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i don't have a title in me today ny'all.

i'm tired and i'm tired of being tired but i feel like nothing helps? even fucking adhd stimulants only do so much... cpap never really helped beyond the first like, week i used it. i've made the switch back to vyvanse as of this morning but i guess i was expecting smth more Robust than what i'm getting, haha... even if i am on a lower dose of it, i thought going from adderall xr back to vyvanse would be more of an Oomph, i guess. idk.

my brain is always foggy nowadays it feels like. foggy and body tired. and yet, i work 32-40 hours a week busting my ass. i can function at work but i'm barely functioning outside of work right now. i feel like my days off are just blips and then i'm back at work without (most times) having done anything meaningful on my days off bc i don't have the energy.

i guess in better news i did a lil more on my website. and started playing Mouthwashing (cw for gore/body horror among other things). i think i'm most of the way through it but currently Stuck. what a FANTASTIC game though. vibes are completely rancid (positive). definitely going on my game recs page when i finish it.

i am very stressed about money rn but not enough to shill my ko-fi, really. we're making rent for sure but nesting partner is getting less and less hours and i keep trying to get him to apply to the same place i work or like, anywhere else but he hasn't yet...

i think the shifting in daylight is starting to affect me, haha... though my birthday is next month also and i tend to get Like This around my bday too bc getting older lowkey midkey terrifies me... 31 isn't as big a number as 30 (metaphorically speaking) so that'll help i think but.

i think a silas needs to schedule a therapy appointment...

well that's all for now. have a good day, ny'all.