Some things can’t be changed
I thought it would be different somehow in the event of an emergency. maybe it wasn’t conveyed as an ’emergency’…though the fact he was told we were at the EMERGENCY room by me AND by my older son would have been a clue.
I guess I thought that even though he lacks the ability to see anyone other than himself that perhaps a medical emergency would some how trigger something that would cause him to have a moment of clarity.
Clearly, I was mistaken about that.
So, what does this mean now? Does he see my son the same way he sees me? “She is dead to me!” he told my older son. Is that how he feels about D? How is this going to play out if he comes back here? Is he just going to actively ignore his own son? What kind of clusterfuck is he creating for my children? How is this not against the law? Why don’t I have any recourse here? Why can’t I change this or fix this or make it something other than my ex husband telling my son, through is actions, to go fuck himself?
D knew that I told his dad about his trip to the ER. So, he also knows his dad didn’t bother to check in with him. D has a friend, Catherine, HER mom and her mom’s fiancee BOTH called D and talked to him about it! My parents called him, my friends commented on FB about it to him. People he never met were wishing him well.
I don’t know what to do here. I don’t know how to make this any different. I have no avenue to change anything about this situation. All I am able to do is continue on with my life as I have been – and swallow this latest pill of realization that not only is my ex an asshole, he is getting worse.
Looking Forward 