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18: About The Stars
Haru sat in the deck chair. He slid it next to mine and we both tilted our heads back, looking up at the stars. The night was clear and the whole sky seemed to be filled with those tiny points of light.
“You know what I like about the stars?” he asked.
I turned my head to look at him. “No. What?”
“They seem fixed. In place. Unchanging. But the truth is, they are moving. Never standing still. Sometimes they die out. Sometimes they collide with other stars.” He looked at me and smiled. “Sometimes they fall. And other times, they shine so bright they illuminate everything around them.” He returned his gaze heavenward. “In essence, I suppose they are a lot like us. Sometimes when I look at them, I think of other people in the world looking at them too. People who are filled with happiness, or suffering without hope; people falling in love, or falling out of it. I sometimes want to put myself in their place just to experience what they do.“ He paused, as if thinking that over. “And yet, all I really want is to know that somewhere, someday, we’ll all be together like this huge cluster of stars in the sky, shining for someone else’s amusement and joy.”
“That’s pretty deep stuff, “ I said, not really knowing how to respond.
His face had a wistful smile. “Yeah, I guess it is.”
“You must have been watching the stars a long time.”
“About thirty minutes before you came out, “ he replied.
“No, I mean, being a vampire, you must have watched the stars for years.” I couldn’t believe I called him a vampire to his face. It sounded weird coming out my mouth.
“Is that your way of trying to get my age out of me?” he asked.
“Perhaps.”
He sighed. “Every year for me has been the same as the last. I have seen countless summers come and go. I forget the time.”
“You don’t want to tell me?”
“No.”
“Why not?”
He looked at me and the smile he was able to muster was sad. “You will find it difficult to be my friend. I am too old.”
I put my hand lightly on his arm. “Look, when I realized what you were, I was bothered by the fact you were probably a lot older than me. It is kind of creepy when you think about it, but when I see you with my eyes, I see what’s on the outside, and your outside says you’re forever seventeen. So it doesn’t bother me.”
“After a while it will.”
“Perhaps. But right now it doesn’t.” To prove my point, I got brave and leaned towards him. I rested my head on his shoulder. “I don’t care how old you are. All I know is I feel special when I’m with you.”
“You are special.”
“How do you know?”
“What?”
“How do you know I’m special?”
This has always been my trick question, the one that would trip all the boys up. It usually stopped them in their tracks, and in their hesitation to answer they would lose heart. It really wasn’t a trick; it was more of a challenge. I had always hated when boys used the “you’re special” card, thinking that’s all girls wanted to hear. Their answers always fell short. Haru’s was a little unexpected.
“I know you’re special because you’re changing me.”
“Changing you?”
“Yes. It has been a long time since I’ve had a real friend.”
“But we just met last night.”
“And I’ve changed a lot since then.”
“How?”
“Well…I…You…do you treat every guy this way?”
I was taken aback. “Excuse me?”
“When a guy tries to be nice to you, or pays you a compliment, or just tries to tell you that you’re a beautiful person…do you always question it?”
“Yes, I do.”
“Why? Don’t you trust them, or is it true that you just don’t like boys?”
I was stunned. It wasn’t the fact he said what he did; it was the fact he’d been here maybe a day or two and already the rumor had reached him. “You don’t have to be my friend,” I said and got up to walk away. He got up, too.
“I do want to be your friend. That’s the whole point. But you don’t trust me enough for that. You question everything there is about me.”
I looked at him. “You’re a vampire.”
“So? You’re a sixteen year old white girl from the suburbs. What’s that got to do with it?”
“I don’t kill people for their blood or turn them into other vampires.”
“Ouch, that stings. But it’s also ignorant, because I don’t do either of those.”
I looked at him, surprised. “You don’t drink blood?”
“You didn’t say that. You said I kill people for their blood. I don’t take human life. And I don’t turn anyone into vampires either.”
I didn’t know what to say. How could I respond to that? All I could do was make light of what he was. “You don’t sound much like vampires I’ve heard of.”
“Good. I don’t want to be.”
A silence hung between us for a moment. I was at a loss for words. Finally he spoke. “Until today, I had nothing to look forward to. Even moving to a new town didn’t bring me any kind of hope or anticipation. Then the other night I saw you in your window watching me. And last night, I found myself hoping you would watch me again. But you didn’t. Instead you came over. It may not have went that well, but this morning I found myself desiring to see you again. So I came to your school because I didn’t want to wait for tonight. And after tonight, I know I will find myself looking forward to seeing you the next time. That’s how you are special. You have a spell over me and it took you only two days.”
I was nearly breathless. “Wow. Well, I don’t know what to say.”
“Say what you feel.”
“I don’t know how I feel. I mean, maybe vampires get attached this quickly, but humans don’t.” It was a lie, but I was hoping he couldn’t tell that. “I mean, I like you and all, and I did look forward to seeing you tonight, but…”
He cocked his head. “But…?”
“Maybe I’m misunderstanding what you’re trying to say, but this is moving too fast for me.”
He nodded his head. He didn’t seem disappointed. In fact, he looked like a guy who had heard that excuse many times over. “I’m sorry. Like I said, each day is like the one before it for me. Time just isn’t the same for us. You say it’s been a day or two, but for me I feel like I’ve known you for…for a very long time.” He bowed his head in much the same way in the Asian movies when the character is either bestowing honor or asking forgiveness. “Forgive me if I act too familiar or overstep my bounds. I don’t mean to make you uneasy or uncomfortable.”
“It’s okay. I know I have a problem with trusting people and believing what they say. It’s just that I’ve been lied to so many times.”
“I understand. I won’t lie to you.”
“That could be a lie itself.”
He sighed, almost in exasperation. “Interesting point of view.” Looking skyward, he seemed to be seeking the next line in our conversation within the stars themselves. I looked up with him just in time to see a star streak across the horizon and fall behind the mountains.
“Vampire Boys Of Summer” 2018 Paul D Aronson.