Saturday, February 23, 2013

Bhanu Kapil defines things on Urban Dictionary

You know Urban Dictionary? The place where you go to keep abreast of current slang, innuendo and acronyms (since nearly everything needs fewer vowels, bb).

I didn't know you could make definitions there that would make you want to buy mugs & t-shirts that said Architecture - 5 or Humanimal (I would buy the heck out of that t-shirt).

It appears you can, and someone did. Bhanu Kapil has done something to Urban Dictionary that I hope it will never recover from.

Here's a sample:
Narrative

The inability to conceive of a happy ending.

Sometimes I think that the whole reason I met him was to discover that his wife was studying Counseling Psychology, if indeed that is the name of something a person might actually learn, with the great-grand-niece of Frida Kahlo. In the narrative of desire, perhaps what matters is not intimacy but it's counterpart: a new thought. In this sense, the lover is a necessary force, but rarely it's limit. I said: "Maybe this is the reason we met." Thinking of the yellow table, the third eye, the monkey in her arms. Dominant. I begged for an introduction, forgetting for a moment who I was. To him. For her. A cunt. Do cunts get to meet Frida Kahlo? In the flesh? Greeley, Colorado is where the slaughterhouses are. I'd like to visit that university town.
I've always thought - from what little I've read on her blog and on Almost Island, that Kapil is someone I need to read more of. Maybe some day I will manage it. Until then these sudden instance of brilliance must do.

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Re the entry True Love: I am wondering what a list of lovers' occupations would look like. I already know it will be boring and unpoetic and undeserving of a definition on Urban Dictionary. Perhaps there's an Obscure Sorrow that defines the sadness of never having a lover who was an actor is a miracle play.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

A bag full of cats

When I was pregnant, there were a battery of tests that my doc recommended, among them for a series of potential diseases that might damage the foetus. So, I obediently got them done. One of these tests came back positive: Toxoplasma Gondii. I consulted my trusty What to Expect and was horrified to discover that the thing sounded hugely dangerous. I was traumatised.

The doc recommended I re-do the test and the next one turned out negative ( though why disregard the first and accept the second? Would there be any way of finding out until it was too late?) and all manner of things were well after all.

So this Toxo thing seems like a special parasite, one that was (almost) mine. Naturally, all related reading are of interest. This piece suggests that this parasite - usually considered harmless in healthy adults and reasonably-sized children - actually can cause all kinds of changes in the brain.
She began tagging the parasite with fluorescent markers and tracking its progress in the rats’ bodies. Given the surgically precise way the microbe alters behavior, Webster anticipated that it would end up in localized regions of the brain. But the results defied expectations. “We were quite surprised to find the cysts—the parasite’s dormant form—all over the brain in what otherwise appeared to be a happy, healthy rat,” she says. Nonetheless, the cysts were most abundant in a part of the brain that deals with pleasure (in human terms, we’re talking sex, drugs, and rock and roll) and in another area that’s involved in fear and anxiety (post-traumatic stress disorder affects this region of the brain). Perhaps, she thought, T. gondii uses a scattershot approach, disseminating cysts far and wide, enabling a few of them to zero in on the right targets.

To gain more clarity on the matter, she sought the aid of the parasitologist Glenn McConkey, whose team at the University of Leeds was probing the protozoan’s genome for signs of what it might be doing. The approach brought to light a striking talent of the parasite: it has two genes that allow it to crank up production of the neurotransmitter dopamine in the host brain. “We never cease to be amazed by the sophistication of these parasites,” Webster says. 
The whole thing here.

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Someone on Twitter said that this explains Naipaul. I give you that observation without comment.




Monday, February 11, 2013

KGAF Loot

With many qualifications, I adore Bombay. This time, the qualifications just removed themselves: I stayed in town, had one reading and one and a half days to myself to do what I wanted. What I did was wander round, watch people, meet friends, browse the Dilli Haat-ness of Kala Ghoda during the festival. I sat facing the sea, I sat under trees, moved with the shade, began and finished Brat Farrar. Paid homage to Mondegar and Leopold.

And bought lots of books. 15 of them. The first two, I bought on my way to my reading, just a little bit away from the David Sassoon Library. I didn't dare to leave them there because the session was going to be chock full of poets, and what if it occurred to even one of them to check out the place and pick precisely these books up?

Books 1 & 2: Language for a New Century: Contemporary Poets from the Middle East, Asia and Beyond* [ed. Tina Chang, Natthalie Handal and Ravi Shankar]. And Anne Sexton: The Complete Poems**.

Next to the guy who had these books, there was another who had mostly art magazines and law books. But he also had a whole lot of other stuff and two things that I saw and coveted. I promised myself I would return the next day for them. What was to be a minor rescue mission turned out to be a major evacuation.

Here's what I got:





The abridged Don Quixote is, of course, for the kid; as is Goopy, Archy's Life of Mehitabel and the Leslie Charteris. The le Carre and the Mary Stewart are replacement copies and the Allingham is so! beautifully! preserved! Also, Rumer Godden. Only finding a copy each of Flowers for Mrs. Harris or Cider with Rosie would have made my joy more complete.

But the books I'm really pleased about finding are the Ali A. Mazrui, Book 1 [see above] and the Raymond Carver.

Especially the Carver, for all sorts of reasons. The title and the title poem (Where Water Comes Together With Other Water). The joy of finding a collection which contains an individual poem that has moved you. The wanting to know whether Carver's poems were edited as hard as his stories and if so by whom.

Oh, and because I love donkeys, (if you didn't know this about me already, welcome to the blog and make yourself comfortable) and I can never find donkey things the way other people find owls, elephants and tortoises, I was ecstatic because this time I lucked out!



So the kid gets Don Quixote and I get Donkey Hottie.

Okay, fine. It's a pack mule. But I'll take what I can get.  

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But I'm not done.

A couple of days before I left for Kala Ghoda, I was in a sad-but-foul mood about something I can't even remember now. I complained about it and asked for hugs or books and my friend offered to send me something.

I came back from Bombay to find she'd sent me Anuja Chauhan's Those Pricey Thakur Girls. Needless to say, I swallowed it in one sitting last night and my crush on Chauhan just grows and grows. It is full of late-'80s Delhi wonder and though I never thought I'd hear myself say this, it made me so nostalgic for my late-teens! All the Depauls and Wengers and Bercos and every cheesy song and landmark and Delhi thing (including Interact, for heaven's sake) was there and I loved it.

At the risk of sounding like GRRM fan, I want the next book from her, like, later this year or something.

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*I wonder whose copy landed up on the pavement so soon after the book came out. Reviewer? Or *gasp* Contributor?

**I picked this one chiefly for an over-wrought, handwritten letter from a son to his mother on the flyleaf. Either she was heartless or dead and the book landed up on the pavement. Either way, it's fascinating.

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Poetry Reading at the Kala Ghoda Arts Festival 2013

Five years after my first and only KGAF, I'll be reading at this one. Unlike the last time, I don't have a book. I'm also not as stressed as I was then. All it needs is for me to keep my fingers crossed and for you guys - those of you who are in Bombay - to turn up!

The 7th evening is given over to three hours of poetry. I can't wait to hear Adil Jussawalla, Eunice de Souza, Melanie Silgardo and everyone read. So much excite!

Here's the full schedule for Thursday, 7th Feb, from 5pm on, at the David Sassoon Library:

Session 1: 5-6 pm

1. Adil Jussawalla
2. Gerson da Cunha
3. Jane Bhandari
4. Eunice de Souza
5. Melanie Silgardo

Session 2: 6.15-7.15 pm

1. Arundhathi Subramaniam
2. Sridala Swami
3. Jerry Pinto
4. Anupama Raju
5. Ranjit Hoskote

Session 3: 7.30-8.30 pm

1. Menka Shivdasani
2. Christine Herzer
3. Mustansir Dalvi
4. Athena Kashyap
5. Dominic Alapat
 
Do come if you can.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Briused and humourless

I can be intemperate on my blog. I need to tell myself this before I can and even then I may not succeed.

What does this tell me about the culture of silence and niceness we - in this case I mean women, but it could be any description of person speaking out in a majority that doesn't include them - put ourselves into? Why do I play nice even when I don't have to?

Yesterday a friend sent out a mail making what was, in effect, a rape joke. I was not amused and I said so. I was told that my sensibilities were wafer thin. I said a number of things, most of them unbelievably un-ragey and moderate.

What I wanted to do was rave and rant. I wanted to use a hammer and instead used what might be called a needle. Or an unwound paper clip.

Today I feel bruised and humourless. I want my sensitivites to be wafer-thin and I wish my friend was similarly sensitive. Instead, he side-stepped. He suggested something else and said, 'is that plausible?'

No, it fucking is not. I said so. I await developments.

Elsewhere in the country, men are coming out of the woodwork to say why the Justice Verma report can't be implemented. They don't want to rethink the AFSPA. They don't want to disqualify politicians and bureaucrats who have rape charges against them. They don't want senior officers made responsible for the sexual assaults committed by the people in their charge (they like being decorative and drawing large salaries for not doing their jobs).

And in the meantime, ordinary men, people you call friends, still think rape jokes are, if not hilarious (we musn't be too sensitive) at least mildly funny.


Thursday, January 17, 2013

'Something in me refuses to die': An Interview with Jayanta Mahapatra

This interview appeared in Mint last Saturday*. I'm putting up an earlier draft of the transcript, which contains a couple of questions we left out of even the web version; and  more lightly unedited answers.

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Photo © Sridala Swami



If there is one thing Jayanta Mahapatra gives me, it is hope. Several years ago, as a person who scarcely dared to call herself a poet, I sent a bunch of poems to Chandrabhaga, the journal Mahapatra had edited for many years and recently revived. I was unused both to rejection and acceptance at that time. But I can safely say that the hand-written letter I got from him accepting all my poems, was crucial in helping me redefine myself as a poet.

Many hand-written letters were exchanged over the years that followed, but it wasn’t until 2010 that I felt an urgent, scarcely explicable need to visit Jayantada. Puzzled by my urgency, but nevertheless welcoming, he invited me stay. I had imagined that some at least, of our conversations would be about poetry, but I sensed a reluctance in Jayantada to talk about his work and found I could not ask him all the questions I’d imagined I would.

When he was in Hyderabad last year, he fell suddenly ill. I was worried, but relieved when his hand-written letters, the writing a little shaky, resumed. I was delighted when in November this year, an advance copy of Land, Jayantada’s 19th collection of poetry in English, arrived in the post.
It seemed the right time to get Jayantada to speak about his poetry. Going on as we’d begun, I sent him the questions and he replied over seven closely-written sheets of paper, in a neat beautiful hand. Here are excerpts from that response. I would even call it a conversation.

Of his numerous awards – the Padma Shri, the Sahitya Akademi Award, among others – I need say nothing readers don’t already know. Land takes as its epigraph a line from Oscar Wilde: ‘The artistic life is a long, lovely suicide’. Counter-intuitively, this also gives me hope: as someone who, like Jayantada, started writing poetry very late in life, I look forward to the ‘slow suicide’ in which all of us, no matter what our age or when we begin, are engaged. 

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Sridala Swami: Jayantada, you were 40 when your first collection of poems was published. Can you talk about when and why you started to write poetry?

Jayanta Mahapatra: That’s right. I came into poetry quite late, when I was about forty. Not the proper age to write love poems, is it? Perhaps a stage comes when one has to make choices, and in my case it was the writing of poetry.  I had spent all those forty years doing research in theoretical physics, in serious photography, and often at doing practically nothing but reading. Reading still brings me a kind of joy. I like to return to those passages that enlighten me. The way language carried the emotion in a good book attracted me, and I kept learning the subtleties of language. I made my choice with poetry then, and poetry stayed with me.

SS: You have lived all your life in Orissa and its presence in your poetry is very strong. Could you talk about place, language and landscape and how it affects your poetry?

JM: Look, it’s difficult to say expressly how place, language and landscape affect my poetry. I have lived here all my life, and this is the land of my ancestors. Isn’t it but natural that these should come into my poems? Can I forget “hunger” when my own grandfather almost died of starvation in the terrible famine that struck Odisha in 1866? Can I forget the starving millions who live in the remote hinterland and subsist on dried mango seeds and tubers they collect from the jungles? It is the place that has shaped me: its traditions, myths, and more importantly, its history. These make the arms of my poetry.

SS: For years you edited Chandrabhaga, one of the country’s most influential little magazines. It was where many poets first published their poems. What made you want to start Chandrabhaga.

JM: In the late seventies, there was no standard magazine for Indian poetry. Nissim Ezekiel’s Poetry India had folded up and The Illustrated Weekly of India was becoming more politically directed, with Pritish Nandy as the editor. It was a disappointing scene. One had to send one’s poems abroad for publication, and that wasn’t easy. It was expensive too. So I thought I’d start this magazine, Chandrabhaga, for both established and new poets. The response was fairly good because we managed to send our issues abroad, to places like Harvard University and other graduate schools. The magazine was also sent as an exchange magazine to the USA. It was indexed in the PMLA and other directories, which brought me a quiet sense of pride. 

The essays were noticed, and reactions came in. One of my aims was to set standards for poetry, because any “poem” could be published in the poetry magazines in India, and that was terrible. It was sort of heartbreaking for me when I ceased publication.


SS: Much of your work was first published in journals in the US and elsewhere outside India. Did you correspond with poets from other countries? Will these letters be collected and published?

JM: Oh yes, there’s a lot of correspondence lying in old files and cartons. I haven’t been able to do anything about it. I was, for years, preserving these letters from poets and editors until a severe illness almost took my life in 2006. Then I simply left the letters as they were. You could say I abandoned them, realising the futility of such feelings. As a matter of fact, I destroyed a number of them after I recovered partly ... I asked myself: Do these letters measure your life in any way? And if they do, they will be just like passing faces you see when a train goes past you. I’d say there’s nothing to claim, nothing to own in them. I don’t think of them as a literary record, to be published at some time.

SS: In 2010, you were writing a weekly column in an Odia newspaper - your autobiography in serialised form. Has it now been collected and translated?

JM: The serialisation of my autobiography in Odia is still going on in the Bijoya, a literary monthly. It is finished and will soon be taken up for publication. I wanted to do an intimate and raw sort of thing, so I instinctively turned to Odia, not English. As to translating it into English, I have no idea if it’s going to be done.

SS: What poets do you like to read, whether contemporary or from an earlier time? Whose work has touched or moved you? 

JM: Fiction has been my first love all my life. My schooldays were spent with H. Rider Haggard, E. M. Ballantyne and Edgar Rice Burroughs. From there, my reading habits broadened and I went into the classics – Dickens, Conrad, Dostoievsky and Tolstoy. Today I read Saramago, LeClezio and Javier Marias. 

But it was only in the 1970s and ’80s that I turned to reading contemporary poetry. Even Eliot and Tagore were unknown to me at that time. My six months with writers at the International Writing Program in Iowa City, USA [1976-77] brought me face to face with their poetry. It was really enlightening; a sort of unknown world, vast, passionate and experimental opened out, and I could put my poetry beside theirs. 

I began to read Rimbaud and Baudelaire in English translation, then Pablo Neruda, Rainer Maria Rilke, Yannis Ritsos, George Seferis, Vicente Aleixandre and [Salvatore] Quasimodo. It was wonderful, reading the lines of these master poets, and I felt myself slipping into the bodies of the greats, amazed and thoroughly humbled. In Australia for the Adelaide Festival of Arts in 1978 I met Sapardi Djoko Damono of Indonesia, Margaret Atwood of Canada and Galway Kinell of the USA.
So much of the work of poets like Neruda has left me mute. Quasimodo too. And then, there are Sylvia Plath and Carolyn Forché, who have never ceased to move me. If I made a list, I wouldn’t know where to start and where to end. The beauty in these poets lies in the manner in which we comprehend their poetry and the silence in their lines that we must honour. 

But in the end, I always find something which moves me in every poet I read, almost every poet.

SS: You have lectured about poetry at Delhi University as a Poet in Residence and have conducted creative writing workshops in Baroda. How do you talk about poetry to young people? How do they respond? 

JM: I always try to impress upon the young poets that I am not the one they should emulate. I don’t belong to those great poets – to their company, I mean – that I could speak about poetry and how to go about writing a poem. My ignorance is there for all to see – in my training as a physicist, and also in the fact that I started writing poetry when I was forty. From my own experiences my poetry came, that’s the truth, and I tell younger people that. Also that a  poet is a poet by virtue of what he or she sees or hears, and that itself begins the mystifying process of the poem. 

You tell them that poetry writing isn’t an easy thing – a struggle for me, every time I sit down to write – and they understand. They understand that the passion for poetry also needs their flesh and blood, and is more about understanding the world they live in, and understanding their own selves.

SS: You taught Physics at Ravenshaw College for a number of years. How do you find science relates to your poetry?

JM: I am not sure whether you’d agree that poetry is a way of looking at the world, and when this world is looked at from the condition of the mind that questions, from the scientific mind and from the poetic mind, each object is seen (1) as it is, and (2) as a crucible that can hold a number of immeasurable secrets which questions could release. I am not very sure when I say that possibilities present themselves more as a question than an answer. And more or less physics and poetry point to the same thing. Maybe as one goes deeper and deeper into poetry, an objective analysis is evident, such as is found in physics, where successive schemes add up somehow into a single arrangement. 

My ignorance is there for all to see. But just as it is difficult to understand the intimate relation of poetry to the universe, it’s becoming more complex to see through the relationship of science, or physics, with the universe.

SS: How do you write poetry? What makes you keep writing it.

JM: There is something in me that refuses to die. It does not accept easy definition, and my physics cannot make an equation out of it. It’s there, somewhere deep inside me perhaps. And this is poetry.
But my experience, through my long life, has taught me that I loved to write poetry because I love life and cherish it. And there are risks in experience; so in poetry. And this is what’s significant: that because one loves life, one cherishes the poem, its utmost power that goes on to sustain us. But again, I wouldn’t know how I write poetry. I never intended to be a poet. But one looks at the world and is pained by the despair around and you find it hard to keep silent about it.

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*The photograph that accompanies the article - reproduced here - is mine. I'm sure Mint will eventually give me a photo credit for it. (Just sayin').

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Interview with Jayanta Mahapatra in Mint

The web version of my interview with Jayanta Mahapatra is up on Mint; the paper version is, of necessity, slightly shorter.

For now, I'm just linking to Mint. Will put up the whole thing up here next week.


Thursday, January 10, 2013

On Her Kind

I have a piece up at Her Kind, which is the blog of VIDA: Women in Literary Arts.

An excerpt:
There’s no choice in losing things or people. There are no decisions to be made, no moment when you have to master yourself and say, “Now. This is the right time.”
Letting go – that’s something else. There is no time to allow the choices to fall away until there are none left. You have to let go at a point where things are still potential, when something else could have happened. You have to let go in the full knowledge that regret will almost certainly follow.
But there's also a bit about Tony Leung there, plus my (bite your tongue*, girl) MS.

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*I'm hoping that talking about it at all doesn't lead to it forever being an MS. 

Monday, January 07, 2013

Almost Island, late 2012

Having just noticed that Almost Island has a new issue up, I feel the year has got off to a very good start. Anu almost-apology you might detect in the editorial should be set aside because there may not be many things, but what things there are, are a feast in themselves.

Adil Jussawalla in a 45 page conversation wiht Vivek Narayanan and Sharmistha Mohanty, and László Krasznahorkai  in a shorter but no less illuminating conversation with Sharmistha Mohanty and Kabir Mohanty.

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I am envious of my friends who have proper reading diaries and know exactly what (and how much of what) they have read in any given month. It's something I ought to have done but never, ever have in all my life.

Last year, I resolved to learn poetry and failed unspectacularly at it. What can I say? No ambition, that's me.

This year's resolve to at least make a note of what I've read, watched and listened to seems more doable and it gives me a great feeling of achievement when I see the page filling up with stuff.

Of course, this makes no sense unless I also say a little bit about what I thought of all the things I've been reading/watching etc., but whether I'll post about it remains to be seen.

This is a good time to remind myself that I've had Bela Tarr's Satantango, based on László Krasznahorkai's book, for over a year now and still haven't watched it.



Monday, December 31, 2012

New Year Resolution (Singular)


How many of you read that as Will Work For Free?

No.

(Also, Happy 2013. Be good!)