Realization
It took me a long time to realize just how alone I was in my marriage. But, when I did, I realized I’d much rather be actually, physically alone forever than to live another day letting him make me feel like this. I’d kept thinking he would change. Maybe I could change. Maybe I could do more, try harder, care less….I’m stubborn. I hated admitting that he was more powerful than I was. Or that this situation I’d found myself in was something I couldn’t control.
I’d spent so much time feeling hopeless, like this was going to be my life, forever. Once I let go of the idea thats how it HAD to be, realizing I have options, I have choices, I can make a plan. I DON’T HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THIS! I felt a lot more hopeful, powerful, and capeable. It was a wonderful realization.
Looking Forward 