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CURRENTLY
reading: her soul for a crown (2025) by alysha rameera
writing: nothing in particular
watching: many cartoons, still
playing: pirate yakuza in hawaii
listening: the aforementioned game's OST
eating: a banana
drinking: black tea
wanting: to finish my current cross stitch
feeling: a bit antsy

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CURRENTLY
reading: the mummy 1999 novelization (it's not great)
writing: nothing in particular
watching: many cartoons
playing: fields of mistria, still
listening: nothing in particular
eating: chocolate chip cookie
drinking: jasmine tea
wanting: my chores to be magically done
feeling: content

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CURRENTLY
reading: fanfiction, still (i might be experiencing book fatigue)
writing: OC lore
watching: jerma clips
playing: fields of mistria, still
listening: saint levant, still
eating: leftover curry
drinking: water
wanting: more black embroidery thread
feeling: bored

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wow, it's been a minute! i hope to get back into the habit of light journaling here, i've missed it. i have some big things i'll be able to report on soon regarding the untangling project -- progress is happening, but it won't come to fruition until march. rest assured i have not given up on my goal of ditching my smartphone and untangling myself from screen dependency!

CURRENTLY
reading: *counts* 17 tabs of fanfiction
writing: nothing currently (thank goodness)
watching: king of the hill
playing: fields of mistria
listening: saint levant
eating: nothing currently, but i'm looking forward to leftover chowder for dinner
drinking: peppermint tea
wanting: to feel more stimulated
feeling: understimulated
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CURRENTLY
reading: webtoons, unfortunately
writing: final paper outlines
watching: the latest jerma video
playing: pokemon mystery dungeon
listening: nothing currently
eating: a really crisp apple
drinking: water
wanting: to rein in my focus on schoolwork
feeling: a bit anxious

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CURRENTLY
reading: that same werewolf romance that i'm about halfway through and still kinda iffy on
writing: final paper outlines
watching: retsupurae's series on afterfall: insanity
playing: pokemon x
listening: burn - the cure
eating: leftovers
drinking: coffee
wanting: the undertale cross stitch book to ship faster
feeling: content with a hint of procrastinator's guilt
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oops, missed last week somehow!

CURRENTLY
reading: a werewolf romance that i'll namedrop if it turns out good
writing: nothing right now (i SHOULD be writing my essays)
watching: old jerma streams
playing: pokemon legends z-a
listening: f-zero gx OST
eating: nothing right now
drinking: water
wanting: the undertale cross stitch pattern book to ship
feeling: restless

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CURRENTLY
reading: what feasts at night by t. kingfisher (finished a house with good bones! i need to buy more kingfisher books, i'm almost out...)
writing: first drafts for final papers
watching: old retsupurae vids (still)
playing: pokemon pearl
listening: silent hill 3 ost
eating: granola bar
drinking: water
wanting: more time to get commissions done so i can have a little spending money
feeling: antsy

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CURRENTLY
reading: a house with good bones by t. kingfisher (finished the raven & the reindeer a couple days ago!)
writing: book recommendations for a friend
watching: old retsupurae vids
playing: point and click adventure games in my steam library (still haven't gotten through them all!)
listening: slowed + reverb song edits
eating: a crunchy apple
drinking: water
wanting: my adhd symptoms to fuck off so i can get something done
feeling: overwhelmed

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i missed last week and i honestly have no idea how that happened!

CURRENTLY
reading: guess what! more t. kingfisher (the raven and the reindeer and a house with good bones)
writing: assignments
watching: tasting history with max miller (his new dracula themed episode!)
playing: point and click adventure games in my steam library (still! i have a lot of them)
listening: wolf like me - lera lynn (feat. shovels & rope)
eating: nothing currently
drinking: earl grey
wanting: the tylenol to kick in
feeling: crampy
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CURRENTLY
reading: paladin's grace by t. kingfisher (finished hemlock and silver last week! i am BLASTING through kingfisher's body of work)
writing: brainstorming material for a paper
watching: all of jenny nicholson's videos for the 60000th time
playing: point and click adventure games in my steam library
listening: several balance and composure albums
eating: mac and cheese with veggies
drinking: lemon water
wanting: more energy
feeling: still overwhelmed

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CURRENTLY
reading: hemlock & silver by t. kingfisher (finished nettle & bone last night! great stuff as usual)
writing: nothing currently
watching: drew gooden talk about television comedy
playing: point and click adventure games in my steam library ; undertale (first replay in several years)
listening: a rain ambiance track to help me focus
eating: rice and beans
drinking: lemon water
wanting: chores to stop piling up
feeling: overwhelmed

happy october! 🎃

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CURRENTLY
reading: nettle & bone by t. kingfisher ; hemlock & silver by t. kingfisher (i'm obsessed with t. kingfisher, ok)
writing: discussion posts on class forums
watching: the leaves just barely turning color
playing: point and click adventure games in my steam library ; undertale (first replay in several years)
listening: a rain ambiance track to help me focus
eating: trail mix
drinking: mocha latte (actually i finished it an hour ago but i appreciate that i was able to have one today)
wanting: to read my books
feeling: a bit groggy

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CURRENTLY
reading: nettle & bone by t. kingfisher ; this princess kills monsters by ry herman
writing: replacement code on the index page of my neocities that was outdated
watching: jerma compilations
playing: point and click adventure games in my steam library
listening: nothing really, haven't had the time to just listen to music lately
eating: altoids
drinking: earl grey
wanting: more cross stitch supplies
feeling: way too warm for mid-september
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aaaaaand i'm back again! august was batshit crazy and at the beginning of september i was focused on getting ready for the current (hopefully final) semester of my graduate program. things are still kind of crazy right now but the good news is that having classes ensures i have enough structure in my day-to-day that i can more effectively journal! (barring the unexpected, which might happen because of some unfortunate circumstances in my family right now. if i disappear again then you'll know the partly-expected-unexpected happened.) hopefully this also means i can pick up all the other things i was using this journal for like tech/screen untangling and forming an exercise habit; though sadly any gardening will have to wait til next year, since we lack the resources to grow things in the cold months... not that i'd have the time anyway.

CURRENTLY
reading: nettle & bone by t. kingfisher ; a vintage romance novel too embarrassing to name
writing: commentaries about cuneiform for one class and reaganomics in the other
watching: random shit on youtube
playing: deltarune (doing a full replay currently)
listening: year of the rat - enter the haggis
eating: a really underwhelming apple. just a complete disappointment
drinking: ice water
wanting: this new semester to go well
feeling: pretty good all things considered

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CURRENTLY
reading: everybody wants to rule the world except me by django wexler ; payback's a witch (2021) by lana harper
writing: nothing currently
watching: yu yu hakusho
playing: kingdom hearts, gaiaonline? kinda?
listening: deltarune OST
eating: ice cream
drinking: ice water
wanting: to finish my current cross stitch project
feeling: still sweaty from the humidity

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CURRENTLY
reading: everybody wants to rule the world except me by django wexler ; payback's a witch (2021) by lana harper
writing: forum posts
watching: yu yu hakusho
playing: mass effect, kingdom hearts, gaiaonline? kinda?
listening: f-zero gx OST
eating: tortellini
drinking: earl grey
wanting: a better setup for fiber crafts
feeling: a bit premenstrual, a bit sweaty from the humidity

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it's been a long minute since i updated my untangling process but i honestly hadn't made any progress in months, i'm sorry to say. however, i now have something small (but hopefully impactful) to make note of!

one of the things i knew i needed to do to release part of my smartphone's chokehold on me is to stop having it be what wakes me up in the morning. it's the last thing i see before i go to bed and the first thing i see when i wake up. that's fucked up! early on in my strategy building i knew i wanted to do something simple yet effective: get an alarm clock. hopefully a digital one, since although i can read analog clocks, it takes me a bit longer to process visually. this is one of the few situations in life where i prefer numbers.

by the by, i legit cannot remember if i mentioned this or not but a few months ago i tried to find one at a local thrift store, but after like an hour of carefully sifting among the meager options, i took home an alarm clock that turned out half broken. the radio worked, but not the actual clock. i don't know how to fix 90s tech and my handyman step dad was puzzled, so i gave up on it, and the side quest was put on hold. but then, in june, i stumbled upon an ebay listing for an alarm clock that couldn't be more perfect:

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a pompompurin retro cell phone! ...okay, it's obviously not actually functional as a cell phone, but that's for the best. i don't want to trade one device i'm overreliant on for another, no matter how cute it is.

it wasn't cheap, and it took something like four weeks to get here, but so far i'd say it's worth it. the only thing i'm struggling with (past the initial struggle to understand a user manual entirely in korean) is how loud and jarring the alarm sound is, but i can get used to it. now i plan to plug my phone in to charge in a different room overnight from now on so that i no longer barrage my eyes with screens and my brain with information before i sleep and then again immediately when i wake. maybe i'll actually get in more reading and like, i dunno, slow morning contemplation?

hopefully, the next side quest i clear is ditching my smartphone for a dumbphone! i already have one in mind, i just need a little extra disposable income and assurance it won't mess with my family's data plan at all.
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oops, i missed last week on accident! vacation has me pretty scatterbrained, especially since my adhd has me doing 18 things at once

CURRENTLY
reading: everybody wants to rule the world except me by django wexler ; rose daughter by robin mckinley *
writing: retrospectives on the mass effect trilogy
watching: yu yu hakusho (i like it so far)
playing: mass effect, kingdom hearts
listening: silent hill 2 ost
eating: coffee ice cream
drinking: grapefruit white claw
wanting: this entire clothing line
feeling: pretty relaxed

* in the course of a few days i also read soulgazer (2025) by maggie rapier from start to finish and adored it. really wish i'd updated last week to mention that

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CURRENTLY
reading: everybody wants to rule the world except me by django wexler ; rose daughter by robin mckinley
writing: lists of movies i haven't seen but should
watching: YTPs
playing: mass effect, kingdom hearts, and animal crossing new leaf
listening: they might be giants
eating: salad
drinking: water
wanting: packages to arrive (still)
feeling: a bit crampy but fine

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