Shin Kyung-Sook: I’ll Be Right There, transl. Sora Kim-Russell, Other Press, 2013
This book came out before the big boom in K-Lit, which began in the second half of the 2010s, but the author was one of the best-known Korean authors of that time, since her book Please Look After Mum won the Man Asian Literary Prize (which no longer exists). I came across it by pure chance and internet, because, after I posted how Han Kang’s Human Acts utterly destroyed my composure, Bella Azam on Twitter happened to mention that this might be a good follow-up so that I can continue crying over revolutionary young people. And what better time to do so than in the run-up to celebrating 35 years since the 1989 revolution in Romania, just after our national holiday on the 1st of December, and in the midst of chaotic presidential and parliamentary elections (to make us all wonder/remember what we fought for back then)?
Unlike Human Acts, this book contains no graphic descriptions of brutal repression or torture. In fact, in what might be seen as an odd authorly decision, most of the big events take place off-stage, and are then narrated or mused over by the main protagonists in retrospect. Romance and friendship take centre stage, and it’s much more of a coming of age story rather than purely political. The sentiment I felt upon reading this book was less heartbreak, more a gentle melancholia, a sadness at the loss of lives and end of friendships and love affairs.
Jung Yoon is the main protagonist, who receives a phone call out of the blue from her college sweetheart, with whom she’d broken up eight years ago. We are instantly struck by the rather incongruous exchange between them: ‘As soon as he said “Hello?’, I asked “Where are you?”, but as the story unfolds, we discover that there is a real poignant meaning to this awkward exchange of greetings. They are brought together by the death of their most loved college professors and this brings forth a bout of reminiscing, as well as extracts from the Brown Notebook, a kind of journal compiled by Yi Myungsuh (the ex-boyfriend), and letters between friends, such as Dahn (Yoon’s childhood friend) and Miru (Myungsuh’s childhood friend).
This is how the author describes the book in the afterword: ‘ a story of young people living in tragic times. It is also the story of people who find themselves separated, despite their love for each other, because they carry wounds that are too deep to overcome, and who struggle to come back together’. Set against a backdrop of regular marches and protests, we see examples of police kettling protestors and throwing their possessions in back alleys, young people suddenly going missing, setting fire to themselves or suffering mysterious ‘accidental’ deaths during military service and the impact that has on their families. Yoon becomes fascinated by the mysterious and attractive couple-who-are-not-a-couple Myungsuh and Miru, who used to live together in the same house, together with Miru’s sister, who is now dead. Miru is mourning the loss of her sister and desperately seeking her sister’s boyfriend. Yoon herself has become closed in and terrified of attending college after the death of her mother. Myungsuh gets caught up in student demonstrations, and finds Yoon at one of these protests, although she happened to be there purely by accident, while taking her endless long walks across the city. Their shared admiration for their professor turns into a deeper sentiment, part confusion, part inspiration, when the professor is forced to stop lecturing for ideological reasons.
Where the book succeeds best is in exploring the solidarity and affection that can arise when fighting against a common enemy, even if that doesn’t help us to overcome individual traumas entirely. Because it is set eight years after the events unfolded, there is also quite a lot in the book about the slippery nature of memory.
The future rushes in and all we can do is take our memories and move forward with them. Memory keeps only what it wants. Images from memories are sprinkled throughout our lives, but that does not mean we must believe that our own or other people’s memories are of things that really happened. When someone stubbornly insists that they saw something with their own eyes, I take it as a statement mixed with wishful thinking. As what they want to believe.

I was also struck by those passages where the young protestors start wondering if all their suffering and demonstrations are in vain. Losing their idealism as they get older but also as the battles they are fighting are not easily or rapidly won. How to keep the courage and optimism flowing when it becomes a war of nerves and attrition?
‘They can’t stand it… and that’s why they form barricades, throw paving bricks, and run away only to get caught and arrested. What they can’t stand is that nothing ever gets better. Nothing has changed since last year. It’s as if time has stopped… It only feels like time is the passing, and only the character change. We are torn apart and chased around. We fight back and get chased some more… We all stare at the walls and complain of loneliness. All we have to do is turn around, but instead we keep our faces to the walls… The streets are quiet now. All of that excitement, like we were going to make something happen, has vanished. Our push for change has come to a standstill. Even our solidarity is now just another phenomenon. The people I once marched with have all scattered and dispersed without having changed anything.
The author is well-versed in Western literature and she quotes poets such as Emily Dickinson (there is even a deaf cat named after her), Rilke, Francis Jammes, Jules Supervielle, as well as referencing Western art and music. This makes the experience feel more universal – these could be students anywhere in the world protesting against tyranny – although I also loved the specificity of certain locations in the book – the Namsan Tower or the second floor of the Gyeonghoeru Pavilion.
This book very successfully blends coming-of-age personal narrative with nostalgia and politics. It’s infused with a more melodramatic feel than Human Acts, and may not always be entirely convincing in romantic conversations, but nevertheless, I connected quite a bit with the mood it conveyed.













