the thought of not being able to see them once again, makes the heart aches wildly, and it cringes every time you remember the memories and shared experiences that we had with them before. sometimes, we even avoid the places that can bring back those memories. something caught in your throat, tears held back before the eyes, heartbeats going erratic.
what makes it worse is that you don't know what the future holds. will we ever meet again? will they do just fine over there? will they be just another distant memory that would slowly be erased by time?
there's just too much goodbyes I've bid this past few years. crying won't solve anything. accepting needs time. i hope someday i can find the strength to move on. as spirited as i can be, i'm still frail deep inside.
p/s: going to be in "no-mood" mood this coming few days. i can't wait to go home soon. i miss my family so much.
