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I'm in a bit of a sulk and isolate moodset, because everything in the world is just aggravating me. I know the source - high stress, flaring from the high stress+weather, tired and sore - so it is managable. But it's just very tiring. I have the energy to keep doing shit, but I do not have the energy to maintain my usual perky good cheer when everything and everyone is chafing on my nerves.

It's bad enough that I keep getting anxious at Reba, which never happens. Better to be anxious at her than pissy, though. I've known her for almost ten years at this point, and I can count the number of times she's managed to irritate me on one hand. I do not want to ruin that streak just because I'm in pain, and I am being waspish about it.

.. the fact I'm even fussing about that is a sign of anxiety, though. Knowing my emotional trajectories and responses is kind of funny at times. There is a wry discomfort to being able to catalogue and acknowledge my emotions, and yet despite that knowledge, you can't turn your brain off. You just have to work with what you can work with in the moment, which can make having that knowledge in the first place feel very useless.