
A while ago I stumbled across the Caitlyn's website at
Operation Beautiful. She is releasing a book that hopes to end negative self-talk or “Fat Talk.”
In celebration of the release of her book, there has been a request for readers to respond to the post at
Change The Way You See, Not The Way You Look WeekMy JourneyTwo years ago I was struggling with my body image and weight, I was at 250lbs and really wanted to lose weight but I didn't want to "diet" and didn't know where to start, and tried many times to get the momentum going. I'm not going to say this journey was easy, it wasn't and still isn't. This is a life journey, a new lifestyle! I started by saying to myself that
"I can do it" and
"I am worth it". As a mom to 3 young children, it is easy to put yourself last, but it is important to take care of yourself. My journey started by making small changes and keeping up, one small step at a time. It is so much easier to make changes making small ones.
Those were great first statements, and in Dec 2008, I started exercising and tracking what I ate. I started by buying a pair of runners as I hadn't owned a pair of runners since high school! I made the commitment to walk with the kids to school as often as possible and not to make excuses as to why we couldn't walk. No we didn't walk every trip (3 or 4 trips a day), we even managed to increase our speed, so the journey has been reduced from 20min to 15min for the 1km hike uphill to the school (and since then we've decreased our time again, and usually do it in 12min). I started exercising in the evenings after the kids were in bed. As the weather improved and my fitness level improved, I would strap my 3yo into her stroller and we would head off for a walk. My first 7km continuous walk was in April 2009! When possible I fit in some longer walks that spring, and even started jogging a bit as my speed got faster.
I wrote the following in another blog on June 2, 2009
I am trying to keep scheduling time for me. Unfortunately for the next 3 months most of this time will be after the kids are in bed. BUT that is OK - I can and will exercise then. I am on track and loosing both weight and inches. I know from the last time I lost weight (12 + years ago) that getting from down to 180lbs will be difficult, but I can do it as I am changing my LIFESTYLE... And I will do it for myself, and for my family!
In July 2009 I started the couch to 5K running program. Prior to this I have not been a runner, I always
HATED running. I was never athletic, and never encouraged to find an activity to keep me moving as I grew up. It was never encouraged to keep active year round... Nor was I encouraged to keep active and healthy, sure I skated, biked, downhill & water skied, hiked, and went wind surfing...
By July 22, 2009 I posted a blog titled "Really want to RUN". What? That came out of my mouth? I wasn't a runner, I didn't like running, but here I was craving a run! This wasn't highschool gym class anymore, there was no one pushing me to do this, just ME and I was enjoying running. Enjoying the time alone, enjoying the music or podcasts, enjoying being more active. On July 23, 2010 I ran 18km and walked an additional 6.9km with my family!

Since then I have run a 5K, 8K and 10K race. They were all exhilarating experiences and I have come to understand that I am an athlete -- I may not excel at baseball, basketball, lacrosse or hockey nor am I a gymnast or dancer but I am a runner. I may not ever win a race, but "I am a runner" and am getting faster with all my training.
Within the first year I had lost 95lbs and was then running 3 times a week, now I've lost nearly 110lbs, am at my lowest weight in over 20 years and am now I'm training for a half marathon (actually two!.)

And the best thing I have included my family in this journey. My kids are active and can easily walk 5km, even the 4yo with few complaints! My husband has joined me and he too is training for a half marathon and we are both signed up to do a half marathon at Disney World. My son would love to walk a 5km at Disney World so he is now working on walking faster...
During this journey I have had days where I've struggled with positive thoughts, but as the days go on, the positive thoughts outnumber the negative. On the weekend I have a planned 17km run. I will do it! And enjoy it...
But I am a RUNNER! I am worth it!