Starting Point

I must start somewhere for leisure or misfortune:

A palm tree outside our door, well spread leaves like wings

I walk with my walking stick to the river in pleasant weather

My balance mildly affected after I contracted long term covid

I slow my walk wary of obstacles, tiny and not always obvious

not evading the voice of reason: “Look and listen.”

I’m not anxious or scared.

I’m not hearing a chorus of voices.

I accept willingly the circumtances

like being aware of bones when eating a whole fish,

not fillet but a whole fish with improved flavor and texture.

A flower bud sprouting along the path

brings desirable pleasure when walking

or a startled bird or a squirrel that looks perplexed

looking one way or another way, leaving

the tree branches quiverring.

Or a starting ipoint can be my neighbor

who greets me a good day expression

and telling me, today is a day to rejoice,

to celebrate his friend’s arrival. 

They met in college, she says.

They plant tulips at the same time 

every year in their own gardens

music they share of different tastes

but Beethoven they both adore.

I have to say goodbye to my friendly neighbor

not every morning starts with a dissertation

though without mention of life’s calamities or extravagance

either of the river or at sea.

The books I’m reading: Fates and Furies by Lauren Groff, The Adventures of Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe and The Science of Learning Physics by Jose P. Mestre and Jennifer L. Docktor

One Day

One day I have to walk wearing only one shoe

My hand holds the other one

A mishap that happens so quickly

I sway with bending motions

as if I’m falling,

my awkwardness will attract attention,

looks, stares, surprised and scared

not a dereliction or alchemical mistakes.

It seems I lost my balance

I become a wanderer without destination

or I become simply an experiment in transformation:

a moving art of anguish

or the art of vigilance and balance

yin yang movements of shoulders, legs, and feet

few body contortions, grimaces

when measures are unequal

or a disruption like eating corn on the cobb

with two or three teeth missing.

People pass politely offering help

Others offer me many faces

I smile, say thank you,

continue my walk until I reach a park bench.

I sit, start to nurse my painful foot

and fix my broken shoe

distance between relief and agony narrows 

beginning of comfort.

I return to my memory

the joy of walking in the woods again,

a sudden illumination:

I can talk to the trees again.

The birds fly soundless with widely spread wings.

Spring begins today.

If there is a great accomplishment today

it is not because spring begins today

or none of my ankles are broken

or because I remember memory of spring,

it’s because a saint is smiling:

“Patience bears all things”.

note: The book I’m reading: Checkout 19 by Claire-Louise Bennett

Old men, like my grandfather, don’t smell of death 

Or lacking in knowledge

But they are determined to keep good posture,

Good balance and weary of falls

They try to maintain a sophisticated conversation 

And keep up with family activities

They realize that movements of limbs and wondering mind are essentials: 

Walking in the neighborhoods and taking photos of gardens, family dogs, other walkers

They are stones gathering no moss

They are discovering again the enthusiasm for the unfamiliar

They can offer wisdom if you seek one

Go dance with them

It is a renewed exaltation.

They are not martyrs or saints

They are treasures, time honored

Like all lives lived.

More Questions

Do I have to count my steps to know that my world has changed?

Do I always involve all my senses whenever I go out? 

Do I only remember what I experienced?

Would I remember what I imagined?

These seeds, these black pearls stir imagination.

My time warps

in gravitational universe

Where are you?

If time is ours

a long “sticky cuddle”

-a wide long think.

What is real?

What is controversial?

Did I open a secret?

Mutual learning exposed to the sun

shadows are temporary mists

everything becomes a borrowed book.

All toils

are not in vain.

If time

is ours

well, then

-a long “sticky cuddle.”

Eye and Bee

She longs for awareness

expansive reach of the eye

-wonders

Flowers

What is it to a bee?

-unimaginable

A leaf

What is it to the eye?

-a tree

note: All the photos were taken during my walk to the river today.

The Girl on a Skateboard

A girl stands on skateboard on her left foot,

right foot pushing against the road intermittently,

lifts her foot settles it next to her left foot

and coast for a good distance

before she repeats the motion again,

headphones over her ears

enjoying music or a podcast.

Is she ready to disturb the universe

or preparing?

I continue my walk to the.river

the white egret May return.

On my walk home

I’m thinking of five butterflies

I saw along the river

the wings are pale

not like sunrise or sunset.

Above me in the trees small birds are talking,

on my right, a commotion,

a squirrel stops to glance at me

then runs away.

Books I am reading: The Book of Nature by Barbary Mahany

and The Book of Unholy Mischief by Elle Newmarrk

Connections

Even a fox can get exhausted

straining for all the sounds.

The world will shrink if it doesn’t change

Opulence doesn’t guarantee happiness

She learns from an Indian friend

A butterfly can tilt Indra’s net.

Delight when scenery 

unfolds before you

wherever you are.

You may be alone 

but you will not be lonely.

Her silence is a conviction 

not to judge others 

by any standards.

She will pass by a garden

and admire a flower

for what it is.

A neighbor will ask her, 

Did you see Mary today,

going to church dressed 

improperly?

It is a warm weather finally,

she will answer.

She may not be precise,

that’s what she sees.

Why

She goes to school.

He goes to church.

Others look for their birthdays in the zodiac.

There are other ways of learning.

People are confused.

Life consists of many parts

Some parts are broken.

Then life changes enormously 

Like shifting shadows in the afternoon

Turned into giant mass of dark clouds enclosing the world,

Silent, hidden, and stilled.

People do not understand why

After they learn to spell catastrophe

They are not happy but distraught.

Pilgrimage

A pilgrimage of the heart,

an errand of the spirit

I will take a morning walk 

and knock on my friend’s door,

lean on a tree, feel the root’s vibrations.

I  will fold my hands and listen to stories:

People walking, their pockets heavy with stones,

birds singing sad songs and hiding  their wings from the sun

riverbeds with broken porcelains,

multi-syllabic prayers uttered in silence at Angelus.

A child and a lady smile and wave 

when I pass by on my way home 

on the sidewalk with wild flowers 

blooming next to the iron fence.

I have been walking to the river again since 4 days ago. I did not walk today.