{"id":13926,"date":"2026-08-24T18:08:17","date_gmt":"2026-08-24T18:08:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/round-lake.dustinice.workers.dev:443\/https\/radyoz.info\/?p=13926"},"modified":"2026-08-24T18:08:20","modified_gmt":"2026-08-24T18:08:20","slug":"kafamin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/round-lake.dustinice.workers.dev:443\/https\/radyoz.info\/2026\/08\/24\/kafamin\/","title":{"rendered":"kafam\u0131n&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p class=\"has-text-align-right\">&#8220;&#8230; <em>Halil Pa\u015fa k\u0131y\u0131y\u0131 denizle bar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r, denizden k\u0131y\u0131lara sel\u00e2m g\u00f6nderir.\u201d<\/em><br><strong><em>-Nurullah Berk<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p><br><br>i\u00e7inde d\u00f6n\u00fcp duran \u201ciki kad\u0131n konu\u015fuyor, nereden geliyor bu ses?\u201d c\u00fcmlesiyle yatakta \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131m bir s\u00fcre; uyku ile uyan\u0131kl\u0131k aras\u0131nda bir yerlerde, kapal\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir araftayd\u0131m sanki&#8230; sonra sesler birbirinden ayr\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, s\u00f6zc\u00fckler netle\u015fti, t\u00fcrk\u00e7e de\u011fildi; o an anlad\u0131m sesin nereden geldi\u011fini, tamamen uyand\u0131m; yan apartmandaki, muhtemelen amerikal\u0131 olan kad\u0131n\u0131n misafirleri vard\u0131! o evden ya k\u00f6pe\u011fin evin i\u00e7inde ko\u015farken parkenin \u00fczerinde kayan pati sesleri gelirdi ya da b\u00f6yle gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fan kad\u0131n sesleri&#8230; midemdeki rahats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve yanmay\u0131 hissettim, yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki bardaktan bir yudum su ald\u0131m, ge\u00e7medi. kalkt\u0131m, a\u011fz\u0131ma bir talcid at\u0131p bir s\u00fcre evin i\u00e7inde dola\u015ft\u0131m, balkona \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m; saat \u00fc\u00e7e geliyordu!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>tekrar yata\u011fa k\u0131vr\u0131ld\u0131m, a.\u2019ya \u201celini s\u0131rt\u0131ma koyar m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m. bir bedenden di\u011ferine a\u00e7\u0131lan \u201ckap\u0131\u201d uykuya a\u00e7\u0131lmad\u0131 bu defa; aksine, yatmadan \u00f6nce bitirdi\u011fim demir \u00f6zl\u00fc kitab\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri, anlar\u0131, h\u00fczn\u00fc, y\u00fck\u00fc b\u00fct\u00fcn zihnimi sard\u0131&#8230; buradan \u00e7\u0131kmal\u0131y\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken bebek a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131, on g\u00fcnl\u00fck bir beden i\u00e7in ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir ses, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>d\u00f6rde kadar sayarak derin bir nefes ald\u0131m&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>yediye kadar sayarak i\u00e7imde o derin nefesi tuttum&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ve ard\u0131ndan sekize kadar sayarak nefesi yava\u015f\u00e7a d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya verdim&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>sonra bir kez daha, bir kez daha derken, ressam halil pa\u015fa\u2019n\u0131n bostanc\u0131 sahilinde buldum kendimi, adalara bakt\u0131m, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m, yerdeki \u00e7ak\u0131l ta\u015flar\u0131na dokundum&#8230; art\u0131k pazar ak\u015fam\u00fczerini ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim sergideydim yeniden. halil pa\u015fa\u2019n\u0131n paris g\u00fcnlerinde, resim e\u011fitimi s\u0131ras\u0131nda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plak insan fig\u00fcrlerine bakarken, tuhaf \u015fekilde y\u00fczlerdeki ifadelere tak\u0131l\u0131p kalmama bir kez daha inanamad\u0131m&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>serginin k\u00fcrat\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcn ak\u0131c\u0131, duru t\u00fcrk\u00e7esi, konuya h\u00e2kimiyeti ve s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerle uyum i\u00e7inde hareket eden bak\u0131ml\u0131 elleri, incecik parmaklar\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 benimleydi&#8230; anlat\u0131m\u0131ndaki o pozitif enerji de&#8230; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sevdi\u011fim resimlerin \u00f6n\u00fcnden bir kez daha ge\u00e7tim; en son d\u00f6rt mevsimi anlatan resimlerin  \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdum; k\u0131\u015f&#8217;ta derin bir nefes ald\u0131m ve \u00e7\u0131plak dallar\u0131n aras\u0131nda kayboldum&#8230;<br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-rich is-provider-spotify wp-block-embed-spotify wp-embed-aspect-21-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe title=\"Spotify Embed: Winter (from The Four Seasons)\" style=\"border-radius: 12px\" width=\"100%\" height=\"152\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen allow=\"autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; fullscreen; picture-in-picture\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/round-lake.dustinice.workers.dev:443\/https\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/track\/6OHOYEMQfPKWZY4Uxxybnh?si=9c787420f10645f0&amp;utm_source=oembed\"><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><br>S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc etti\u011fim sergiye a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki ba\u011flant\u0131dan eri\u015febilirsiniz. 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