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My minds eye still sees your beauty mixed with darkness
The persona created between the two
The mask you gave I still have to wear
Forcibly confining diminishing my will to live even still
The countless nights alone with you
Secrets in hushed voices
Outbursts in rages pain and violence
Shattering boundaries like glass around us
My heart still bound and caged to one
Closed to all others except the angel
My mind still in torment
A monster at the end of his rope
An angel on flightless wings
Your tears on a chilly night
My tears mixed with blood
My minds eye still remembers

Baneful Echo

*The Magic Circle* by John William Waterhouse, 1886

My blue eyes can curse too
And I’ve seen the worst of you
You and all of your kin
Will suffer for your deepest sins

When you see a butterfly or a rose
Know that my spell grows and grows
Twisting the sharpest thorns in your heart
That won’t release you until you depart

When you see a girl that’s dancing
When you’re walking, when you’re weak
When you think to hurt another
Be it a stranger or a lover

I shall invade thoughts and somehow
You find your mind belongs to me now
Every memory shall cause you pain
Every flash back makes you insane

You will re-live your deepest fears
All your sarrows all your tears
Every pain you’ve ever felt
Because inside you I will dwell

Hear my moans, hear my screams
Suffer all my agonies
With all the pain you have caused
Nothing before gave you pause

Now you shall deal with the laws of three
I send your torment back to thee
You shall see me everywhere
Making visible the scars you bare

Every time you tell a lie
Look at the sky or take a drive
When you feel anything for yourself but hate
You will think only of my name

You will now live through my hell
And not a soul will you tell
You will bare my scars within your heart
Until it tares your mind apart

Seek me on a moonless night
Endeavor never ending plight
Seek me when the moon is full
Toying with your captured soul

Incantations and sorcery
Will not release you from the pain of me
Invading all your memories
Baneful echo so mote it be

Walking Tribute

The first time that she saw you
She loved you even then
She’d never beheld beauty like she had when she seen him

You held her tight in your arms
You said “you belong to me.”
You looked her in the eyes and she couldn’t disagree

She still does her makeup the way you showed her to
She makes her eyes look bigger when she’s thinking of you

She still dyes her hair black
Cause when she changed it you loved it and you smiled
It’s the way she silently mourns you though you’ve been gone quite a while

You always made decisions and didn’t think them through
She’s broken and she’s bleeding, having to live without you

She still struggles with depression, suicidal thoughts and rage
Ever since you died she’s never really loved the same

She’ll always wonder why that morning you didn’t call
What you were thinking, if you thought of her at all

If you ever really loved her, if you ever really cared
If there was something she could have done to save you from your despair

Your souls are bound forever but she’s left here to bleed
You’ll always be the Hades to her Persephone

Even though she struggles she still presses on
Keeping part of you alive inside of her because you are gone

Sometimes she thinks she hates you for what you put her through
But in reality she loves you
She’ll always be a walking tribute

The Fates

One that remembers
One that protects
One to show the world

One that is scared
One that destroys
One that cries

The one who see with her 3rd eye
The rose with thorns long and sharp
The butterfly that dances

The one who loves
The one who rages
The one who knows her place

When all 3 are awake beware
For they can call angels from heaven
And demons from the depths of hell

Beware their power
Beware their love
Beware their rage

Today in May

My heart has died 8428 times
Bleeding over and over again
The darkness washing over me
The pain setting in again
The tears enough to fill an ocean

The pain is still as raw as the first day
The day your light left me here alone
Trying to walk on my own without you
I stumble, I fall often still
Nightmares and dreams plague my existence

But I would die 1000 deaths just to have you back for one spring day
One summer night
One fall afternoon or
One winter morning

8428 days I’ve kept my promises to the dead
I’ve never loved the same
I never went to him
My heart never abandoned you
I belong to you still

For you who holds my heart

I confess my love, my longing, my pain
Pouring it out on page after page

After all I’m still loving you my dear
After all I know why you can’t be here

Tears are shed, and all hope is lost
Hearts are broke, and at what cost

If you only knew what my eyes have seen
If you only knew what is inside of my dreams

Once we shared our dreams and our hopes
Once we shared things that only you know

Moonlight shines, and the sun it will rise
Roses will bloom, and butterflies fly

But in the dark, all alone the tears fall
And in the light the mask is worn for all

When I look inside my heart you’re still there
In your heart I think you know I still care

Tears will dry, and I still walk on all alone
My heart is yours no matter where I have roamed

So hold me close even though we’re apart
You’re still the one that is holding my heart

So keep memories safe in the back of your mind
You’ll be my forever love, love that lasts for all time

And one day perhaps we’ll meet once again
Under the blue sky feeling the kiss of the wind

Leaves will fall and the seasons will change
Time moves on yet my feelings remain

See no evil, Hear no evil, Speak no evil

You cover your eyes; You can not see the things right in front of you
You cover your ears; Dampen the sounds from the echos and screams
You cover your mouth; Remain silent, all that you know you dare not to speak

Like Mizaru, you remain blind to the world around you
Like Kikazaru, you remain deaf to the sound of anguish and pain
Like Iwazaru, you remain mute, keep your secrets in vain

So cover your eyes so that you can not see the bloodshed and hate
So cover your ears so you can not hear the torment and rage
So cover your mouth so you hold your words back, gagged with restraint

Mizaru; see no evil, will you always be blind to truth?
Kikazaru; hear no evil, will you always be deaf to verity?
Iwazaru; speak no evil, will you always be mute to honesty?

So gouge out your eyes or pull off the blindfold and see the light
So cut off your ears or remove the dampeners and hear the world
So rip out your tounge or speak your words, your knowledge is power

Puppet

Like a marionette sway and dance
Do as you’re told
Pull the string in the back make it speak
Repeat after me
Cover your mouth, open your eyes
Listen carefully
Be pretty, be polite
Hide your intelligence
Make them jealous, Wrap them around your finger
Make them crazy
Shed your tears, cover your bruises
Tend your wounds
Watch, listen and learn
You are a puppet

JASMINE BECKET-GRIFFITH-speak no evil art

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Torn between loyalties and loves
The flame of sadness erupts in my heart
One love long gone
One love a world away
Torn between a promise and longing
The tears still fall for you both
Loving him still remembering the days long past when he loved me and held me in his arms
Loving you still, hearing the melodies that allow me to always find my way back to you
How long should one keep a promise
How long should one deny themselves love
What is the cost should a promise to the dead become broken
What is the cost of freeing yourself from the bonds of pain for love
How long should loyalty cause fear and heartache
How long should loyalty cause disruption and silence
The melodies that summoned me to you both still echo in my heart
Undying eternal love at what cost
How many tears should we cry
How can you heal when pieces of you are missing

The plight of a butterfly

A butterfly is trapped in the web of a long dead spider
The butterfly could not release itself
So the butterfly is bound for the rest of its life

While only longing to be near a crimson rose
A butterfly remained greatful to the spider
For the spider did not take its life
But cursed the spider because it became eternally trapped in its web

Wistfully it thinks upon the bloom of the crimson rose for strength
Taring at the strands attached so firmly with damaged wings
It still can not break the bonds of the spiders web

Defeated the butterfly calls out for the crimson rose
Wanting the nectar from it that previously sustained its life, the soft caress of its petals, to gaze upon the beauty one last time

Pleading for release, withering away, sleeping, dreaming of a rose and of a freedom that will never come… wishing the spider could tend its web and take its life…

Praying for a final end to its suffering

Tales from a broken doll

Short stories, poetry, musings and rambling.