My precious baby girl:
Just like that, another year has come and gone. And what a year it was. A lot of things happened, but most notably, we expanded our family, and you are now a big sister! You lived through all the changes that came along with pregnancy, bringing home a baby, and your daddy changing jobs. And, aside from a few power struggles and potty rebellions, you really weathered it all beautifully.
And you are still such a beautiful soul. This is going to sound like bragging, and it totally is, but you are the kind of kid other parents want their kid to hang out with. You are so reasonable most of the time and so even-tempered. You love to have fun and be silly, and you do like to win/go first/have what you want, but you are usually pretty good about sharing, and you are not aggressive at all. You have been great with Brady, too. You did ask me at one point, “When Brady’s done, can I have a sister?”, and you occasionally still ask for a sister, but most of the time you just try to make him smile and laugh. “Mommy, Brady’s smiling at me!” I always answer the same way: “That’s because he loves you!” You don’t like when he pulls your hair or tries to take your things, but you are always gentle with him, and he adores you!
You are such a little person now, complete with likes (dancing, singing, food, stickers, workbooks, princesses, and television), dislikes (getting your hair combed, any kind of sauce), and habits (bedtime nose-picking, looking over the top of your glasses). You have become incredibly articulate. You ask me deep questions about things like Heaven, and whether I am going there anytime soon. You are also quick to correct me when I get something wrong: “Mommy, I didn’t say that!” You have also gotten so brave. In 2010 I couldn’t get you near the water at Shaver Lake. This year, you swam around in your life vest! You have also become much braver socially. You have moments of shyness, but you don’t hide your face in my leg much anymore.
You are just such a fun, smart, precious little girl. I worry all the time about whether I’m giving you enough attention, whether I am playing with you enough, whether I expect too much, whether you feel my unconditional love, whether I’m screwing you up, and all kinds of other things. My goal is still the same as it always has been, though: to love you, and to help you become who you were born to be.
I love you, my sweet four-year-old Sara Jo. Every night, I still thank God for you. I am proud that you are my daughter, and I can’t wait to watch you continue to grow, learn, and thrive. You are still the wonderful blessing who changed my life.
Happy birthday, sweetheart. I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always. As long as I’m living (and beyond!) my baby you’ll be.
Love,
Mommy
P.S. Did you know that peas are knees? “That’s silly! Did you know that chairs are bears?” And so on. J