For his Writer’s Workshop this week, John Holton gives us six writing prompts and we are tasked with choosing one of the prompts (or as many as we want) and writing a post that addresses that (or those) prompts). I chose one prompt for this week: (6) Write an essay entitled “How I Coped With Losing My Job.”
How I Coped With Losing My Job
It was a Thursday in early November of 2007. I walked into my boss’ office for my regularly scheduled, biweekly one-on-one meeting with him. But this one was different.
He wouldn’t look me in the eye when I started talking, but that wasn’t that unusual. He was never one for eye contact. I started giving him my update when he cut me off and awkwardly said something about having the challenging task to give me some difficult news. Then he informed that was one of the 271 employees at my firm to be notified that day that their jobs were being eliminated, and, as a result of this reduction in force (or “RIF”), I would have two months to find another position within the firm or I’m out.
I was less shocked or surprised than I was pissed that, after 14 years with this firm, and with significant successes in my current role, I had been so unceremoniously dumped. I was on the north side of 61 years at the time and had been working full-time for forty years. I was not ready to retire, either financially or emotionally. But, at the same time, given my age, I wasn’t sure how difficult it might be to find a job with a different company.
My initial inclination was to reach out to an employment attorney and initiate a big, fat age discrimination law suit. Instead of acting on that, though, I decided to first “test the waters.”
The reception from the outside to my new status had been encouraging. I e-mailed my resume to a number of folks and quickly lined up an interview with an external company. The initial feedback from others I had contacted had been positive.
One guy wrote, “I absolutely think we’d be interested in talking to you. I’m going to forward your resume to the person who manages our recruiting and to our consulting practice leader. I’m sure they will reach out to you soon.”
Another wrote, “I am very sorry to hear about your news. Well, maybe not completely sorry in the end if a mutual interest here works out in our collective favor.”
“I am going to share your info with a number of folks today. I’m glad, and not at all surprised, that you’re getting fast interest,” wrote yet another.
All Fluxed Up
I also had a couple of internal interviews scheduled within the first week of being told of the RIF, but I was inclined to look elsewhere. There were so many changes going on within my company — organizationally as well as directionally — and things were in such a state of flux.
After the way I have been treated, to stay would be like the battered wife who chooses to stay with her abusive husband because he really didn’t mean to hit her and he’s very sorry after he has.
I was starting to feel that my layoff should really be viewed as a great opportunity to jump off of what appeared to be a sinking ship, rather than simply clinging to the familiar.
And pragmatically speaking, I knew that if I stayed until the end of the year and then left, I would be entitled to seven-months of severance pay (two weeks for each year with the firm), but if I were offered an internal position and opted to stay with the company in a different job, I’d lose that. So even if I found a position elsewhere that paid a little less than what I had been earning, I would still be better off going out the door.
As it Turned Out
December 31, 2007 was my last day on the payroll of the company that RIF’d me, a large company with around 31,000 employees worldwide.
February 4, 2008, just over a month later, was my first day at my new job at a small, entrepreneurial company of 370 employees. On September 1, 2010, that small ($60 million, around 400 employees) company I’d worked for over the past two and a half years, was gobbled up by a much larger ($9 billion, 42,000 employees) company. And on December 31, 2016, nine years after I left the company that RIF’d me, I retired.
So how did I cope with losing my job? While I was initially shocked and pissed about being laid off. I quickly bounced back and spent my last nine working years doing just fine.