Well. The potential ceasefire lasted exactly 45 minutes, so that went nowhere fast. As usual there was little affect in Tel Aviv - a single siren Tuesday afternoon. But Tuesday was a long, long day - this entire week has been one of the most stressful weeks I remember having in a really long time. Part of it was The Situation happening in the background, but part of it was just work: me finally gathering the mental energy and courage to handle some things I've let drag on for waaaay too long, and spending the entire week hashing over my mistakes and dealing with them. And most of them are behind me now, thank god, all except for one, but I left work after 9PM twice, and on Tuesday night I just got home so late, crashed in the living room with the lights on after dinner, woke up at midnight and couldn't sleep; at 3AM baby sister texted the family a screenshot of the homepage of a major news site headlined by this photo - "I'm in the front truck", she wrote, while the caption read IDF trucks gather at the Gaza border. AND I'M SUPPOSED TO SLEEP AFTER THAT. Spoiler: I didn't :/

I ended up finally falling asleep after 5AM. It took me forever to drag myself out of bed, and it was ultimately a morning siren that forced me out - didn't go all the way down to the first floor shelter, but technically going down two floors and standing in the stairwell is enough, which is where I ended up meeting some neighbors for the first time in my PJs. BUT it was over soon enough, and I was not late for work, and I continued dealing with the stupid things I had put off for so long. Thankfully, the day ended with meeting minglingcrab and marina, which was like, hello, breath of fresh air, and calm, and fandom and recs.

Today was - well, work was productive but horrible, and at least this week is over. In the evening I met a few friends in Holon, celebrating her completing her degree. Dessert was interrupted by a siren, the first time I've experienced one in public instead of at home/work; it was pretty well organized, all in all, signs pointing to a shelter in the building, everyone cramming in from the complex and the street.

And it was good, it was okay, and now there's been a ground invasion to Gaza.

My facebook feed is seriously gross right now. I just turned off the news, which are just regurgitating the same 30 second clips they have of soldiers getting prepped and the Gaza night skyline glowing with explosions. I really, really hope this will be over soon. It's useless to keep saying that and then do nothing about it, but well. I still do.

There are countless videos and clips about the situation and I'm not sharing any of them, but this video is well-made and chilling and all I have to say right now.



(I'm getting tired of this. Next post I make will be about fandom. It's the Blackhawks annual fan convention, and I have not forgotten. They have a panel called "Blackhawks Baby Boom", okay. There was just an article out titled "Blackhawks' Kane, Toews more than Teammates." You can see why this is a fandom.)