BEING MALE – SEXUALITY AND MORE

I am male and that came with no restrictions until I got here and started to be taught a lot of rubbish and harmful things about how you should be based on opinion and fear and lies

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A lot of men are brought up to believe that they should be tough and strong. They find it hard
to show affection to each other. That’s sad. It’s only when they are drunk do they show a lot of
affection to each other, free of inhibitions.

A guy who is very masculine, but he’s a very tactile, loving, affectionate person
to me is a very well or more balanced man. He is in touch with both sides of himself. Just
because he is affectionate it does not make him less of a man. It makes him more of a man. It
takes a man to show love and affection.

I believe that all touch can be just affection, unless it is blatantly sexual. When you touch
sexual parts of the body, oral sex, bite the neck then that is sexual. Affection is affection: but
most are blind to that…

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spirituality over religion

know that there are no real rules – they are all made up and pressure kept on to keep them like fear and the devil

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If a person believes they have spoken to an angel or heard the voice of God, can I question that? I just listen to what they are saying and ask if this is love or judgement? Is it fear or love or separation, and that this is their truth, but it does not mean it is for all for us or for others to follow or agree.

The thought and belief that books written by man, who is motivated by pride, greed, corruption and manipulation to write religious books that they think others should believe in and follow and that these books should not be questioned is dangerous, not far from dictarship.

We question modern writings, but if we do this to old books or writings then then is blasphemy. This is dangerous, especially they are collections of stories collected over many hundreds or thousands of years, for that reason…

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facing discrimination for me

things never change and I accept that being a teacher is part of my spiritual contract and why I am here

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So much of my life has been about facing that discrimination and prejudice from all areas. Like being the first of few to enter social services in my area, or work at a local playgroup, etc. You pave the way for others to come after you, but that is a responsibility in itself.

I have my own preferences too, that are based on my understanding of myself and like to keep open minded and not make them too rigid. People ask me if I have a type of person I am attracted to, but I cannot pin point it out as people are individuals, they may have the look you like but not have an interesting or nice personality to go with it. This is what the group being studied on found out too.

They spent time with different members of the group with a blindfold on to see who…

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being 50 and remembering dad

remembering dad now gone 5 years and mum died last year

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pictures of dad and mum and to remember dad who passed away 2 years ago and took these lovely pictures

Coming to the age of 50 and my father dying set off a different view of the world, took my spiritual understanding to a different level.

My father’s soul departing from his body and his body being cremated made everything so final with body to see or visit.

Seeing my father’s body in his bed at home, about 10 minutes after he had died, still warm looking like he was sleeping, with my mother on a sunny day, with uncles and aunties already left was weird.

We played his favourite music as if his spirit was with us and we talked to him as well. The shock of the men coming to collect the body and put in in the leather bag and being zipped up, was like you see…

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london studio centre life

update to my journey into music

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The London studio centre has moved nearer to Kingscross station and it has changed a lot as the focus is more on dance and performance and less on actin g and singing.
As an adult to this day I have been all over London, from West to East to North and South and to many different places and experiences. I have missed most of the tourist places though.
You many wonder what happened to me? Did I finish stage school? The answer is no and I was heartbroken to the core, as it was hard work but I loved it so much.
A disaster hit was Dad’s company in Dubai and his Arab partner’s son died in a car accident and the partner went into deep mourning and the business side was abandoned. It meant there was not the money to go back to stage school and I had to…

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