howdy, everyone! long time no blog! somehow it's march and here we are-- let's catch up.



in february i had the grim realization that, for the first time in 3 years, i forgot about three sentence ficathon... i betrayed that which i hold most dear. i can forgive myself because january was crazy packed (i got engaged in december, have to make some plans accordingly, did the most insane con crunch of my life, went to an anime con, went to d**neyland for the first time, prepared for my first foray into continuing education, assorted family obligations here and there) so i hope you can see why i didn't really have 3SF on my mind! but i may have to go back and do some fills regardless because it feels dirty not to participate... 3SF my beloved i hope you will forgive me!

i did write fic in february, though! i did a pinch hit for rare femslash exchange because my toxic trait is signing up for pinch hits when my wife is out of town lmao. i wrote a circuitous route that brings us back to the beginning, an anko/fem!orochimaru fic for myhaus_spaeter because how could i say no to such a request? i think about anko's fraught relationship with being an esteemed student to a mysterious and powerful individual only to be cursed and abandoned. she really is one of my favorite characters in a series that, for better or worse, i adore a good chunk of the cast for. the scene in the chunin exam arc where anko is fully willing to get rid of them both is very much at the emotional forefront of this fic. it probably won't be everyone's cup of tea but i had a lot of fun with it! it's honestly kind of healing to write something that you know perhaps 3 people will enjoy and hit "post" anyway. the me of 5 years ago would have had a heart attack if they saw i posted this to my main account lol. but now i am free as a bird!! big thanks to my recipient for the request, it instantly sparked joy and i had to do something about it.

i also attended citrus con, a virtual BL/queer media con, and when i tell you this was the highlight of my month! the closing of fujocon (another virtual BL con) left a big void in my heart so i was ecstatic to be able to attend citrus con this year. special thanks to gg8473 for reminding me to get my 2026 ticket, this was a really special time. i love being able to talk with other fans in this niche; i've always had the best conversations in these spaces. there were so many really engaging talks throughout the weekend, with my favorites being a talk on star trek letterzines and a presentation of rarepair manifestos (my favorite!!). it's hard not to feel invigorated by the power of fanwork, to come away feeling like you absolutely have to make something now or you'll explode! i will do my very best to chase that feeling because it's so cool. we should absolutely be sending each other more mail. SNS is over! it's all about S(tamps)(a)N(d)S(lash) now. anyway, it was a very chill and encouraging space, suffice it to say. talked everyone's ear off about doujinshi and abo and mpreg oh my!

i started a meetup/discussion thread for BL fans of western movies/film, which somehow no one else had done first. i was shocked! don't fujin want to yell about inception or whatever? at fujocon 2021 i had a lengthy and beautiful discussion about poirot yaoi with someone-- is this not what we all yearn for? but i'm glad i did it because i had a lot of fun with the people who stopped by to chat in the thread. TBH, i thought i'd spend the entire time grandstanding about all the presidents men yaoi, but i was very cutesy and respectful with my time and only talked about it A Little Bit. but man, citrus con has me chomping at the bit to watch more movies! i know that movie fandoms can fizzle out quickly by virtue of what they are (an often one time thing with a clear beginning middle and end) but for me it's one of my favorite spaces to explore in a fannish way. it's really fun to work within the constraint of those 90+ minutes and find where you can place those "missing scene" fics. what juicy post-canon awaits? you decide!! the fics that those folks had written are lovingly bookmarked and in wait of a free afternoon during which i can comment (as they deserve).

this is all to say-- i had the best time and i think you should give it a shot, too! tickets for 2027 are available now BTW (it's free!)

almost everyone who followed me post-con followed me over here on dreamwidth, which is really exciting! dreamwidth is so special to me, so it warms my little heart to see that it's a mutual feeling.

so that was february for me! what was your february like? tell me about something fannish that has you pumped up these days. do you have any BL recommendations? please, do tell!