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Big Ugly

by Fust

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1.
Spangled 04:43 video
They tore down the hospital Out on Route 11 I’m not sure what happened Seems like repossession And I’m not one to try to get all the way to heaven but now I can’t even visit the last place it was relevant Now I can’t even visit the last room I may have been in it So give my love to Amy, give my love to Kevin They tore down the hospital And I’m left floating in room 305 I’m floating forever, 305 They say the night gets spangled When you can’t get enough to drink Well I’ve been drinking So the night looks spangled to me Yeah I’m feeling pretty spangled I’m feeling pretty blue Off a bridge on VA-305 In the Shenandoah In the Shenandoah Up in that north country blue Yeah I’m feeling pretty spangled I’m feeling like heaven I’m feeling like a sparkler That’s been thrown off a roof And I’m left floating off VA-305 I’m floating forever, 305 Well the rain is hard and it pools up Pools up hard in a septic ditch But not enough to drown me out So I’m left looking up at this At these stars spangled Wondering who’s the god of that sky and who’s the god of memory? And what kind of kids did they kid? And can they make it rain a little more Fill this ditch up to the brink Cause I’m not trying to spend my final days In a Shenandoah precinct Precinct 305 I’m left floating off VA-305 I’m floating forever, 305
2.
Gateleg 04:54
Some days when the hot stays You walk down to Maggie’s place Cause she sells the load All the things that you can’t grow Like the cans, bags, tins, and smokes All the pull-tabs and OTC rolls But what’d you go down the mountain for? Was it them or Maggie? Some days when the floor is cold You go knockin’ on Maggie’s door Saying “can I buy a half-cord? I know I should have planned the season…” She inherited from her pa We all know why she feels so small You want nothing more than to help her So just get the job You ain’t gonna work on the line no more You’re gonna work at Maggie’s store Yeah you ain’t gonna work on the line no more You’re gonna work for Maggie You’re gonna stock, bag, shelve, and load You’re gonna do everything you’re told I still remember you walking down the mountain With that gateleg you built her Cause you remembered that the car was propped Up on cinders at Jerry’s lot He can’t put it back together but Boy he can take it apart Helped with haunching back in spring Had the car then and it was running But like the car or the false dawn, Maggie I keep thinking that you’re gonna break You ain’t gonna work on the line no more You’re gonna work at Maggie’s store Yeah you ain’t gonna work on the line no more You’re gonna work for Maggie
3.
Doghole 03:41
How did I not know you had all that in you? You had all that that you did not show Oh what’s that you said I said it’s a doghole I guess I get excited when you let it show Dig down, go to ground Dig down, go to ground Come on let the dog out Dig down, hole in the ground My family used to get down there Worked for Union Carbide It ain’t much but it’s a place beyond the hillside With the hairline cracks hidden Watchdogs on the ridge ridden We do our best but the best-laid plans often go missing Dig down, go to ground Dig down, go to ground Come on let the dog out You don’t know how far it goes But if you did You’d be looking for something Incredibly well hid You don’t know how far it goes But you cannot turn around And where would I go if I could So just dig down, go to ground Dig down, go to ground Come on let the dog out Dig down, hole in the ground
4.
We have our own language Well I had mine But yours has all those ways of saying how and why So we use yours But I still dream in mine I still dream in mine But if we make it up the mountain again We’ll be back with country friends And there’ll be language on the mountain again Oh what country, friends, is this? 87 dollars on the worst stuff in the store I don’t even think it’s going to be enough But if it were I’m just buying scrap Know I’m just buying scrap So don’t make it out to be more than that I’m not more than that But if we make it up the mountain again We’ll be back with country friends And there’ll be language on the mountain again Oh what country, friends, is this? You can’t even find work at the Country Boy Selling gas station drugs To take care of your sister Dallas She’s a little older than us She’s a little older than us But if we make it up the mountain again We’ll be back with country friends And there’ll be language on the mountain again Oh what country, friends, is this?
5.
Sister 04:37
It’s so hard now To feel the rain you used to rain down I can’t pick you up now I can’t take you out Wrecked, wounded, wore down The bread hasn’t even molded yet The light’s still on the brink that I fixed last week You helped me hold it We can't stop sleeping, it’s the most dangerous game to do I whisper should we get up Why, so the pain can get up too? I’m here but I’m down I’m here but I’m broken down
6.
Bleached 03:29
Lost my grasp of English Somewhere between here and the beach On Sunday morning boring angels Drag me out to see things Lost my sense of hearing Between the bulkhead and backseat I'm thinking of a boring angel Though she’s not one of these Boring angels carry me Boring angels I can’t see Oh but they see me Holy water bucket Sloshing round down at our feet I’m bound to be a boring angel Though I try not to be Well last I heard Corey He was living on the national dirtway I’m thinking of his summer blonding In those days I was barely happening Boring angels carry me Boring angels I can’t see Oh but they see me Bleached, were you in the sun? Did you have fun? Yeah you seem lighter Like when you were young Bleached, if I seem gone Then I am gone I am not lighter Just because I’m gone Boring angels, boring angels Boring angels carry me Boring angels I can’t see Oh but they see me
7.
Thirty miles from where I’ve been And of all the goat houses you could find me in I’m perfectly far from you But god it’s so hard in asking did they even really like you And what did they like about you Did they want to see you gone Cause when you’re gone they can say that it was all your doing It was your disaster And they may even say everything got better after But they’ll learn fast that being free it ain’t half as rewarding Come on in we’re loafing We’re doing fine now that I have fallen I got out of those goat house blues That they’ll just get next year too Lucky me But god it’s so hard in asking Did they even like drinking with me And did they think me escaping would fix things Cause when you’re gone they can say that it was all your doing It was your disaster And they may even say everything got better after But they’ll learn fast that being free it ain’t half as rewarding With all the blight gone and all that work for hire It must’ve been me who kept the last house from being wired Yeah I’ll learn being free it ain’t half as rewarding
8.
Is this a movie Is this like a movie Is this a water tower thing Where I impersonate Somewhere between a wild kid and a lightweight Is this too personal Is this a personality trait You know how to come, and you know how to go Everyone looks up when you walk in And we don’t know when you do or don’t suffer Did you see the comet I’m sure you saw it coming You’ve got a gift A raw talent for being put up with When you get too loud Is this being too pissed to notice anything To notice anyone Are these anger issues, and are they unlike anyone’s Are they unlike yours That’s what thirty years undercover will do All that mystery The mystery of will I have mystery with you You know how to come, and you know how to go Everyone looks up when you walk in And we don’t know when you do or don’t suffer
9.
Jody 05:19
When it’s pass out time from working When I watch Jody put the heavy down I’ll put away what’s left in the outside fridge Til there’s one less night in the south Me and Jody been at this since high school We’ve been at this now longer than we’ve not And I think that as I watch her stir her heavy with her finger And I’ll never get enough of what I’ve got Yeah I’ve always loved you when you’re messed up I’ve always loved you when you’re messed up As southern kids we learned how to drink enough It’s all we’ve got And it’s easy But sometimes it still hurts to see you love me When it’s pass out time in Lincoln County When Jody’s trying to find a way to feud I put myself down from this big big world Until I know which Jody I am talking to Me and Jody been at this since high school We’ve been at this now longer than we’ve not And I think that as I watch her watching midnight in the TV I’ll never get enough of what I’ve got No I’ve always loved you when you’re messed up Yeah I’ve always loved you when you’re messed up As southern kids we learned how to drink enough It’s all we’ve got And it’s easy But sometimes it still hurts to see you love me It’s pass out time in the boondocks and It’s pass out time on the subfloor and It’s pass out time mid-pain when I Know there’s gonna be so much more It’s pass out time from the badness It’s pass out time on this tilt-a-whirl I’ve done my time so call off the guards tonight Jo, put me down from this big world
10.
Big Ugly 02:13
They’ll have to haul me off Off a down slope In some front end loader In a pine box If they want me gone If they want me lost If they don’t want my lonesome here They’ll have to haul me off Cause I’ve signed my name to the Guyandotte River And I will remain til this lonesome mind sends me down her In a pine box I love the kind of love that it shows me Where even if I’m sometimes slowing down I know I’m slowing over you and I’ve got the mud of Big Ugly running through me And I’ll never get it off or get it out Though I know what the rain can do Oh, I love this town it shows me my lonesome’s written in the stars
11.
Heart Song 03:43
There was something I was getting to It was something I may never do But I could tell it was getting to you The kind of night that I’ll never have done The kind of day that I’ve never begun And you could tell me it’s something I may never know How have I been? Have I been okay at living? How have I been? Do I have heart when I’m blacking out from living? There was something I was getting to When I met you Did I make you forget what You were supposed to be getting? Are you the one who takes me upstairs And loves me so quietly? If so, please, don’t love me for the things I’m missing How have I been? Have I been okay at living? How have I been? Do I have heart when I’m blacking out from living?

about

“The enormous, long river of storytelling, fed by ancient headwaters, shoring up time, bounded by landscape and people and witness to the beauty and anguish of each. Deconstructed ballads and reveries of drunk ghosts, obtuse and palatable superimposed. The relatable not just accompanied but defined by the very weird. Kitchen-table images from a spotty memory, beater cars mystically lifted, characters coming and going, old friends on the porch. In this town everyone knows each other, knows each others’ business, and everyone’s got strange trouble. Big Ugly is beer-fisted radio country from a post-verbal hermit; “Oh what country, friends, is this,” a line from “Twelfth Night,” uttered by Viola after being shipwrecked on an unfamiliar shore, one that might hold new life or prove to be another disappointment. Nobody moves. The voice is home, but home is a mystery. We get older and learn nothing, our world barely recognizable. We help each other out. We stay in a place that is losing its future, whether out of commitment or despondency. Big Ugly is Southern mountain rock, Southern lit, made and dedicated to the inextricable entity of land and people, to visions of community and utopia and testament to erosion. The country is a steady drum beat and fried guitar. The language is a dream.” – Dan Wriggins

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credits

released March 7, 2025

Recorded at Drop of Sun Studios in Asheville, NC
Alex Farrar: Engineering, Mixing, Mastering
Cameron Woody: Assistant Engineering

Performed by
Aaron Dowdy: guitar, vocals, and synth
Avery Sullivan: drums and percussion
Frank Meadows: piano and percussion
John Wallace: guitar and vocals
Justin Morris: guitar, pedal steel, vocals
Libby Rodenbough: fiddle and vocals
Oliver Child-Lanning: bass, vocals, dulcimer, and synth

With help from
Alex Farrar: guitar and lap steel (4)
Dave Hartley: synths (5, 6)
Jacob Bruner: horns (3, 11)
John James Tourville: pedal steel (1, 3, 5, 8, 11)
Merce Lemon: vocals (8)

Big Ugly Community Center: cover painting
Ben Dowdy: photograph of cover painting
Sasha Popovici: painting on top of cover, type
Charlie Boss: photography of the band
Aaron Dowdy: design

All songs written by Aaron Dowdy

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