I knew that this day will come. I knew that you will leave this duniya eventually. I knew the condition was irreversible. I knew that ...but how could anyone ever be ready for it.
The last conversation we had wasn't a pleasant one. The last we saw each other was not a happy occasion. But I knew you were concern and thoughtful when you came to visit arwah Papa.
How shocked I was to learn that you were diagnosed too a year after Papa was gone. I said prayers for you... hoping that you wouldn't have suffered that much, not as painful. I broke in tears when I saw your picture. You didn't know that I knew. I couldn't and didn't have the courage to reach out. So I just read about you from afar, while silently prayed for you.
Allah loves you more.... today, the day has come inevitably. You are in better place now. I know. But I couldn't help these tears from streaming down... I hope you are blessed and placed amongst the solihin in jannah. Thank you sebab pernah hadir dalam hidup I dan family.
I still remember the day we entered Standard 4 when our schools merged and we made friends. I still remember our times as classmates in Standard 6, I still remember when you looked for me at Kolej 10 when you finally came to UM main campus in your first year. My family still remember your mom's tapai and those durians delivery... I still remember you told me about your dream of getting into traveling business. I remember your stories about your baking business with your wife and family.
Ah...now it's all a lifetime ago... 😢
Nevertheless, how I wished I have said my apology....
Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun. May Allah ampunkan dosa2 you, rahmati you and kurniakan syurga buat you di sana. Amiin2 InsyaAllah.
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