Category Archives: Law School Adventures

The U-Haul…?

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I’m not one for stereotyping people of the LGBTQIA community… But tonight just made me feel so weird about the date with Shellbelle.

Me: I saw your post on tumblr about 420. Lol bring a joint next wk?
Her: I don’t know how to roll a joint, but if you have any we can try it out. Or smoke from my bowl. Oh. One thing though… If my mom is home and if she wants to meet you, I’m telling her I met you at school. She probably would like to meet you and talk about your home town since she’s from there too.

And that’s when I was like “What?” How did we get from 420 to her wanting me to meet her mom? And that’s when it hit me. This totally has to be a mini u-Haul moment. I never dreamed of being in one. Nor did I think I would have met someone whose faster than me in that sense. And it makes me think… “Does this mean she wants to have sex like on the fucking first date?” “Is this how I used to come off as?” “What?” I just don’t know what the hell happened.

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But in the end I said; “well, it’s ultimately your decision if you want me to meet your mom: if she wants to meet me too. I’m cool either way, and I can say I went to your school and say that’s where we met. It’s not that big of a deal.”

But me- not the stressed out me- always had a problem with that. So I guess I’ll find out how this all goes down next week… I know for a fact she’s pretty hot, and apparently wants to get laid (which I’m all for that, but with someone I have more… Substance with), so what else is really stopping me/ giving me this uneasy feeling now?

Absolutely Insane

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It’s week 10 of law school, and I feel like I’ve learned so much that my mind has exploded.

Criminal law is still my best class- go figure. And surprisingly I’m good in contracts AND property law, which if anyone knows me- it’s that I hate property class! It’s like advanced math and trig all over again- I hate math with a burning passion, yet I’m good at it.

I also got my schedule for next term. Monday- Friday (with exception of Thursday) class from 9 am to 12.

This waking up early shit is becoming insane…

Unexpected?

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This was my text to Bucky. Kate had said that she wasn’t liking Bucky since she always bails on the last-minute, which in my defense it was because I always invited her 2 days before wanting to go out…

But maybe the hints I’ve been leaving on tumblr or the fact that I straight up complemented and slightly batter my eyes on a Facebook post of hers that might have made her realize “oh. She does have a thing for me… What’s 3 hours on the road…? I did turn her down twice before back when she did live in IL…”

I’m trying not to get my hopes up, but still… It’s some hope. Even though, I did kinda hit it off with Mo, I can’t seem to fully bring myself to get over the whole blind factor. I feel like I’m not responsible enough.  Sure I love the conversations we get into, but I haven’t really thought about anything else, whereas with Bucky I feel shy and nervous around but I know for a fact that I’m attracted to her and that we could have more conversations if we did talk more/ I wasn’t shy as hell and just straight up told her how I started to feel about her since April.

Also, I’m doing better in school. I’m feeling more motivated. YES!

Just My Luck

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Right after my midterm/ class, I hit the road home eating out my lovely co-pilot… A bag of popcorn.

As soon as I get back in town, I get rear ended by this little kid who was texting and driving.

The next day (Saturday), I went to the bank, and saw Bucky. I didn’t expect my breath getting caught again as soon as I saw her. After we chatted and right before I left she asked me to let her know when I’m in town again because she wants to get that cup of coffee still. It totally raised my spirits to hear her say that.

Since then, I’ve been just staying afloat in class. Tuesday, I was made a fool out of by the professor, and so I tried to make it up to myself by volunteering every day this week.

Tomorrow is my coffee outing with Mo and then I don’t know… I really want to go back home and take Bucky out but…

I really should study.

So Hard to Stay Updated…

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I survived 4/5 midterms with average/ below average grades in most of my classes. I have one more midterm tomorrow, and might I say FUCK FUCK FUCK! It’s the one class that I’m extremely lost in. I just hope that the midterm in there just might be a bit easier than the things I’ve been looking at in there.

Updates… So last weekend, my parents came up to see me in Mock Trial. It was my first time competing in what feels like ages, but it’s only been 6 ish months. My phone went off in trial, and afterwards I checked to see who dared to text me.

It was Brooklyn. She texted “You have mock trial today, right? Good luck!”

I was actually a bit flabbergasted… It was the event I invited her to see me in, and since then we hardly spoke at all, and then that? I sent a quick response saying thanks. It wasn’t the last time I talk to her that day…

My parents arrived during the second trial, and they saw me “pretend” to be a lesbian attorney on trial for murder. Funny how that is partially true- the lesbian part, not the being under suspicion of murder. And even then I still identify with bisexual. Anyway, we went out for dinner and a movie… My mom and I saw The Judge, and then as I was driving back to my apartment, she had an attack… It was there my mom dropped the news about requiring dialysis or a kidney transplant.

It was right in that instant that my world crashed after just managing to stay afloat for so long to at least get through midterms.

I quickly did the most research I could, and then I texted Brooklyn being formal and only sticking to medical terms. I didn’t want to explain why I was asking about CKD, or anything and she just gave me the info and then we stopped talking.

Fast forward almost a week later to yesterday. I decided to finally ask my advisor to meet with me about the accelerated program. When I was walking into the office area, I chatted with the assistant dean and the secretary. They were so friendly and asked about how I’m adjusting, which I said I’m acclimating okay but I just have a lot going on outside of school. The dean asked about it, and I told her about my mom. She said she wanted to meet with me for moral support and to shoot her an email, and I said I’ll send her an email after my midterm. Then a 2L came out, and we started chatting. He’s a very intriguing character… Let’s call him Mo. Mo is blind. Not saying that he’s not able to do anything, but it intrigues me how well he’s doing in law school. We got on the topic of religion and about his sight. He said something during our discussion that really made me think… I stated that he must have a guardian angel protecting him when a bomb exploded on him, and damaging his eyes forever. He said that why is it luck- that wouldn’t death be something setting him free instead of living strangely… It was at that moment my advisor came out looking for me after her phone interview.

I told him I’d email him once I got back last night (and I did). Once in the advisor’s office, we talked about the accelerated program and then we got on the topic of stress. She mentioned that everyone in law school goes through a crisis… and so when I ended of breaking down about the news of my mom, she said “I think this just might be your crisis. We’ll get through it”

Last night, Mo and I emailed about our hobbies and reincarnation. He suggested we should talk more over coffee, and so I agreed and now we have a coffee date this Friday… I told Shawn since we still text everyday, and he definetely made me laugh with his line of questioning in texts.

Shawn: Male or female?
Me: Male.
Shawn: OH DAMN! Switching it up.
Me: Congrats… I couldn’t keep a straight face on just now in class.
Shawn: Which class are you in?
Me: My second to worst one- Torts.  

A Crazy Week?

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I’ve been trying to stay afloat after my mom was in the hospital Sunday morning, till tuesday and also after Brooklyn texted me Monday morning “I have to be honest, I had a great time on Saturday but I’ve come to the realization that I can’t handle a relationship right now. I really need to focus on my school because it’s becoming ridiculous. I’m sorry.”

So far? I’ve been annoyed at the world. I’ve been trying to get better by making amends with Dr. Rabbit on the phone on Wednesday. We spent 2 hours talking about her new job, struggling to pay bills, my dilemma with my mom and Brooklyn at the time. As we neared towards the end of the conversation, I brought up the last time we talked on the phone.

Dr. Rabbit: I didn’t talk to you again because I thought you were angry with me. 
Me: I was angry because I had lost 17 pages of my thesis and it was due in a week so I bit everyone’s heads off that week… the fact that I blurted out that I was attracted to you and then ended my message abruptly was seriously a slip of the tongue. I never meant to reveal my feelings towards you, but I guess I was just so frustrated with things in life I took it all out on you, and for that I’m sorry. 
Dr. Rabbit: Oh. It does make sense… My sister was right then. I told her about everything, and she said “she sounds stressed, but she doesn’t hate you, I mean she just confessed to you. It takes a ton of balls for a student to confess to their professor.” 
Me: -nervous laughter- hahahahahaha! wow… She totally gets me. But yeah, I guess it does take a lot to confess… It’s harder to hold it in for a year and a half though… 
Dr. Rabbit: You were attracted to me for that long? Are you still attracted to me? 
Me: It seems like it was long. And I plead the 5th on that last question… 

But needless to say, I’m actually a bit glad that finally got cleared up because the only Bridge that’s somewhat burning or maybe officially burnt down is with Ashley and her family…

2 weeks later

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Well, it’s official. I’m finally too busy for blogs. I’ve stopped tumblr-ing a lot, and I almost completely stopped on here. The only consistent social network I have going for me, is facebook. Which even then has gone to shit…

Update: Law school has been kicking my ass… Especially my property law class. Stopped talking to Bucky, Dr. Rabbit, and Caro within the first 2 days of school starting. Why? To liberate myself, and to get away from people who don’t have the same goals or in the same point in life as I am… It was kind of liberating to be free and focus on myself. Too bad that didn’t last long… I decided to use tindr to get to know people in the area.

And I met a girl who for the record makes me feel more than just that ticklish feeling of moths- or the pretty ones flutter like awkward flying turtles inside of me. Given, that it’s only been a week since we started chatting on tindr, we exchanged numbers and even added each other on Facebook. If anyone knows me, it’s that I don’t trust anyone to give my number to just anyone. So why is she the exception? It all started out with talking about school. We both are 21, and also in grad school. Given, I’m in law school, she’s currently getting her doctorate in pharmacy. From there, we talked about a Garth Brooks concert back in Chicago that she was going to. From there, it was Maze Runner… and that’s when I asked her if she wanted to go see it. I was somewhat serious, but also shy because I kind of saw us actually going out.

“So… What happened?”you may be thinking….

Well, it was there that she asked for my number and since then we’ve been chatting. It’s a full week that we have been talking tonight. I’ve learned that she’s amazing in math, very outgoing, somewhat nerdy, extremely shy, never been out with anyone or knows how to flirt, and that she needs me to know that she likes me a lot. When she said that last night, I thought “That’s very definitive language… Need…” So I thought about that until 3 am when I fell asleep. I woke up hours later for class still thinking “Need… and I haven’t been able to get my mind off of her in the past 120 hours. Maybe that need is already fulfilled?”

Our date is on the 27th… so 10 more days. Can I survive solely on texting her while slowly falling for every new detail about her? I really can’t wait… yet I’m nervous about hurting her since not only am I her first date with a girl. I’m her first date in general and basically a mentor into the gay world. So I really don’t want to fuck it up and end up hurting her, and also not making myself vulnerable to being hurt too.

Did I mention that property class will be the death of me?

What’s this?

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I am away from wordpress for a month and a half and everything has changed. 

Anyway, life is hectic. Today is the last day I have to myself before becoming a full fledged law student since class is at 9am tomorrow morning. I also live in grand rapids now… And this is the first time I am away from my family, and it’s hard on them, me, and even my dog whose apparently been crying…

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My mom sent this to me… Those tear stains break my heart…

Things have changed a lot… Caro for one thing, changed from being the shy bisexual girl to a very open bi girl looking for another body building girl… Which that’s definitely not me, despite my weight loss of 25 pounds since the last time I wrote. And I’ve come to terms that we’ll just be really good friends despite having a lot in common, and finding her somewhat attractive (i say that because I’m not into the bodybuilder type).

There was a girl at the bank back at home that I finally decided to come out to, and also called her cute- Let’s call her Bucky (since he favorite actor is Sebastian Stan from Captain America 2). Sadly, she seemed interested in going out for coffee this week… But there’s a problem… I’m about 3 hours away (180 miles as another estimate). So here I am, living in a place that I know nothing or anyone in when I have a potential future girl back at home who is losing interest, and fast. 

Don’t you just love how life fucks with you? I have been telling Nicole how I got the cute girl’s number at the bank since May… And yet I was too shy to talk to her until the week before I left, and decided to chase after Caro, whom I had a feeling was unattainable since I first developed a small attraction to her back in February. So I guess I really screwed up there. But at the same time, I’m glad I didn’t start any relationships because I’ll need all the time and devotion I have to studies and not someone else. 

Sigh… I sometimes hate prioritizing things correctly.

38 Cases Down… 28 More to Go.

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Well, as of 9:30 pm yesterday, I had finished my first law school exam. It was absolutely crazy intense. The teacher had said that there are services for us afterwards if we were stressed and needed to see a counselor… I had thought she was joking. How wrong I was. I literally walked out of the testing room feeling so defeated while on the verge of tears.

I ended up coming home, dropping my backpack with my laptop on the ground (not a smart move…) and cried in my mom’s arms.

Needless to say, I’m going to spend all night studying.