It was Mental health awareness week last week and Clive at Take it Easy is an advocate for this cause. Each year having read his posts I am joining him today to highlight the plight of people suffering. Please read Clive’s post the link is above. To his post 2019.
Below is a post I wrote in 2013…when I was at a very low ebb..trying to cope with my life after breaking my back for the second time. I am proud to say this is something that I no longer do. ( Well very rarely)
Guilty Secret
I am a grown up, I must be, look at my age
But I self harm just like a teenager, in a rage!
I don’t cut but I scratch until I bleed
I make sure it does not show, no to show is not a need.
I do it because I hate myself, because I am so unsure
Sometimes it is the only thing that helps me to endure.
Right now I feel I am loosing the tenuous grip I hold on life
There seems to be only fine lines and they all lead to strife.
I really should be passed all this, I am a grown woman
But when things get fraught I scratch because I can.
I do not want to do this I am ashamed to admit
I hope that if I write it down, I find a way to stop it.
This is not my back but it could have been back then.
Dermatillomania, also known as excoriation or skin-picking disorder, is a body-focused repetitive behavior (BFRB) characterized by the compulsive urge to pick at one’s skin. It often leads to tissue damage, scarring, and emotional distress, and is typically treated with a combination of therapy and medication.
New pills
lozenge shaped
white and round they lift me
Sleep is a feeling new to me
Tablets
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Tired
eyes drooping low
muscles aching, with such pain
these feelings are all new to me
Passed out
Sadness
sinking, falling
dragging me downstairs so deep
loosing my senses, to evil
New pain.
So to all of you out there suffering with any form of depression or mental illness please know you are not alone…. Get help, talk, listen open up . 💜💜💜💜
willowdot21 
