at times in life..

sometimes in life, you are forced to make difficult decisions. always know your priorities. do things you NEED to do, not what you WANT to do. it makes a huge difference. =) thanks friends, for always being there.

trial exam is over! but here comes the worse part. RESULTS. sigh. got back a few papers d. yeah got my A1 for all those, FOR NOW only. but i dont seem to be contented. whats wrong with me? gosh elynn! now.. look at the picture. thats how i feel. lols. but dont worry.. me wont commit suicide. too young for that! haha. still gota achieve my dreams u know.. hehe! and one definite subject to miss out my A is BIOLOGY. but i love my teacher. she seems optimistic. last week.. Teacher : ELYNN.. i wana cekik you! the alveolus question.. i said before already.. must comepare.. etc etc etc. me : oh.. aiyah nvm la. Teacher : you know out of 10 marks u get how much or not? 4 only! me : sigh.. ok. to tell the truth, i TOUGHT i did compare the right way. but guess i was wrong. heck la. and then.. sambung conversation.. me : teacher, my paper how? teacher : okok laa.. ok. so once u hear her say OK OK la.. means its NOT GOOD. she's very optimistic. and my marks very BAD ok. oh.. then after getting back paper 2.. me : aiyoh teacher.. die lar die larr.. no A already la.. teacher : this time no A, SPM can wan la.. now thats why i love her! =) and my add maths.. suicide. i lost 10 marks coz im so careless! and.. i lose 1 mark coz the teacher said improper fraction cant be accpeted. sad. die. duno can get A anot. =( i must be contented. MUST BE CONTENTED. must be disciplined. MUST BE DISCIPLINED. MUST MUST MUST! sad lah. i just cant seem to get bio and sejarah in my head. no wait, i CAN. must say i CAN. nasiblar, got frens to push me and give me advice. hehe! thanks everyone! ok.. now.. back to my room to read.. i hope. after finish reading about the hadron collider la. hehe! nite everyone!

dreams

i look and feel like that now. or so i think. yeah. im in the middle of my trials. if you wnaa know how the papers were, its BAD. extreme. dont think can reach target this time, again. sigh. forget it. dowana be sad coz of some bunch of papers. hehe! you know, everyone has dreams. and aspiration. most people wana be rich, famous, etc etc. as for me, i dont want to be extremely rich. of course i wana achieve my dreams to be an aeronautical engineer, or aviation engineer pun jadilah. i dont know how far it'll be reality, but well, im hoping for the best of course. anyway, i used to dream of being rich, the richest in the world and all. but now, i dont want that. all i want is a happy and simple life. im not desperate for a nobel prize, im not hungry for fame, im not thirsty for extreme richess. i just want a happy, simple life, filled with love from friends and family. i want to earn enough money to buy a car for me, and for my parents, to buy a nice comfortable house for me and my parents (hopefuly in UK), to shop and indulge in my fav brand once in a while, and most of all to help other people. i doubt i will have kids. i mean, for now, i dont want to. i prefer adoption, for now. many kids in the world do not have parents now.. so i guess i'll do the world a favour by adopting one or two. mayb like angelina jolie or smtg. i dont know. i just want to help people. i feel happy when i help them. and make them happy. and thats my dream. i dont aim to be extreme.. i just need a simple happy life. now now, how did i get here? haha. so out of topic d. neway.. trials is important lar. sighs. gota chiao. oh one more, "you have tha ability to shrink your dreams to fit reality, or to stretch reality to fit your dreams." I, choose the latter. what about you? =)

how did you spend your 31st August?

as we all know, 31st august is our national day. when i was in form 2 and 4, i had to wake up very early on 31st august, slip into my girl guide uniform, and march, and march.. from bandar hilir to kubu. then, i, or rather we (my frens and i) would complain non stop. waking up early on a public holiday to march, when no one actually wants to see you. all the people want to see is the army truck, the beca and all. but this year, i feel different. yes, i admit im a patrioric person. im stand straight whenever negaraku plays, im proud of malaysia despite the politics and all. so, lets start with friday. 29th august, schools had their merdeka celebrations. as much as i wanted to ponteng to study, i felt it was important for me to attend and see what our school has prepared. it was raining that morning. but thank god, pn zaharah said assembly on as usual. and this time, we get to bring our chairs to the tapak perhimpunan! so that our butts wont have water patches after assembly. now, thats one interesting thing for a start! not in my whole 5 years of being in mgss we are allowed to bring our chairs and sit on chairs during assembly. hehe! then, the pangacara majlis started off by giving us some facts on malaysia and merdeka. and then.. here comes another interesting part! the cadet polis marched in and took the flag frm our gpk 1! smtg like in those sports events and all. yeah i know im suaku but nv really happened right in front of my eyes before maa.. sumore i sat in front! hehe. then after that they march and raise the flag while we sang negaraku and melaka maju jaya. and after tht there were performances. i like the sketch. so well done. =) enjoyed it to the max. then after tht lessons as usual. =( ok, on 31st august, i woke up early.. and decided to follow the school bus. my girl guides had to go for marching so i tagged along. patriotic mah. wana go see ali rustam. hehe! when i reached school, the guides were surprised to see me. lol. so i followed them and had fun with them. i went to the main stage there to see the performances. i like it. i like the rejimen askar melayu. their uniform so NICE! and they march.. fuhlamak! and and and.. their band... i just love it. i was just standing behind the fella who plays the.. erm.. i duno wat instrument is that. but as usual, the TYT came late. till one askar pengsan! so scary. oh yes.. and theres this family who stood beside me. the son was erm.. not normal. down symdrome i think. anyways, i think he felt hot and suddenly he ran, and wated to take off his shirt. his dad stopped him. and everyone was looking at them. i mean, please lah like tht aso wan see? and then i heard those people saying "ohh cacat..". hey people, cant u use a better word? OKU or smtg. cacat sounds so.. cacat. anyway, the dad managed to control the boy. then his mum and two sisters were beside me. and i heard the elder sis (but younger than the boy), saying 'benci' and all. i didnt wana believe wat i think im hearing. but anyway i kept quiet and she continued saying, "benci lah. dia tu. malukan ayah, malukan mak, malukan keluarga." and my instant reaction was WTF? but i kept quiet, tho i felt like slapping her. her mum replied , "sabar la. nanti mak ayah tak ada dah, saiap nak jaga abang?". and the girl continued to mumble. she was angry, with her brother. and then her mum said they wanted to go home or something, but she didnt want to. she said, "biarlah ayah ngan dia aje yang balik. i nak tengok lagi." ah yes, i appreciate their semangat patriotik. but.. sigh. its so saddening ryte? im still so angry with her. u wana know what i think? i think SHE is the one who has malukan ayah, malukan mak, malukan keluarga. gosh. such thinking. one day, one day.. she will get back her balasan. mayb she an OKU anak or smtg. tho i hope not. gee, i hope she wont read this blog. oh wait, im sure she wont. she's not civilised to go online. XD anyway after all those the TYT arrived, then he hormat. then the rejiman askar melayu played negaraku. after tht, TYT check the perbarisan. then, negaraku again. then continue lar.. well, i malas to update d. but one things for sure, i did enjoy myself this merdeka. i know i did something for my country this merdeka. did you? tepuk dada tanya selera

the guides being all impatient

rejimen askar melayu's band!

i was standing quite close to this fella. hehe!

erm, i think it was mohd li rustam arriving

ali rustam beri hormat

TYT arriving. (eh? not malaysian made car?!?!)

lafaz rukun negara and laungan merdeka from this MHS guy. sorry duno name. hehe

deklamasi sajak

mr ronald hendricks conducting the choir from syarikat air melaka singing patriotic songs

VIP kibar bendera while sing patriotic songs.

dance by school children

GUIDES!

near main stage

at erm.. near jalan kubu

melaka, malaysia, pandu puteri flag.

well, thats all. im proud to be a malaysian. are you?