very grateful --- those words, they
were properly engraved into my heart. I'd never forget them.
Even for a dull person like me, in a straight manner, she said that to me.
No matter how much I've misunderstood her, having seen that, even I have
realized it.
Pah (sfx). I folded closed the phone and started walking once more.
As appointed by the mail, when I went to the back of the school building at
half-past three, Kuroneko, was waiting in her school uniform. After her
cleaning duties ended, she must have stayed back at school. She was
sitting on the bench on which she sometimes sits alone eating her Meruru
bento.
Having noticed me, Kuroneko stood up. In a hardly audible voice,
As she was saying that, she looked at my face, opened her mouth and
went "ah", as if she noticed something. Her eyebrows knitted as if she was
pondering about something --- and said in a low voice.
"Yes. It's as if you just saw the end of the world, you know."
That's because. I'm only on the receiving end of the double punches from
Kirino and Ayase, you see.
"...... hm. Somehow --- it seems like the circumstances were not brought
about by deeds. Alright, try telling me about what happened. Since I'll
make an exception and listen to you."
I was somewhat concerned about what she meant by "deeds" however ---
In terms of being a best friend to Kirino, this person won't lose to Ayase,
that's the reason why.
"Eh?"
"Why are you here, answering to my summons? That's what I'm asking."
"With only such a short mail, isn't this more than enough? It's obvious that
she's trapped in a situation which forces her to send such a mail. Or is your
sister the kind of person who would say such a thing based on a joke or a
whim, I wonder? Even to me, who has only known her in such a shallow
amount of time, it is plainly evident."
She couldn't have said that. Even though I should have known better ---
"So what? It's not a great problem, is it? It's not about returning to the
demon world, nor about falling into hell. She's just not contactable though.
You know where she is, there is a way to get there, you are conscious of
your own worry --- and what else is needed?"
Kuroneko bit her lower lip with her 'giri' sound.
As she did that, it sounded like a dark, heavy voice that reverberated from
the depths of hell.
"You are really, really really really --- the worst useless incompetent
person, Senpai. An indecisive, blockhead with bad sense, a lecherous,
idiotic, lazy trash --- but yet strangely gentle. You have a bad personality
just like your sister. What a pair of siblings bearing such strong
resemblance, jeez."
Kuroneko sighed as she muttered. As she said a line which was unnatural
to the continuity of the current matter, in a baffled voice, I responded with
an
"Ehh?"
"It's because there has been quite a few changes. ...... such as about the
class, various matters. That's why...... I'm reporting it for now."
She spoke her words haltingly. As usual, she's not too good with words.
Normally, she won't be able to communicate effectively with the other party
in such a roundabout manner. But, it's now clear to me. I can make a
guess as to why I was called here. She probably wanted to thank me.
That's why, the conversation flow might sound strange just by hearing our
lines alone, but this was my reply.
"............"
"...... when you said that you were worried about me but not in your sister's
place; I was happy to hear that."
Is she nervous? Her folded hands before her skirt were shaking.
"Joining the same club with me, worried about whether I'm isolated in
class, backing me up on the presentation, staying with me till it's time to kill
time with Tamura-senpai."
"Eh?"
"I've said what I wanted to say honestly. So --- what are you going to do?"
" --- ---"
Ahh, that's right.
This person is telling me it's fine to do this and used herself as an example.
Really, this girl --- how do I put it? I seem to be close to falling in love with
her.
Within my intoxicated brain, I made the obvious decision in an obvious
manner --- I've decided.
"...... I see."
Kuroneko cast her eyes down contentedly, and said with in a gentle voice.
Her speech became curt again.
"Wait a minute", I heard from behind me. Then I heard the sound of
footsteps rushing up to me.
Leaving a faint sweet scent, the blushing face of Kuroneko pulled away.
Are you doing...... My voice trailed off before I could say what I wanted to
say.
Even as she was blushing up to her ears, she had a boundlessly evil smirk
on her face.
"If you've already understood, quickly disappear from my sight. This time,
you can go meddle in your little sister's affairs."
She then sent me off by pushing me from behind with all her strength
towards the direction of the sky's horizon.
The departed flight from Narita Airport appeared to have finally stopped its
ascent. Having clung to half of the seat in front of me from the great fear I
had, I breathed out a sigh of relief as I looked up.
Even now, there was still a soft lingering warmth there ---
I'm unable to judge what kind of intentions she has for her to do this.
After that, on returning home, for some reason, my old man was in and I
tried discussing with him about the matter regarding Kirino.
"Great! Go ahead!"
The old man was extremely enthusiastic about it.
He took out a suitcase from his room and with lots of vigor, put it down with
a large 'dong' sound.
"Whatever you will need are all inside this. Feel free to take it along with
you."
Why was it that he had everything perfectly prepared for a trip? Why was
the old man at home in the evening?
I didn't ask him all that, neither was there a need to ask.
" --- Kyousuke. I shall leave everything in your hands. I'm entrusting this to
you."
I arrived at my destination airport and opened the map I got from my old
man.
While this was the second time I went on an overseas trip (the first being
my junior high school excursion to Hawaii), to be honest, I had no
confidence in my ability to arrive safely at Kirino's residence.
What do you mean by what a miserable fella in spite of getting all worked
up to come here? Don't be stupid! I can't speak the language here well
enough, unfamiliar with the land here, and didn't even have time to buy a
single thing.
Of course I was scared! Ku, if, if my luggage got snatched...... super scary,
I don't even want to think about it. In the worst case, I wouldn't have a
choice but to call the dormitory number that the old man gave me and call
Kirino out --- to come pick me up!
That was the last thing...... that was the last thing I wanted. Worrying my
own little sister, and receiving her help; it's no longer the question of how
miserable I would become. It's a matter of losing my pride as a big brother.
Tough, but such needless worry came to an end. Because the travel items
that I've received from my old man were meticulously prepared. There was
a travel guidebook with lots of memo paper, affixed into it with clips, which
detailed how best to get to my destination from the airport --- transport
guide, map, money, situational conversation manual, et cetera --- perfectly
prepared to the point that whatever I needed was inside.
He did this despite hating overseas travel and had never gone on any trips
at all.
In order to go meet his daughter --- he did all this research. Sounds like my
old man alright. That's what I really thought.
Following the directions of my old man's memo, I got on a taxi from Los
Angeles International Airport.
The driver was a black man, the type that Sena[4] is particularly fond of,
and after showing him the corresponding page from my old man's memo
(the address was written in English), he said something and nodded,
appearing to understand it.
I didn't exactly get what he said but it seemed something like, Okay boy,
leave it to me.
Carrying that worthless unsettled feeling, I gazed out of the window to view
the cityscape of Los Angeles.
It's the sea. On the other side were stretches of soaring mountains.
The time difference was seventeen hours. The climate was warm, and it
didn't feel too different from that of Japan.
Well, in Los Angeles, there weren't any maids walking around distributing
leaflets.
Ignoring my unease, the car journey was smooth. As to how smooth it was,
it was smooth like running on deserted streets of Chiba. Not the slightest
congestion was present.
Whenever the driver made a right turn when the light was red, I was initially
nervous about it, but somehow, it seemed like this sort of traffic rule does
exist. I had no idea at all.
After running along the freeway for quite some time --- by the time I
reached my destination, it was already dusk.
On top of that, it was pretty spacious. And there was equipment outside
that appeared to be for barbecue use, it was pretty much like a campsite.
As I had imagined this to be undoubtedly an apartment type, I was
somewhat perplexed by what I saw.
She told me straightly. Or rather, how heartless did my little sister think I
was......
…... che. I form a 'heh' word with my mouth and adopted a frowning
expression.
I will try to ascertain the matter I've heard from my old man.
"I've heard that recently, your health wasn't doing too good."
If I hadn't taken any action, it seemed like he would probably have flown
here himself.
Kirino hung her head down dejectedly. And the front fringe of her hair
drooped swiftly.
"Not just the old man. Ayase, Kuroneko, Saori as well --- everyone is
extremely worried about you, you know? Why didn't you contact them at
all?"
I hadn't heard those words in ages. Che, in other words, it was the kind of
rebuke that I'm so used to.
I slowly opened the suitcase, rummaged through the items, and brought
out a transparent plastic DVD case. As I showed it to her, Kirino's eyes
went wide.
"Yeah."
The DVD I was showing to her was the one that I received from my little
sister some time ago, the game disc for "Sis x Sis ~ Siscon Love Story ~".
Imitating club president Miura's wide double tooth grin,
"I've come here to play eroge."
"...... I don't get the meaning of this...... I ultra-don't get the meaning of
this...... Why should I, who should have been studying abroad in America,
be playing an eroge beside you......"
We were just at the end of the opening event, and about to go into the
main story.
It was as if I was looking at the same scene as the one on that day when
she left Japan.
"That's because you were harping about eroge eroge outside, and that was
the only thing I could say in that situation! Don't you have any sense of
delicacy at all! It'd have been bad if someone else heard that!"
Speaking of that, was it because America was stricter than Japan when it
comes to eroge?
"My bad."
"Che, do you really get it? That aside, we haven't gotten to the main point
yet, other than playing eroge with me, let's hear the real reason behind
why you're here?"
"Well, isn't this fine? Don't worry about the small details."
"Do you understand what you're saying? You flew all the way here
because you want to play eroge with your little sister, and yet you said,
Don't worry about the small details?"
The details certainly weren't small. Looking at this objectively, I'm a hentai.
But you will get angry if I tell you the real reason. That's why I couldn't say
it.
The first thing that caught my eye was the double deck bed. Somehow, it
seemed like this was a room for two. According to Kirino, this kind of
dormitory has several such rooms, and about ten girls lived here together.
Of course, they were all assembled from different parts of the world,
track-and-field elites of the same generation.
But right now, only the two of us were in this home. As a matter of fact, it
seemed like before I could enter this dormitory, Kirino would have to seek
permission from the school, and the teachers would take into consideration
the reunion between "two close siblings" and make things convenient for
me. Currently at this time, since her roommates were out training, there
was no special preparation done, but with regards to whether the two of us
could spend the night alone privately, a proper request would have to be
made.
"............ don't do any weird stuff just because we are alone here."
"As if I will!"
Irritating. Irritating irritating. Even though I just saw her for only a few
minutes, I already felt like going back!
"Be quiet and look at the screen."
I frowned and formed the shape of a 'heh' word with my mouth as I was
spamming away left clicks all this while. That's why even as we were
talking, the game play had advanced to the heart-throbbing school life of
the sisters. The skill of being able to play an eroge in the middle of a
conversation was one that I've obtained through experience. Even though
it served its use now, it's not a skill I could boast with pride.
"Hey, you can't play eroge when your roommates are around right?"
"That's right!"
"Woahh!?"
I came to grips with something big. Kirino responded to the nagging doubt I
had and started complaining in a teary voice.
"Even if it's me, there's no way I can play eroge in front of all those pure
innocent girls younger than me. To think that I've actually taken the trouble
to install a heap load of eroge that I haven't cleared, and impressively
brought them past the customs into America! And yet I can't play them at
all! Uuw...... for, for me to actually accumulate games......! Mortifying......!"
Kirino was gritting her teeth and clenching her fist tightly as she said that.
You, you......!
Although I had somewhat anticipated it, but still, to think that you really
brought your eroge into America!
"Hah, if you want to laugh, just laugh!?"
This is really bad! If she was caught, won't this hit the news?
"Bu, but, you did well in persevering till this point...... I'll give you that."
"Yeah...... now, after coming to this country, I totally understand how the
guys feel when they secretly watch porn when their parents are not
around."
"Wha, you did play them anyway!"
I wouldn't care even if you get caught, you know! Even if I'm your brother,
there's no way I, having come all the way to a foreign country in a hurry,
would cover up for you by saying, "This is my game!", you know?
"And...... we are almost getting to the first choice......"
On the screen was the scene in which the two heroines, side by side, were
pressing the protagonist to answer to the question, "Whose bento was
delicious?". The protagonist went with the safe answer, "Both were
delicious.", which of course couldn't be possibly accepted --- "Choose
one!", he was forced, so as to speak.
"At any rate, you are going to start capturing from long black-haired
'Miyabi-chan', aren't you?"
A big brother whose eroge capturing tendencies were within the grasp of
his little sister...... I feel like dying, oiy.
"...... fu, fu. Why are you talking as if you know everything about other
people's taste? You are off the mark duh. Today...... that's right. The one
on the right side, who keeps running "Stupid Aniki!" off her mouth, that
conceited looking little sister. I'll start with her route."
"Ah? Why?"
"Not, nothing!"
"What's that? Geez, weren't you the one who said think of this game as
myself and treasure it well. But yet, why is there a You-can't-play-this route
in it?"
"That's because! Erm....... that...... any --- anyway, you can't play that! I
thought that I gave that to you as a present so that when you feel lonely
without me, you can play it by yourself in your own room, jeez!? --- why
didn't you play it over there and instead brought it all the way to America to
play it with me!? This is really beyond my expectations!"
What the hell made you snap!? Is there a need to make such a fuss about
playing Rinko-rin scenario? I don't get it.
Besides, I actually prefer the long black-hair one. I chose choice number
two, Of course, the bento from Miyabi was more delicious. I'm already
familiar with this particular route.
In the orthodox advertisements of Sis Sis, Rinko and Miyabi were featured
as the main heroines, so as to speak, it was a game of double heroines.
The main characteristic of this game is the crazy scenario presented by the
triangular relationship formed with both younger blood sisters. Despite how
transient these things are, in the Eroge Review Column of many large
game review sites, it was highly acclaimed and hailed as One of the Most
Outstanding Nakige. As usual, it feels like there's something wrong with
the world I live in.
And then, as we passed the middle stage, Kirino heaved a sigh as she
murmured.
"Hey...... what about you?"
Don't ask me for the obvious, duh. If not so, why else would I come all the
way here.
"...... fuun[5]."
Our conversation stopped once again. Sitting beside the bed, we
continued playing the game.
"...... what?"
"Did you feel lonely when you didn't get to see me?"
"...... ehh?"
"Not, nothing............ fuun...... is that so? …... so you were lonely without
me."
"Righto. I was super lonely, and got scolded by Kuroneko. Don't take me
as your little sister's substitute, she said."
"Siscon."
"Shut up."
As we carried out those short exchanges, the game continued to progress.
I told her about the incident where Kuroneko and I made a game together.
"...... fuun. As I thought...... she looks like one who sucks at interacting with
others, and probably a lone wolf at school. And then, you put your hand
into it...... and helped her to make friends......"
"Not at all. Tch, I mean, anyway she's just a net friend, that's all there is to
it. Since it's about time I got tired of that girl, it's just nice that some pushy
people came out from nowhere."
Seems like these two are more or less on the same tune on this.
"Don't say that. You know, you went missing without telling her anything.
And she got all depressed because of that, you know?"
"Her?"
"Yeah."
I acknowledged loudly.
"The truth is...... she really wanted to make that game with you, you
know?"
"Fuun."
Kirino took a sniff. She sat on the bed, grasping her knees, and buried her
face into her knees.
Her long hair fell over.
Wanting to meet her friends. Wanting to hear their voices. Wanting to play
with them --- she appeared to be saying all that.
That's right. It's not possible for her not to think about all these. Because
Kirino really loves her friends.
But why has she not contacted anyone even till now?
Once again, our conversation was cut off. It was not an awkward silence.
How should I put it....... it was somewhat closer to the atmosphere when
I'm with Manami, like that of lukewarm water. Using such an analogy may
sound weird with regards to my real little sister, but somehow, it was the
kind of warmth that one would feel when one spends time with one's
family.
"Coach didn't allow me to go for practice today...... even though I told him
that I'm fine, but he paid no heed to me at all....... and I was getting a little
depressed."
Kirino was gazing at the screen of Sis Sis that I was playing with an
affectionate look.
"The way you said that sounds real perverted though. It's been a while
since I could do what I like to my heart's content, you know...... and it
makes me real happy."
The thing she like = eroge, so as to speak, a junior high school student
who could say that openly is pretty rare. Of course, this girl must have
completed Sis Sis in its entirety, but despite that, she could still derive such
pleasure on a replay...... just goes to show how much she loves it. That's it,
right. During that time, she did hand it to me with brimming confidence. At
any rate --- one won't normally say such stupid lines even in one's own
heart ---
"To throw away the entire collection that you've left with me?"
""EX Meruru Special Figure", "Stardust ☆ Witch Meruru DVD Box", "Let's
fall in love with my little sister ♪", "Mascera DVD Box", "Scatology *
Sisters", "Big Bro's Panties", "Scum Little Sister"...... the secret collection
which you showed me before you left...... is it really ok to throw all of them
away?"
"....... yeah."
I see.
"Reason?"
"...... if I don't do that, the naivety from within me wouldn't disappear."
"Naivety?"
"Yeah......"
"I've already known right from the start that my ability can't pass for one
among these track-and-field elites assembled from all around the world. In
the first place, I came for this abroad study program in order to accumulate
experience. I knew that it's not possible for me to just become good right at
the start...... that's why, when I came here, I imposed a restriction on
myself."
"Restriction?"
"--- ---"
So, that's it. That's why, without saying a word, she went abroad all by
herself.
"When I set the restriction, I thought that it was a great, challenging goal
and things would work out somehow, marginally at worst, if I give it my
best shot. They must be worried about me, I thought, I'm really sorry, I
thought, but it'd be fine as long as I win, I would win with this in mind, then
explain my circumstances and apologize. But......"
I could not hear her teary voice beyond that. I didn't need to.
You didn't win right...... not even once since you came here.
"Since I'm already relatively used to such a deplorable state...... I'm not too
bothered by it."
Unlike in Japan, it's difficult to even seek an hour of sanctuary through her
games or anime here.
The only person she could contact was not any of her friends, but her big
brother. To top it off, contrary to expectations of some sort of a request, it
was an order to deal a penalty to her worthless self. How stoic could this
girl be?
"...... stupid idiot."
The Kirino, who appeared to be perfect in every way, was not necessarily
strong in her spirit.
Just like the time when she cried over her broken friendship with Ayase.
Just like the time when she cried over her mobile novel getting ripped off.
Just like the time when she cried over her parents' denial of her hobbies.
In spite of that --- she possesses an extraordinary strong sense of
responsibility and tenacity.
The drive to accomplish whatever comes along her way. Using that as her
weapon, Kirino has managed to come this far, but now, it didn't serve her.
In fact, it had quite the opposite effect.
It was as if she was hitting the body of a wall of cold, hard steel, over and
over again.
--- so glad I came. So glad that I was in time before it's too late.
I resumed the game that had been suspended for an hour. I averted my
eyes from Kirino and fixed them onto the display.
What was unfolding on the screen was the climax scene of Miyabi's route.
The little sister, whose days were numbered, confessed the feelings of love
that she had kept hidden all this while......
"...... eh?"
"Didn't I make a promise to you. I'll take care of them before you come
back. That's why I didn't throw them away. Even if you ask for it."
Just like the time when I couldn't leave the solitary Kuroneko alone.
This time round, I'm going to self-righteously meddle in my own little
sister's affairs.
"Even when I....... have been getting worked up at you, and snapping at
everyone demeaningly...... and coming here abroad for athletic studies.
Not even a half a year had gone by; this really won't do; to turn tail and go
back to Japan......?"
With her head drooping, and her body trembling.
"There's no way I can do that right! What a pathetic thing! Who do you
think I am!?"
"I can't do that! Not when I can't even win against the youngest girl here!
How would I be able to explain such a sorry state to those I've beaten back
home!"
"There's nothing to explain. You may have your pride. You may have a
strong sense of responsibility. But, no matter what, you've overextended
yourself."
"I did not! If I haven't gone to such an extent, I wouldn't have been able to
win my way till here! What do you know!? About the feelings...... that I've
carried for track-and-field all this while......"
Bang! Kirino punched her fist against the wall. Her face grimaced in pain
for an instant, then she choked out her words in a tearful voice.
"Someone like you, will never understand."
"Perhaps."
I'll admit that. For a person like me who had ignored her, treating her as
non-existent all this while, I don't have the right to lecture her.
"But you know. Being so adamant at this point, obstinately remaining
here...... is that going to help you win? You keep collapsing; didn't coach
tell you to take a break from training today as well? Do you think you can
catch up to those people whom you are no match for when you can't even
see what's happening around you?"
"That doesn't matter. I must definitely win. That's why I'm going to win.
That's all there is to it."
Perhaps, all this while, to compensate for her lack of talent, she had been
using the fighting spirit and willpower she had just shown me to blast away
her opponents and made it all the way here.
Drawing out a strength beyond her limits, bearing an impassive
preparedness.
"Isn't it okay to just have a fresh start? You're too impatient. Let's go back
for now, allow yourself to recuperate, and regain your true strength. After
that, you can come back and have a rematch, can't you? So? Won't that
do!"
"What a nag! I'll never give up!"
At this point, I had to follow her example --- drop your front and be honest.
"You know......!"
"Eh, kya."
I grabbed hold of my little sister's shoulders with both hands, and turned
her towards me ---
Pleadingly.
"...... wha."
"I've already blurted out all those stuff buried within me! And the result! I
don't really care about what circumstances you have! Forget about
Kuroneko or Ayase! I came here to bring you back not because they asked
me to, but because I'm lonely without you around! That's all! Any
complaints!"
Kirino, despite being Kirino, was dumbfounded, with her eyes freezing up
as they widened.
"...... y, you......"
Even if I said that, it was a selfish whim of mine. I was pulling Kirino back.
Tempting my little sister who's working hard abroad, discouraging her.
I want my little sister to be happy. I want her to be happy at a place where I
can see her.
But I don't see it as something for the sake of satisfying my own ego. Every
big brother would have felt the same way.
Isn't it so?
"After we get back, let's hang out at Akiba again. Of course, together with
Saori and Kuroneko. In August, there's Natsukomi. If Kuroneko gets into
the circle[6], you can be the salesgirl. How about that? And let's go meet
the other famous groups that Saori is going to introduce to us. I'll be laden
with all your stuff probably, but I'll do my best to bear with it. That's why ---"
"I'm sorry."
"Don't apologize, since it's annoying. And my shoulders are hurting. How
long are you going to continue grabbing your little sister's shoulders?"
Kirino was no longer crying. She's talking down to people as usual, and an
intrepid smile floated on her lips.
She shook off my hands from her shoulders and stood up.
Several days later ---. Together with Kirino, we landed at Narita Airport.
In the end, I didn't know the actual reason that had extinguished my little
sister's determination, making her decide to come home.
Whichever the case, Kirino would probably take responsibility for her own
decisions. She's still ranting "It's all because of you!" off her mouth to me
though, as usual.
That's the type of person she is. Even though the face beside me had a
cool look of nonchalance --- I guessed that was not what she really felt in
her heart.
"I see."
"............ you......"
"...... long time...... no see."
"...... hah...... hah...... what's with you...... did, did you run out of breath?
Were you in such a hurry to meet me that you ran all the way from the bus
stop?"
"...... don't say such foolish things to me...... hah...... hah...... after a few
months...... are those the first words one would say?...... an ill-mannered
girl...... as usual......"
Is this girl okay? Weren't you the one who started with hah hah? You are
probably lacking in stamina. Where did you come running from? Kirino
being Kirino, despite being extremely happy, had started talking down in a
detestable manner.
With a teasing tone, I watched over the two of them facing each other.
"You, you fool. Being a hikikomori and all, don't overdo it."
Kirino, with her cheeks threatening to break into a grin, frantically resisted,
and handed something to Kuroneko.
"Here, water."
She handed her a filled PET(TL: a.k.a plastic) bottle. Kuroneko gulped
everything down, and then hah, she sighed out. "...... how
unnecessary......", she went. And then ---
Leaning in until she's just next to her face, blushing, Kuroneko murmured.
"Welcome...... back."
"...... uhn...... I'm back."
It was as if they were trying to catch hold of the time they had lost together.
It greatly resembled the time they were fighting inside a Mac in Akiba one
year ago.
"...... fu. So the fact is you lost, turned tail and escape back here. --- aren't
you quite the troublemaker?"
"Tch, fooool. Who do you think you are talking to? With more training, it's a
definite that I'm going to beat all those guys there next time."
"Really...... in spite of not even being able to scratch them, do you really
stand a chance?"
"Fuffuffuffu......"
Kirino took out her iPhone slowly. After some fingering, she showed it to
me and Kuroneko.
It seemed like an internet news article. Embedded within the article was
the photograph of a girl running on the track. It was a girl with a beautiful
brown complexion. Her hair was tied up into a ponytail. Even though she
was not very tall, her slender legs were long. She carried an air of a supple
thoroughbred. Even though I couldn't read the English content of the
article, it seemed like she won some big tournament --- that was what it
appeared to be.
"What's this?"
Kuroneko asked. With a sense of pride, she pointed to the screen of her
iPhone.
"Lia Hagryy-chan. Among her peers of the same age, she's probably the
world's fastest grade school student. …... She's my roommate over there."
"In other words...... she's also faster than you?"
"The current me is not a match for her. She's super cute, very young, with
ability unseen of even at the world level. As if she's a world idol. Fu, and
she even made the news."
Kirino started deriding herself. Seems like even she could make such a
face.
"--- --- but, there was one time when I beat her."
She suddenly became cheerful and puffed out her chest. It didn't seem like
she was lying. My little sister wouldn't lie about matters pertaining to
contests. Since she's one with an overwhelming sense of pride.
"............ yeah."
That's great. It's not like you came running back here with a clean score
sheet.
The truth was that this girl came back after returning a blow to the wall of
the world[7]. There wasn't a need for Kirino to deride herself as if she
hasn't accomplished anything at all.
Kuroneko started with the side of her mouth twitching upwards into a broad
grin.
"I see. It's just that you won when you were coincidentally in your perfect
condition."
"You are a really detestable one, you know."
"...... fu...... what do you mean, I wonder? If you don't say it out clearly, I
won't understand, you know?"
Once again, with a sharp jerk, Kirino averted her eyes from Kuroneko,
And at that moment, her eyes widened for an instant as if she had just
noticed my presence. But then---
Ahem, I cleared my throat, faced my little sister who had not set foot onto
the great land of Japan for several months, and said to her the following.
Credits
Story : Tsukasa Fushimi
Illustrator : Hiro Kanzaki
Translator : Chaos, larethian, Seaghyn16