LOVEBUG.

Called her for the first time yesterday finally found the missing part of me felt so close, but you were far away left me without anything to say Now I'm speechless over the edge I'm just breathless I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again Hopless Head over heels in the moment I never thougt that I'd get hit by this love bug again I can't get your smile out of my mind (can't get you out of my mind) I think about your eyes all the time You beautiful but you don't even try (don't even, don't even try) modesty is just so hard to find Now I'm speechless Over the edge I'm just breathless I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again Hopless head over heels in the moment I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again Kissed her for the first time yesterday Everthing I wished that it would be suddenly I forgot how to speek Hopless, Breathless baby, can't you see NOW I'M [guitar solo] Now I'm speechless over the edge I'm just breathless I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again Now I'm hopeless head over heels in the moment I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again whoa Love bug again

Beyonce- If i was a boy.

If I were a boy, even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys, and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken so they think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful, waiting for me to come home
To come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand, oh-oh-oohh-oh
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You got it wrong

But you're just a boy
And you don't understand (yea, you don't understand, oh!)
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Because you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy




yes. YOU. are just a boy. you will never get it. will you?
=)

drowned.

ol. so that pic was my friendster profile picture. who cares. i am currently drowned in my worries. i dont look like im worried, or im drowning in it but i THINK i am. ask my friend. erm.. dont mana mention it here. Every two days or so i will look for him for advise, for motivation, and for confidence. despite having so many A's for trials, im not convinced and confident to get straights for spm. whats wrong with me? so yes, im drowning now. i have so many things to worry about. exam. SPM. future. scholarships. NS. HWC. weight. stamina. personal. health. tuitions. financial. him. family. friends. driving exam. expectations. and many others. of course, SPM first. and how i wish i can say this is my last post till after SPm, but i KNOW it wont be. LOL. sometimes i wish i can turn back time. but nope. life doesnt work this way. i dont want to grow up. i want to be the cute girl, the naive one, the one who cries coz i dont get the toy i want, the one who runs and plays with swings ans see saws without anyone laughing, etc. i dont like to grow up. coz growing up means the people around you will grow old. it means losing those you lose. it means going through suffering and sickness and eventually death. but the truth is, this is life. this is the gift of life we should cherish. the buddha said, life is suffering. we go through birth, suffer, we get sick, and we eventually die. nothing is permanent. sorry, im a strong buddhist. i was just looking through my blog. and i came across the post on mini camp. i wont be helping out in mini camp this year. =( SPM lah! anyway i had vegetarian dinner in SKE yesterday. and i gota say, Ske has a place in my heart. A place where it can never be replaced, i love that place. i had so much memories with it. and one day, as much as i want to go overseas and neevr come back, i promise i will be back to serve SKE. i will. =) and yes. i am sad and a lil depressed over some personal stuff. but its ok. i know my friends and family, and my numver 2-5 (go guess who), stil loves me and will always have my back. i hope. no matter what happens, i think its all karma, and theres always a way to correct what is wrong. and im glad my life so far has been fun, and extraordinary. going thru hardships is lumrah hidup anyway. haha what am i crappping again? oh, btw, SPM isnt the end of the world. thank buddha for that. but it does determine your future. great. so i have less than 3 weeks to determine my future. i wonder what the future holds for me, or rather, what am i going to do to determine my future. LOL. okok. its a long post. sorries. gtg. tata!

of working hard and dreaming.

people say.. "dream like u never dreamt before". yeah i think its something like that. i admit lar i have been FREAKING extremely lazy and relaxed after trials. its bad. i know. but i cant help it. i dont know whats wrong. i watch "the pursuit of happyness" earlier. well i didnt really watched it all la. just the ending. its about a father and son. the mom left them. and the father didnt have any job. and they had no money and no place to stay. the father would carry with them all their baju in a suitcase all over town. Fortunately, he got a part time job at some company. i think its some company dealing with shares and all. he worked hard. everyday, even though they only had enough for themselves, like orang melayu say, "kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang", they still loved each other very much. they would put up at a church. and the father would donate blood, to get some money when they really pokai d. there was one part, the father said, "when i was young, when i got good grades for my history tests, i knew one day i would be someone big." and then he continued, "but as the years passed, it seems like i have become nothing, no one." and the story continues. oh, btw, even tho he just has enough money, he still sends his son to school. kindergarten i think. anyway, he worked very hard to find people, and to convince them to buy the shares and ionvest. in the end, he managed to tarik lots of people, hence boosting the companie's erm.. profit? gee i duno lah! so, u know how people who only work part time have to stop working right? well, the say came and he was called into the boss' office. to his shock, he was employed. this meant, he was going to have a REAL job. and earn fixed salary every month for him and his son. he cried when he was told the good news. and he was so so so happy, that he went out of the office bulding, to his son's kindergarten, picked him up, and hugged him. and then he said.. "at that moment, i felt it- HAPPINESS". when i saw that, i was almost in tears. yeah, im kinda emo during movies and all. but then, i think to myself.. THATS what i want in march next year. to have tears of joy in my eyes, in my parents' eyes. i want it. my 11 A1's. i want that. but i have to work for it. the movie proves everything doesnt it? you work hard, you try hard, you dont give up, you have faith in yourself, you believe that things will get better. and walla! the perfect outcome awaits you. yaya. but its easier said than done. and that line.. the one on scoring an A in history test. it proves that doesnt mean we emerge triumphant now, we will succeed in life, in out future. and vice versa. we should not be over confident of ourselves. this, is an extremely good movie. i wana watch it again. after SPM. haha. anyway sigh. i dont know why my life is so screwed up now except the fact that my trial results are ok, but not good. whats wrong with everything la?

Chiquitita

Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong You're enchained by your own sorrow In your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow How I hate to see you like this There is no way you can deny it I can see that you're oh so sad, so quiet Chiquitita, tell me the truth I'm a shoulder you can cry on Your best friend, I'm the one you must rely on You were always sure of yourself Now I see you've broken a feather I hope we can patch it up together Chiquitita, you and I know How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end You will have no time for grieving Chiquitita, you and I cry But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you Let me hear you sing once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita Try once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita So the walls came tumbling down And your love's a blown out candle All is gone and it seems too hard to handle Chiquitita, tell me the truth There is no way you can deny it I see that you're oh so sad, so quiet Chiquitita, you and I know How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end You will have no time for grieving Chiquitita, you and I cry But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you Let me hear you sing once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita Try once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita Try once more like you did before Sing a new song, Chiquitita

Ants

The Ant Philosophy

Over the years I've been teaching kids about a simple but powerful concept - the ant philosophy.

I think everybody should study ants. They have an amazing four-part philosophy, and here is the first part: ants never quit. That's a good philosophy. If they're headed somewhere and you try to stop them; they'll look for another way. They'll climb over, they'll climb under, they'll climb around. They keep looking for another way. What a neat philosophy, to never quit looking for a way to get where you're supposed to go.

Second, ants think winter all summer. That's an important perspective. You can't be so naive as to think summer will last forever. So ants are gathering in their winter food in the middle of summer.

An ancient story says, "Don't build your house on the sand in the summer." Why do we need that advice? Because it is important to think ahead. In the summer, you've got to think storm. You've got to think rocks as you enjoy the sand and sun.

The third part of the ant philosophy is that ants think summer all winter. That is so important. During the winter, ants remind themselves, "This won't last long; we'll soon be out of here." And the first warm day, the ants are out. If it turns cold again, they'll dive back down, but then they come out the first warm day. They can't wait to get out.

And here's the last part of the ant philosophy. How much will an ant gather during the summer to prepare for the winter? All that he possibly can. What an incredible philosophy, the "all-that-you-possibly-can" philosophy.

Wow, what a great philosophy to have - the ant philosophy. Never give up, look ahead, stay positive and do all you can.

someone refers to me as an insect. or maybe pest. its sort of the same. so what? i can be an ANT!

ANTS never give up FYI.

or butterfly. they're pretty. =)

so yeah. who cares. even IF i am a pest/insect, im a strong one. no pesticide can kill me now. well, only SPM can. haha. im a pest with good intentions! im no parasite or watever.. im just some pest trying to warn humans of some danger.

and is this wat i get after all my good intentions and all i have done? GREAT.

oh well, as they say, once an insect, always an insect.

i understand that humans are scared of insects and constantly kill it with no sympathy. but im not scared of insects and i dont kill me.

conclusion : I STILL LOVE MYSELF.

heck with whatever people wana call me. i am still me! =)

=)

i'll be ok. no.. i will do good.. no. i'll do great! yeah! =) just boosting my confidence. hehe! i love my frens! rock on! =)

May the angels protect you Trouble neglect you And heaven accept you when its time to go home May you always have plenty The glass never empty And know in your belly You¹re never alone May your tears come from laughing You find friends worth having As every year passes They mean more than gold May you win and stay humble Smile more than grumble And know when you stumble You're never alone Never alone Never alone I'll be in every beat of your heart When you face the unknown Wherever you fly This isn't goodbye My love will follow you stay with you Baby you're never alone I have to be honest As much as I want it I’m not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow So when hard times have found you And your fears surround you Wrap my love around you You're never alone Never alone Never alone I'll be in every beat of your heart When you face the unknown Wherever you fly This isn't goodbye My love will follow you stay with you Baby you're never alone May the angels protect you Trouble neglect you And heaven accept you when its time to go home So when hard times have found you And your fears surround you Wrap my love around you You're never alone Never alone Never alone I'll be in every beat of your heart When you face the unknown Wherever you fly This isn't goodbye My love will follow you stay with you Baby you're never alone My love will follow you stay with you Baby you're never alone time arent good now. no matter wat sayang, i will always be here. p/s: sayang is my di di ok! =) oh, i lovvee my books too! haha!