comic i made for Make A Terrible Comic Day (june 24) this year. featuring asterisk
drawn with trackpad bc im out of town with just my laptop.
i doodled some more asterisk the next day. little bit experimental. still figuring out how i want to draw it but i think im getting closer to a consistent design. also drawn with trackpad lol
hi all. i should probably write something its been a bit! its summer now!! i did well during this last semester/year, so im feeling good about that :} looking forward to resting for a few months and having some interesting classes in the fall.
over the summer im planning on (hopefully) getting a job, learning to drive, visiting francess, learning some more javascript, playing with my team (& getting our roster finalized asap), working on my website, and helping my dad out with the pond in our backyard.
but yea summer has been treating me well so far, im dozin quite a lot but im easing back into a routine. i've been honestly pretty insecure the past couple months so im still dealing with that highkey!! but i am trying to come out of it as a kinder and more confident person. trying to be softer, but still true to myself.. bein patient with myself thru the process, & trying not to be TOO introspective.. yadda yadda the usual self improvement shtick.
but uhmmm ya not a whole lot else to talk about!
OH deltarune came out today which is crazyyyy i low key wanted it to get delayed a few weeks LOL i am NOT ready for this zeitgeist. i still need to play ENA man.. i havent started playing yet but im gonna start on ch 3 tonight. at some point later ill go thru and replay everything and try and get all the secret boss items or routes i was missing (cause i think rn im missing the jevilstale/scythe sooo).
also i realllly need to learn how to drive, despite how much i LOATHE cars. i want to be able to drive to my friends to hang out, especially as they are moving away from our hometown and/or as i make online friends. i want to be able to drive in to chicago to attend chishoals (splatoon monthly LAN) wayyyy more often, like i wanna go every month. but rn to get there i have to get someone to spend a day in chicago bored waiting for the event to finish so they can drive me home.. its usually always my mom.. very much appreciate that she has done that for me but i really need to get my license.
another thing, i had some gift money and i got a pond ita bag from toripng, the last in stock! im really excited about it, i think its sooo beautiful and ive got some awesome pins to put in it.. a lot of my pins are still in my apartment (we havent fully moved out yet) so im waiting to post pics. but its really lovely.. it adds a lot that i have a connection to tori as he's an established splat community member who ive scrimmed multiple times.. our teams might end up being scrim partners even. so thats another reason i smile when i wear my bag (: really a lot of my bags have personal connection like that tbh..
ok last random thing to talk abt: some pages & features im planning for my website. next on my docket is i wanna make a splatoon page!!!! my teammate just started making his website and he already has a splatoon page i gotta step it tf up!! next i wanna make a page for squirreling! then i wanna make a page for my irl collections (hats, shirts, aliens, other treasured objects)! and i wanna make a page showing off my virtual avatars across multiple games! and after all this i'll really need a sitemap! im gonna hopefully get a big chunk of this done over the summer (especially if i dont land a job..)
thas all for now. thanx for reading!
[initially posted to tumblr (not public) but its rly just a blog post so im crossposting here. aside from this ive been doin alright lately. looking forward fo being done with the semester. rly excited for my splat team. still feeding squirrels & writing squirrel journals daily. (ill prob publish them to my site at some point). been a bit insecure abt all manner of things but i push thru it. been playing a lot of w101 with fran and ill do a wiz house tour vid at some point soon🙂]
dude i had another tryout with pjackk challenge (my splatoon team i am putting together) yesterday and it was also the first time the 3 established roster members actually played all together
(the third team member we added w/o playing all together for several reasons: me and the second member are both friends with them so we know we get along + we've both played with them plenty before + theyre at our skill level + they were the first person i asked to join my team + they were planning to join us when the league season was done + we were already pretty sure their weap pool would slot in w/ our team comp)
but anyway we held a tryout yesterday to try out a possible fourth member (but also we wanted to make sure that the third member actually synergized with the team comp since we hadnt played all together yet)
and it went soooooooooooooooooo well. it was rly just so much fun and the energy was fantastic and we were all laughing the whole time and giving great comms and playing really well together and the team comp was really clicking..
the type of comp we're running enables all the weaps all play really dynamically.. it lets me play a bit more aggressive as explo, it lets our dynamo play forward, and our fourth said he was able to play decav more supportively which made him happy! which made me very happy because it enables the fluid playstyle that makes me happy! still some room to improve with coordination & figuring out how the comp wants to play (not super intuitive since its pretty off meta & the roles shift a lot within a match) but it felt rly rly good we kind of steamrolled and this was against a team who we know is pretty good/at our level too.
genuinely i said mid scrim "im so glad to be playing in a team comp that lets me get mid stats every game" and i meant it wholeheartedly.. my last team was a collegiate team and i was the carry and most of the pickups ive been doing during the games lifespan have had me play a more standard explo where im hard anchor & very passive (altho i dont really mind passive gameplay i just think explo can do more than that), so i tend to get lots of assists and paint and specials and not die a lot. but with this comp i can play to explo's potential to be extremely oppressive at midline sometimes (while still holding anchor frequently). so i die more and my stats dont look as impressive but i feel like im playing really well and we're winning..
so its confirmation that our weird team comp idea actually works + the fourth member we were trying out is like a perfect fit weapon-wise and energy-wise and skill-wise. it was so fun and we cooked so hard it was kind of shocking.. the fourth is still trying out for other teams so we dont know 100% if he'll join us or not but like. dude it was electric.
i havent had that much fun with a scrim in a while..u know a scrim was good affffff when ur teammates are talking like this afterwards and during
today i got dead god in binding of isaac repentance!!
been a while since ive made an actual blog update and not like. a squirreling update lol. atm im home for "fall break" (labor day and indigenous day smushed together for 2 days off) and ive got nooooo homework or studying to do at all. so im horribly jolly and cozy and happy. been spending some time working on my site & reading some html/css documentation. im looking to make somr custom elements for the next update..
ive been doing rly well in my classes this semester, although im still really struggling with my morning routine.. ive been late to my classes pretyy frequently BUT ive been much kinder and more patient with myself than i have been in the past, and im keeping up with the course content just fine.. im doing my best to keep trying diff things to get my mornings in shape and hopefully something will stick at some point. calling with a friend in the morning is the cureent strategy i want to keep pushing..
but ya not a whole lot going on with me. im in good spirits just chilling. kicking back. rocking out. etc. i might be dying thr tips of my hair while im home which is fun!! i hope october has been kind to you all so far!
oh yeah i wanted to post an image with each blog entry. here's this big as fuck Jumbo blueberry. i hope one day i can eat a giant freak blueberry like an apple
in the morning i saw and fed a few different squirrels. i dont have names for any of em!
( Read more... )so inbetween my last blog entry and this one i have done a lot of squirreling around campus. id like to keep up the regular habit of blogging my squirreling excursions but first i have to clear out my backlog of photos and videos. this is gonna be a long one and i probably wont even finish it tonight caus i wanna go to bed on time tonight lol.
im also currently unsure where im going to host all my squirrel pics/vids because theyre really going to add up in storage space. for now im just gonna use my neocities storage but i dont think it will last too long, especially if im not resizing the images at all. in any case im struggling to approach this blog entry because ive just. done so much the past 12 days !!! i dont wanna leave anything interesting and fun out but i really have been doing a lot. so ill just start from where i left off i guess!
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made this the other day while my friends were playing a long game of broken picture phone. i joined them too late to play along so i just fiddled around in photoshop. ive been having a lot of fun with ps layer styles recently, especially bevel/emboss/contour. this was the first time ive tried applying that skill to a me-drawing and i think it looks pretty niceness {:
im not sick anymore!! and im goin back to classess. im in good spirits and ive caught up on most of my missing work, so im doin good. i even accidentally went ahead in my web design class lol.
so as an intro, ive always loved squirrels a lot. one of my fave animals. wonderful critters. and recently the past month or two ive been watching a lot of squirrel videos on youtube.mostly videos of feeding wild squirrels, but ill sometimes watch vids of domestic squirrels post-rehab. im pretty picky and ill only watch something and oogle at the squirrels if im confident the squirrel population isnt being harmed in any way or w/e. point is im a pretty big squirrel fan and ive been extra squirrelpilled lately.
so, w/ me being on a small(ish) uni campus we have a population of friendly fox squirrels. theyre very used to human activity and know that students will sometimes even feed them or at least leave behind food. base-level fear of humans is low.
so this has culminated in me buying a bag of almonds to carry around. partially to feed squirrels that i see, but also cause i need more protein & its just a good portable snack lol. the idea is if i walk by a wonderful squirrel and its not even running away from me, now i can reach into my bag and give it some healthy food that it likes!! and its cute its so cute. but also i tend to sit outside on the benches on campus a lot between my classes bc i dont wanna go back to my apartment. and ive found that this time is great for squirrel watching. so why not squirrel feeding too?!?
today (referring to the 11th) was basically the first day i did this. and dude. i got fucking hooked on squirrels. i was squirreling hardcore. i was the enjoyfulsquirrelwatcher.
i spent like 3 hours outside on the campus wandering around/sitting on benches and watching squirrels. i watched a long-term feud between two chipmunks. i heard many different squirrel and chipmunk noises. and i of course fed some squirrels.
i fed a total of three different squirrels today!! one in the morning and two later during my long squirreling session. they all had different personalities its really true.. the latter two i spent a great deal of time watching and interacting with. the first one, who i've been calling Almond or Sally (ill think of a decent name later lol) was the only female i saw today out of many many squirrels!! and i believe she is pregnant as well, or at least has some babies. her fur was also a bit thin in places, probably losing her summer coat. she was very calm, and even before i started interacting with her she was eating seeds in the same place for like 40 minutes. her movements were gentle but confident. she got a lot of almonds from me and would ask for more! she seemed to realize that the almonds i tossed were easier to find in the mulch than the grass so she would beg on the mulch lol.
the second squirrel, who ive been calling the alpha (he is undeserving of the title) chased away Almond a couple times. fox squirrels are very territorial!! initially, before i started interacting with either of them, he was fucking around in the tree above Almond and dangling eating seed pods and just generally being a goober. he came down the tree to scare away a third unknown squirrel that was harassing Almond. but then he also started harassing Almond LOL. anyway he has a very bright orange belly and tail, and very smooth fur. multiple times he sized me up, looking at me while standing on his hind legs, walking all around me (and under my bench), just really getting a good read on me. despite being above Almond in the pecking order and having a lot of energy, he was very flighty and got spooked easily. very curious about me but very cautious as well. when he asked me for more almonds he was much more direct, coming up to me faster & standing upright.
[do not fret, squirrels generally dont carry rabies and i sanitized after each time..] i handfed mr alpha twice even. it was so so sweet i felt their little paws and whiskers on my hand.... i got a ton of photos and videos. i had such a magical day.... i really want to keep doing this. i already feel like i have a connection with 2 individual squirrels....
im considering making a squirrelwatching page for my site where i can share pics and videos and stories and notes on individual squirrels..... cause literally that shit was so fun and i took so many pictures and vids that my phone died. and look at how much i wrote just now .. ya..
so thursday was really difficult for me because i learned that UPS totally fucked me over.. i spent most of wednesday making my riptide buttons (which i was planning to hand out in person, obviously) and cleaning them all one-by-one (over 50!) and preparing the package to send them in/the shipping details. i couldnt just hand off the buttons to my travel buddies because i didn't take the train home. because i have covid. so i was gonna overnight mail them to the kalahari and they would arrive friday morning, and then my friends and teammates could hand them out for me! it was one of the few ways i could still participate in the event and it really helped me cope to come up with this plan.
the way im writing this doesnt make a lot of sense like how im structuring this story but i dont really care enough to clean it up this is basically like a journal and ive already told this story like 4 times at this point so. anywayy. i was really excited to get these buttons to riptide and at like 9pm when i finished getting it all together we dropped off the package at a UPS dropbox, yknow rather than wait until tomorrow when the UPS store is open to go in person. figured that would be faster, get the package to them asap, doesnt require me getting my friend with a car to do me any favors. Well,. apparently they dont check the dropbox very often. they only got to it like 20 hours later, and because they got to it so late, the shipping estimate gained a day. but uh oh, 2 day overnight shipping doesnt ship on saturdays for some reason! and of course no packages are delivered sunday. so my little love letter wouldnt arrive at sandusky until monday, when the event is over and none of my friends are still there.
i called and emailed UPS and to summarize, there was literally nothing i could do about it. i could not pay more for a better shipping plan, i could not even get the package back until monday. so i just had to cancel the shipment. and have a really, really bad day thursday.
it was just like.. i already had atrocious luck getting covid before riptide, and i was coping by finding these small ways i could participate anyway. and this felt like i had got the rug pulled from under me, AGAIN.. like i Couldnt Even Have This. like the world was out to freaking get me. but all in perspective, its really not a big deal.. im planning on sending my buttons out individually to my friends who want them, and ill save a lot of them for riptide next year + chishoals. its not like they will never get handed out. and ill still be getting my wonderful signed poster !!!! and in the grand scheme of things its pretty small potatos u know...... but ya that made for a really really hard night. im rly chilling now. although a little sad watching all the images and stories from riptide day 1 pour in.. but im happy for my friends and community (':
AND IM STILL SICK BUT ITS OK
still testing positive today. only hope for still going is if i miraculously test neg tomorrow. and even then. and even then. and even then.. yea .
99% chance i dont go = 1% chance i can make it. WE LIKE THOSE ODDS
but ive been able to cope with it much better today. there are some things that can still happen even though i can't make it to the event in person.
so at every splatoon major lan the community has an official poster u can buy, and its tradition to get them signed like yearbooks. its really really fun. my poster from last year has a ton of signatures and its probably my fave poster ever.. so my plan is to pay my friends for a poster and have my teammates pass it around to sign. like how a kid gets their broken arm cast signed by the class. like im the make-a-wish squid....
also i made a bunch of buttons to hand out again like i did last year, including some buttons for my teammates of our pickup team logo. im planning to hand off these buttons to my travel friends, who will get them to my teammates, and then they can hand them out !!
so ya still really really sucks but im feeling much better thinking about my poster getting signed w/ well wishes n shit .. 🥹
well you know i was really looking forward to writing a blog post about riptide 2024. would be my second time going, as i went last year (my first splatoon lan! but i have since been to chishoals).ive been really really looking forward to riptide for the better part of a year now. my brother was even going to come with this time. all this past tense is probably making you nervous. well its true the worst has happened. mama tested positive for covid 2 days before leaving for riptide. despite masking every day. inside and outside. despite using hand sanitizer every time i return to my apartment. despite being like one of 3 people on the entire damn campus that still gives a shit about covid precautions. but god must like absurdist comedy as much as i do
its possible that tomorrow i feel completely fine and test negative. but i wouldnt feel really great about going just after recovering from covid anyway. i dont know. i likely wont even get that opportunity in the first place. i am so horridly devastated though and i want to go so bad. im so crushed im so heartbroken im so so so so devastated man. why me why now etc. what more can u even say about it. its just bad. im clinging to any possibility i can still go like im the man who invented a glue that lets him walk up the wall. sorry im just trying to cope LOL
i have a few things to be thankful for though. most importantly, i have a very mild case as far as i can tell. its mostly just been sore throat, worse appetite, a little nauseous sometimes. i dont have a cough at all which is great. im also grateful that my riptide pickup had 5 members, so me not being able to make it last second doesnt mean they have to drop at all. i would have felt REALLY bad if they couldnt play bc i got sick. another thing is my friends + brother that are still going will be able to get me stuff from the artist alley and get me the splat poster still.. maybe even pick up my custom badge 🥹..... and finally, i can remind myself ill be alright.... you know there will be more splatoon lans. more fun events with friends. its ok.
but um. yeah. very very likely im gonna not gonna make it to sandusky this weekend. and dont you worry this has already ruined my entire month. theres nothing more to say
here's an image from about 6 hours ago before i took my test, masked up outside. i have an urge to prove my innocence but my spite really makes no difference. its just sucks. sorry inkaritaville
guhhh ive been so needlessly stressed the past week or so. im doing fine like im getting to my classes & staying very organized and getting my work done.. i could stand to eat a bit more and be more consistent with brushing my teeth but ive been doing well. im still just super on edge and restless and having trouble relaxing though.. first week back at school after nearly a year and a lot of buildup and riptide in a week is definitely a lot of stress. im happy to be back at school and im of course excited and happy about riptide. but Ya its kind of a lot and im trying not to let it get to me too hard but ya..
aside from feeling like im constantly gritting my teeth and clenching my fists things have been going very well though. because of my chao hat (mentioned in previous blog post!) i made a friend in my english class immediately! ive just been referring to him as The Sonic Fan when i mention him lol. idk how good of friends we'll really end up being but its nice to have someone new to chat with its a little rare. i also have someone in my film class who i wanted to befriend a year ago before i left school & didnt get the chance to talk to.. i was really excited to see em & said hi. we had a very awkward convo & i could tell they were a little uncomfortable so i got out of there LOL buuuut im still happy to see a familiar face.
oh i also made cookies at like 2am that was fun. i hard committed to making a double batch and finishing it that night. i started around 11pm saturday and let me tell you. making a double batch chocolate chip cookies with no electric mixer is labor intensive. i was straight up mixing for 2 hours. it was worth it the cookies were very good and i was happy i finished them (:
yea the second batch that went into the oven i was really desperate to get the rest of my dough onto one pan so thats why that section of cookies is a bit crumbly. still tasted good. its the recipe my family always uses so it was a bit homey. we ate them all in like 5 days
well ya thats about it. hopefully my nerves will mellow tf out after riptide.. (yay riptide). and i will be sure to make a big blog post about riptide when im back!!!!!! 
omg and i forgot. i started my web design class and my professor is a literal christian missionary. im just gonna get my standard web practices knowledge and GO....
man i still havent cleaned up & made space for the blog yet. i probably wont publish an update until i get that going. unfooooortunately for me ive been recovering from ORAL SURGERY !! thats right mama got her cursed wisdom teeth out finally. and i didnt even say anything funny online or to my mom when i got off the gas! what a ripoff! i was a bit chatty & upset that i didnt get to countdown until i was put under but other than that i was very normal. i can check my texts from the time to prove it!
anyyyway. ive been recovering during basically everyones (including mine!) last week of summer in my hometown. so we've all been hanging out as much as poisssibleee but i was sickly and achey and swollen so i missed out on the last hoorah. thats ok though i probably needed a social break, we've been going pretty crazy this month (understandably so.. and i enjoyed it)
but yaaa in a few days i move back into my uni apartment. im still worried abt the semester and taking care of myself but i feel ive got a slightly better grip on it now. im gonna be able to handle it !!!!!!! ill be ok no matter what! & i got the support of a lot of close friends which i am very very grateful for. im looking forward to getting my routines in place back at school though, and im gonna take it eassyyyy. gona take it eeeaaasy. easyy. yaa
uhh heres my image of the week. or for the current entry i guess.
its a roblox screenshot from a new account i made where i was just listing off items in a random game & random children started joining in.
i did this, wjhere else, but at a culvers with aqua. where everything happens.
kayyy goodnight. actually i might poke around and stay up for another hour watching billy & mandy. we'll seeee
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i did not draw the ant.
