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I am really bad keeping up with my promises and updating this. The possibility that will happen again is pretty high up. It is not like, I don't like writing. It is more like, I have no idea what to write or I keep forgetting to come back here after months. Which is kind of bad?

On the other note? I finally did something that I would never think I would have the courage to do. Last autumn I applied to a University. Not in my country or even in my mother language. Yeah and guess what? I got in. So since then I have been studying hard and hoping this would lead me to work in somewhere I would love to. But... as you guys know, I like motorsport and getting in that area of work is really hard ...
But I am hoping that, maybe, maybe I have a small change to get in.

But who knows? Maybe it is just a too big a dream for me?

Same time as I took my steps as a student again my depression and anxiety got worst. I was hitting really low notes during the past couple of months, which lead to me back to somewhere, where I had promised to never return. . . Korean music... Before I came to an Arashian back in 2008, I had 5ish years in kpop in. I was in a really low point of my life back then and Arashi kind of saved me from there. So fast forward today's age I found myself back in there. I was very low and then...

I found someone who saved me as Arashi did. That person was JR, or Kim Jonghyun as his real name is. He is the main dancer and main rapper of a band called Nu'est. Some people have maybe heard about them and their hardworking and sad story when even their company was ready to give up on them. Luckily 2017 and Produce 101 saved them from that. Or well their hard work and being themselves did it. JR was known as National Leader, everyone was praising his dancing, rapping and leader skills. Sadly he wasn't able to be in final 11 and debut with the group. But he went with other 3 members and made a sub-unit while waiting for one of their member coming back. Now, this returning happened this year and they are back to as 5 people group... But my main comment, JR is just something special. While on the show he took the dirt from everyone, blaming himself if something didn't work, even though it wasn't his fault. He is one of the most down to earth guys I have seen.

I don't regret anymore choosing to stand with them. Not anymore, when he did save me from my darkest moments.

Current Mood: working

So 6 years huh..?

Time really flies and fast.

I remember when I did this account years ago I didn't have a purpose for that. Mostly my main goal was to write down my life, day to day basic. As from blog entries I didn't get that far.. I have always been bad at writing and back then I was mentally in that kind of place that I just wanted to give up on everything. It was pretty dark time for me, back then. Lot has luckily changed since then.. Hopefully for better..

But yes. I am back here and hopefully I can keep my promise this time.

ohno

Current Mood: blank

So I'm back.. ~ !!!

Sorry about it took so long, but my friend was visiting me and because my birthday I really didn't have anytime to sit down and write. But now I'm here!!

So like last time I promised to you, here is my birthday gifts!!

Gift's from my Japanese friend

So here is my first gift! I got this from my Japanese friend. I was shocked when I saw the packet. It was big surprise and even more when I open it. I was so happy that I almost cried. I kind of lost my word when I open it.

Gift from my friend

And this is what i got one of my friend. I'm happy :3 I know it sounds weird but I collect difference kind of tin cans so.. This is big thing to me~ *-*

First gift from my second godparents

So these two gift's are from my godparent's. At first.. I think it was something like "NOW YOU HAVE TO GO TO OTHER COUNTRY'S !!" When I saw the suitcase. But I was happy. Because now i have my own suitcase and everything~

And for second I got 6 glass plates ~ I really love them, the green looks so beautiful~ And those white angel things are a soup so. :3

And this is what i got from my other godparent.s Chocolate and 50€ :) I know it's little what other one buy but i'm not made.
For me it's hard to find gift's so. :)

gift from my sister

And this is what i got from my sister. 60€ gift-cart for clothes shop~ and two light blue bowls.

So this it!! Well I got F1 season 2010 DVD from my other friend but anyway. this was little update about my birthday!! ^u^ I hope I will but something more next time I will update.

Current Mood: bouncy

First of all I have to say sorry about late entry. But last weekend I really didn't have any time to sit down and write so.. I will do it not.

Well what I would say.. Three days is left before I officially turn 20 years old. Big 20.. So nothing big doesn't happen then. My sister and her family, my godparent's will come and drink some coffee. I will open my present what I get from them and that's it. Nothing special, well at Friday i will see my friend who lives in Turku when she come's back home. I'm happy to see her, it's has been couple of months when I last saw her so. And then my other friend will come here next week and that week Friday I will see my third friend who lives in Vantaa. I have to say I really miss her, last time I saw her was over year ago so. I'm happy to see her.

So.. for school.. At last I manage to do my software development task, well it doesn't work 100% but anyway i will pass the course for sure! I never really understand the therms or anything so for me, doing that work is big step. And I'm happy that I manage to do it. Other things.. we had team exam this Monday for me i think it went really good. We are really good team and everything. We did our work and everything. So I hope we passed it.

For some reason I'm thinking that my updating text are getting shorter and shorter.. Oh well.. next time it will be long because I hope i will put some pictures of my present and everything so. But for now, Ohnox goes silence for while! See you guys next time!

And for those pictures I don't own them, I just saw them i feel like I want put them here. Kind of little personality or something. But anyway.

Current Mood: relaxed

So hello again, I'm back before going couple of day's hiatus. I just wanted to make a quick update.

Nothing had really change after the last post. The weather is still same, but tomorrow it will drop down to -13 °C . That's clad because then i can drive to school. Because it was so cold I didn't have change because dad was thinking maybe car doesn't go on after staying almost 6hours one place. So ~ I really like to drive a car, it's kind of you can forgot everything and just drive. it's kind of same as Formula 1 driver's. They just drive's around the circuit and only thinking about it. Nothing more. It's same for me.

And just thinking about Formula 1. I'm big Formula 1 and other Motorsport fan. So now days there is many of launch, McLaren, Force India, Ferrari, Lotus, Carterham F1 and next will there will be Sauber, Red Bull and some other. And next weekend it will be Formula 1 test~ So this and next week is like a heaven for me. But for those teams who had launched already, I have to say.. McLaren's is the best looking. I know the look doesn't meant anything, but just saying. It's just interesting that any other team hasn't choose same idea that they did.

And other things.. I can't believe that only 15 days to my birthday. 15 days to day I'm 20 years old. Well, I don't feel like a 20 years old.. Maybe people say's that sometimes I'm more like 5 years old than 20.. And I have to say it's true. I like thing's that normally only child's like. But I rather spend time and money for them than alcohol or partying. It's not me. So, next time I'm uploading this we are closer to day when I'm 20 years old.

For last, I would say it's time to do some IT homework. I just _love_ Visual Basic, I'm going to fail the test and the course, It's so hard.. And the teacher. . . Just.. let's see next spring!!

Current Mood: crazy

I'm Back!! Did you miss me!! So week is almost over and I have some time to update this!

It has been really cold here last couple of days. Just like I said last entry it was promising around -23°C and that's what has been here! I don't think it's so cold.. but if you go outside at morning it feel's really cold. But day time it doesn't really.. I think that's because of the sun. But still just thinking about -23°C make's me shiver. But I love cold weather, do you know why? Because then there is snow. I love snow, it's really beautiful. It's more beautiful where I live. Because I don't live in city so snow can't turn gray or anything.. It's just pure white snow every where. It's beautiful. And just snowing is beautiful because then you really can think it's winter time. That's what I'm thinking. Because I can't imagine winter time without snow. Because snow is a winter. I don't think snow would be so important if I would live somewhere else. But snow is part of Finnish winter weather so it's hard to image without snow. I'm pretty sure there is people who think's almost same as me. Those people probably are the people who has winter time almost same as here.

Other things.. well.. Like I have told before I'm University student and well.. that's eat my time being in here. I'm studying IT at my University, I'm interesting in computer things, but not much I'm interesting in travel. But well I didn't get in so.. Here we are. I really like my classmates, there is bullying or hating any where. So I think this is the best class I had ever have. I know what's really big words. But that's the truth.

And for the last.. 15 days anymore.. and then I will be 20 years old. The BIG 20.. I don't really care about it.. and well.. I'm pretty sure I will not celebrate it. Well i don't really care celebrating.. Because i don't drink.. and well.. I really don't have many friends to celebrate with so.. i just will be home and maybe writing here.. i don't know yet, but home I will be. That's sure thing.

I think for today the last thing I will write.. is just the closing line's.. There isn't going to happen anything big today.. I think I will continue watch some Samurai Sentai Shinkenger special episode's and movies, and just listen some music. Well that is what I do almost everything. But anyway, good day/night/morning to you guys! See you tomorrow or day after tomorrow!! ^u^

~~Ignore this ^~~

Current Mood: energetic

New Day, new thing's! Like the old saying is saying~ ^u^

Anyway.. So I wanted to update this today again, because I really don't know when I will update this next~ University is so hard~ Don't ever go there if you really like to study!

So today has been so normally day as you could image. I slept late, woke up around 1pm.. Luckily mom didn't see it, because other way I would hear screaming about it. .___. I think she can't image how much sleep I really need because school. Well I like to sleep but other way University studying is taking so much energy away me and made me really sleepy. She had never been University so she would never really how hard it is really.

But about today! It has been really cold day again! Well it was ONLY -10°C but my mom told that next week it would go down as -23°C and that's really cold! I don't know how I will survive.. I love winter time and cold times.. but around -20°C is too much.. you can't do anything if you go outside! Because it's too cold! Around -10°C is okey because then you can go outside and do there something! But I think that's the Finnish winter~ So cold but amazing! There is much snow!! I really love snow! So this much snow is just amazing~ ♥

Today has been so fast.. Well I took some time to write my friend who lives in Japan. It took couple of hours, because we aren't much same time online so we connect through email, and it's long email.. But I'm happy! I'm happy having her as my friend~ she is amazing person and really friendly! I don't have many friends, but every friend I have they are my treasures, I really care about them. I would do anything for them. That much my friend's mean to me.

So this is for all today I think.. :) I hope to write something soon, if I had any time. :) Thank you~ and Sayonara~

Current Mood: busy

Just like subject says, first for everything. This is first time that I post here.. I'm and was active at LJ but well.. I think my life is so full right now that I don't have any time to still time and write.. It's sad.. I really love to write fanfiction's, poems, entry's almost everything.. But I think.. that's what I get when I'm in University.

So for the first post.. I think I should introduce myself.. I'm 19 (soon 20) years old girl from Finland. I'm not like every other my age girl's, because I don't drink, or smoke or anything.. All my free time goes to school works, reading books, writing or just sit in my chair and surf in internet. That's my life in couple of words.

I'm sound boring right? I don't go out or have fun with my friends.. right? That's what you guys are thinking.

Well I have friends, but they are just like me.. they like to be on internet and mostly connect with MSN, Twitter or Facebook. So I'm not alone.

Anyway.. I wanted to write something so amazing here, because this is my first post.. but like you can see.. it's not that amazing. And well my English is not that good.. English is my third language, and when I started to study it I had (well I still have) dyslexia.. So.. Sorry about that. Anyway, I hope I will update this more and just tell about my daily things. :)

Thank you for reading and welcome!