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Let it flow

After school Lia ran with her friends, rushed to change into uniforms with home clothes. With a
big smile, Lia was very well known by her friends as a child who was humorous, kind, and a
tomboy. Lia has a cousin who is very close to her, namely Wina she is a very close cousin like a
sister, lia and Wina are two people who complement each other, lia has a brown skin physique
and Wina has white skin like Koreans, one day they played at home Cindy, the spoiled child
classmate of Lia and Wina, they play like children their age, big things start from small things in
elementary school when children are still innocent like Lia, Wina and Cindy. It all started with a
game they played, Cindy was a selfish child, a show-off and arbitrarily, Cindy made a game for
Lia and Wina to play, at that time she said to Lia and Wina, “we will play chasing ghosts” Lia
the innocent asked “how was the game? “ Cindy said she would tell what to do, until then she
said the rules of the game are who wears the ugliest and shabby clothes at this time she will play
as a ghost, suddenly lia sees her clothes, she realizes that among them the ugliest clothes are her
clothes. , she plays and accepts the fact that her clothes are ugly she can play a ghost, but what’s
left after that day is lia realized the world is always unfair, she feels why other kids can have
interesting things like nice clothes when she doesn’t, lia thinks money allows people to do
interesting things. He is a child whose age is still very small but his mind is like that of an adult.
At school, Lia always gets bullied from her friends just because she is physically the opposite of
her playmate Wina, her tan skin is ridiculed a lot as dirty, she is even called coffee that goes with
sugar when she walks with Wina, but Lia is a child. Who thinks as an adult he always knows
what to say and what to do to defend himself, she is a tough kid, it can be seen from the many
insults and bullying that are intentionally or unintentionally. When she was a teenager, her
parents stumbled into serious economic problems, and caused her father to have to go abroad to
find a bigger income, or we can call it working as a migrant worker. Before parting with her
father, Lia was sure that everything would be fine, her father was the type of person who was
very unpredictable, Lia’s mother was a patient and perfectionist. At that time, when her father
was abroad, Lia and her mother were looking for a new place to live.
A few years passed, everything was fine, until finally Lia’s father and mother divorced, Lia
knows what caused it to happen but a child at her age can’t possibly take care of such a big thing,
this problem really hits Lia, Lia feels everything she has got destroyed, lia's father has not been
in touch since her mother divorced, painful things passed so quickly lia and her mother started a
new life with new hope.
Lia’s teenage life begins with turmoil in her heart, she feels pain in the days she goes through,
teenagers her age need a good education, a supportive environment and beautiful days. Lia is
mentally unstable, many things she does without thinking, she causes trouble at school making
her mother anxious by not coming home for days and not caring what people say about those bad
things. Lia felt so depressed because of the economic problems and chaos that happened to her
family, Wina at that time had a big influence on Lia, Wina always gave good advice and was
always there when she felt depressed, one day on a slightly cloudy afternoon under a frangipani
tree in the park around the village, lia cries and asked herself, why did all this happen to me?
Can I live normally in a world that I already consider abnormal? “. What he considered normal
in her assumption was, people had complete families, other people had fathers who were by Her
side, and harmonious families. Lia always feels sad when she sees other people close to her
father. Lia’s unstable teenage years were very worrying, but Wina made things not too bad, she
became a good friend and listener and a good adviser.
Entering high school, she was still a little unstable but she was able to come to terms with
herself a little, the character that was formed in her was the result of her problems, she felt that
God was unfair, she said “since I was little God has never given me happiness, do I not deserve
to be happy? “Lia said, her high school years were spent studying and working part-time at a
grocery perfume shop, Lia was so used to her broken home life, and the problems in her life
made her a stronger person.
On the night after the call to prayer, lia accidentally saw her mother crying in her room, the
incident made her anger come back, the feeling that was not too painful came back, her eyes held
back tears, didn’t want to add to her mother’s sadness she wouldn’t cry in front of her mother she
instead sat and rubbed her mother’s eyes with a smile on her face, lia said “everything will be
fine” but lia did not practice what she told her mother to herself. In the middle of the night he
even burst into tears, he thought a lot about what to do to make mom happy.
In a dark corner of his room he contemplated all day, she couldn’t even eat, she returned to
remembering all the painful things that happened as a child, one morning she came out of the
house and wanted to see the surroundings, lia met with Wina’s mother, lia’s mom is a sister of
her father, lia in offered to work at Wina’s house to help Wina’s mother with household matters,
when she got home she talked about the offer, and beyond her expectations her mother was very
angry and said “how can a child who is tired of raising me let me be a maid even though the
salary is big…” said Lia’s mother, she strongly disagrees with him that it is a big insult, Lia
feels sorry and remembers her childhood that she looked shabby and often got bullied, she
thought “My ruthlessness makes people think that I deserve to be a slave…” Then at that time he
was determined to become a slave. Someone who is not easy to be underestimated, he plans to
embarrass the people with what they have said.
After graduating from high school, she worked in a large mall with a decent salary but the
working hours she worked were the same as working hours for a machine, from morning to
morning she worked to meet the needs of the family, she felt mature enough to take on that
responsibilities , But suddenly one day she fell ill for a few months, she thought God was so hard
on her, she felt jealous of the lives of others she saw around her, she wondered why her life
wasn’t easy, day after day passed, she was surfing on Social media and saw the opening of a
scholarship for college, suddenly lia dreamed of getting the scholarship, then she thought she
would try to get it, she really wanted to go to college like her other friends but couldn’t because
she didn’t have enough money and a lot family problems.
 Lia was so diligent in studying because she was going to take the test for the scholarship, she
had high motivation at that time, she thought she should get the scholarship, arrived on the test
day for the SBMPTN she had a high fever, even her body was weak, she had tried so hard to
learn how maybe he didn’t take the test, then he forced himself to take it, and passed the test
feeling dizzy and feverish.
A few weeks later the test results came out with a high score, he was confused why his score
was high while the material she was studying did not come out in the questions, and by watching
Mrs. Lia was about to open an announcement on the SBMPTN website, when she opened she
was a little nervous but she couldn’t say , it turns out that she was accepted at the university she
wanted all this time by getting a scholarship, this is the first time she feels that God is listening to
her prayers, everything is gradually getting better, her mental finances and life problems are
gone, she is very proud of the struggles and pain she went through , her mother is proud that she
can go to college without having to beg from others and her father who has forgotten his
responsibility to his daughter.
Lia feels that she is a lucky person, she thinks that if God doesn’t give her a father to support her
life, God sends her sustenance from other things which is very sufficient. That Sunday morning
when she was relaxed and sitting on her couch, lia smiled alone and spoke to herself, “It turns
out that God is very fair, he gave pain and trials to shape me today, I feel grateful for the life that
God has given to me and my mother are not lacking one day at a time. This time, I will learn not
to see people from their appearance like what I got as a child, God knows when I have to be
happy “ with the money he got from scholarships, Lia’s family’s economy became more
advanced. She has a small business and a shop which her mother built with the money earned
from scholarships. God is so fair he will not let his servant not eat and can not live well. The
thought that she built from childhood by judging God to be very cruel to herself disappeared,
finally she knew how God gave everything to shape her into a great and happy person. God
gives what we need not what we want, God knows better what is good and what is not.
Everything happened with a reason, we just to be patient and doing something right and nice.
Time know the answer that God gives.