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ONE MORE FINAL UNTIL I AM LIBERATED FROM COLLEGE FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!

Except.... this final is Psychology --- the class I am not doing so well in. I need a 33% to obtain a D and a 55% to obtain a C. What's kind of sad is that I don't know if I can obtain either of those.

I was calculating my cumulative GPA last night. I found out that if I manage to get 2 Bs, 1 C, and a D, I'll have a 3.0. However, if I get straight Cs (which might be the outcome of this semester), I'll end up with a 2.98. @(#*&@(*!!!! I'm regretting in not taking a bullshit class like Figure Skating because I needed that A to boost up my GPA.

I'm kind of scared of graduating now since, lol, I still do not have a job. I applied for a job on Yahoo!Hotjobs last night and, lol, I applied for my first SCAM job. I thought Craigslist was the only place with scam jobs. I thought it was fishy when they didn't address their company and their pay was too good to believe. I never understood why job websites try to lie to job seekers. It's really annoying.

My boyfriend wants me to stay around the Ohio area next year because he doesn't want to not see me for a whole year+. At first, I was thinking about leaving him to attempt to find a job in Chicago because I have always wanted to live in a big city. The more I think about it, the more I do not like the thought of leaving him behind to live in a big city by myself. Sometimes, I feel as though finding a job in a big city is better/easier. I'm not sure. I still want to see him though. I cried a few days ago because I was scared that I'll never see him again after I graduate. He told me that I can live with him next year and not have to pay rent. Even though, this option sounds very nice, I feel that I would be mooching off of him and it won't necessarily jumpstart my dream of becoming a somewhat of an "independent woman."

So, what I am going to attempt to do is:
- Pray that I find a job that can pay me around 40,000 dollars a year
- Pray that I can find a job at all
- After finding a job, find a really, really cheap apartment to live in
- Live in there for a year and work at my job to get that crappy 1 year experience shit
- Study for possible higher, higher education (except at this point, I lack the motivation to go higher and lack the brain capacity to achieve higher)

You know, I wish I went to Pharmacy School.

There is that stupid saying, "the future is uncertain," well, I am definitely feeling it right now, and I do not like it at all. I feel as though the future is all about money and connections which makes me sad deep down.

I've also been contemplating if college was worth it, I actually do not know how to respond. I'm happy that I made friends even though we all kind of stopped seeing each other this semester. I'm happy that I met my boyfriend. I'm happy that I'm obtaining a useless degree. What I'm not happy is my school's career service plan. I'm not happy that I couldn't afford studying abroad which I have always wanted to do. I'm not happy that I never got an internship. I'm not happy that I wasn't more active around campus. I'm not happy that I switched around with 5 different on-campus jobs. I'm not happy with some of the professors at my institution. Overall, my feelings are very mixed, and, in someway, I do not feel awarded or accomplished in any way. It also makes me sad that I'm graduating and none of my friends wanted to see me before I graduate.

I wish I knew how to make my DW layout at least somewhat appealing to look at. Eh, I'll figure it out later. Right now, I should be studying for a Political Science test but I lack the motivation to study since I found out my test is not cumulative. Woooo!

I'm so close to graduating from college that I cannot seem to concentrate on anything anymore. Screw my grades at this point, I either know this crap or I don't. I'm so close to being done that I don't care. Lol, I might be regretting this decision later in life, but, ohhhh well.

Anyways, something completely off-topic Children's Week. Q)$(#@(#U!@!~!!! I'm not sure which I hate more Children's Week or Noblegarden. I managed to get the achievement [School of Hard Knocks] by sheer dumb luck. The only achievement that stands between me being Matron is freaking [Hail To The King, Baby]. On the first day of Children's Week, I had a horrible PUG where we managed to wipe 5 times. I haven't had time to attempt again at UP since my boyfriend has been dying, my stupid finals, graduation crap, and various of other obligations that I have to do. Ugh, Children's Week ends in 2 days and I somehow have to manage studying for my crappy finals and obtaining this achievement.

What sucks is that I could have had this achievement if it weren't for the awful PUG :(.

At least I got Willy :D



Isn't it cute? <3333333333~!

My aunt is apparently at my house for the summer. I really do not want to deal with her over the summer. I hope I can manage finding a job over the summer and that my college education of 4 years was not completely a waste.

P.S. - The little DW bats mood themes are super cute :3.