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Jan. 17th, 2026 06:53 am
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Dear Diary,

         Christmas and New Years came and went. I loved all the holidays. However, I had a very hard time financially because my check was reduced for a few months. I was severely depressed only getting $25 a week from Mom. I could only afford rent at the time and that hurt. However, on the bright side I did learn that I could actually live on $25 a week since I was so blessed. Mom helps to put a roof over my head so I am okay. I am very blessed to have food stamps as well. My food stamps has been a wonderful blessing. I've been able to buy coffee, chicken and dozens of frozen meals. I'm very blessed. I actually have some money still left over on my food stamps card. I've been able to buy my own food and that has helped me feel independent. 

           The bad news is the bus system in Jacksonville is cutting off allowing rides in cars. The disabled community has to go back to relying on faulty buses that do not have a reliable transportation system. In other words, they are late getting you everywhere and they are late picking you back up from places. Working is not looking appealing at all. I think I may say that to the job search company I've been emailing. I hate to do it but money is very important. I hate that I can't work but that's what it's looking like.

           Anyway, I'm just glad I'm blessed. Sorry about the complaining.

Love,

Kathryn Rose

losing it

Jan. 13th, 2026 03:07 pm
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Dear Diary

I was very close to losing my mind last week because I simply cannot make up my mind about spiritual things. I was about to have a nervous breakdown so I surrendered to the Pentecostal's Jesus. :)

Kathryn Rose 
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 Dear Diary,

          I've been writing song lyrics again. I just have to buy some instrumentals either on Uppbeat.io or Beatstars.com I can't wait to start loving music again! My latest song is based on Disney princesses.

          Love,
          Kathryn Rose
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 Dear Journal,
          Today I am stuffed full of food. I enjoyed a meal full of turkey, potatoes, Lima beans and more. It was delicious. I drank my hot chocolate over ice and then a second cup in the microwave. Everything was delicious!
          Tomorrow, Grandma is taking me to Christmas Made In the South. It is a giant craft show for rich people who want to buy handmade items as Christmas presents. I’m very thankful that I get to do this with my family. Sure, there’s times I wish I had more friends but life truly is good.

         Love,
         Kathryn Rose

Learning

Nov. 26th, 2025 06:56 pm
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Dear Diary,
         
         I read a little about Hinduism today. It’s pretty neat that they also believe in a supreme deity and a ruler. It’s a beautiful mythology really. I don’t think I believe in it necessarily but it’s beautiful mythology. I do believe in God, I believe in Jesus but why the hell part? That’s truly what gets me. Why did a loving God create hell? You know?

    - Kathryn Rose 

tattoo

Nov. 25th, 2025 04:48 pm
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Dear Diary,

         A cashier loved my old tattoo. I can't remove her. The singer is just there. Sitting on my arm forever. She was raving how much she loved the album. I didn't say much at all. WHAT COULD I SAY?    

        Sometimes the music floats back in my memories. I enjoyed it for awhile. I guess the truth is, I've outgrown her. I'm trying to find new hobbies. I don't know. I feel strange. Like tattoos are kind of weird. They come back and haunt you until you die.

         Kathryn Rose
 

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Dear Diary,
 
         Today Mom and Grandma took me to Lum Thai Restaurant where I got red chicken curry. It was delicious. Later, I went to Five Below and got a cheap present for Grandma. Then I went home and made some hot chocolate with a cinnamon stick. 

- Kathryn Rose 
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Dear Journal,
        
         Today I rode the bike and bought myself a coffee early in the morning. Later, I rode with Mom and Grandma to my old job Burlington. I almost got a nice dress but it wasn't quite the dress I was looking for. Later, we went to Hobby Lobby and bought a nice, beautiful, frosted covered fake Christmas tree. It was nice. We were going to go home and decorate the tree but we couldn't find the right ornaments stored away in the shed. We'll have to buy matching ornaments for the tree. I'll have to buy peppermint sticks for my hot chocolate when I help Mom and Grandma decorate the tree. :)
          
               ~ Kathryn Rose


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Dear Diary,
 
         Yesterday was nice. Except for the time I chipped my knee when I fell off the bike. Ugh! Later tonight, we went to Cinco De Mayo restaurant and ate Mexican. It was pretty good. The waiter didn't come back for the ticket until after we left though. Overall, the food wasn't too bad though!
         
         I'm pretty excited and nervous about the prospect of maybe working in a bookstore. I could stock inventory and help people out on the floor. I really hope I can do this because I love the idea of working in a place surrounded by mountains of books. I really want to do this. I wanted to go to college to become a book publisher but I might have to settle being a bookseller. I guess it's okay though.
          
          I can't sleep because I drank coffee at 2:45pm. Dumb move on my part. Now it's 10:33pm and tomorrow is a weekend. I hate it when I do stuff like this lol

~ Kathryn Rose
     

Lovely Day

Nov. 21st, 2025 03:33 pm
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Dear Diary

         Today was a lovely day. I rode my bike, bought lunch at McDonald's and went to Family Dollar and bought some antiacids from there. I rode my way back home. Vocational Rehabilitation services called me and said that they would call me about a meeting and time to set up in order to start a new On The Job training. I hope it works out!

--Kathryn Rose 
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 I am willing to do something unprecedented. I am willing to go to college with several learning disabilities. I received these handicapabilities after having a brain hemorrhage on both sides of the brain. Can I do it? Honestly, not likely but do I want to at least try? A THOUSAND TIMES YES! I don't understand why colleges don't allow people to just take classes that fit their job description. I understand career colleges but I would love to do courses in Creative Writing, American Sign Language, English Literature, History and Humanities. In case you haven't noticed, these classes have nothing to do with Mathematics or Science 

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Dear Diary

         Today I have no use for books. At least, I don't think I do. I don't know. I tried to finish my rose petal pages book Immortal Consequences but alas, I'm not quite getting into all of it. It's a beautiful book just hard to follow with multiple POVs. I think I'll donate it back to 2nd and Charles or my local bookstore Chamblin's.
          I really want more than anything a cup of coffee to drink from Wendy's of all places. I really like the atmosphere there in the mornings when no one is around. There's a cozy chair where I can sit by a fake fireplace in there. I might ride my bike there. Or I might save my last $5 for tomorrow when I am meeting up with my cousin Lauren and her Nana and her son David. I texted Lauren the other day about whether or not she wanted to hang out and she took me up on the offer. She is special needs but so am I. God gives us all a measure of grace.

  - Kathyrn Rose 

 

Breezy Day

Nov. 18th, 2025 03:00 pm
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Dear Diary,

Today was a lovely, breezy fall day. I rode the bike to Cracker Barrel first. I asked how much an iced latte was and they told me close to $% so I left. I went to Cinco De Mayo instead. I bought three cheesy tacos for $4.62. Not a bad deal huh? I wanted to sit in Wendy's cafe and read my book as I sipped on coffee but it wasn't meant to be as I met Grandma at a restaurant and ate with her today. I think tomorrow morning I'll buy a warm coffee and sip on it as I read. I had no desire to sit and feast on a monster themed book. In my schizophrenic mind, I guess I know I have to stay away from it for awhile. I might just switch books for awhile.

-Kathryn Rose

Happier

Nov. 18th, 2025 11:30 am
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Today I woke up happier, more carefree. Not an ounce of suicidal thoughts crossing my mind at all. I feel better. I think I shall read a book now. 😊 
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I was beginning to be bored of the roses tinged edges book Immortal Consequences. But something kept drawing me back to it. It writes of eternity as a school called Blackwood where magic like cloaking spells and lock your door enchantments live. It was sort of an interesting story of eternity not being so black and white, heaven and hell. Rather, it is a special place where the school is protected from the Daimen Order. This order is an order where if you join, you lose all humanity and become literally a haunted shadow. The middle of the book opens up with an eerie competition. Only one person in the midst of 12 competitors can make it and join an elite group that rules over the school. Only one. The game becomes ruthless with monsters that have the ability to mimic your entire body and movements. Just their smiles are black, jagged and dripping and dark eyes are hollow. It's no longer child's play in this book. I'm glad I stuck through. I'm already quaking in my slippers. And just like that, I want to read the next book that comes out in July of 2026. Can't wait!

-- Kathryn Rose

Biking

Nov. 17th, 2025 04:36 pm
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Dear Diary,

         It was nice going bike riding today on the electric bike. I felt cool wind on me and felt sunshine on my face. It's nice to be able to be on the bike. If I did decide to hurt myself there's a strong possibility I would become handicapped before I died and drowned. It's sad really. No easy way out is there? 
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Dear Journal

I hallucinated fire today. When my eyes were closed, I saw fire. It was only for a split second or two then it vanished. I was hallucinating while dealing with suicidal ideation. Scary stuff. I am going to have to admit this to my psychiatrist. I hate to do that especially when I was doing so well but here we go again on a stupid medication 💊 increase as if that’s the answer. 


- Kathryn Rose

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 Dear Diary

          I missed out on a fun fall festival at my old church. Simply because I drank a frozen hot cocoa the night before and couldn't sleep the entire night. I'm wearing the shirt I was going to wear. It says Flannels, Hayrides, Pumpkins, Sweaters and Bonfires. I would have loved to have gone to the fall festival part. Not exactly the church part but the fall festival part. There were food trucks, hayrides and raffle ticket drawings from what I know from last time. 
          I didn't go yes because I stayed up all night but also because I'm tired. I'm tired of being rejected in a church full of people. I'm tired of being rejected in a world full of people. Everything is a blur. I get up, read books, maybe do a chore and read more books again. I blog and then fall asleep. All of the trappings of a lonely person aching for a different life.
          I'm reading Mirror, Mirror: A Twisted Tale by Jen Calonita. It's a lovely book about a Princess named Snow White who lives in a castle and is not allowed to speak to anyone lest her Aunt - the evil Queen punishes her. Admittedly, I don't know the story of Snow White as I wasn't allowed to watch the movie as a child but in this particular story her mother dies and her father vanishes after marrying her Aunt. So far, it's a sad story. I can't imagine not being allowed to speak to anyone in a big castle. But I can imagine having everything a woman can want yet still some things missing in life.
           No matter. I've got to stop complaining Dear Diary. At least I don't live in a nation ravaged by war and I'm not dying of hunger.

-- Kathryn Rose
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