Dizzy Words

When 50/50 was advertised on TV and in the cinema, I thought it was seemed good. I never got to watch it in the cinema, though.

Thursday evening Matt and I watched 50/50. It is a very good film. The beginning was a little to get used to, because of the sexual profanity - Seth Rogen's character, Kyle, asks Joseph Gordon-Levitt's character, Adam, if Adam's been having sex and when Adam reveals he hasn't, Kyle gets a little profane. It's in a good humor manner. However, when Adam is diagnosed with cancer, the actors do a very good job of showing how each character reacts to the news.

I cried during the film, I laughed during the film. Gordon-Levitt is exceptional at using his face to portray emotion. Rogen delivers his line and actions as the ostensibly funny man wonderfully. (Anna) Kendrick as the somewhat formal psychotherapist is fantastic. (She is a clinical psychology student on her way to her master's or PhD.)

I don't know how to talk about this movie without giving spoilers. Unlikes other TV shows or movies, I didn't want to find spoilers during this movie. I was so engrossed and so excited about this movie.

The movie did remind me about my cousins who passed away from cancer. Back in 1992 or so (I don't remember the specific year since I was a young child) and back in August 2010. It reminded me of my aunt and great-aunt who passed away from breast cancer, fleetingly, but more about my cousins because they were about the same age of the protagonist in 50/50.

Oh, well. I could re-download it again, though I'm using Dreamwidth to cross-post.

I still have laundry to do. Matt decided to come up today to give himself an extra day back home. We won't be able to do the dinner-bet tonight, but hopefully tomorrow. Though... I feel like there's something I'm forgetting... Oh, just remembered and not the best timing. But I should get the place a little more clean or get clean underclothing and socks to wear.

I miss the days of wearing sandals or flip-flops outside.

I got woken by a call from the seamstress nearby that my dress is still waiting for me. It's been ages since I last went down there. I have finally picked it up, and the wind made it a very unpleasant walk. I forgot my gloves and I couldn't tuck my hand holding the hanger/dress in my pocket because then it'd drag on the floor. Drat being a short person.  I have yet to try it on and see if it fits properly again. I bought it last year from Pin Up Girl Clothing. When I think of pin up body figures I think of Christina Hendricks. I thought she was gorgeous in Firefly, though I have yet to see any episodes of Mad Men. Matt and I both think she's beautiful.
( Pic spam of Christina Hendricks )

I feel anxious now, though I don't know what about. It's like this drifty feeling. I'm now able to think a little better compared to last night, and I seem able to care about things, though still not the same degree as before.

I'm bummed about Diana Wynne Jones's death. I thought I had a copy of Howl's Moving Castle but maybe I gave it away last May when packing up my room. :-( Our family also had an anthology of the Chrestomanci series, and we cared enough about them to wrap them in book covers. *sigh* I don't know where the books are now. My parents may not have bought a lot of our books with them, because they won't read them...

Sunday, August 15
1. Watched a lot of Law & Order: Criminal Intenet episodes
2. Successfully fasted that day!
3. Finished The Color of her Panties, a really old Xanth book
4. Made plans for later this week
5. Food and water!

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Friday, August
1. Actually making the cake with Matt! The Kek Batik! (I thought we were doing it Thursday night which is why it was a pre-emptive gratitude for Thursday. Which is why I generally dislike making gratitudes the day of when I still have plans for the rest of the night/I know I won't be sleeping for a while...
2. More headway in another (old) Xanth book
3. A fantastically yummy, delicious, filling dinner of roast beef, mashed potatoes + gravy and a huge salad with watermelons for dessert
4. When something really embarrassing happened and I was so mortified I cried, Matt sympathized and didn't tease me about it. Though, really, describing it as "a physical quirk" I have? No, more like a nuisance...
5. Being able to excuse myself from watching Kick-Ass with Matt, his brother and his mom without feeling bad or guilty about it. It's not my type of movie, and I was already in the middle of a bad headache.
6. Which led me to going to sleep earlier than I usually do. Yay, sleep.

Awww. The answers are amusing.

( Quizzes galore )

Not what I expected...

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	High-Moderate
Dysthymia:	High
Bipolar Disorder:	Moderate
Cyclothymia:	High-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Extremely High
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
Take the Depression Test

I'm professionally/officially diagnosed as having major depressive disorder. It'd be interesting if I also had dysthymia, but I don't know if my sometimes automatic cynicism and pessimism, and "gah, life is just so...pointless!" can be attributed to dysthymia.

The rating for Bipolar Disorder and Cyclothymia is also not what I expect. I rarely get "manic" as I understand from other people describing it to me, and reading the link to cyclothymia's entry. There are few days I get productive and clean out my room or something, but they don't usually last days. Heh. I do get restless thoughts and jump around topic to topic but I don't see it put under cyclothymia. Also, none of my friends have ever mentioned any kind of hint of bipolar behaviors to me.

I don't think I have SAD... Yes, I hate the shorter days during winter. Despite living here for several years, it can't dent the psychological and daily routine conditioning from having spent the majority of my life in S.E. Asia day and night were mostly 12-hour cycles year-round. Snow is pretty, and wearing sweaters is also another pretty thing, but winter is definitely my least favorite season. I feel trapped and stifled, not just by the longer nights, but also the coldness. The coldness that forces me to layer up, the coldness and snow that prevents me from moving quickly and with confidence outside. I tend to get sicker during winter, but I think that's more physiological than from Seasonal Affective Disorder. Not to mention my depression still hangs around during summer.

It's always interesting to take these quizzes online and see how much of it I agree or disagree with. Not just psychology tests, but also those "What piece of furniture represent you?" quizzes.