im lost.. so so lost..

i missed school lessons and tuition lesson for my 3 day pandu puteri camp. and heck, tht camp was so boring. they practically fed us so much and we did so little activities! and my group, the unlucky one, didnt get to do flying fox. ok nvm.. then when i got home, my stamina droped like crazy! serious, very vry sad case. nearly cried. i used to swim abt 5 to 6 laps very fast then only tired.. but tat day.. i swam only 1 lap and i couldnt take it anymore! argh!!! damn i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dissapointed. sighz.. and another one, pancha's tuition.. he taught the very important topic! 2 unknowns in one linear equation! and i missed his class! argh! sobs~ dunno la.. when i got back to school.. i was so lost.. teacher was teaching but my mind wasnt there coz i was still so blurr abt wat teacher was trying to tell us.. i think im gonna fail my pmr. pmr is like.. 150 days more only lar k! and i didnt even knw tat we will b sitting for one latih tubi or selaras test on this wednesday and friday for sejarah and geografi. ah! i cant b bothered. i guess. im not prepared for anything! im starting to give up hope. life is treating me so badly~ so.. i tot i would b able to catch up in school.. but sadly, squash competition is this coming tuesday.. sighz.. during school hours. pathetic isnt it? as i said, im giving up hope lar! yea.. so tats it.. babye! *sobs*

too much freedom and trust?

i can sit here in font of the computer when there is a pile of homework waiting for me in my room. amazing huh? haha~ its normal for me-elynn suah. lol.. im like that. anyway im looking for pics of tenunan for seni so yeah~ so difficult to find wan! while waiting i thought that just writing an entry wont hurt. had a conversation wiht mum today. told her tht my frens think they're cool! yay! ahha.. yeap~ my parents ARE cool and sporting and understanding. despite the fact thta im in form 3 and i have tonnes of homewokr to complete.. she still lets me go wherever i want to. yes, i have to admit my dad DOES complain to my mum.. "she goes to all the campfires.." but he doesnt tell me face to face. haha. =P well at least i go out and have fun and my results are superb! *perasan* nah, i dun study for tests and exams but still my results come out.. well, hmm.. very strong B and A. XD i was complaining to wendy, esper and eunice that day.. i said.. "i think my parents give me too much freedom and turst me too much d larr!!" and wendy answered : "This is the FIRST time i hear people complaining tht their parents trust them too much and give them too much freedom.. aih" haha~ i dunno.. in a way i guess its good lar i mean i mix around and stuffss but my parents really trust me getting straight As in PMR knw.. even i myself am not confident in getting straight As. sighhzzz so yeah, i was telling my mum just now on the way home from school and also while eating lunch.. i said.. "my frens say ryte.. u all very COOL and sporting knw.. coz everywhere also u all let me go.. tehy envy me.. lol.." and my mum was like.. "aiya, miz around mar.. as long as you knw when to study and when to have fun can d. i trsut you lar...~~ i knw u will study when the time comes. u will knw how to study on ur own.. no need people to push to to study.. " hehehehhehe.. come to think of it.. yeap~ i think my DAD really puts high hopes on me.. coz well, not to say anything lar.. i dowanna blow my own trumpet bt then.. despite the fact tat im smart *AHEMMM!!!* or rather.. bright.. *DOUBLE AHeMMMM!* i play squash, swim, i have stamina, and i can run. and also im active in those public speaking and stuffs. and i knw how to have fun e.g going cmapfires, concerts, shopping, etc etc. haha.. unlike some cmart people.. study 24/7 like nerds~ sighz~ how can they survive larr??? so yeah,. im not a nerd.. but being a nerd would be cool! ehhe~ i should try it one day when i get bored of having fun. LOL! lets see.. oh yea and my dad DID complain to my mum about me being crazee over guys. hehehe.. i cant say anything larr!!! TEENAGERS LAR!!! pleaseeeeeee.. but i guess my mum understands. my mum is open minded. she even jokes to me about guys. haha~ she thinks i like my sisters' boyfriend. like WTF??? haha. ok, i have no feelings for him k!! and i guess my dad is cool about it as well.. since its always SFI guys and the guys tht he knws such as anslem, wen chinag, etc etc etc.. so yeah~ he's cool!! seriously, i have ntg to blog about anymore. i knw tht wht i had just blogged about might b boring but tht thing and the feeling of gratefulness and also being so damn proud for having such COOL and SPORTING parents have been in me for such a long time. XD~~~ heheehe~ till then, cheers!

this week..

a lot of sad and happy things happened in just a week. well, dont wanna emntion all the things la.. malas.. just updated my frnester blog this afternoon. http://esuah.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/ okie. im addicted to the song more than words. haha~ the sif guys sang it so nice!! so sweet! paul and christpopher. hehe~ oh and i heard pbsm not having any mroe campfires in the years to come. sobs! SFI pbsm i mean. sobs. haha~ ok nvm.. scouts still got campfire can d. hehehehe.. oh wait~ now chatting to hong rui. he say no more campfires for sfi. not even scouts. how sad can tht be? sobs!!! double and triple sobs!!! aih~ wats happening larr?? like dat die la.. aiyo.. ahah~ nex few years damn sien wor.. sighz~ all i can do nwo is sigh non stop. ahah~ everyone GONE! they all left melaka d. go study somewhere d. isnt it sad? yea i knw.. ok, im missing someone terribly now. sobs.

1st april 2006

My bday cake!! frm secret recipe, forgot wats its name d. haha~ yummy!! these two watches frm my aunt! the pinkie wan is mine~ the other is my sister's. but sis doesnt wear a watch so i guess both is mine! niahahaha! FOSSIL brand. costs rm600+ for both of these. muaks! this lovely and sweet thingy frm esper~ love it so much.. has wordings on it tat goes.. "as much as you love me, promise me that you wont give up no matter what" foo gave me this tupperware with homemade chocolates in it! but i ate it all up d! haha~ yummy! she made it herself k the chocolates! hehe. so sweet of her. im touched. hehe Wendy gave me this damn chunted and cute notebook! hehe well, i had a not bad day. wouldnt say its great. but well, haha~ im glad tat people remember. i feel so happy. ehhe~ tho it might juz be a simple message saying 'happy bday' or may it be a very expensive gift, i always bear in mind tht its the thought tht counts! so yeah, thanks so much peeps! you made my day! muaksss!!!!!!!!!!