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At some point I'll stop wanting to talk about sobriety, but today is not that day. Sometime this week (depending on how you count) I will hit four months sober. I honest to god never thought I could do this; I lost count of how many Day 1s I had, and I literally only once made it to Day 10. I never talked about it here, much—the shame is real—but I struggled for so long with drinking. First with admitting I had a problem, then with worrying other people would realize I had a problem, then with realizing I couldn't seem to stop.
The thing that keeps blowing my mind is how much better my life feels, sober. I'm not saying I'm happy all the time—far from it. But as I said on twitter this weekend, it's just a little easier, these days, to feel contentment. I spent so long being quietly, steadily sad, and lately it's a little easier to feel that champagne-fizz sense of joy. God, what a blessing that is.
Though it does seem unfair that I've started getting migraines (or something) after quitting booze. I've had a headache since yesterday evening, and, oof, it is not fucking around. If I still had opiates left over from my last round of idiopathic head pain, you better believe I'd be dosing myself. Ow ow ow. I might have to take the day off work.
I'm obsessed with 9-1-1 on Fox these days. It's on Hulu if anyone wants to join me in the depths of fannish obsession: first responders in Los Angeles, found family, and a mlm relationship I'm pretty sure is going to become canon this season in the reverse of every queerbaiting scenario we've seen on other shows. First fic in the fandom if you're so inclined.

I used to play a game with my friend R called "three good things," where we had to—wait for it—name three good things for each other. A sort of gratitude practice, I guess. So, here goes.

Career. My sister and I had a long conversation the other night, late into the night, about our career paths and our next steps. We're both in our late thirties, well-established professionally, but struggling with next steps. She knows what she wants, but feels trapped in her current role and needed help figuring out how to move forward. My trouble—I said to her—was that I didn't know what I wanted. "I want to feel as passionate about my field as you do about yours!" I said. (You should hear how excited she gets about recycling and resource conservation in the architecture field). "I just don't knowwww!" I wailed.

Except I do know. I've wanted forever to be in emergency management, but I've always talked myself out of it because I'm not sure, because I don't have 100% certainty about what it'd look like or whether I'll really like it. But In the past few days I've realized I don't have to know right now. Instead I can just do some exploring and spend some time learning, and go from there.

So in the past few days I have contacted my local volunteer ambulance service, done a bunch of research into career guidance for the field, and reached out to a colleague at work to talk about opportunities for disaster response at Parks. And then tonight I applied for my first temporary FEMA position AND talked to my colleague, who's going to help set me up with some ride-alongs and get me a tour at the state emergency ops center!!!

I'm SO excited and SO pleased with myself and SO delighted!!!

Music. I am absolutely obsessed with the music of the indie band The War On Drugs. There's nothing more delightful than that feeling of falling headfirst into an album you can't stop listening to, is there? If you like indie with good male vocalists, layered instruments, and good guitar, give 'em a listen.

Fandom. I'm also falling headfirst into a fandom in a way I haven't in, oh, a decade (Generation Kill, that would have been). I am obsessed, obsessed I tell you, with 9-1-1 on Fox. It's about first responders, so—well, are you sensing a theme? Of course it's right up my alley. But it's also got found family galore, and the slashiest slash most loving relationship I've seen in ages. AND Angela Bassett who is GLORIOUS.

So of course I'm writing a daemon/His Dark Materials crossover.

That's it, that's me. And now it's 10 pm and I haven't had dinner so I'm going to, uh, make some nachos, and do some research into Parks police cadet training.

I've been head-down on a major project at work, the past month; suffice it to say, the Governor signed a piece of legislation in late July mandating State Parks to do A Thing by September 1, and it was my department's responsibility to actually make the Thing happen. Which I did! It was several weeks of concerted effort and coordination with both outside vendors and internal execs, and—September 1 being last week—I scheduled to take this week off after my labors.

Of course, state government being what it is, we didn't actually go live with our program on Sept. 1. <insert facepalm emoji> But, I figured, whatever: there's absolutely no clarity when we'll actually launch this thing, and it could be next week or it could be next month, so there's no reason to postpone my vacation. So I'm free free free for the next three days!

Realistically, it won't be all that much of a vacation; I'm cat- and chicken-sitting for my mother while she's out of town, so I can't really go anywhere. And I really need to spend some quality time working on my house—not only is there the usual lawn-mowing and weed-whacking to be done, but also more major projects like finishing the exterior painting, sanding and refinishing the stairs, and contacting the propane folks to get them to install our propane tank in advance of winter. So it's a working vacation.

But I also fully plan to go on at least one short hike, and spend a little time playing the piano, and definitely some time watching 9-1-1 (my latest fannish obsession) and maybe even doing some writing. I can't wait.

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