Thursday, January 14, 2010

Moments

There was a young man in our ward who committed suicide last week. It was shocking and bitterly sad. I wanted to write down two of the tender moments that touched me deeply regarding this whole situation.

The first was at the funeral. I didn't love the funeral, in fact I struggled with a lot of it, but the bishop spoke so well. One thing he said was that this family told him they were concerned that not many people would come to the funeral since the boy was a bit of a loner and the family not very social. He then said with tears in his eyes that the family should stand up and look back as the chapel was filled to capacity and beyond. I wanted to cheer but I was weeping. I'm so grateful for good people who came together to support this family. I think that really is the essence of our purpose in this life.

The other was at church the following Sunday. I wasn't in relief society but heard this through Gigi Dody. She said that in the high priests meeting they addressed the issue of suicide by talking about doctrine and quoting different prophets. In contrast, the women sang A Childs' Prayer for the mother of this boy and at the end only the piano was playing as no one could get through the song. I am grateful to be a woman for many reasons, and this is one of them.

One last thing that I'll try to tie in--in sacrament meeting at Christmas time Brother Williams spoke of the affect of the gospel. He quoted what we've all heard, that the gospel makes bad men good and good men better. And then he said that it goes beyond people and affects situations too, that it makes bad things good and good things better. I really like this idea. In the midst of something awful, there are moments of rare goodness and beauty that are in line with the gospel. And I am grateful to have witnessed a few of these moments.

6 comments:

Janelle said...

It sounds like the 'strong ward' that I belonged to for a year, became even stronger this past week. I have tears rolling down my cheeks imagining everything. Thanks for writing some of those things down, I've been wondering how everything went.

Kimberly Porter said...

It was tough to get through, I agree. But I personally thought the funeral was beautifully done.

I agree with the quote, "the gospel makes bad things good and good things better." It makes things bearable as well.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I love getting a glimpse into that head of yours.

Unknown said...

Carol - I am so sorry for you, for your ward, for that dear mother and family. That is so sad. I agree that coming together and supporting one another is really what it is all about here on Earth.
I am also overwhelmed with the thought of the unimaginable grief that so many must surely be going through right now in Haiti. I only WISH each of them had the gospel to help with the bitter 'sting' of death.
Thanks for your thoughts.

Carlie said...

i love hearing your thoughts on life carol. but i agree with kim that the funeral was well done. i thought i knew what we believed about suicide, thus making me worried about what could possibly be said at the funeral. i was very touched and comforted. michael was a great kid that we got to know when trev was his sunday school teacher. but i feel, just as we take comfort that babies are not sent to hell if they die before baptism, we don't know the extend of mercy. i felt much more strengthened in my own testimony and abosrbed the feelings of love and mercy.

Jennie Blaser said...

It seems tragedies like this always pull a ward together. For three summers in a row we had some major tragedies in our ward. A young father of three had a stroke and was paralyzed from the neck down for life. A two year old boy drowned a year later, then the next year my best friend Trudy was killed in a car accident. She was pregnant with her third baby. Our ward has never been closer through all of these awful things. We just had a two year old get spinal meningitis and the whole ward was fasting for him. One minute the doctors pretty much told the family to prepare for the worst. A week later, he was home, and is only slightly deaf in one ear! Miracles do happen. Can you just imagine how close a ward family could be if we could strengthen each other for the multitude of tragedies that are happening behind closed doors, and inside hearts and minds in our ward. Wow, didn't mean to comment this long!

Mary said...

Thank goodness your bishop was so sensitive to this grieving family. On my mission I taught a family of Catholic background who didn't have a father. (I never asked details about their dad- I just figured the parents were divorced) The kids were always particularly curious about life after death and the Plan of Salvation. After I was transferred out of the area I learned that their father had committed suicide and they grew up being taught that he would "burn in hell" for doing so. So tragic!

Thank goodness for a gospel of hope and mercy and love!