Thursday, December 30, 2010

Quote of the Day

What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the words I have read in my life.

~Walt Whitman

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Blog Analytics

I was going to label this post "Cyber Stalking" but figured that would give off the wrong vibe and impression to all of you who think my life is interesting enough to read about it. So who am I cyber stalking? You of course. Okay not really. Okay yes really, but let me explain.

Since I created my blog, I have had two programs tracking who visits it. It doesn't tell me who you are or where you are specifically located but it is fun for me to guess. Sort of like a puzzle and I use clues like a detective to piece it all together. I thought it would be fun (or nerd like of me) to share what I have learned from all of you. By the way, I am cheap and refuse to pay for detailed information so the programs only keep track of the last thirty days.

Combined, both of the programs will tell me your OS, your browser, location, host name, and referring site. For operating systems, Mac OSX is the preferred choice but I have a few Android, iPhone, and Linux users as well. Vista is at the bottom of the PC operating systems. For some reason, I find that funny.

Firefox and Internet Explorer are the preferred browsers with over half of you choosing those to read my blog and I'm guessing you use those to surf the web too. A few of you, including me, use Chrome with some opting for Safari. I have a growing number of users who access it using their smartphone.

As for locations, the program only tells me cities where your internet provider is located. Though 98% of my readers live in the United States, I do have people in the UK, Germany, Belgium, and Spain that also read my blog. Japan used to pop up but my friend moved back to the states a few months ago.

In all honesty, I have to guess who reads my blog because ISP addresses are hard to trace. But this is where the fun (or the real nerdiness) begins. Since most of your ISP addresses pop up with Comcast, Broadweave, SBC, Qwest, Manti Tele Communications, Broadband Central, and the like, I find myself playing a game similar to Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego? I did have someone use Virgin Media from the UK the other day and that has sparked my curiosity. When Intel (one of only a few company names that actually pops up) is listed, I can safely guess that was my sister. Others are also pretty easy. Washington, California, Missouri, and Texas are either former roommates or family.

Utah is where it gets tricky. For the most part, I don't know. Two clues help me: your city and your referring site. For example, when Logan pops up I can guess my cousin logged on. Any city in Salt Lake or Utah County does not help me unless you have a referring site. Even my parents' town isn't easy because of extended family and friends of friends. In short, your ISP does nothing for me in figuring out who reads my blog. City and state help but only if you live outside of Utah.

What really makes the game fun is the referring sites. For all of you who bounce off my cousin Mandi's site...Congratulations! Her site is the highest referring site. I finally went and visited it (I use an RSS feed so rarely go to the actual sites) and realized her list of blogs shows when the blogger last updated her site. Since you bounce off her site, I naturally concluded her life is much more interesting than mine! :) Others of you bounce off your own blog, which makes it very easy to identify who you are, while others come from Facebook, Google Reader, or land here directly.

No matter how you get here you need to know two things. First, your identity is completely safe because 90% of the time I have no idea who you are. Second, thanks for being interested enough to share with me all the unexpected adventures in my life.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Ol' Reliable

In the movie Lady and the Tramp, Trusty always mentions his grandpappy Ol' Reliable. He would question all who would listen to his stories: "I don't recollect that I've ever mentioned Ol' Reliable before?" Unfortunately for Trusty, his audience frequently heard about Ol' Reliable and Trusty would forget his story.

Just like Trusty, many of you have heard about my Ol' Reliable. I bought my first car, a used Honda Accord, almost eight years ago. I was so nervous! My aunt helped me transport the car from the downtown dealership to her place. I took another few days before a friend was able to drive me to my aunt's house so I could drive it to my place in Provo. I didn't dare speed or make any sudden lane changes! I even left my car in my apartment complex's parking lot and continued to drive my parents' car for another week. I know! Lame!

Fortunately, I got over that initial fear. This car has really been my Ol' Reliable. I've commuted for over five years with four of those being at least a 35-40 minute one way drive. Other places I've driven are Las Vegas, Southern California, Idaho, our cabin, Phoenix and back many times, Northern California, and all around the state of Utah. The paint is chipping away, the transmission is rickety, the knobs are loose or coming off, and the odometer reads over 180,000 miles. However, this week my car still managed over 34 mpg! For a car that is 11 years old that is impressive. Here's hoping my Ol' Reliable lasts a few more years.


I couldn't find a picture of my car but felt my blog needed some pictures. This is my favorite freeway sign located outside of Sacramento, California. I think my car could make it. :)

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Inspirational Quotes

I have been thinking about memorable quotes that have inspired me, rejuvenated me, and motivated me to become more. Each of these have their own story, many of which are very personal and not something I would mention on my blog. However, I am posting them hoping that those out there reading can find your own inspiration and story in these simple yet profound words.

But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You've got to wonder why we cling to our expectations. Because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives.

Nothing in the world is accomplished without passion.
~David McCullough at a BYU Forum

There was this law of life, both so cruel and so just, that demanded one must grow or else pay more for staying the same.
~Norman Mailer

In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

We are born believing.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

It's never too late to be who you might have been.
~George Eliot

We are shaped and fashioned by what we love.
~Goethe

Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterward.
~Vernon Law

To endure is greater than to dare; to tire out hostile fortune; to be daunted by no difficulty; to keep heart when all have lost it; to go through intrigue spotless; to forego even ambition when the end is gained - who can say this is not greatness?
~Thackeray

Adversity has a way of challenging all of us, sooner or later. How we collectively bear up to the pressures of unexpected tragedy, how we care for and honor those who suffer loss, how we hold on to our values despite the seductive lure of simple, quick and easy solutions to the complex problems we face — how we deal with such things defines us forever.
~Gen. John P. Abizaid of the Army, former commander of the United States Central Command

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Validation

My friend Anna, the one who calls me a hopeful romantic, sent me this video in hopes that it would make me smile. It did.


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Quote of the Day

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?’

Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of the universe; your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are born to make manifest the glory of all that’s within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.

And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

— Nelson Mandela

Range of Emotions

The range of human emotions amazes me especially when they are all happening at once inside of me. For the most part, I describe myself as a hopeful and passionate person. I have a fiery spirit within me that loves to laugh, to interact with others, and to experience new adventures. My siblings even called me "Born Free" as a child. What other child would you find riding her big wheel down main street?

And yet, the past few months I have had the most difficult time being me. In one day, I've been extremely angry, then incredibly hopeful with all the other emotions in between manifesting themselves too. Add hormones on top of that and some days you have a complete mess. The best way to describe what is happening to me is the Lord is testing my faith.

Faith, to be faith, must center around something that is not known. Faith, to be faith, must go beyond that for which there is confirming evidence. Faith, to be faith, must go into the unknown. Faith, to be faith, must walk to the edge of the light, and then a few steps into the darkness. If everything has to be known, if everything has to be explained, if everything has to be certified, then there is no need for faith. (Elder Boyd K. Packer, "What is Faith," Faith, Deseret Book Company, 1983, p. 42)

So between the laughter and the tears, the anger and the optimism, the love and the complete reliance on the Lord, I am understanding and grateful. Why? Because the Lord hath said, "Verily I say unto you my friends, fear not, let your hearts be comforted; yea, rejoice evermore, and in everything give thanks; Waiting patiently on the Lord, for your prayers have entered into the ears of the Lord of Sabaoth, and are recorded with this seal and testament—the Lord hath sworn and decreed that they shall be granted. Therefore, he giveth this promise unto you, with an immutable covenant that they shall be fulfilled; and all things wherewith you have been afflicted shall work together for your good, and to my name’s glory"(D&C 98:1-3).

Times of crisis define what truly matters most to us in life and the past month has been no exception. In expressing my frustrations to my brother-in-law, he remarked with an interesting metaphor. He commented, "It's like you're on a game board and you just rolled a six." Couple that comment with Elder Hallstrom's talk from conference "'Men are, that they might have joy' (2 Nephi 2:25) and 'for it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things' (2 Nephi 2:11) are not contradictory; they are complementary" and you have a perfect description of my emotional roller coaster. The six may be rolled, the opposition may be in full force, but somehow I will land and experience the joy that only comes from holding fast to the iron rod and the love of the Lord.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Humorous Santa Story

My sister was forwarded this Christmas story she received as part of a friend's Twelve Days of Christmas. I found it funny and thought all of you who needed a good laugh from the stress of work and life would enjoy it too.

The Christmas Tree

One particular Christmas season a long time ago, Santa was getting ready for his annual trip… but there were problems everywhere. Four of his elves got sick, and the trainee elves did not produce the toys as fast as the regular ones, so Santa was beginning to feel the pressure of being behind schedule.

Then, Mrs. Claus told Santa that her mom was coming to visit. This stressed Santa even more. When he want to harness the reindeer, he found that three of them were about to give birth and two had jumped the fence and were out, heaven knows where. More stress.

Then when he began to load the sleigh one of the boards cracked and the toy bag fell to the ground and scattered the toys. So, frustrated, Santa went into the house for a cup of hot cocoa with marshmallows. When he went to the cupboard, he discovered that the elves had taken all the marshmallows and there was nothing to drink.

In his frustration, he accidentally dropped the cocoa mug and it broke into hundreds of little pieces all over the kitchen floor. He went to get the broom and found that mice had eaten the straw it was made from. Just then the doorbell rang and Santa went to the door. He opened the door and there was a little angel with a great big Christmas tree.

The angel said, very cheerfully, “Merry Christmas Santa! Isn’t it just a lovely day? I have a beautiful tree for you. Isn’t it just a lovely tree? Where would you like me to stick it?”

Thus began the tradition of the little angle on top of the Christmas tree.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Feelings of Christmas

One thing I enjoy about Christmas time is the lights. As a child, I loved sitting by the tree, listening to Christmas music, and staring at the lights. My brother and I would always volunteer to deliver presents to people so we could see the lights around town. Unbeknown to my mom, our outings always took longer than usual because we would seek out the streets with the best light displays.

My favorite place to view lights has always been Temple Square especially with freshly fallen snow. The lights of the temple mixed with the colored displays always brings a peace and comfort to my heart. My favorite memories at Temple Square have always included people I love. Celebrating the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ with those family and friends holds a special place in my heart. I hope all of you are enjoying this Christmas season. Merry Christmas!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

A New Adventure

The past year I have searched for many different jobs. Private school administration. Online marketing. University recruiting. Education companies. Big corporations. So many different avenues. I’ve heard many “no” responses and many unanswered responses. In spite of this, I wasn’t discouraged. All the previous jobs I had received came in the most unlikely way and since my life follows patterns, I expected a similar outcome. I will post those stories too as they are quite the ride. I kept plugging away at the job search. After graduation, I tapered off the search as I dealt with the emotional drain from the previous two years, the death of my grandma, and just wanting time to have fun.

In July, the associate dean of BYU’s business school called me. He offered me a project based position to work with diversity recruiting. “Jackpot!” I thought. The school currently had a hiring freeze and I felt this was my ticket in when that freeze was lifted. I played in California the next week, talked with the associate dean a couple of times, and returned from vacation ready to work. As the next few months passed, hope waned that this could turn into a full time position. One day the associate dean warned me warned me that the MBA recruiting position was just approved but just because I was working for him right then did not guarantee I would be hired for the newly approved opening. That message sat with me for a few weeks. Though I applied for the position, I realized that I did not fit with the ideals of the MBA program and the person they wanted in that spot. When I saw that the MBA office had reposted the opening, I emotionally abandoned the opportunity altogether.

Thus began my journey. My grandpa always told us “It isn’t what you know but who you know.” MBA school constantly emphasized the importance of networking to find what you want. I took both to heart and reached out to Taylor, a family friend. I bumped into Taylor in the student center the previous week when I was spending time with a brother-in-law who was in town. What a fortuitous meeting! I emailed Taylor and he spent some time deciding who to introduce me to, what industries to target, and where to focus my energies. I began setting up informational interviews, attending conferences, and reaching out to those who were eager to help me. Each person either suggested a position I could apply for in that company or someone else that would be valuable for me to talk to. The doors began to open!

The week after Thanksgiving I met Joseph. Though we both felt I wasn’t the best fit for his company, he suggested I talk with Michael who worked at a company in Salt Lake. (They provided consulting services and designed training/learning programs to help solve the needs of the companies.) Guess who was also connected to Michael? My new friend Taylor. Taylor introduced Michael and me via email and within the hour Michael responded with openings that matched my interests. Even better, two people had just given their two weeks notice and the company needed to fill the positions quickly. Michael and I discussed the workings of the company and my excitement grew throughout our conversation. He also put me in touch with Anna, the Director of Instructional Design, and she asked for my resume. She immediately responded to my email and invited me in for an interview. Both Michael and Anna’s eagerness to meet with me stemmed from my dual background in education and business.

Two days later after talking with Michael, I was sitting in Anna’s office. I was nervous! I spent six hours the day before preparing for the interview. I've never done that! The first 30 minutes of the interview I took a writing proficiency exam. Basically a dumbed down version of the grammar part of the GMAT. By the way, I maintain one of the questions had no right answer. For those of you who know grammar, I’ll give you the sentences and you can let me know if I am wrong. I was supposed to meet for 30 minutes with Anna in a one-on-one interview but we ended up talking for over an hour! By the end of the interview she said two key important things: 1) I can see you quickly becoming a Lead Designer in the company; 2) When can you start? Needless to say the interview went well and Anna was thrilled to have me part of the team. I start Wednesday which means all of this happened within 1½ weeks! I will be trained/mentored for 3-6 weeks depending on how quickly I pick up the process and protocol. Who are we kidding? It will be three. :) Then I work as an Instructional Designer where I provide consulting (needs analysis) for companies and work with a team to design solutions for their company depending on that need.

Little did I realize a year ago that my journey would lead me to a job where I could do both business and curriculum design. I searched for companies like this but always seemed to come up short. The Lord prepared every step of the way. How grateful I am for His divine guidance.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Life has a Story

Once when talking with a friend, he stopped mid-sentence, stared, and said, "You have a story for everything, don't you?" His questioned caught me off guard! But I thought about it for a second and replied back, "Yes. I do." We both laughed and continued our conversation. That was over fourteen years ago and I realize many of these stories have never really been documented. My goal for my blog the next few months is to provide all of you the random stories from my life. Hopefully you find as my joy and humor or tenderness in them as I did in living them.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Doubt Not, Fear Not

Right now I should be preparing for an interview with a company that actually excites me. As much as I should be focusing my energy there or even finishing a final project for my other job, my mind continues pondering over thoughts I had while working out this morning. Time to data dump if only to help my mind more fully understand the swirling thoughts.

One of the greatest gifts we receive from our Heavenly Father is personal revelation. Through the gift of the Holy Ghost and the power of the atonement, the Lord is able to direct our lives in a uniquely personal way. Insights, impressions, and instruction come when we earnestly seek the will of the Lord.

In my lifetime, I have had such experiences. Some so sacred I have either never discussed them in detail or never mentioned them at all. Most often they came while experiencing what Elder Holland referred to as our own Liberty Jails. Recently, as I was seeking the Lord's will for me, I once again experienced the sweet divine gift of personal revelation. The topic nor the message is what my mind has been mulling over the past few hours. What stood out to me was what happened afterward.

Opposition comes in all forms. Though I knew exactly what I felt, advice from the world caused me to doubt. I began to cast off the insights, impressions, and instruction. I called myself crazy. I lost confidence. I completely crumbled. What happened? I let others' stories predict my life for me. I let the world's perspective question the knowledge I received from a loving Heavenly Father. I let the adversary confuse me to the point I was ready to forgo all that had been revealed to me.

Thankfully, the Lord heard my prayers and cast the darkness out of my life. As the light flooded my soul, I began to more fully understand the principle of trusting in the Lord. Where doubt and fear, which are the seeds of darkness, are present trust, faith, and hope cannot exist. Helaman 5:41 explains just this. "You must repent, and cry unto the voice, even until you shall have faith in Christ...and when ye shall do this, the cloud of darkness shall be removed from overshadowing you." And from D&C 6:36: "Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not." Asking others for advice or seeking out what seems "normal" destroys the very gift of personal revelation. What the Lord speaks to us is far more valuable than anything that we may try to glean from the perspective of the world.

What are my conclusions from all this rambling? First, the Lord desires to impart His wisdom and will for us daily. Second, opposition comes in all forms. Third, doubt and fear will cause us to question that which we have received and believed and lived for. Fourth, having trust, faith, and hope, even if I feel a bit crazy, brings far greater joy and happiness in my life then listening to the wisdom of the world. Fifth, my brother-in-law was right.

Time to grade papers and prepare for an interview!

Quote of the Day

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved.

-Helen Keller

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Scientific Evidence

Having a month long focus on gratitude helped me in an uncertain time. Focusing on the good that happened helped shift my mind towards all the positive in my life. Today the Wall Street Journal published an article detailing the scientific evidence found in those who express gratitude.

"A growing body of research suggests that maintaining an attitude of gratitude can improve psychological, emotional and physical well-being. Adults who frequently feel grateful have more energy, more optimism, more social connections and more happiness than those who do not, according to studies conducted over the past decade.

Studies show that using negative, derogatory words—even as you talk to yourself—can darken your mood as well. Fill your head with positive thoughts, express thanks and encouragement aloud and look for something to be grateful for, not criticize, in those around you, especially loved ones."


The article continues with the benefits of gratitude in children and how we can cultivate gratitude in our lives. I highly recommend the read.

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748704243904575630541486290052.html