Christian and Jennifer Kay

Well, today is day two of being on clomid. I am already experiencing some of the side effects of it like headaches and mood swings. Yesterday while we were at church I was having bad headaches it was so hard to concentrated on the lessons. I was also feeling extremely tired during Relief Society and was having a hard time keeping my eyes open. I'm not sure if being tired is a side affect yet, I haven't seen that it is on the internet but I wouldn't be surprised if it was lol. I was also having terrible mood swings! Christian would tell you how bad they were! He told me it was like I was the birth control pills all over again. I felt really bad for being such a grouch so I went and researched the side effects. When Christian saw it was partly the clomid that was making me this way he forgave me! I have such a wonderful and forgiving husband! I love him so much for being by my side through this trial in our life. With him by my side I know I'll be able to make it though. I just keep telling that it will all be worth it in the and that we will be parents whenever that time comes.

I am slowly losing my trust in the people around me. I tell people a secret that I felt comfortable telling because I trust them, then I get on Facebook and there is someone I know I didn't tell this secret to is asking me how it's going or if it is working... I mean come on!!! I just wish I can trust people more, but after this I'm not so sure I can.

As a lot of you know Christian and I have been trying to get pregnant for a year now with the result of one miscarriage and no luck ever since.. Well this post is going to be a venting post about people who don't realize how lucky they are to have babies or who are pregnant. Every time I turn around there is someone new pregnant, but instead of saying how blessed they feel they keep complaining about their pregnancy!! Each time I log onto Facebook there is always someone complaining how they can't sleep at night, they are always sick, back is always hurting or the baby is sitting in a place that isn't comfortable for them! Sometimes I just wanna write an email to tell them that they don't know how dang lucky they are to have all those pains and aches and still be able to bring a new life into this world! Most of these girls have never experienced the heart break of a miscarriage and sometimes I wish they did so they knew how i feel or all the other girls who can't get pregnant or having a hard time like Christian and myself... When I get pregnant you won't see me complain one bit about my pregnancy I'll just be so happy that I'll be able to have a little one of my own. But until It's my turn I'll put on the fake smile and act like nothing is bothering me. I'm sorry if this post offends anyone, that is not my intention. I just needed to voice my thoughts and emotions for my benefit.

For our second anniversary we decided to get our pictures done. We hadn't had them done since our Wedding ha ha! Here are a few of them