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The Best I Can Do

I feel sad after 2pm. There is no specific when I first look at it. I can’t see anything that has happened that has portalled me into this space. I feel heavy. Weighted. I surrender to the dishes in the sink and I just dance along to the song that is playing and that feels like the best thing i can do. So instead of worrying about the 8 things on my list, about calling this or making a big deal about my dissatisfaction, I just dance. I let the heavy go, I tell myself I’m living now and I, my dead self will be happy that I’m dealing like this. Because dead me will be happy I’m living. I’m living right now in the moment. And that’s the most I can do.

But What of Sad

Can you just be done being sad?
I’m over it.
Yet, I’m under it. The weight debilitating.

I think the consistent sadness we carry, whether past induced or current life inflicted can be surfaced and handled poorly, with difficulty or with ease. Different everyday.
Today I decide, yes- I want to make my life happier and easier. I can do it, I am brave and I am powerful.
Will I feel like deciding that everyday? No.
Must we force ourselves to choose positive daily in order to be done with that deep sadness?
And if so, does it get easier the more it is done?

Maybe that is why they say to do things that bring you joy; surround yourself with people that are kind and caring. The affects permeating into your being.
Life continues to move on and there will be things that disappoint, hurt or exasperate you; and if you’ve already practiced gratitude or a positive anecdote somewhere in your day, maybe just maybe, you’ll be better equipped to handle that sadness.

That Love Surge

You ever feel so full you could spill over and float in your good cosmic goo? You ever feel like being talkative and helpful and kind to all the strangers in the grocery store?
Where does that sap, that outbreed of love come from?

I always know when I’m in it. It’s from positive in my life that enchantingly overcomes any of the bad. It is like I do not own a single dark bone or vein; that I am full of love and it oozes through my pores and attaches to people and moments and any mean look or rude person can’t break it down.
It is a surge I welcome and try to do the most while I’m in it.

One Living

Are you always going to wonder if you’re on the right path? If you’re making the right decisions?
If you have?
So much worry and stress and extraction of living a full life. What’s breathing around on this planet for, if you’re just mulling over why you’re here or how you got to here?
I used to do it plenty. I don’t know what good it did me.
Yeah, we have our down days. It can be difficult to see them as opportunities to learn and grow from.
Sometimes we just wanna be sad.
Anyways, the point of this post is just to remind you- because I know you know – that we have this one life here on Earth ( maybe we come back as a gecko or a penguin ) and not to take life things so seriously. I get in funks too. But 100 percent of the time, I always get to the other side of them.
Love yourself a little extra today. Being gentle with self creates a wider range for happiness.

Reflection

Watch the sun set and be happy you had another day. Here on this planet. If you weren’t happy with how you spent your day, think about the reasons for the choices that you made and rearrange and adjust for tomorrow.
If you find that you’re coming up with the same excuses, dig deeper to find the greater meaning. Understanding the threads in the daily sweater that you weave, may help you to wear it better. Maybe it’s the itchy threads that make you not want to even put it on or that it is too small. The reflection in the mirror will help you to make sense of it all.

Those Surprise Happys

What kinds of things do you get surges of glee from? That bit of happiness that whelms up so quick?
Today it was the blue sky. I think that everyone dies just goes and lives up there and has a marvelous time. So I thought of people up there. And then I zoomed out real science-like, and pictured the ball of the Earth, just hanging out in space. I got all spiffed up glad from all that. Gems of precious feels that nuzzle up close to my heart.

Ouch Yux

Swirl your layers around all the disgusted pieces of your life while you sob into fathoms of grease and fear. When you want to live life, it’s easy for it to die. When you don’t want to live, you need help. Days are filled with disbelief and dissatisfaction and withering. Giving up is an easy thought. There are fleeting moments of understanding and desire, to jump into your suit of potential and conquer all those things you’ve been running from. We’re only destined for what we put out there and tonight I’ll lay awake in bed wishing I never made myself feel like this.
I let myself get here, I usually do.

Mood Food

The sun has been feeling me wonders as of late. Spring tends to be the wet and the grey so glimpses of sun I stuff into my eye backpacks and soak into my skin. I teeter on my window ledge to watch the sun rise and I sit on my back balcony when it sinks. Catch the every drop that I can. Mood food.

Simmering Chaos

Warm swirling energetic chaos simmering inside- like a turtle about to start a race.
You know you’re about to do great things.

The mind is so powerful. Can make or break your moment, your hour, your day.
It’s difficult for those that struggle with taking control. To readjust your head, be authoritative and administer the care and direction.
It is very worth it. And will continue to need tuning, and realignment. Sometimes you will react poorly to a comment and forget that you have the ability to regulate.

And sometimes these nice sugar dust brain waves, pair perfectly with that simmering chaos and you will know how beautiful it all is.