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 Hey! I am still around. More on bluesky these days. Maybe I should go on Nonhuman National Park more. I am lurking on Werelist. I don't have much to contribute these days. My days of active contribution are well behind me. I have 5 days until I am 30.

I am apparently still transmasc and very nonbinary with it. A body that was amab would be preferable but I would still be nonbinary. I wouldn't have as much to change as I unfortunately do in my current state.

I also consider myself undead now. It's kinda funny. I had a nde as a child. I was way too young to remember it myself but I was reading "The Bones Fall in a Spiral" by Mortellus when it clicked that I am one of the undead in the sense they mentioned. 

Since that book is about necromancy & real-life applications of it, I should mention another development. I decided to finally give in and reach out to Hekate. She's apparently been calling the marginalized since some point last year which tracks with when I started hearing it.

I asked her for a sign at last a few days ago. I asked "if it's not coincidence and if it's you, give me a sign I will recognize" and she did. It was crystal clear. So I suppose I am doing this now. Good thing is I don't have to ditch Kemeticism for this though I will not be syncretizing the two as was done historically. My focus isn't even really on the Greek deities as a whole, only on Hekate. If all goes well, I can be considered both Kemetic & Hekatean.

Excited to see where that all leads.
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Chasing squirrels is very satisfying on a dog level. I have wanted to. I just never did before because I felt like I would stress them out. I feel like if I was stressing them out, they'd be a bit quicker than that. I think this may actually be good for them. The one who ran up a tree in my front yard looked down at me and didn't even seem scared.

If I was in a physically canine body, I imagine their fear would be more prominent. These guys will eat out of hands if allowed. So of course they wouldn't be too scared. 

Oh but how fun & rewarding the chase is on its own!

Sidenote: I don't like how the predatory mood icon looks angry. Anger is not a part of my predator nature! So I am using a different one for the purpose and labelling it as "preying & chasing" since it seems using predatory on its own makes it that icon
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