will i?

exams are finally over. It was bad. But the worse will be next sem, the first week. I can foresee it will be a depressing week. This exams did not turn out like i wished it would. I tried my best, but i guess sometimes your best isnt enough. Somehow, i wonder if i will ever graduate from IB? sigh.

2 down

i miss i got raped.. by chemistry and physics.

Just done with my physics paper this morning, and chemistry yesterday.

Wouldnt say its tough la.. ok maybe it is.. but part of it my fault la. Study last minute. So whatever my results is, i will be happy la i guess. No complaints.

I will repent next semester. I swear.. OK im going to relax now.. and gossip. Tonight i will start with my maths. PHEW!

exams have changed me. I am more horny now. seriously.. lol. =))) been hanging around the study group alot.. with ayie, fiz, k-man, and danny. pretty fun.. very educational.

We share every single bit of knowledge we know.. and have fun in between. With maybe a little bit of cheekiness.

I miss my study group already! haha!

oklah, gota do some stuffs. take care everyone! =)

hello!

HI! =) im back!

been pretty busy with studies and college stuffs. wait, i have been VERY busy in actual fact.

Tomorrow my schedule is pretty relaxing, hence me blogging here. =) but i came online/on my laptop to complete my physics lab report! =) which thankfully, is done. My last lab report for this semester! hehe!

Then tomorrow afternoon will be clearance.. and we can have a 4-day break, for Hari Raya Haji. Had my physics test today, which totally sucked. i did OHKAY.. but could have done better IF i memorized the formulas!

well anyway, thats the past. =) kinda happy that the semester is ending! hehe!

oh yeahhh.. will be in KL from Thursday till Saturday. Putting up 2 nights in Boulevard Hotel, opposite Mid Valley Shopping Centre! =))))))))

but pause, right after this 4 days break will be semester exams, which is a MAJOR exam actually. =)

but skip that part. In less than 48 hours i will be in the hotel room, or perhaps in the cineplex.. pampering myself. Having a nice hot shower. Going in and out of mid valley like its my house.. and last but not least, sitting in Borders the whole day, reading! YEAH!

and and i can go swimming all day long!

oh, before i continue, here is a picture of my Individual Oral Presentation (IOP) group. We did a talk show in Malay! and i was the host! how cool is THAT? =P

where was i? oh yes.. the next 4 days will be relaxing.. but stressful.

i will be shopping for books and clothes! need a prom dress for elynn suah will be going to a prom on 20th december!! =)

haha WOW this post is so positive isnt it? you wont get this positive feeling in a long time, i bet you. =)

alright lah, i need to print my report and start my engines already.

cheers to a long productive night!

take care everyone!

and this is my class picture. spot any hot guys? =) contact me. hehe! =P

toodles!

exams

ok exams are near. 2 weeks. ='( im so stressed up. i think its not fair for the year 2's to tell us that this is only Sem 1.. coz i believe there are some year 1's who are busier than them. pfft. damn IB. damn KMB.

pfft

im in the hall now.. hearing to some man.guy talking.. supposingly 'motivational' all i need is time to study in my room.. not here! =/

dirt.

i feel like dirt.

1. DONT ever force me to wear LONG SLEEVES if there is an option.

2. RESPECT my religion and beliefs.

3. The food here very unhealthy.. and fattening. And it does not suit my appetite/way of living.. can specially request ah? Samuel? Tesla? PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i hope i can go through this 2 years.. i hope i dont DIE in KMB. no, seriously, this is no shit.

ranting.

Let me rant. PLEASE.

1. Get me out of here.

2. Why am i being treated like a small kid? Telling me what to wear and what not to wear? Telling me who should i mix with and who not to?

3. Why cant people here just RESPECT my beliefs and religion? ARGH!

4. i HATE JPAM. fuck JPAM. all we do is run, run, run, berbaris, etc. stupid activity. Stupid MARA. as IF i dont have anything better to do. I NEED MY SLEEP! and TIME!! =/

5. People here dont watch Russell Peters!!! !@#$%

6. Im SOOOOOOOOOOOOO not myself here! damnit.

7. i want me freedom.

PERIOD. i cant go on. too many stuffs. got meeting now. ARGH.. meetings non stop. get me out of here im dying!

sometimes.

sometimes..

i just WISH im not under a scholarship.

get me away from here, im dying.

sundays

yeah, sundays.

well, its monday already actually.

congrats elynn. you still have 6 hours to complete your assignments.

get me out of here! soon! =(

huugahhhhhhhh

what a title. haha

I stayed in KMB over the weekends. And tis sunday today. =(

A busy week ahead, i anticipate.

With the 1 Earth event, sports carnival (tho i heard its postponed) and more catching up in studies. im not kiasu. i seriously dont understand a single thing my physics teacher is saying.. lol.

its now 2.20 pm.. and i havent taken my bath! yayayaya i know im smelly. who cares la.. im in KMB. u can get all sorts of people in KMB!

hehe. i feel like shopping NOW. like, in KL and Penang.

Friends, anyone wana make a trip to Penang for a few days? but i dont even think im free in december. =(

sedih la!

time time time

time oh time..

I'm in my Malay A1 class now.. these few days i only online in class.. because if i do it in my room, i can online for hours. Oh great, my typing skills also karat-ed already.

For now, i feel like time is really against me. Lab reports, presentations, assignments, and extra work to be done in such a short period of time. Slept at 3am last night, and woke up at 7am. I can foresee this going on for the next few days! =(

Furthermore, theres the KMB Sports Carnival coming up soon.. and the 1 Earth organized by the Interactive Peers. And im involved in both! *pengsan*

But with a bit more perseverance, i can make it. GAH.. plus semester exams are around the corner.. i seriously SERIOUSLY am kinda stressed up.

oh well, i can. =)

p/s : i miss home, and i craveeeeeee for all kinds of food that i can NEVER get in KMB! argh!

oh yeah, i actually think sex education should be introduced. Come on Malaysians, its a normal thing! Be open minded.. i think Malaysians need sex education, and to be less conservative. =) click here.

alrite, back to work.. SIGH. oh wait, i mean, YAY! haha

ugh

someone irritates me.

my own group member.

because we need to organize this event together, i wont say much. i shall be patient..

in KMB, im not the real me.. except in front of a few people..

i dont show my capability.. i dont know why.

so people, anyone, read this : DO NOT LOOK DOWN ON ME. and please dont think u people know more than me.. sometimes i pretend i dont know some stuffs.. and i have to say, some people in KMB are very ego, and big headed..

sometimes i hate being here, but i have no choice.

bless me.. give me the patience to carry on for another one and a half years.. thats all i need..

=)

korkor just graduated! YAY!!

so happy! =) so proud of him.. and i cant wait till mine! in KMB of course.. and then overseas. hehe!

congrats kor! =)

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im now in KMB.. its 2pm.. and i wish time would just STOP..

i am now more.. motivated. i finally know what i want, and what i should do.

thanks people, for your trust. i wont disappoint you.

in an unrelated case, i think the world is ending soon. Im not superstitious or anything, but the Mayans who created our calendar, they stopped it in 2012.. 21st December 2012 to be exact. and so far, all their predictions or events are true.

According to Islam, the world will end on a friday. People, check your calendar, what day does 21st December 2012 fall on?

if its really true, then i am totally confused. i want to be with my family when the world ends. But IF i can fly, i will be in UK then. =(

well, i for now, i live everyday as if its the last. =) and seriously, i feel more productive!

ok lar, wana go mandi now, then makan and do work. =)

good day people.

battle field

i have to stay in over the weekends.. coz KMB will be having this team building programme from 7.30am till 6.45pm on saturday.

i am freaking frustrated. you are wasting my time.. i dont need team building.

i need TIME.. and peace.. without activities to complete my work.

fuck.

oh it felt so good.

fuck.

fuck. fuck.

ok. im going to EAT now coz it makes me less frustrated.

back in action!

first of all, thousand apologies to all whom i have not linked you. will do it soon.. hehe

anyway im back in KMB. i was back yesterday actually.. and i enjoyed being alone in my room for 24 hours.. ONLY. oh well.. nvm.

i was back as a volunteer for the merdeka celebration. i do not regret volunteering. =)

for those of you who knows the old time singer Roy, yeah..he is the one who sings lots of patriotic songs.. Roy was here this morning to entertain us.. =)

i want more holidays. i dont need them but i want them. but i also hate holidays coz i will initially be super duper enthusiastic abt catching up with studies.. but the semangat dies off VERY FAST.

the thing is, at home, i have NO idea what im supposed to do.. at least in KMB i know which subject i need to touch on and all.. plus at home theres too much temptations.. car, friends, cineplex, air-cond, good food, my kitchen, shopping complexes, etc. AND i am pampered at home! haha how sweet.. hehe!

so now im back in KMB.. i still have tomorrow before class starts.. i shall use the time i have wisely, for IB is NO JOKE. =)

good luck to me, and to all of you out there. *hugs and kisses*

time flies

its already saturday. Im going back to kmb tmr.. i actually miss that small comfy room of mine.. haha! and of course my classmates and friends.. but heck i got much to pack.. and i still have some work not done. ARGH.. ok elynn.. CHANGE for the better now. =)

..

oh, and i just fell in love with michael jackson all over again!

ahh..

=)

*laughs*

so i went to the cineplex.. it was either Final Destination at 10.05pm or Tsunami at 10.10pm.

Fearing that i might be home late, i chose Final Destination..

guess what..

after 15 minutes of the movie i decided to leave the cineplex.

laugh all you want. its freaking eerie ok! but credits to the graphics designer and all for that movie. you scared the hell outa me. haha!

=)

i FINALLY got to drive alone!

after passing for 10 months!!

i dare to say, im actually quite a good driver. hahaha! 10 months of driving under parents' supervision. sure la i hebat right? haha!

i baked, again. but my orang cake abit dry, and hard.. but not as bad as the first time.

i actually think baking is a good practice. it's like life.. you must TRY.. if you fail, try again! =)

my orange cake will jadi, one day. hehe!

and GLADLY.. my cream cheese icing turned out well! yay! hahahaha!

alrite wana sleep now. =)

nites!

hi. =)

hi.
=)


bye.
=)


haha. i NEED to study. like, right now.
i dont understand maths!! ARGH.

determination.

when i was in form 5, i was LAZY.

seriously my work were all last minute.

But i had my ways to motivate myself..

I would picture myself on the day of the results:

Would it be tears of joy or tears of sorrow?
Will my parents smile and feel proud or would they feel disappointed?
Will they speak words of happiness, or would they be whispering words of comfort to me?
Will they be proud and happy when people ask them my results, or would they try to avoid that question?
Will I be locking myself in my room, ashamed of myself, or will i be enjoying my days without any worries?
Will i REGRET not paying attention in class and completing my work?
Will i disappoint the teachers who had my back or will i give the chance to those who were not in favour of me to say "TOLD YA!!"?
Will my parent's money and effort of sending my up and down to tuitions, far and near be worth it?

yes. i imagined stuffs. I imagined my reaction. Sometimes i feel so encouraged by the thoughts that i wouldnt sleep all night..

and i still remember my reaction when the results were out. I did not feel anything when the teacher told me, i even doubted him. my 'papa'. =)

until my form teacher gave our slips to us, then we screamed. But there were no tears from any four of us. I was happy, i was speechless.

i called my mum, but before i could tell her my results, i cried. I CRIED. knowing that i made my parents proud, that all my efforts were worth it, that i did not disappoint anyone, that i went beyond my imagination, because all i had in mind was straight A's, not straight A1's. But yes, i did it. All my years of studying, struggling, i did it. my finale of my high school life.. was perfect.

i was of course happy for my other friends too, coz they did very VERY well. =)

and when i was in school to collect my 'best student' award, i know my parents felt proud. At last, my teachers can see the proud parents, mr and mrs suah. At last, they will know the faces of the two individuals who brought up their children well, without any nagging, scolding, and with the freedom to make our own decisions after they explained the pros and cons of doing certain things. Even though we didnt get a picture of them and myself on stage, i KNOW, just KNOW, they were proud, and still are.

and i remember the day JPA results were out, I was so afraid that this time, i might have lost the battle because I talk too much (during the interview). I was afraid to face the results, i was afraid to check. Though my parents said its out of my control and it doesnt matter if i dont get it, i knew they would be disappointed if i failed to grab that scholarship. However thanks to lim zihan, I finally had to courage to face the results. and yes, we all know whats the results. =)

it was during wesak eve. and i CRIED. as i prayed and chanted to welcome wesak dawn, as i looked at the Buddha image in the shrine hall, i cried. Knowing once again, i did it. i never thought i would come this far, that i would make my parents proud again. but yes, elynn suah did it.

i will ALWAYS remember what i felt on those three occasions. because it makes me feel so precious, so motivated, and knowing that no effort goes unpaid.

and that feeling will motivate me. I want to feel that way again. I want my parents to feel that way again, and again, as many times as i can.

I want 45. i want at least 40 for sem exams.

YES. i have wasted 2 months here in KMB. i have been playful. But this is a promise to myself, i wont take this lightly. this is my future. i will fly. i will obtain 45, and this time, my parents will be beside me when i check my results. i need tears of joy.

YES.. YES. i have that picture in mind.

i will fly. i will board the plane, and i will land in the oh-so-familiar airport i visited 11 years ago. I will make sure my parents and my family will fly too, fly to the land we once lived and visited. YES. YES. i will.

with enough inspiration, motivation, and encouragement from the people around me, i can.

i am determined. and i will do it. watch me.

sahur

haha. sahur?

im not fasting dont worry. but in 10 mins the dewan selera will be packed with people coz they will be sahur-ing. but im still awake.

WHY?

coz i drank nescafe.

people around me seem to be studying. but im not.

im having Maths test and Chemistry test plus i gota complete 2 physics lab report and 1 chemistry lab report.. but tomorrow?

but im still so relax.

and again, i shud ask myself this question :

OMG ELYNN!!!!!!!!! WHAT IN THE WORLD IS toot-ing WRONG WITH YOUU???

good night. oh, i mean good morning.






p/s: its 3.50am now..

confusion.

have you ever felt confused?

feeling happy at one moment, and the next, you feel sad.

the next moment, you feel guilty.

the point is, you feel numb. and have no idea what you are supposed to feel.

i feel that now.

back in college.

hello!



I came back to college yesterday. =)

I had a nice day today. Classes were fun, the weather is oh so nice and cooling.

But one thing is bothering me..

My roommate can NEVER seem to stop doing her work. I came back form lunch and there she is with her laptop on, reading physics/maths questions. And now she is doing maths/physics while i blog, play word challenge, and HOPEFULLY type my english essay.

And i feel like sleeping now. I cant stand seeing numbers. And SHE can do it 24 hours.

Oh people. HELP ME! is it me? or her? which one of us is abnormal? tell me.. before i go crazy and you will see me doing maths/physics/etc 24 hours. =)

ok. im going to sleep. i can study later. haha. typical of elynn suah. LOL.

oh to andy mau.. sorry i didnt read your blog post till yesterday night.. i would have visited u in hospital if i read abt it earlier! anyway TAKE CARE and get well soon!! =)

nightmare.

i had the WORST nightmare!

i dreamt that ...

FOS was closing down in Dataran.

=)

good night everyone! haha

holidays.

OK this is a delayed post. Friday i came back home.. went out for dinner, sleep.

Saturday, woke up late. Man came to fix filter, so i managed to bathe before the water supply was cut off. Suddenly mr lim zihan called, ask to keluar at 2pm. i no transport la dei! haha! anyway ross said he could fetch me so YEAH! =)

before 2.30pm, ross reached my house. nasib baik i was ready early hehe! ross fetched me in his cute volkswagen! the car is older than me.. 1963 car, not bad!! very cute, not hot, powerful, and the best part is, no seat belts! haha!

Reached mahkota, waited for that mr lim. when he FINALLY arrived, we decided on a round of bowling. and i SWEAR that was my 2nd time playing in my entire 18 years of living!! haha!

our smelly socks lol

it was weird la the game.. haha my first few bowls masuk longkang.. and zihan was so sweet that he said "longkang too big.. tsk tsk" LOL.

Anyway there was once.. i was swinging my hand behind.. u know, just before i release the ball, then while i was swinging it behind, i dropped the ball. YES. SHY!!!!!!! lucky zihan managed to stop the ball before it rolled somewhere else. haha so shy!!!!!

anyway this is the results :

i SWEAR it was my second time! hehe! anyway i had fun lol. i wana go bowling again this weekend! hahahaha!



after bowling, we went to big apple doughnuts to eat. each one 4 doughnuts. DAMN KENYANG!! but sungguh sedap hingga menjilat tapak tangan. haha kidding!




and read this : right after that zihan said he wanted to eat something salty, so we went old town. EAT, again.

zihan belanja-ed us. thats seldom. =) thanks zihan!! hehe!

ross then sent me home. thanks ross!!! hehe!

at night, went out with family to jusco.. and and and i tried this really nice dress which came in two colours :

and i got the black one! hehehehe! so happy!! =)

i FINALLY scratched my itch-shopping!! hehe!

ok la stop here ok? hehe! i sleepy d. nites!

p/s : ross and zihan, come go out together again soon ok? =D

=)

i slept LATE. 4am i think.

i watched True Blood at 1am. damnn Bill is so hot! and romantic!!

=)

woke up just before 9.30am and went to play squash with papa.

despite playing everyday in college, i still suck. ahh~ normal for elynn. lol.

its now 11.42am and im stuck here. litreally stuck. cant move my butt to the bathroom to bathe.

lunch is downstairs.

ahh~ i LOVE being home. =)

going seremban later!! hehe!

malas.

lazy to update. hehe! sorry!

the classic 3.

today i went out with ross and zihan!!

=) last minute plans also jadi eh.. hehe!

anyway i HAD SO MUCH FUN. =) so much catching up.. i miss those two la.. hehe!

update later.. going shopping now! again! =)

yay!

im going home today!!!!!!!!!! =))))

Bad Mood.

i have physics test tomorrow. which i havent started reading when my roommate stayed up sooooooooooo many nites to study.. and i JUST completed my physics lab report which has to be handed in tomorrow, coz we just got the news today. I still gota do my statistics, maths, alot sumore la..

but no matter how busy i am, i think having a few minutes for myself will be useful. Today is just full of crap.



THAT is an understatement. i wont only bite you.. i might swallow you and chew u up till nothing is left of you. YES, i know it sounds uncivillised, but im sure at one point in life you just WISH you can do that right?

People in KMB are judgemental. VERY. and kiasu. VERY. VERY VERY VERY! Why lar people? relax lar.. aiyoh!

Sincerely, i hate this place. No matter how i try to LOVE this place, i just cant. i dont know why.. if its the people, the environment, or whatever la. And im sick of the food here. Food court, dewan selera, even the food i have in my room! Sometimes i just give up on eating.. coz there is NOTHING which i can feed myself!! ARGH!

In a nutshell, im pretty pissed and frustrated now.. i can clench my teeth till it bleeds, i can knock my head on the wall.. and anything that will hurt less than the torture im suffering inside. yes, its THAT bad. all the happy things i have been saying, i dont mean it. it was self comforting.

But what can i do, i gota live with it right? Anyway thanks to shashi, i got to download Buddhist hymns! and im SO HAPPY! i have been in dying need of it to help my inner self.

for now, back to studying physics. Dammit, i have 7 hours to study and do lots of questions.

DAMMIT KMB-ians, im not BODOH ok! you people just wait.. after mid sem break, see WHO will be telling WHO which question is the killer.

ARGH! whats wrong with the people here??!! I dont even have freedom and privacy here..

*hides in a corner, cries*

Long Weekend

im having a long weekend! coz tomorrow is my college's graduation day.. YAY!

BUT.. i will be having Physics test on tuesday.

=) so today is sunday.. what have i been doing from friday till now?

online.
sleep. eat.
sleep.
sleep.
eat.
sleep. sleep AGAIN!

hahahahahaha. the weather is so nice la! keeps raining.. cant help but sleep!



ok larrr i go back to work. ARGH.

stress arrrrrrrr!

breakfast, class, and everything in between

im in class. =) they having islam.. and the teacher just talked abt air mani. haha thats interesting..

anyway.. breakfast is MY most important meal.

good breakfast = good day.

BUT since i came here.. i have had sucky breakfasts.. except once we had scrambled eggs with bread, which was a very small helping.. and another we had lontong! my fav! and i was full tht day coz the makcik let me take my lauk myself.

sigh.. i hate breakfasts here. i had to BUY 2 kuih for Rm1.10 this morning! thats CRAZY! im sooooooooooo broke! and my allowance is so little! sigh.. PLUS my food supply in my room will be finishing soon.. i need food. i was craving for char kuey teow yesterday morning that all of a sudden i sms-ed jacintha and said 'i am craving for char kuey teow'. so random!

i need food! good food! not rice.. not the fish in DS, not the food court food which is bloody expensive, and koperasi food too.. and NOT bread.. im DYING here dammit. serve western food la for god's sake!

grr and i NEED to wear something other than baju kurung and long pants!

*pengsan*

petani!

Elynn Suah sudah bertukar kursus dari kejuruteraan kepada pertanian!



BRAVO!!


sorry my BM karat.


=)

tagged.

Invited VIPS :-

Lee Pei Kin
Lim Zihan
Tay May Imm
Choulyin Tan
Andy Mau
Jocelyn Lum

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Nope.. as long as his heart is good looking. =)

2. Smart?
Doesnt really matter. how dumb can one be? haha

3. Preferred age?
erm.. my age plus minus one or two years.

4. Preferred height?
Taller than me.. i guess, hehe!

6. How about piercings?
nahhhhhhhhhhh

7. Accepts you for who you are?
of course. =)

8. Pink hair?
whoa.. nono.

9. Mushy or no?
at times yes at times no..

10. Thin or fat?
dont mind. =) but prefer if got petak sawah. hehe!

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
doesnt matter..im not a colourist. lol

12. Long hair or short hair?
short i guess.. hehe

13. Plastic or metal?
eh? i want a HUMAN not a robot!

14. Smells good?
haha of course laa

15. Smoker?
nono. =)

16. Drinker?
drink for fun maybe.. ok la.. NO.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
hmm yeah. =)

18. Sporty?
haha yeah.. but not also i dun mind. hehe!

19. Plays piano?
not important.. but extra credits la hehe!

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Not necessary.

21. Plays violin?
again, not necessary..

22. Sings very well?
as long he sings from the heart, its beautiful. =)

23. Vain?
whoa. depends. hehe!

24. With glasses?
dont mind.

25. With braces?
dont mind.

26. Shy type?
no.. not really.but if he is shy sometimes then it would be cute. hahahaha

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
a lil bit of both

28. Active or passive?
Active

29. Tight or bomb?
eh?

30. Singer or dancer?
both. hahahahhaa

31. stunner?
dont mind

32. Hiphop?
dont mind

33. Earrings?
eh? noooooooo

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girl(boy)friends-until-you-drop?

whoa.. nono. =)

35. Dimples?
not a MUST but extra credits for tht haha!

36. Bookworm?
wont mind. boleh study together. hahaha

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
=) why not? *hint*

38. Playful?
yeah.. when the time is right

39. Flirt?
hmm dont mind.

40. Poem writer?
erm i dun really know how to 'hayati' peoms but i guess it will be sweet.. hehe

41. Serious?
yeap

42. Campus crush?
nono. NO. im in KMB la dei!

43. Painter?
noo.. aiyoh why so many unnecessary questions wan?

44. Religious?
yes. YES.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
erm depends

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
neither

47. Speaks 20 languages?
WHOA. nice. =)

48. Loyal or faithful?
both la

49. good kisser
you dont need to know. =)

50. loves children??
yaya! =)))

this week..

this will be a busy week!

yesterday i stayed up till 4am to do some stuffs for the UNI FAIR.. and i woke up at 7am.. and till now, which is 12.43am, i still have not found the time to rest!

after this gota do maths.. coz gota pass up tomorrow..

and im craving for maggi mee!!

morning!

yaya i was mopping my floor yesterday.

im up! =) its 6.45am! its early ok for mee.. hehe!

i couldnt sleep. dammit. thanks to the nyamuks.

okla i wana makan my siew pow.. =)

good day everyone!

one week

one week.
what have i been doing?

sleep.
eat.
sleep.
eat.
online.
eat.
eat.
eat.
sleep.
eat AGAIN.

OMG ELYNN! whats freaking wrong with YOU???

dream

sometimes i just cant help but to sit down and SIGH.. thinking of my luck.

damnit. stop dreaming elynn!

syok sendiri

was just checking my facebook.. i mean.. my photos on facebook.

and WOW. hehe! i need just a boost of self confidence now so i post up some pics of me ok? haha! got lots somemore la.. but im sure no one bothers. so i post SOME la. =)