I’ve never truly celebrated this day
One day I will, by doing the dance of death on your grave

I will dance with glee and joy in my heart
Knowing that you have finally departed

He’s long since turned to ash and been returned to the sea
While you live your life and get to walk free

Your freedom disgusts, and infuriates me
My love awaits you in hell to torment you
Because the last time we met I told him the truth

Part of me hopes the last thing you hear is me whispering his name in your ear
While playing the songs of my angel, inciting your deepest fears

The only things you gave me were disorders, complexes, lies and pain
broken promises, trust issues, and nightmares all for your gain

I hope that your past truly haunts you every waking moment, every sleepless night
Every time you dare to close your eyes

I hope you die alone, tired and sad
Because you were never a fucking dad

If only patricide were not a crime
But it is so I bide my time

Death comes for all, But he won’t take me
Until I am avenged, So mote it be

© Missi The Broken Doll 2021

Your ghostly figure comes to me
In the shadows you gently weep

Love was lost and hearts were broke
It was you I loved the most

Between the two I walk alone
Veiled thinly in the shadow

Dance the line between death and life
Seeds sown of torment, pain, and strife

For you my love I’ll always bleed
For you my love my heart you keep

The candle burned out I’m in the dark
The shattered life carries no spark

I can not love, I am numb, I can not feel
My mind and heart have never healed

The things you took can’t be replaced
The things you gave went up in flames

I am so weary I wish to sleep
From the abyss you call to me

I fear the void, I fear to follow
But I’m so tired of walking hallow

A shell of what could have been
Tragic love, obsessive sin

So I continue to dance the line, to blur my past
Of walking death and living masked

If they should see what’s really beneath
Smiles would fade, and love would cease

And just like my heart still waits for thee
I wait for death to come for me

© Missi The Broken Doll 2021

With the icy fingers of death closing around your neck
What did you see that night?

Did all the pain and torment you caused come back to you three fold as you took the last breaths of life?

When the monster inside of you finally broke you, and twisted your heart was it me that was on your mind?

Did you know that you leaving this realm would have such far flung consequences in time?

Sending him away.. it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But I promised you, Never him. Though it still brings tears to my eyes.

Even though I loved him dearly, just looking at him brought me pain. A constant reminder of you, you always win..time and time again.

He still lends me his strength. I still need it more than he’ll ever know. I think he misses me sometimes. Hearing hints in melody and rhyme.

I’ll never forgive you for breaking his heart, I could fill pages with the things I forgave you. But never that, for his for mine..

Though so much time has passed, and I always gave you your way… I’ve never been or loved the same..

I have always been strong, but you…. you were and still are my weakness, Still my shame.

© Missi The Broken Doll 2021

My minds eye still sees your beauty mixed with darkness
The persona created between the two
The mask you gave I still have to wear
Forcibly confining diminishing my will to live even still
The countless nights alone with you
Secrets in hushed voices
Outbursts in rages pain and violence
Shattering boundaries like glass around us
My heart still bound and caged to one
Closed to all others except the angel
My mind still in torment
A monster at the end of his rope
An angel on flightless wings
Your tears on a chilly night
My tears mixed with blood
My minds eye still remembers

© Missi The Broken Doll 2021

• 

My blue eyes can curse too
And I’ve seen the worst of you
You and all of your kin
Will suffer for your deepest sins

When you see a butterfly or a rose
Know that my spell grows and grows
Twisting the sharpest thorns in your heart
That won’t release you until you depart

When you see a girl that’s dancing
When you’re walking, when you’re weak
When you think to hurt another
Be it a stranger or a lover

I shall invade thoughts and somehow
You find your mind belongs to me now
Every memory shall cause you pain
Every flash back makes you insane

You will re-live your deepest fears
All your sarrows all your tears
Every pain you’ve ever felt
Because  inside you I will dwell

Hear my moans, hear my screams
Suffer all my agonies
With all the pain you have caused
Nothing before gave you pause

Now you shall deal with the laws of three
I send your torment back to thee
You shall see me everywhere
Making visible the scars you bare

Every time you tell a lie
Look at the sky or take a drive
When you feel anything for yourself but hate
You will think only of my name

You will now live through my hell
And not a soul will you tell
You will bare my scars within your heart
Until it tares your mind apart

Seek me on a moonless night
Endeavor never ending plight
Seek me when the moon is full
Toying with your captured soul

Incantations and sorcery
Will not release you from the pain of me
Invading all your memories
Baneful echo so mote it be

© Missi The Broken Doll 2021