emo''-ing

此刻的心情，很EMO。
反复地在想自己到底走对路吗？
或许此刻的心情很低落，
所以想法很消极，体内充满了负能量。

虽然路是人走出来的，走错了，能换另一条路走，
但是这条路，自己已走了一半，在这个时候想转换，时机对吗？
或许一开始就不应该选择这条路，因为一开始自己并不是别无选择。

某次的聚餐，听到爸爸在朋友面前称赞自己的女儿，
知道自己在他心里是个让他感到骄傲的女儿，心里感到开心，
嗯，我没辜负爸爸对我的期望。

然而，最近与爸爸闲聊，听了他对自己说的一句话后，
心里不经一沉，眼泪不由自主地在眼眶里打转。。。
女儿啊，你觉得当初应该选择这条路吗？

我当初应该走这条路吗？
心里某个角落隐约传来一个回应：
不应该！不应该！若能从来，我不会选择这条路。
当在这个时候，路已走了一半，没得回头，只好默默走到尽头。
在另个新起点，好好认清跑道，选择对的跑道，向另一个国度迈进。

继续坚持走下去！！

当只能进不能退的时候，难免会觉得无奈。。
付出的时间和心血或许换回来的不是等值的东西。。
当没有后退的路了，就必须往前走。。
好，一定要走到终点，

哪怕一路伴随的会是一公升的眼泪。。。
加油！！！！

虽然这番话对自己说了好多次，但这一次还是要说

文君，继续坚持走下去！！

T.I.R.E.D

Looking at my TO BE DONE list which tagged in front of my study table,
wondering when can I clear the list.
I know well that it is not going to be clear as long as I am still being a RA.
It is a part of my job, my responsibility.

Today is Friday, my weekend is gone again.
I am tired, not just TODAY, is everyday.

What tears can tell you..

Tears can tell many things.
It tells you that she is down.
It tells you that she is worried.
It tells you that she is tension.

It tells you that she is NOT O.K. !!!

心。重

。重重的心。

使

。心重重的。

NSM 250310

I found u"

MY WAY . MYSELF

On this day,

this girl set a target for myself.

2 years later,

From a girl,

she becomes a BETTER girl.

两年后的今天。。

此刻，真的很疲惫，
但还有好多工作还没完成。。

忙 = 心 亡

这是自己此刻的心情，
忙到心都“亡”了，没知觉了。。

希望两年后的今天，能很肯定地对自己说：
嗯。过去一切的努力，付出与牺牲，是值得的。。

对自己说：文君，加油。

an "OFFER" Day 211209

Supposed Pooh and JJ were planing to register for our master on last Monday yet we still had not get our offer letters. Since already out from home, we decided to hang out together.

First, we went for a movie, AVATAR, a movie which Pooh planned to watch desirely, written at her MSN PM -- Who wanna watch AVATAR with me!! It was definately a nice movie which worth to be watched at cinema. This was our 1st OFFER of the day as we watched it with student price. *grin*



While waiting for Pooh at library, JJ came across an advertisment stated SUSHI ZANMAI RM2 SUSHI PASSPORT for 4 persons. JJ's eyes were blinking. Hence, We went for our 2nd OFFER of the day. We had this promotion japanese meal as our lunch at their Lowyat outlet. The sushi somehow were bigger in size than usual and all the ingredients were fresh, juicy and of course tasty. We guessed probably we were a bit too early (stepped in the restaurant when they just opened), thus the chief generously served us with the big bulky sushi. Be the early bird sometimes may have some special offers. "grin* Beside the promotion sushi, we also ordered 2 main courses, tsukimi soba (the only main course which Pooh will order when she is dining at Sushi Zanmai) and chicken curry rice (JJ had a sudden crave for japanese rice and thick japanese curry gravy).



After the movie, Pooh was craving for Secret Recipe's walnut chocolate brownies. So, we walked to the Bukit Bintang outlet to have our tea-break. The 3rd OFFER of the day was the free tea for every piece of cake ordered from the restaurant. Needless to say, Pooh picked the walnut chocolate brownies (in fact, Pooh wished to have vanila ice-cream topping too but it was not available, too bad) while JJ opted for Durian Cheesecake as JJ heard lot of compliments from friends about this cake. Indeed, both brownies and cheesecake were awesome, absolutely melted our hearts.

Again, JJ used up all the available calories quota, had to work out hard for today's input.

de Date of 6A1 Girls with Italianniese

"Girls, do you all wanna have dinner together at the vegetarian bak kut teh?" asked Xiao Wen and Yuk Mey when they were coming back from outside.

"I just tried it with JJ that day. I guessed I don't wanna join u guys." answered Xiao Chuan promptly.

"Same as me. How about we go for other restaurant? How about ITALIANNIESE? They are having promotion now. RM27.90 for 2 meal courses. Do you guys wanna try? I can be the driver. Just learnt the route to Sunway Pyramid from my friend that day. I guess I able to get to there." suggested by me who so-called food-seeker among them.

"Good idea. We never go out together before. This is a good chance for us. We can have an advance 2010 countdown celebration as well. Excited!!" the girls buy my suggestion.

"I change my plan. I will follow you guys for Italianniese." Again, Xiao Chuan had given her decision instantly.

"Great. Let's take bath and be prepared for outing. Go! Go! Go! girls." Entering the bathroom after grabing a shirt and pants from my woreboard.

Followed the map drew by friend, we reached our destination in 45 minutes time without trapping in serious traffic jam. Thank god.

Here we are : Italianniese @ Sunway Pyramid

We ordered 3 sets of the promotion meals which consisted of 3 appertisers and 3 main courses plus 2 desserts.

Italian Clams Soup was the 1st food served to us. It was a light soup prepared from fresh clams with slightly sour taste came from diced tomatoes, it certainly boosted up our appetite for the next food.

Followed by Toasted Bruschetta. A appertizer which comprised of crunchy homemade Tuscan bread topped with marinated tomatoes, pesto sauces and parmesan cheese. All of us hearted this much.


Pizza Caprese was the 3rd appertizer we had. Thin crust pizza topped with buffalo mozzarella cheese, tomatoes, red onions and basil. Dip with the sauce made of vineger and olive oil, the pizza even tasted nicer.

After finishing our appertizers, we were served with our 1st main course Shrimps linguine. A reddish meal consisted of fresh succulent sauteed shrimps served with marinara sauce. This was another meal which gained our liking.

Coming up next with Roasted Chicken with Balsamic Glaze. A quarter of oven-baked herbed roasted chicken glazed with Balsamic plus some fried (to be spesific, should be over-fried) rosemary wedges and garlic butter broccoli. Priscilla and I liked this aromatic chicken. It goes well with the sweet sourish black sauce served.

The 3rd main course meal was the Pan Fried Fish with Angel Hair. Angel hair pasta served with lightly battered pan-fried Dory fish in lemon capers sauce. Frankly, this meal was not as good as the other 2 main course meals as it was a bit too dry and tasteless for the pasta but well-done pan-fried fish managed to get some points for this meal.

Filling up half-full of our stomach, we left some spaces for our desserts. NY Strawberry Cheesecake. New York-style cheesecake served on a bed of strawberry sauce. No doubt, all of us fall in love with this velvety-textured light sweet cheesecake. Grace made the right choice.

Last but not least, we ended up our meal with another dessert, Tiramisu, the specialty of the restaurant. Lady finger cookies dipped iin liqueur and espresso coffee with layers of creamy mascarpone icing and topped with dark chocolate powder. After everyone had a bite of it, we felt that we were at the heaven. Awesome.

The best ingredient for an enjoyable evening is some company to share good food with. This is the 1st sentence written on their official website. Indeed, sharing is always a joy. The more companions, the merrier. This was the 1st time I had dinner together with my other 5 housemates (still lack of Yoon Hooi). Thanks Priscilla, Grace, Xiao Wen, Yuk Mey and Xiao Chuan for giving me a wonderful dinner.

"Girls, to be honest, i just know the route to Sunway but i dunno the way back." Still not familiar with KL routes. My solution is always the same -- follow the signboard but Malaysia signboard can't be trusted 100%.

"Nevermind. I have GPS." Xiao Chuan was starting up her HP and an usual phrase we heard -- WE ARE CALCULATING.

Inevitably, we lost direction again but I always bear a phrase in my mind -- In KL, as long as you have money, have petrol, you sure can reach your destination at the end. Hence, i got back to the right track after circulating for 15 minutes (i guessed i were somewhere near KL Sentral area) and we reached home SAFELY (almost hit by a car while we were at Bulatan Pahang). HUUuuu.. it was so close. Thank God.

Part-time week (2): Mydin Mall, MITC Melacca

A day after back from Chembong, JJ packed up to Melacca for the 2nd part-time job.

This time, JJ targeted group was kiddies.


Giving advise to parents regarding to children eating practise is much difficult than advising adults to practise healthy eating habit. From these 3 days event, JJ found out that JJ has to read more on children eating habit. In fact, it is something related to JJ current research project. *grin*


Hmm.. some experiences JJ gained from these 3 days event..

Wonder why most of the Malay parents asked their children to call us as "AUNTY" rather than "KAKAK". Are we look that old?

Obedient child is an angel but hyper-active child is a demon.

Giving birth a child is not as hard as rearing and educating the child. It needs lots of love, care, patience and MONEY. Think properly before you intend to start this "investment". *grin*

Thanks to Adrian, Pei Ling, Ling Ling and Sweety. Specially thanks to Sweety for the flower balloons and the compliments. "Girl, u are so nice. I like your sweet smile." *grin*

Part-time week (1): Nestle Factory, Chembong

Last week can be considered as JJ's part-time week.

Worked as nutritionist advisor for 2 part-time jobs.

The 1st job was at Chembong, a small town at Negeri Sembilan.

It was the first time JJ visited to NESTLE factory.

Hmm.. The experiences JJ gained from this job:

1. JJ's BM showed improvement. Yeap. Practise make perfect. *Grin*


2. The most common phrase JJ heard from the workers : "Makan nasi akan gemuk. Saya tak makan nasi. Saya hanya makan roti."


3. After JJ had lunch at the factory canteen for 3 days, JJ finally found out the reason why JJ don't like Malay food much. 3 words to describe the food served at the canteen : Yellow, Red, Oil.

Thanks to Encik Din and Madam Vitjaya for their help in arranging the event. Thanks to all the workers for joining the event and giving JJ a chance to practise the knowledge that JJ has learnt. Specially thanks to Encik Din for helping us to buy the nestle products with 20% discount price and providing us bountiful of Milo wafers, Kitkats, Smarties, Milo nuggets, Nestle ice-creams as snacks.

@-B.R.E.A.K

071109 Saturday

JJ woke up at 7a.m. and started to edit the enumerator briefing powerpoint.
Hmm .. tik tuck.tik tuck. without realizing, it was 12 p.m.
It was the time for JJ to stop her work (even though not complete yet) and prepare to hang out.
de 1st station. Time Square.
An incidence happened in the monorail on the way JJ heading to Time Square.
A lady scolded loud and fiercely to an INDONESIA guy who were trying to take advantage of her (according to the lady).
However, personally, JJ thinks that this lady had prejudice on the INDONESIAN.
Anyway, it didn't spoilt JJ's mood of wanting to hang around.
As usual, JJ stepped into the bakery shop which located near to the exit of the monorail station.
Had a glance on those delicate breads and cakes.
Then, JJ went to SASA and bought some eye-pads and eye-masks.
No doubt JJ needed them much.
JJ eyes were like PANDA since didn't sleep for 3 days.
Then, JJ met up with friend to have lunch together.
We had chosen Sweet Chat restaurant as we wanted (actually was JJ who wanted) to watch the i-FEEL girl search competition on the opposite stage.
Delicious foods plus pretty girls, JJ guessed it would be more appealing, (for guys, it is for sure. grin)
JJ ordered a set meal for herself.
JJ went for Cheese N Mac, gingko fungus sweet dessert and peach punch.
JJ missed cheese much. Yum Yum..

JJ wanted to go to THE CURVE and IKEA long time ago.

and finally JJ wishes came true.

de 2nd station. CINEMAX.

We planned to watch a movie.

Thus, we went to CINEMAX (not sure the name of the complex) to buy our ticket.

There were many options and was hard to make decision since JJ was alright with all the available options.

We ended up picked CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS.

Movie would be started on 5.45pm and we had an 1 hour free time.

Therefore, we decided to walk to THE CURVE and wander around that area.

de 3rd station. THE CURVE.

A special restaurant caught our attention.

"Let's go in to have a look."

Whoa.. The restaurant was like a market and it was divided into several stations, eg: salad bar, dessert, pasta, coffee and tea, fresh fruit juice, etc.

At each station, there were several counters with all the cooking ingredients and materials displayed in front of the counters.

In each counter, there were 2 or 3 chefs standing there to prepare the food you order.

After visited all the stations, we decided to order coffee and dessert since both of us still felt full with the lunch.

We filled up our tummy with sweet fruity crepe in hazelnut-chocolate sauce.

For the coffee option, JJ ordered cold latte with hazelnut (actually it is noting related to JJ's name, just coincident. grin) while friend ordered cold latte with macadamia.

The portion of the crepe was just nice for 2 persons. (Sharing is always a joy. grin)

Sweet-tooth JJ like the crepe.

The movie was about 1 hour 15 minutes.

JJ was impressed with the creativity of the author.

Obtained some messages after watching the movie.

JJ was enjoyed with the movie. (is because it is related to food?? not really because of this. grin)
The main reason is because JJ felt relax when watching the movie totally forgot about all the work.

Raining dizzily when we came out from the cinema.
"I still think of want to have another cup of coffee. How about you?"

Hmm.. The cold wheather had made JJ felt wanted to have a cup of coffee too.

Hence, again we had our 2nd round of coffee.

It was absolutely heavenly good when served the coffee together with a piece of cake at the same time listen to the oddies.

Totally a great indulgence.

The singer had an angel voice.

Ice-blended mocha, ice-blended cuppoccino, opera, tiramisu.

Frankly, the coffee were not as good as those from STARBUCK or COFFEE BEANS.

The cake, especially the tiramisu, was disappointing.

It tasted weird and its texture was a bit too hard.

Anyway, JJ still finished it up as we shouldn't waste food. (one of the moral of the story got from the movie, grin)

Full.Full.Full.

JJ was too stuffed, Hmm.. must do some exercise.

So, we went to IKEA to have our "brisk walking".

de 4th station. IKANO

Same as others, JJ also love all the IKEA displays.

Hmm.. JJ future dream house.

At first, JJ planned to buy a shelf but ended up JJ just bought a soft black pillow.

Needed it as JJ chair cushion since JJ spent most of the time sitting and facing laptop.

It almost reached the end of the day.

JJ had a great day.

Really really thank to TS for asking me out and bringing JJ to the all of these places. (because JJ wanted to learn the route so that next time JJ can go alone)

Thank you Thank you Thank you.

Thank you very much.

p/s" the world sometimes is indeed small..

JJ is back..

It is quite some time JJ din write some words in her blog..

So what had JJ done for this period..

Hmm..

Let her think back..

Basically JJ life for past two weeks was as follow:

Morning had meeting untill the evening..

Back to home around 6-7 pm..

Had a simple dinner, mostly bread or veg soup..

then started to face in front of the laptop and type out questionnaires..

On the other day had meeting or discussion again..

Back home at the evening..

Quickly took bath and had dinner..

Started staring the laptop screen till the mid-morning..

Or else..

Drove here and there..

Picked up the photostate stuffs..

Pack the stuffs into envelop..

Typed out instructions..

Prepared powerpoint..

Designed templates..

Gave briefing..

..No days and nights..

But today..

JJ have made promise to herself..

Have a small break..

..Let's KIT KAT..

haha

She needs some rest..

Going to hang out later.. YEAH !!

Put aside all the works 1st..

To be continued later..

de whole day..

Woke up as early as 5am in the morning.

Began my wonderful wednesday with 2 pieces of french breads and a cup of nescafe as my breakfast.

Watched a funny video clip titled "卫生棉洗餐具"uploaded in fb while bitting my favorite french bread.

Had a great laugh while listening to the silly dialogues spoke by the character, Ah Gui.


Once finishing my breakfast, was the time for me to start my work.

Faced to tonne of papers on my table.

My desktop was full of folders until they hid up my background photo.

My friend's face was totally covered up by all these dis-organized folders (so sorry to you, lydia.)

It was the time for me to clean up all the folders and bind up all the papers into files.

Started my cleaning process at 6am and the whole process took about 7 hours to 80% complete.

Anyway, i still hv a big bag of papers which have to be distributed to all corresponding lecturers and i am supposed the job have to be continued tomorrow since i had a meeting on 3pm.


Had to prepare myself for attending a meeting at PJ.

Dressed up myself formerly then walked to the nearby stationary shop to photostate the questionnaires which will be used on the friday meeting.

Lazy to walk to a further shop because i didn't want myself to sweat alot under the hot sun.

Afterthat, walked to faculty to get my supervisor signature for some letters and faxed them to corresponding receiver.

Once everything was settled, back to vistana again together with WeiWen.

We were heading towards PJ 32Square, the Crest.

I went to this area before yet i didn't memorized the route.
Hence, didn't care so much, i just drove to the destination according to WeiWen's instructions (some descriptions he copied from internet to reach the place), signboards and my sense.


WeiWen had no idea on the direction, "Wrong liao. find ways to U-Turn. Where are we now? We are suppose go to Lebuhraya Mahameru. Where is SS19/1? Where is Sit Chew Jit Poh office?"

He was worried about the petrol volume and double-confirm with me, "You sure you have enough petrol to reach the place, right?"

He asked me to slow down my speed, "Hey, slow down a bit. You drive too fast liao until i am not able to read the signboard."

He was frightened by my reckless driving skill, "Walao, you just U-turn like this." (this made me remember my recent melaka trip with C.I.R.C.L.E)

I just remember the phrase i kept on mentioning during the journey, "WeiWen, please tell me which lane i suppose to stay with, left or right? WeiWen, here means left or right? this is a folk road lei. WeiWen, you are saying left but you are pointing right-hand side lei, so should be left or right?"


Obviously, we were totally kelam-kabut.

Anyway, we managed to reach our destination on time, mission 50% completed while we reached, "WeiWen, i totally have no idea about the route to go back to vistana from here."

WeiWen scratched his head and said, "alamak, i just copied the route from Bulatan Pahang to Pj, i didn't search the route to back to KL again."


Had a great meeting with the project sponsors.

Surprised when Prof Paul showed my course-night photo (i think the photo was taken 2 years ago, sign time passed so fast) in his slide while he was introducing me. "Nice photo without the spect." (i am certained that i totally look different with spect and without spect, even the staff at the jabatan also couldn't recognize me and told me that it had been sometime she didn't meet me, in fact i just spoke to her face-to-face a day ago, sign")

So do WeiWen's and Shwu Chen's photo, the moral of the story is don't simply upload photo to website, especially FB.


"Great Success to you, Boon Koon." said by Prof Paul.
In the bottom of my heart, i know well that i will be facing a lot of challenges and obstacles in these two years, hopefully i can overcome all of these. "all the best to myself."

After finished the meeting, we had dinner at Bangkok House.

A very warmth treat from the sponsor, ordered a variety of Thai food for us, (personally, i think the amount of the food was too much, 2 plates of each dish was just nice, 3 plates was too much, wasting, took away some for Shwu Chen who was sick and my housemates, since nobody wanted the packed food.)

Besides, all of us were given a big hamper of Dutch Lady products.

WeiWen's great words : "We need to pay off this in double. The bigger the reward we gain, the greater hard work we have to contribute, our project is not an easy job. There is no free lunch in this world"

Agreed with WeiWen.


On the way back to Setapak.

Once again, WeiWen was "impressed" with my driving technique.

A frequent phrase he spoke in the whole day, "Well, it is fine. I am going to get used it."

Thanks WeiWen, our mission was 100% completed.

There are other mission awaiting for us.

Hope we can co-operate well.


Jin's words to myself: 3C to acheive 1C (Confidence+Calm+Cheer=Complete)

压力

此刻，真的觉得很压力。。
手头上的工作，好像怎么做都做不完。。
工作量繁多，其实我真的觉得还好。。
我不介意须要比别人做的多，不介意牺牲睡眠。。
Paper work 。。慢慢做，一定做的完。。

最让我喘不过气来的是人事关系。。
我真的不想当“阿头”。。
我的肩膀没这么“硬正”。。
我的背也没后盾为我挡箭。。
有时候，真的不懂要如何分配才能顺得A君来，也没得罪B君。。
如果不是“阿头”， 我只要做好本份就可以了， 很多东西可以置身事外。。
如果可以做到不闻不问，不负责任，懒得理。。
我想此刻的我应该不会觉得这么压力吧。。

能不能让退到我幕后。。
我不想做幕前的“阿头”。。
文琪，如果有你在，那就好了。。
你“宠惯”我了，幕前每次都有你扎Fit，我习惯在幕后会搞定一切。。
好怀念和你一起“作战”的日子。。

是时候冲凉了。。
不想了。。
头脑真的很累了。。

when i am pik-chek''ing

Below are the things i will do when i feel pik-chek'ing..

1. Tied up my hair (obvious sign as i reali reali seldom tie up my hair..)
2. Eat spicy food or food which i seldom eat (kari, fried chicken, sambal..)
3. Open the music loud loud (until the ceiling is going to lump down..)
4. Scraping (exactly what i am doing now..)
5. Cooking (agar-agar, jelly, tong shui..)
6. Chatting (but i prefer be listener, listen to other people stories..)

Jin's Weekly Diary of ISAK workshop

ISAK workshop was held form 17 till 19 August 2009 at ISN. Within these 3 days, I listened to some lectures and learnt some basic techniques of skin-fold measurement. Dr Masaharu Kagawa was our invited Japanese speaker. He is a nice and easy-going person. He loves to chat. He shared his story with me during our journey from hotel to ISN and from ISN back to hotel.

On the last day, I sat for an exam which cost RM1500. I was so worried that I might fail the exam. In fact, I was not performing well during the exam as well. Unexpectedly, I passed the exam. Thank god. Thank to Mr Masa’s explanations. Thank to my lovely housemates and juniors for becoming my subject to let me do my practice.

Mr Don. The famous Mr skeleton in ISN.

What is the thickness of my fat ?? I was being pinched for the 3 days. Until now, the lumps on my calf and thigh were still there.

WenQi. She is being paid RM100 as a subject to let 16 persons pinched her skin from 11am until 5pm.

Fafa, Jin, Eni, Miki. We all passed. ISN BOLEH!! UKM pun BOLEH!!

The ISAK Team. With my lovely lecturers, course-mates and ISN staffs.

ISN Athletes Cafeteria food. Healthy cooking style, creative menu, delicious taste. I missed the nutty cake, the bread pudding, the baked potato, the fish fillet. Yummy!!

On the last day, we had dinner at Seri Melayu. We enjoyed our local famous Malay cuisine. Some of the nice food I tried were lodeh, durian pengat, ayam masak merah, redang, nasi minyak, sup tulang, etc. All were heavenly good.

My Bulky left hand. The condition of my left palm was not as worse as the next morning when i woke up and realized that my other fingers could not move at all.

Supposed I was happy that I managed to pass my exam. However, I was upset because my hand was bended accidentally during the workshop. Luckily, it was my left hand but anyway I do feel inconvenient whenever needed to handle stuffs with both hands. I faced difficulty in tearing a paper, typing an-email, wearing shirt buttons, taking my hand-phone out from my pocket, opening my water bottle, pushing the car gear, turning the car stearing, etc. I paid for the consequences if being careless.

Jin's Weekly Diary of MASO 2009 Scientific Conference

MASO 2009 Scientific Conference was held at Seri Pasific Hotel on 12 and 13 August 2009.

I was glad to be one of the organizing committees involved in the scientific booklet, the poster board and the registeration counter.

No doubt, i also had a chance to indulge in various type of food and satisfy tummy with yummy dessert. Until now, the sweet taste and smooth texture of Creme Brulee was still trickling my taste-buds whenever i was thinking about it. The lightly tempting vege dishes were vivid in my memory.

It was indeed my pleasure to work together with you guys.

MASO BOLEH!!