Couldn't figure out a synonym for post that started with F, sorry.

I started with FanfictionDownloader, too, which made nicer HTML files, IMO, but FFF is so much more powerful.

If having separate directories is the issue, please be aware that Calibre will let you make as many separate Library directories as you want. I have Food/Gardening, (other) Nonfiction, (commercial) Fiction, Fanfiction (that I've read and liked), (unread fanfic) To Sort In Progress, To Sort Long, To Sort Short, To Sort Series, and a fileless Physical Fiction Library. I have yet to find a limit on how many libraries I can have.

Also, Calibre will make lots of custom columns for useful sorting, and has the option of custom coloring the text based on your filter criteria. A lot of what you have on your database is the kind of thing I've been trying to figure the best way to share, though it looks like we don't have any overlapping fandoms.

Calibre's catalog function will create the spreadsheets. I've looked into shared Calibre libraries (looks like you can't make it read-only and public, though, which defeats my purpose) and so far, the best option I've found is a dynamic table:
https://datatables.net/forums/discussion/1632/import-csv-into-datatable

Of course, I haven't done it yet, because I've been too distracted trying to make a dent in my oversized To Sort libraries. You want to try collaborating on this? I've been making do with marking my favorites on FFN and AO3 instead.

Oh, and since AO3 is out of control with the tags, I've completely abandoned the tagging function on my Calibre libraries. It's too much to try to clean up, so I just pretend they aren't there. On the other hand, it sounds like tagging will do exactly what you want, so you'll want to ride herd on the tags you download with the stories.

I found it a lot easier to just download most of the stories again, even though I had a lot of them downloaded with FFDL before. Obviously the deleted ones won't work that way, but manually entering the metadata is annoyingly time-consuming.

You'll want to avoid downloading too many at a time, to avoid getting server-banned. Usually 5-10 is okay, but it can vary.
In hopes this will be helpful, I've made a list of alternatives for YahooGroups. I'm making a new post instead of a comment so as to TRY to reduce the overload on [personal profile] morgandawn

Groups.io
Only viable option for transfer, but Adult Content not permitted.
Easy import of YahooGroups, but requires Premium Membership for one year $110 $220. https://groups.io/static/pricing
For some reason, they require login to view the process, so I'm pasting it here:

Groups.io Transfer )

Squidge
Has email list servers and archives, but archives appear to be publicly readable instead of password locked to members. Adult content/fan friendly. Dated look, but also hosts pages and files. Probably the closest match to replacing YahooGroups.
https://www.squidge.org/

Dreamwidth
Adult content/fan friendly. It allows explicit material, is free, has threaded conversations, privacy locks and more. Image uploading is limited to 500MB free accounts and 1.5GB paid accounts. Can be set to email comments on your post and replies to your comments, but not primarily an email server.
https://dreamwidth.org

Google Groups
Adult Content not permitted.
May be impossible to transfer. If possible, it's way complicated for those of us who don't write computer code for a living.
https://stackoverflow.com/questions/35966337/transition-from-yahoo-groups-to-google-groups
https://support.google.com/a/thread/17075653?hl=en
https://support.google.com/a/thread/16986960?hl=en

Mobilize.io
Does not appear to have a way to import Yahoo Groups. Unknown position on adult material.
Looks like it has the necessary features, including a free level that handles most of what fan-based groups would need. Includes a mobile app. Geared toward businesses and techies, though. Not a lot of info on what I was trying to find out on their site, and the "ask" link wants name, title, company, email, and phone for someone to contact you back later.
https://www.mobilize.io/pricing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYoIzl6o8E8

Slack.com
Does not appear to have a way to import Yahoo Groups. Unknown position on adult material.
Not sure which came first, but it looks a lot like Mobilize.io. Free plan only allows access to the most recent 10,000 messages, though.
https://slack.com/pricing/free
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6c7_TpPUpL0

Wordpress Plugin
Requires your own hosted Wordpress installation, not WordPress.com.
Moderation, archiving messages, and importing members requires premium version, but unhappy reviewer says it's clunky at best. No mention of whether import includes messages and files, but given the member import apparently is limited to batches of 10, I'd say probably not.
https://wordpress.org/plugins/wp-mailing-group/

GroupSpaces
Does not appear to have a way to import YahooGroups. Unknown position on adult material.
Appears to be all of Yahoogroups functionality plus some, but Free is limited to only 50 members.
http://groupspaces.com/pricing

Zoho
Does not appear to have a way to import YahooGroups. Unknown position on adult material.
The sheer number of apps available is daunting, but Cliq appears to be their closest match to YahooGroups.
https://www.zoho.com/cliq/pricing.html
They also have something called Connect, but the free plan is limited to 25 members.
https://www.zoho.com/connect/pricing.html

Basecamp
Does not appear to have a way to import YahooGroups. Unknown position on adult material.
Doesn't seem to do email at all - instead focused on message boards, chat, online task lists, calendar/scheduling. Does have file storage. The free version is limited to 20 members.
https://basecamp.com/pricing

Wikipedia has a list of some mailing list software, which will require hosting/servers and technical know-how:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_mailing_list_software

Filehosting and sharing is another whole book's worth of discussion, but if the group itself can't move to a provider that offers all the same pieces that YahooGroups had, it is possible to split the services up to separate providers, if necessary.
I'm still amused by the reactions at work this weekend; hard to say whether I got more comment for my clothes or my hair (who'd have thought jeans and a ponytail were so dramatic?;) Tested my new fancypants stud finder tonight, too - the good news is that the metal scan seems to work through the tile (which is why I bought it). The bad news is, it looks like the studs in the main bathroom are spaced exactly WRONG for the showerbar I want to put up. Seems I can put one end into a stud, but the other end is going to be in basic drywall-and-tile. Of course, first I have to work up the nerve to use those new drillbits; I've never drilled through tile before. Still have to check the master bath; the walls are more even, so maybe I'll have better luck in there.

Had to protest the schedule change to keep Saturday night for anime, too. (local friends welcome!) I do so love working with the kind of people who will just abandon their jobs instead of putting in notice, or at the very least, calling to say they aren't coming back. Sigh. On the bright side, maybe the sudden void will help a little with the hours situation for a few folks.

On another note, it seems LJ is trying to force me to choose between LJ and FB. Citing security, it keeps deactivating my connection to FB. Given what I'm seeing here, security is an issue, but there really isn't anything on my LJ that I'm afraid to have on FB, so it reads like a "me or him" ultimatum. Since more of my friends use FB than LJ, I think that's a bad idea for LJ. I wish I could have convinced them to use LJ; at this point, their primary reason for choosing FB - privacy - is better at LJ. Some of my FB friends can't even come over to LJ to read my posts, so I may have to just switch to C&P anyway.

Also, am amused by these:

What in the world is he ironing? Curtains? A tablecloth?

This wouldn't work for me. With my luck, I'd get "William h start turn-is-over width sing."
I didn't get much accomplished yesterday. Spent most of the day on FB, then got ready for the free dance class at UAH that a friend told me about, only to find that my sneakers weren't just coming apart - the side of my foot was sticking out. Since shopping is not one of my favorite things, I do tend to leave things until I absolutely can't avoid it :/

So, I made a run to New Balance first; made it to the class only about five minutes before it was supposed to start. It went okay, though I'm not very good at it. My friend is a lot easier to follow than the instructor, actually. A couple of the guys I got partnered with kept telling me to look up, since the instructor had said we were supposed to keep eye contact as much as possible, but I couldn't. Until I feel confident that I know what I'm doing, I'm going to have trouble keeping eye contact with anybody. It's part of that insecurity thing.

Afterwards, I went over to my parents' house to give my brother the rest of the guitar stuff I found in my purse last week. Ended up staying to watch whatever episode of NCIS they were on, then having a nice long talk, the way we usually do.

Today, I had lots of stuff I intended to do: hang my living room pictures, pull staples and tackboards in the last bedroom, wrap the frayed wire in the attic, clean some of the stuff out of the family room to put into the attic, do laundry, vacuum the living room rug, wash dishes, etc. What I actually did: I was checking FB for messages (still trying to get in touch with my late friend's BF) when I got a call from friends I hadn't seen in a while. Met for lunch, stayed and talked for a long time (tipped extra since the poor guy couldn't clear the table until we left). They had an appointment, so they arranged to come over after. I went home and spent an hour beheading all the dandelions I could find in the front yard, at least until I was so tired I could hardly stand the heat anymore. (If ever there was a time I wish the neighbors had munchkins I could borrow: yes, dearie, go pick all the dandelions you can find! Yes, they're very pretty. Look, there are some more! Go get 'em, kiddo!)

Ended up having a nice long chat (must have all my friends over more - must get house straightened up a little), but didn't do much. After they headed back home, I climbed up into the attic to wrap that wire at least. Had trouble getting the attic door to come down - will have to replace that blasted wire/twisted-hanger with something that is gentler on my hands when I pull. Then I had to get a step-stool out to be able to reach the attic stairs in order to unfold them. This is not great. The attic is kind of a mess, with wires running all over the place (and they only bothered to insulate the part that's over the house itself, not the part that's over the carport-turned-garage). So, pink fiberglass strewn everywhere, with wires coming and going almost at random. There is also a TV antenna mounted just under the peak of the ceiling up there. I found the wire dad had been talking about and used the electrical tape he'd given me to wrap it. That was a little harder than I'd expected, mostly because trying to hold the flashlight and wrap the wire at the same time was really complicated. The worst part, though, was when I climbed down and couldn't get the door to close. I don't know if it just needs oil, or if there's a latch I'm just not seeing, but it's tremendously frustrating. I hope I don't run into it tomorrow when I leave for work.

I ended up sticking the stuff from the family room in the garage instead. The attic needs some work before I'll feel comfortable storing anything up there.
Lost a friend and not taking it well. Mom's taking off work to be with me today.

It was a rough day at work, with two coworkers out and one over an hour late. Lots of minor issues, so when one coworker called late at night to tell me she had bad news, I was thinking something work-related. Something like the end of our major project, or cutbacks or something. When she told me there was an accident and our friend didn't make it, I couldn't parse the words. It didn't really register. This was a gut-punch.
To those who don't know me very well, this may sound like bragging. It's not. This is me being introspective about my reality. It's also very long, which is pretty typical of me.

http://www.apollo.edu/dreambig

Sounded interesting - a full scholarship to University of Phoenix for retail employees. Work had a notice for managers to make sure that all employees were aware of this opportunity (though unless they bring it up at the meeting this coming Saturday, pretty much nobody knows - communication is a huge issue in this company) and I decided to check it out.

I've occasionally considered the possibility: another degree, to get me somewhere more useful than I've managed so far, to get the credentials to be acknowledged when I write about things I've observed, as though the ability to recognize patterns in the world and follow scientific logic requires certification from an accredited agency. (I have a sort of cynical amusement at this notion, since I noticed long ago that the problem with standardized intelligence testing is that it is limited by the intelligence of the test creators.) Psychology, perhaps, or an MBA? Maybe even something in web technology.
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until I logged onto my computer this evening. It's wet and cold outside (has been for days) but I'm usually pretty philosophical about that. I put on more layers (and lately, a knit hat) and settle in to do whatever I was already going to do.

I was not happy with what I found tonight. First, I kept getting incorrect password notices in Thunderbird when I tried to download my email. When I realized it was my main email address, I pulled up a browser and logged in that way. Apparently someone in Russia has been trying to use my gmail. I had to change my password and go through the options for tighter security in gmail, which took a while.

I'm getting really annoyed with these ID thieves. In the last year, I've had my Facebook locked out twice, because someone in MS (or LA?) and NJ (I think I'm remembering the right states) tried to log into my FB with a mobile device. What's even more annoying is that when I changed the FB password last, I forgot that I would need to change it on LJ, too, so that I can crosspost properly. For those of you who follow me on FB and not LJ, this is also notice of the post yesterday. Anyway, I've set up the two-step login for gmail, irritating as that is, because apparently I need the added security.

When I did finally get my email, I had a notice that the coffeetable order was cancelled because they had trouble with my card. Now, I didn't want to give them my linked-to-my-checking-account debit card, because I've never used this site before, so I went and got one of those prepaid debit cards at the grocery store. They told me I'd need to call or go to the website to activate the card, but the lady on the phone said it was activated when I bought it. I'd called because when I tried to activate on the website, they wanted everything: Name, address, phone, birthdate and SSN. To fight money laundering, they say. To send a permanent reloadable debit card. I say, you don't need all that, and I don't want a permanent card from you. Unfortunately, it looks like opting out of that may be the cause of my troubles with the order. I'll call the ordering company tomorrow and see what I can do, but my predictable time off ends this week - sending the table next week means I may not be home when the delivery comes. Then there's the question of how to deal with the prepaid card if they can't accept it anyway. Arrgh.

I also had to answer direct emails asking questions that were already answered on the group site. It never ceases to amaze me how people can fail to comprehend plain English.

(LJ also sent me an email about an unfamiliar IP login, but it was just my new IP at my house)
and a coffeetable on order, expected later this week. Of course the first thing I do after getting things settled is sit down on the couch with laptop and cola, then spill cola all over everything! Only a little on the couch - wiped up all right - and I wasn't terribly concerned about the carpet - it's already got stains I haven't been able to get out - but the laptop worried me. I tipped it over (spilling the cola from the laptop to the carpet) and propped it face-down to encourage any drips to fall out rather than in. So far, it seems okay, and the couch has good cushions and good lines, so it should be relatively easy to reupholster when I'm ready to do all that work to make my living room furniture match. I'll be looking for slipcovers in the interim.

In other news, I hit my one-year anniversary at work last month, which automatically conferred on me the one week's worth of vacation that full-time employees are given. What's weirder to me is that it's annual by calendar, not by personal anniversary, so they told me it had to be used by February 1, because I get another week's vacation after that, for use between this February and next. As a result, I'm off the rest of this week. (At least officially. They asked me today if I might come in this week if they called? I said maybe, because I'd already started making plans.)

The vacation is handy. Work is finally starting to settle down from the holiday-season-in-retail chaos, though I just signed up to take a temporary (six month) promotion which will probably have me pretty busy. The idea, though, is to make use of this time for house stuff and Meetups. It was going to be better-job-hunting/business-starting, but since I just accepted a six-month responsibility, that's kind of on the back burner. Still want to get business going, but it'll have to be in the spaces between.

The washer has developed an intermittent leak, or it could be the connection, because there are stains on the floor from before I bought the house. The garage door spring broke about a month ago; dad and brother came and replaced it for me. It was a bit of a shock, being unable to get my car out of the garage because it would only open about three inches. I had to ask my brother to take me to work that day (late, of course), then dad and brother helped get the door open long enough to get the car out. I've gotten spoiled, being able to get in the car without worrying about rain and such, but I certainly preferred parking in the driveway over being unable to leave.

Yukihito is well and truly gone. I've seen neither hide nor hair of him, other than tufts of fur left behind on his favorite chair from before. I'm annoyed, and I miss him, but there are limits to how much running around I can do. He was an outdoor stray for nearly a year before I took him in; I can only hope he found accommodations more to his liking. I do want to get other cats, but I have a lot of balls in the air right now, and I'm inclined to wait until I can resolve some of them.

I have stopped fostering cats. The three I had intended to adopt were too high-energy for indoors, no matter what the others say, and the kittens ruined the floor in the spare bedroom. I'd expected them to ruin the carpet, but not to soak through the carpet and padding to destroy the hardwood flooring underneath. I was quite annoyed. I can't really fix the flooring, and I'm not sure what a potential roommate would think.

On the other hand, I've also been wanting to grow a number of tropical plants (edible ones), and since I can't really afford to build a complete greenhouse just yet, I'm thinking of turning that bedroom with the ruined floor into a sort of greenhouse. (leaving me one room to get a roommate, still) I'll need grow lights, since the windows won't let in enough light by themselves, but climate control will already be settled, since the plants like temperatures in the same range I find comfortable.

I'm also intending to try to raise rabbits for meat and fur, but that'll be in the garage or out back, not inside the house, and there are so many other issues to tackle first!

The folding dining room style chairs I saw at Costco are gone, so I'll have to figure out something else for family room seating. It's not really laid out for permanent seating, but the camp chairs aren't really all that comfortable long-term, so the folding wooden ones seemed the best choice. I'll have to see what I can find.

I have also discovered that part of my foot pain may be from the fact that my formerly-ridiculously-high arches have fallen to be really low arches; apparently, walking on tiptoe develops high arches, and since I always used to walk around the house barefoot and on tiptoe, well. So I've been making a point of walking tiptoe when I can. Mom also gave me a can of tennis balls to use as foot rollers, and I've also noticed a significant difference in the level of pain based on whether I've gotten a full eight hours of sleep at night - not something I usually do, but apparently I need to.

And now, I'm really tired, so I'm going to call this good for now.
I got the job at the bookstore, which was hectic, because hello Christmas season, which was also the reason the temp agency had shindigs for which I could serve (and yes, at way better hourly rates than anything else). At the same time, I was trying to keep my languages Meetup group going. Around June, was promoted to specialist, which is nominally full time and includes benefits (yay, eye doctors). My chronic foot pain is also getting worse. Shoe salesman at New Balance, after cautioning he's not a doctor, said it sounded like plantar fascitis; from what I found via Google, it matches description. Not sure if podiatrist is included in insurance, but based on experience and internet research, best treatment is not being on my feet all the time. Not going to work with this job. Also have developed lower back pain (probably from slouching in my computer chair at home) and strained my wrist (carrying too many heavy books at once). Have been wearing wrist brace for support, which helps, but while I've forgotten I'm wearing it, it sparks a lot of comment.

Job schedule is chaos theory in practice. No two weeks are the same, though since promotion I can be reasonably sure that New Releases Day and Truck Day will be the same each week. Two days out of seven that I can predict, usually Tuesday and Wednesday. Better than the non-specialist employees get, even the managers. Oh, and the schedule is only posted a week at a time, usually on Thursday or Friday, so I never know my Sunday schedule more than three days in advance.
Even the short version is long. )

Hmmm

Feb. 16th, 2012 02:00 pm
Just poking my nose in to look around a bit at the moment, since it's currently open enrollment.
I had an interview today at a bookstore. It went well (actually, it felt more like socializing than interviewing - was it just her, or have I just been doing really badly all these years?) and whenever the background check comes through (the webform to fill out for that was also easier than I was expecting, but then, a bookstore BG Check != US Clearance App, so maybe I'm being silly) then I should get a call for an interview with the GM. I'd put in for management or sales clerk, and the manager told me they don't actually have any openings for management right now - corporate just likes to keep those posted on the job site. Apparently they promote from within, for the most part. Works for me. I have plenty of experience in customer service and add-on sales, and it's a bookstore...! Why haven't I tried this before? Oh, I know - because before I wouldn't have had the will to avoid buying out the place every time I set foot in the doors :P See, extended underemployment has taught me something!

So, when I finally got my email up - for some reason I had to reboot everything from the modem to the computer - I had some other messages next to the background check link. It seems one of the applications I emailed a while back has finally garnered response - three responses, from three different email addresses, two of them within an hour of each other, telling me to log into three different websites and provide information. Evidently, scammers don't keep track of how many times they email each mark. Interestingly, the first one specifies that I log in with Facebook.

Yyyyyyeahhhhh. So here's the question: do I go after their whois and complain? They're probably using a domain privacy service, which would likely cancel them for this, and once before I complained to a host/registrar about a fake job email (which was completely out of the blue, that time) and they emailed back to tell me that apparently it had been set up on a stolen card, so it was shut down now. Most of the Craigslist posts these days are fake jobs, which is seriously frustrating, but since the majority of these spammers are re-routing hopefuls to their affiliate links rather than trying to get their personal data, there's no easy/obvious way to stop them. I hate to say it, but maybe Craigslist needs to implement a posting fee on the jobs section here, like they did with the big cities.

Also, speaking of FB, what a nag it's turning out to be. It used to be that occasionally I'd get a message that someone sent me a private message, or a "hey, you haven't logged on in a while, we miss you!" Lately it's more like every few days: "Chrystalline, you have notifications pending." It's annoying, but I don't want to turn off notifications altogether. JournalFen has a more effective approach. They send me notices when I get comments, so when the spammers hit my journal, I have to log in to delete them. LJ lets me screen all anonymous and suspicious comments, which means I can leave it for a while, and on FB, the spam is almost always from my friends, trying to get me to play a game. (Look, you're my friends and family, and I love you, but quit it with the games, will you? The only apps I have on FB are the ones I a. can't remove, b. use for job-hunting, or c. use for political stuff. I'm not into webgames, sorry to disappoint.) Anyway, yeah, FB is turning into that kid that pesters you for attention every five minutes: "Hey, look at me. Didja know I could do this? Hey, I'm over here. Hey, hey, didja see this? Hey!" :: whap! :: Shut up, Navi.

You know, I don't really understand spammers. First of all, the majority of blog platforms have implemented NoFollow into their comment link display, assuming you get past the screening and spam filtering, so spamming a blog with links gets you ZERO search engine boost. Second, they seem to go after older, less-traveled blogs, which means there are fewer people to see it. You put time into posting stuff here and there, and all you manage to do is annoy the one or two people who maintain each blog - why do it? Makes no sense.

Oh and BTW, for some reason I've been having trouble getting my WP blog to restore properly, so I've switched hosts to try again. I'm not intending to go back to WP, just copy/paste over here (since LJ seems to be where everyone prefers to comment anyway) but I'd rather have it formatted properly via WP than have to manually go through the entire SQL file and reformat it. For some reason, it says it's imported the SQL and the main page looks fine, but when I click on any of the links, I get a 404 Page Not Found. Grrrr. Might be a while.
I usually have weird dreams. Bizarre "Escher meets Lewis Carroll meets Gene Roddenberry" adventures that no one would ever write on purpose. The most memorable ones are often frightening, too; the spiders on every surface, including between the layers of Kleenex in the box, or the one where flying alien pancakes that secrete human-dissolving acid interrupted Commander Riker's (yes, that Riker) class on swimming in a church gymnasium that has never held a pool but did for that dream. (Think Reign of Fire with flying acid pancakes instead of dragons and you'll be pretty close - and yes, in a totally bizarre anti-climax, we humans succeeded in fighting back with forks) Occasionally they're even simple scifi, like the one about the super-human girl and the anti-government rebels surrounded by the dictatorial government's forces and struggling to find a way to get everyone out to fight again another day; that one I typed up, at least in part, and my dad keeps asking when I'm going to finish the story, because he liked it a lot. I've posted about my weird dreams once or twice, but I don't think I ever mentioned the prophetic ones.

I say prophetic because I don't know a better word to refer to dreams about things that later come to pass, but it seems awfully pretentious for the level of events I usually see in those dreams. It started a long time ago, when I was in grade school, and let's face it - having your mother sign an absence form for when you were sick doesn't seem important enough to be worth dreaming in advance. In college, I dreamed about hanging out with friends I hadn't made yet. It's pretty much always been minor things, little snippets that are just enough to know, 'hey, I dreamed this before it happened!' but not enough to make a difference in any way. It's not like I have a chance to change anything based on these dreams, because it's always just a single moment in time, a snapshot featuring people I may or may not know. I won't see it coming in real life until it happens; the people I don't know yet in the dreams are vague and indistinct. More annoying than anything, really, so I've had no patience with people who hype it up: "I dream about things before they happen!" "Yeah, so?"

Last night (or this morning, I suppose, since it's the dreams right before waking that are memorable) I had another dream. I was at a clinic, with my indistinct husband (who, oddly enough, felt like an afterthought here), and I was pregnant and scared. A lot of the details are fading, as is usual for dreams, but weird as it was, it felt like one of the prophetic ones, which leaves me torn, and a little freaked. I mean, sure, deep down, I really want to be loved (who doesn't?) but I've already officially given up on the whole romance-and-marriage thing. The chances of finding a guy who both interests me and is interested in me are infinitesimal - it's never happened before (don't get me started on the ex-BF-in-love-with-love), and I can't really see it happening in the near future. For this dream to come to pass, it would have to be the near future, because it's only a half-dozen years until I turn forty, and unless God plans on repeating miracles, pregnancy after forty is...unlikely at best. There's a reason it's newsworthy when forty-five and fifty-year-old women manage to give birth (though why someone would choose to start at fifty is beyond me; children run around a lot - it's exhausting even when you're twenty-something). I run away from guys who interest me because I'm sick of making a fool of myself. I misinterpret everything as interest from a guy I find interesting (I don't notice at all if I'm not interested, unless he gets really obvious, like telling me directly and asking me out, or being skeevy and leering at me) and I can't help reacting, even though it makes me look pathetic and clingy. (I've found some of my old crushes on FB and IRL, but I'm too embarrassed about the past to ever contact them) It's safer to just run away. Loneliness hurts, but it's easier than repeated humiliation. Dreaming of a future pregnancy leaves me fighting hope and fear, that part of me that desperately wants to be held and treasured facing off with the part of me that put up locks and walls to block out anyone who might attract me. There's a reason I identify with the protagonists of Skip Beat and (Kaicho wa) Maid-Sama. I'm really confused right now.
He'd been doing poorly for a while, so I should have done this sooner, but as you probably already know, I'm not good at letting go. Without going into too much detail, last night he got really sick and I had to take him to the 24-hour clinic to be put out of his misery. He was 16, so he had a good run. I don't know if it's because he'd lost so much weight recently, but the anesthetic worked very quickly. RIP, Wyberd.
Ow, ow, ow, ow, ow - the stormfront moving through is worse than usual (understatement, I suppose, as I'm told it's the remnants of the tropical storm coming up from the Gulf) and I'm really feeling it. I don't know if I've really mentioned it online much, but when I was a kid, I dislocated my elbow, leaving me with permanent arthritis in that joint. Early on, it hurt every time there was a storm, but after a few years it got to be milder, only reacting if there was a serious pressure change. It didn't bother me much through most of the day, but tonight, it's aching so much my fingers are tingling. I *really* don't envy the elderly with full-body arthritis in this! Ow. Think I need to go find some aspirin - milder painkillers won't touch this.

On a much more fun note, I've been thinking about e-readers for a while. I'd been thinking I wanted to get a NookColor, because hey, color screen, yay! My brother pointed out a much cheaper option in the Aluratek Libre Pro, which is available through Target, and after some consideration, I think I'd rather get one of those. The NookColor has a color screen, and wifi, and a slightly wider range of formats, but the Libre Pro has a much lower price, and, even more importantly, the ability to use full-size SD cards (which can be write-locked, unlike the MicroSD cards which are the only size the Nook will take). The pre-loaded public domain ebooks certainly don't hurt, either.

Write-locking is kind of a big deal to me; I like the idea of using the disks for archival. If I can buy enough of them in bulk (not that I have the money right now) then instead of a collection of DVDs and CDs taking up a whole row of shelves (or a few spindles, depending how I do it), I could have a small box full of SD and SDHC cards. Archive materials need to be write-protected so they can't be accidentally overwritten or infected with a virus. So, yeah, I'm thinking I'll see about the LibrePro, as soon as I've steadied my income situation.
So, I'm trying to get back into online life, and I'm not getting there smoothly. I did have a brief stint with a local print shop, but the owner there made my previous manager look like a paragon of steadiness and predictability, and her cavalier attitude about copyright severely grated on my nerves. I'm currently waiting tables at a small local restaurant, but it's not enough, so I'm also looking for something else. Of course, I'm not sure whether that "something else" will supplement or replace, and it probably depends entirely on TPTB at the something else. We'll see. I had hoped that the tips would improve as I got better at it, but it's settled at "slow descent into insolvency" so yeah, I'm looking.

As for journaling, I've more-or-less decided to go with LJ and Feed2JS on a static HTML page instead of WP, but I'm still going to have to set up WP long enough to restore the old posts so I can copy the rest of them back over here. For a while, I had it set up to only cross-post part of the entry, so I have to use the archived version of the WP blog to fill in the rest. Don't think it'll restore the moods, though, so I'll probably just remove the nonsensical numbers. It's going to take me a while; I'm always overheated from work (it's usually about 85F in the dining room and 95F in the kitchen, and the heat outside afterward sure doesn't help - 108F in the car today), I'm tired, and my back and feet hurt. Handy that LJ now links to FB for cross-posting there, though. Should help.

Oh, yes, I got another cat in November. He'd been running around stray for months, a little ginger-and-white tom with a stumpy little tail, and after Smokey finally bit the dust, I had room. (the complex only allows two pets per apartment) About the time I decided I'd try to take him in, he disappeared for a while, so I thought he had a home. A couple of months later, I was coming home in the rain and found him huddled under a bush. Poor guy; I decided I wasn't going to wait for a convenient weekend and scooped him up. He wasn't keen on the whole "being carried" thing, but I managed to get him inside without too much flailing. I kept him locked in the bathroom so he couldn't pass anything to Wyberd, and the next morning I dropped him at the vet for testing, shots, and a bath.

They confirmed he was healthy, part Manx (not mutilated, which the neighbors had claimed) and a longhair. My first longhair. Kind of troublesome, really, but whatever. I still kept him in the bathroom, with a flea-and-tick collar (and felt justified in doing so when I found a dead tick on the linoleum later) and after a few weeks, had him neutered. He was very angry with me that day; it's amazing how much emotional range "meow" can cover. Anyway, by the time he'd recovered from that (they'd advised me not to let him out with the other cat until he'd healed), he and Wyberd had managed to get used to poking at each other under the bathroom door. So despite my fretting, the introduction was anticlimactic.

I toyed with the idea of calling him GingerSnapDragon, as a play on Gingersnap and Snapdragon, because he's ginger (almost the color of my hair) and white, and because while he's playful, he's also harmless. It took him a few weeks to learn not to use claws while "wrestling" with me, so I had a lot of scratches for a while, but he's got it now, and he has a marked tendency to run like a rabbit whenever anything unexpected happens. Still, that was too much of a mouthful.

Then I thought, he looks like fire on snow, how about Snowfire? Ah, but that sounds silly in English, so what will Google Translate give me? I thought Irish would be apt, since Manx come from the Isle of Man, near Ireland. Unfortunately, while Google Translate would give me the Irish Gaelic words for "fire" and "snow," it gave me no idea how to pronounce them. I wasn't about to name him something I couldn't even say, and most of the other languages sounded really goofy to me. Japanese, though, worked okay: "Yuki" is snow and "Hi" (hee) is "fire" and "to" (toe) is a typical ending for boys' names, so I put them together as Yukihito, and only then realized that it sounded familiar. Quick check with Google - yep, it's an existing Japanese name, and at least one of the manga I like to read has a character with that name. Leave it to me to find the long way around :\

He's very vocal, which is annoying, particularly since his favorite time to be vocal is about bedtime for me. I grew up with a half-Siamese who meowed only rarely, so having a cat that yowls every night is...very different. At least neutering made his meowing a little less insistent!

Ah, where to start. It’s been really busy for a while, between work and Meetups and ordinary household (apartment) maintenance and CPAC and America’s Got Talent and you’re saying “wait, what?!”

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Wheee DC

Feb. 18th, 2010 08:26 pm

I know, I know, I haven’t said anything, but that’s at least partly because I didn’t have a lot of lead time between when I found out about it and when I had to fly. It was only about two weeks ago I found out about CPAC – my mom sent the link, and I almost disregarded it, but I glanced at the posted agenda and saw “How to Get Started in Hollywood” on the schedule for Thursday morning, and I had to come.

So I’m in DC. This is awesome.

The flight was almost an hour delayed, and I was exhausted before we even started because I don’t pack well in advance, and the idiot chicken-cat scratched his ear open Tuesday night, so I had to deal with a) catching him and holding him still long enough to get it to stop bleeding, and b) scrubbing off blood spatters, because the moron tosses his head when his ear is bleeding, which makes it look like someone went around flinging blood off a tiny baton or something. Work is still slow, so Manager had no problem with me leaving a little earlier than I’d planned, which meant I was ready almost exactly when mom & dad & brother arrived to pick me up.

DC isn’t as cold as I’d thought it would be; it’s about how Huntsville’s been the last few days. The snow piles are kind of impressive – the taxi took us past rows of cars parked on the sides of the road with snow piled up to their windows. Clearly, they’re not going anywhere.

The hotel is jaw-droppingly huge. It was kind of strange to get in the elevator, select our floor, and have the elevator start down. The lobby (which we entered from the front driveway!) is on the eighth floor here.

What really gets me, though, is how awesome it is to be in a crowd of people who mostly agree with me on so much. The Hollywood panel was great; conservative & artsy people like me – I did as much info exchange as I could. Again at the blogger free-for-all, too. I like this group. I hadn’t realized how much I’ve silenced myself because I’m so often around people whose views are incompatible with mine and I’m too timid to rock the boat. Getting cursed out by my grandpa at Christmas (because he disagrees with my political views) has shifted something in me, though, too – I think I want to start speaking out more. It’s my blog. It’s my life. I think I want it back.

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Geekout

Nov. 14th, 2009 10:18 pm

Tweaking WP most of the day, so now I’m testing my changes. (Oh, better try it on a different browser, to test the whole not-able-to-add-tags thing, too) Here goes Firefox! Hmm. Maybe it’s an admin plugin issue – still no workee. :(

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I’m Back

Nov. 9th, 2009 07:52 pm

Thanks again to everyone for the thoughts and prayers; I really appreciate it. We got back Saturday night; I went to bed rather earlier than is normal for me because it was a draining trip, and Wyberd woke me at 5:30 am to make sure I was there. Goofy cat. Better believe I went back to sleep;) Had miscellaneous unpacking and householdy-type stuff to do Sunday, and that kept me busy. Work today, back to usual.

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Many Thanks

Nov. 4th, 2009 12:13 am

to everyone for the prayers and thoughts and well wishes. My grandma passed away this morning, and we’ll be headed out of town in the morning. I’ll be away from internet until sometime this weekend, probably late Sunday.

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