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I think I'm still too incoherently excited to post about the end of the MaM fanthanx event story but just know that it redeemed everything about this event like. just. I didn't think that was possible but I was WRONG and I'm so glad for it ;w;

KOHAKU SHOWED UP IN MADARA'S FUCKING BACKSTAGE DRESSING ROOM AND THEY PLANNED A TRIP AROUND TOKYO TOGETHER AND LOVE IS REAL AND I'M SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay okay okay I'm normal I swear XD

Really I just wanted to post about potentially designing a new layout......I do love my current one and it was a lot of work to get it to play right with dreamwidth, but like...it's been over a year, I need change XD I wish Component wasn't a livejournal only experience, cuz some of my ideas may or may not be feasible with other layouts...or my skill level :T Either way, I don't even know who I'm gonna feature in it probably double face who am I kidding it's just been like...vague coding ideas........

ngl I wish LJ hadn't shit the bed entirely because I managed to score free paid time there and I would absolutely overhaul my layout there if I could actually, you know, crosspost my entries conveniently. I just don't think I have the dedication to post them all manually :T

tho maybe if I had a fancier layout I would

Also, Kohaku and Madara are soooooo close to rank A+ in JP!!!!


so close I can almost taste it!!!!!!!!
120k fans, here I come!!!! tbh I got them to rank A+ in CN a bit ago and they have more than enough fans in ENG for once it comes to that server, but it feels a lot more earning in JP, you know? I had to manually grind for every single on of those fans, and it's only taken me 2 years. Which like, okay, I guess that's a lot of time, but it's also a sign of my dedication ♥

I'm trying not to dread the climb to rank S....175k fans seems insurmountable, but so did 120k!!!!! I can do it!!!!!!! It's going faster now because 2x/3x fans for White Day, but like...it's not impossible. If I want something, I can make it happen~

edit: forgot to include that I actually got a 5* from my MaM 10 scout ;w; Like of course it's yet another green one, as if I didn't just max the green event one, but I'm not complaining!! I was so excited ;w;


wish we could have unit/idol specific scouts more often...this is great XD

EVENT: DONE


I got the final copy of Madara already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
idk what to say; I was possessed by a level of focus and determination hitherto unknown I guess???? I just locked in and played enstars for two days straight XD Seriously, I got the last copy at around 5 am, which was 52 hours after the event started. I did sleep some on Saturday night, but yeah, I was just on the nonstop grind.

Also, while I still don't love the event song (or outfit), the song started to grow on me after I'd played it nearly 50 times XD Which is good, since, you know, I had to play it so many times. Overall, I think I wouldn't have minded as much if this was a """regular""" event, but since the Fan ThanX events are meant to be more important, it was a bigger letdown. Like. It's a phone game, I'll live, but I'm still somewhat bummed.

KOHAKU REFERENCED IN ONE OF THE MINI TALKS THO SO LIKE. I'LL TAKE MY CRUMBS!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the office item also included Double Face decorations, not just MaM ;w; I was soooo afraid the event was gonna pretend like DF had never existed or some shit, so like....I was slightly healed by all that.


someone on twitter broke down all the references but I just wanted to share Mama's shooting range~
So, there's a Pop'n Music collab going on in enstars right now, which means that I played....a lot of the temporary collab songs during this event XD Sayonara Heaven, you are so important to me.

uhhhhhhhh my brain is still a little fried from how much enstars I played in such a short time....

OH, RIGHT. Since it's 2x fans for White Day (3x for Madara), I'm gonna spend the rest of the event fan grinding. Like...I have the card maxed already, I'm pretty much set on event points, you know? So I'm hoping I can make a big push towards Rank A+/120k fans for Madara and Kohaku~ I did the push for Rank A during the Bridal Campaign last summer, so now seems like a good time for it :D

( other various accomplishments from the grind )

Liz and I ran to the grocery store this evening because I was d y i n g for a vegetable. Like, yes, I was technically only grinding for two days, but it felt waaaaay longer, since I basically shoved the whole week of playing into that time, while subsisting mostly on instant food. Though on Saturday morning, Liz did make me eggs, bacon, and corn muffins from scratch for breakfast, which was very sweet ;w; They've been super supportive of my enstars-based insanity for the event, and I really appreciate it.

Spouses who game together stay together, you know? ♥

I do have to play a little bit more today, since it's Arashi's birthday, but like. It's sooooo much more manageable now XD

I don't wanna talk about the MaM event so I'm gonna be positive and share what I made before the event announcement last night. I got a bunch of stickers to decorate toploaders with a bit ago and finally picked up a pack of toploaders last night~ I've never made any before, though, so I decided to start with this Tsumugi pasha I got awhile back:


ta-da!!!! I just had to highlight him crying uwu
Overall, a lot of fun to make, but I do feel like I need to buy even more stickers XD As if I don't have enough already ;D

More than anything, I think I need more cards of characters I love....I have so few ;w;

The first rate up box for the MaM event started last night and 1) I really like the card and 2) he came home!!!!


Yume is suuuuuch a cute brat and I'm glad here's gonna support me in my quest for Madara~
Also, he crashed my phone XD like literally in the middle of the scout my phone completely froze up but wouldn't shut off, so the scout music was just playing while I was desperately trying to get my phone to turn off. Thanks, Yume.

I ended up really liking the most recent JP event, tour aspect and all, though I do need to sit down and read the last little bit of the story. I'd been more meh about the Megastream arc this year - especially the first chunk of it - but omg it picked up in the last few parts!!!! And I'm not just saying that because Raika was a 5* in one...promise! I know that enstars stopped showing the authors of stories anymore, but the final Megastream story really feels like an Akira story. It gripped me in a way that others don't and just...idk man, it just had the vibes. Liz and I talked about it and we said way smarter things but my brain is currently like PPPZZZZZZTTTTT so idk what to say now.

OH BUT WAIT THERE WAS MORE I LIKED!!!! Instead of each stop on the tour being 4 assorted song with only the last song being related to a character from the tour (usually), each stop was a specific unit. And then the second half of the tour includes cover and/or fusion songs in each stop. It just really felt like it pulled the gameplay aspect of enstars into the story itself, and I really loved it. Also I like being prepared in advance, so knowing what units were coming up was nice.


AAAAAAAAAAAAND!!!!!! The second MaM stop had two Double Face songs, so you know I was crashing out (with joy, and also because my phone crashed twice during it)
So, overall the tour was really good!!!! Which is not something I usually say, since I usually find them grueling :T But this one was fun!!!! My only major complaints are:

1. No MV outfits- not even for the gacha cards. I didn't end up scouting on the rate up box, because what's the point if even the 5 stars don't come with a dress up option?
2. BRIGHTEST STARS!! didn't need another version. like. okay, this is personal bias, but LIMIT BREAK DREAMERS is the best anniversary song and I knew the 10th anniversary one probably wouldn't top it, so maybe I'm just salty that it didn't get another fancy version. Also, I'm still haunted by having to play BRIGHTEST STARS!! repeatedly last April, so this was like a horrible flashback D:

Like I said, I really liked it!!! I feel like these complaints aren't even that major, but because I did like it so much, I'm more able to critique it in ways that aren't just "idk man it sucked?"

MaM event preview + other scout preview are tonight and I'm like....beside myself ngl, I'm not sure how I'm gonna make it XD I'm having a combination of excitement + anxiety, which is really fun. I just love that my mental illness makes me anxious about...being excited for a thing I'm gonna like???? Like, what? That doesn't even make sense!!! I just wanna enjoy myself ;w; I'm also nervous because like........most of the fanthanx have been really good with fantastic songs, but what if I don't like this one? What if one of my favorite characters ends up having something shitty? Even trying to remind myself that the rest have been good only stresses me out more, cuz I get reminded of my high expectations, and it starts the cycle again.

Unrelated, I should probably get back into therapy. This isn't even a situation where I should step away from enstars because it's causing undue stress; I'd be like this about anything I tried to enjoy right now. Why? Who knows!!!!! Like I sorta know why, but also that isn't enough to stop me from completely locking up when I try to have a nice time.

Speaking of things that upset me for no reason other than ~mental illness~, there are some changes coming to scouting in JP. They're shifting some of the percentages around slightly and also...scout coins are now gonna be universal, instead of tied to just the box you got them from. Of course, this kicks in after this event's scouts, so like...I'm only slightly salty that I'm not gonna get to benefit from it after scouting a ton for rate up for MaM. The news also dropped after I'd been up for 30+ hours straight, which made me take something that honestly sounds quite good badly, for ????? reasons. From what it sounds like, you'll be able to save up the scout coins and use them whenever, so in theory I could start saving them in preparation for the next time one of my faves has a scout box, just as back up if I don't get them from scouting for them.

....it does sound kinda too good to be true, so I'm waiting to see how it works when it rolls out. But if it really does end up working out like that, I might be able to max Madara's next gacha card without spend nearly as much as I did on Kohaku's XD

( other enstars accomplishments )

I've had other stuff going on, but I've been rambling long enough and I think I can finally go sort out the website stuff I've been dealing with all week...just one thing after another, you know?