Hapi hapi.........?

Babala: Ang post na ito ay bunga ng lagnat, ubo at nagbabadyang sipon. Kaya puro kaepalan lang muna.

Malapit na ang Valentines Day. Mangangamoy flower :-) na naman sa madaming lugar. Sa madami, yong mga may boypren o girlpren, yong may mga dyowa malamang eksayteng ang February 14 sa kanila. Much stories had been told tungkol sa mga ganito.Araw nila to kaya yaan na lang muna natin. Bawal maging bitter. Silang may mga date ang bida sa Lunes. Pano naman ang wala? haysssssss. Kaya dun sa mga may date, may boypren o may girlpren, sa mga may asawa o kahit na dun sa mga kabit na ididate muna ni loko lokong mister bago umuwi kay misis, at don sa nagkukunwaring may date "Hapi hapi VALENTINES Day sa inyo" at sa mga aminanadong walang date, walang dyowa at walang nagkamali at mga broken hearted na katulad ko"hapi hapi hapi hapi INDEPENDENCE day" sa ating lahat. hahahaha. O di ba may rason pa din para maging happy tayo?...

Por samwan lyk me na walang date ngayong valentine, being SINGLE is synonymous to FREEDOM. Sa madaling salita, kahit sino pede kong idate yon eh kung may pumatol sa akin LOL. You can go out with your friends, family and anyone who you want to be with.

Di dahil wala akong date sa Lunes, malulungkot ako. Di rin naman siguradong magiging masaya ako, basta sa ngayon, at this very moment, Monday will be an ordinary day. Lets see whats in store for me this Feb 14. Who knows di ba? Si one great love kasi mali ang timing. Sana inantay na lang muna nya ang lunes bago ako binagsakan ng bomba. hihihihi pero ganunpaman ok na din.

O sya, bago ku pa maalala ng todo si one great love at mag emoemo na naman tapusin ko na ang alang wentang post na to. Sa uli, sa mga merong date at partner sa monday HAPPY HAPY VALENTINES DAY at don naman sa wala, HAPPY HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY. oh di ba dalawang beses pa nating icelebrate ng independence day. how sweet LOL. Malay mo nauna lang taung magcelebrate ng Independence day sa kanila? Baka sa Tuesday sila naman. dyuk hahahahha.

rest in peace (and in pieces)

As this soul is in its coping stage, and while in his darkest moment in the history of his not so successful love tale, there are crazy and good things that he just realize. He had never imagined that pain can destroy his system and the way things he should  be done. He knows what to do, yet he opted doing otherwise because he is having hard time of letting go of something and someone. His mind exactly know where to stand on the situation like where he is now, yet his  broken heart brings him to the opposite side of the fence.

Mind over heart, or, heart over mind?

Confusing. Complicated. Debatable. He make it hard for himself. He prefers to experience such pain in order to overcome it. He had to, in order to appreciate the true meaning of love. For him true love never ends. Somehow you have to let go, but how?

Many tried to comfort this soul. Some so sincere, some are not. He knows his friends better. Letting go, may seem so hard at the moment, yet he knows it's the best he could do to start heal a bleeding heart. How would someone start moving-on, if he could not let go of things? He may seem so down, he may seem dysfunctional, but he is still alive. He is in pain which remind him he's alive and he has life. He should regain his momentum to be the person he was. Hurting. He is now at rest, but no quiting. Rest in peace and in pieces.

Soon, he will get better. After the storm, the sun will again shine. Beyond the darkest clouds is a promise that the sun will shine again and bring new life to everyone who was in darkness. Yes, maybe he had been in the darkest moment in his life, but with those moment, he see light better. In his darkest night, he see the brightest stars in the sky. In his darkest nights, he see his own star, the star that guided him throughout, his LORD.

Now on he is on the healing process. Yes it's a process. No one knows how long would it be. But he will be healed soon. It may be sooner than he think or it may be even longer, but he is holding on. Holding on, not to the situation, holding on not to his pain, holding on, not to things he could not understand but holding on to the promise of healing, the promise of his Lord. He now trust, he depend and he surrender. He trust not himself. He depend not on his capacity. He surrender not on the situation. He TRUST, HE DEPEND HE SURRENDER only to his GOOD and MIGHTY SAVIOR, his forever GOOD LORD.

Now he find himself on bended knees. Tears rolling down his cheek. Pain is still there.He is now ready for the process. He has now the heart. Fragile it may seem, but he has a heart. In his darkest night he hopes that when he wakes up, he will have the brightest morning.Yes he will have it and he claimed it, because it was promised to him. He is starting to pick up his pieces. Soon he will finally REST in PEACE.

God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure---- Hebrews 6:10-11

crazy friends and a hobbit...

"tama naman siguro sabi ng mga friends ko, we have to give space sa bawat isa, You too is hurting as much as I am, and how selfish I am, to think of myself alone. For now, do what makes u happy, while I am tryin to talk to my Lord, why He let this things happen on me. If its really goodbye, we(I) have nothin to do but accept this fact.Tnx and I will always pray for  your happiness more than mine." 

ayan ang nobelang text ko sa babaeng naging parte ng buhay ko for seven long years. Finally its over and finally its killing me softly parang kanta lang. It was really so hard while I am about to send this message and I pull all the courage, gathered all the stars in the universe to be brave enough to do things what it seems to be right.

Pero di ito ang topic natin sa ngayun. Melodramatic no more. I would like to share the funny things happened while some friends tried to comfort this broken soul.

First on the list, its all about my SFC friends, Des and Lors. this two amazing sisters in SFC community is whom I considered im most comfortable with. Etong  dalawang parang timang ang nakiiyak sa akin. Sa kanila ko kasi unang sinabi. Masaya din naman pala minsang umiyak kung me kasama ka, masubukan ngang yon ang gawing TRIP minsan pag walang magawa. Des had her "droplet" of tears at utang ko yon sa kanya hahahaha. No worries Ill give a bucketful of tears pag ako kelangan mo. Kay Lorz, kakatuwa, the certified timangerz na kakilala ko. Hoping maging madre(seryoso) ayaw lang ng family nya. lorz is crying much pero nakatawa, grrrrrrrr hahahhaha kaw na lang maiinis sa kanya kasi parang Jordan river na ang agos ng luha pero bungisngis pa din. 

Since I cant sleep last nyt, I decided na lumabas at tumambay sa D' mall de boracay near hobbit house. Taena close na lahat ng establishements and when this staff of hobbit house passed by me, akalain mo ba naman killing me softly ang kanta, coincedence that was. and the line he spilled just in front of me was " killing me softly with his song, kiling me softly" waaaaaahhhh si kuya naman eh nananadya. 

Hays. i decided to change my relationship status sa FB. dami naman nag react, me nag pm, me nag comment me nag like. Tae naman, broke na nga like pa waaaaaahhhhh. hahahahahha. Or maybe nag like like yon kasi single na ko ulit. Hmmmm smells sumtin baka me mga hidden agenda sila, may mga hidden pagnanasa? LOL.

o sya nauubusan na ako ng thought. im just trying to make things lighter. And on the serious note I am still talking to my Lord what went wrong and why. Medyo madami dami akong tanong at the moment pero no hurry naman kasi all along I always believ HE knows the best reasons ans the right timing for everythin...