I’m going to cobble together a quick story because I have changed my mind on what I wanted to share today. Suffice it to say I’m yet again going through some stuff.
He’s savage but don’t get it twisted.
When I saw that caption on an Instagram post four years ago underneath a picture of my father, I felt a mixture of pride and revulsion. You know because it either meant that I come from hardy stock, resilient people or my ancestors were cruel & savage.
If there’s anything that I like about myself, it’s my ability to always be kind. To lead with that. I’m not always nice, I’m human but I have enough decorum not to act on unkind feelings.
Back then, I was just beginning to understand my roots. I didn’t want to think that there’s bad blood in me. If there is even such a thing as “born bad” for anyone. The debate is ongoing whether we are inherently good or evil. Nurture versus nature. All that jazz.
Anyway, this little “short” story is turning into a long one so I’m gonna get to the point.
I have my appointment today and I’m a little concerned. It’s about my bone health. A dexa scan shows my osteoporosis is severe and my risk of fracture is in the highest category. The sweet assistant said, “if you were my grandma, I would bubble wrap you.” The appointment today is to teach me how to inject myself. Oh, and insurance is still pending for this $2800 a month treatment. They’re going to give me a 30 day sample then appeal until it’s approved. They have the literature to support this aggressive treatment is necessary, my only chance to reverse the decline.
In typical fashion to avoid thinking about any of this, I am distracting myself.
For some reason, my bones breaking made me think of the movie Unbreakable with Bruce Willis and Samuel L Jackson. I don’t think it’s an original story. I think it was a comic book. Anyway, Bruce is unbreakable and Samuel is Mr. Price. A fragile character who I relate to. I need to see if I can find this streaming somewhere. In the meantime, I’m dropping the clip.
OK now I’m gonna continue my walk. I don’t leave for the appointment for another 2 1/2 hours. Time to get those steps in as long as I can.
As always, more to come.
J-Dub's Grin and Bear It 