Space Wander

I took a long break from gaming to think about myself. I tried to keep going with my life and pretend like it didn't hurt, but I couldn't. My mental and physical health were declining, and I couldn't understand why I hurt so much. It was my spirit. You cut to the core of my being and branded my heart. It would have been easier if you weren't so much like me. But to open up to a kindred spirit, and then be rejected... it reopened some deeper scars that I hadn't even shown you. I think I share your wish , "if only I had the words that could have cut through your confusion," but there was nothing else I could have said, I had shown you everything I was. I reminded you of all your mistakes and it disgusted you.

It never stops burning. I can't think of you without clenching my teeth as the pain sears through my mind. It wasn't good for either of us that I trusted you so fully, it inevitably ended in tragedy. It took me a long time to recenter myself, and focus on my life through the pain. It's never going to stop, is it? I can live with that, if you were able to.

But this game was nice. I had no idea that you cared when you rejected me, I thought you finally got fed up and pushed me away. At least I know that it was more complex than that. I'm glad I played and found some closure, and it was peaceful while it lasted. Thanks. I'm going to post this comment before I get embarrassed and delete it. This game meant a lot to me, more than you'll ever know.