since the beginning of everything

 I signed up for nanowrimo for the first time in years, knowing I'd have to play nice with myself and not push too hard about writing, and especially not attempt a novel. That being said it's day one and I've had a migraine for 3 days and I have no drive to write much of anything. Great start, Fay.
Well. I'll be fair to myself: winning isn't even my goal. Just writing more than once a month or two. I just have to see what happens. No pressure, just a promise to make attempts when I have the energy. Today's just... not going to be that day, I guess.
There's other stressful things going on, like the healthcare enrollment. Turns out I still don't ""qualify"" for medicaid in my state. Thanks, guys. 
I did get a promotion at work, however. I'm now my store's Employee Experience Specialist, which means I work with the newbies to get them up to speed and I get to talk to everyone about the new products we get in - which means I get to babble about a special interest, fashion! It also means that I'm a bit more validated with my whole "ask me where anything is in the store and I've got a good idea" thing. I feel a little more confident helping customers too, giving recommendations on what fits they want and what sizes. I usually gauge visually for sizing, because they don't give us tape measures for whatever reason. Thankfully I'm right in the middle of our sizes at a 10/30, so I'm developing my 'eye' for it.
Seb got to hang around quietly for about a week, but I couldn't get them to talk much. They're still anxious, of course, but they're so sweet that I want to share them, you know?