my bedsheet! i luv it!

sigh~

chinese new year is coming.. tomorrow is cny eve.. still no mood.. so much work to do.. sigh~ then also i began to realise smtg abt myself.. negative wan lar.. yesterday nite was tiring yet beautiful.. was given a really straight statement.. well, its kinda private.. hehe and yea, ns ppl are back.. but i guess ns is gettin more n more fun tat they're forgettin us people here.. me here waitiong for one damn miss call.. till now still not yet get.. 1 sms also belum receive frm sumone.. i sms 'someone' d.. but no reply.. i miss call, also no reply.. message thru msn, also no reply~~ ahhhh!guess im forgotten.. by 'someone', which is sad.. sis is now on d plane back d.. im at home, very tired.. mum n dad on d highway i guess.. gone to take her home frm klia.. no mood .. missing sumoen badly, and also cant wait to see my sis.. ehhehehe... anyway, HAPPY CHINSE NEW YEAR!

im confused!

i already have a topic.. but it might be offensive, so i have to think twice before making my decision. teacher said im supposed to write out my speech first then he'll see how.. sigh~ imhaving difficulties lar~ dunno how to make it interesting. asked many ppl wat they think of my speech so far, some say ok. some say boring.. dunno la! confused..and i got sooooooooooooooooooo much homework not yet do yet.. tmr hav to pass up.. sigh~!

aih~ im confused

sigh~ today house practice started.. kinda fu but tiring.. lol.. then juz finish tuition.. im tired.. nasib today not much homework.. haha mayb after this wanna go sleep.. or go study? haha.. see lar my mood.. hehe seriously, im confused.. my public speaking.. still cant get a suitable topic.. argh! i was thinking the topic abt.. 'BEING FAT" .. what u think? i dunno.. sigh~ or 'PREMARITAL SEX' .. or.. COED AND SINGLE SEX SCHOOL' or.. 'LOVE ENCOURAGES STUDENTS TO STUDY' or.. 'SCHOOL LIFE' .. more ideas yet to come.. haha.. yea.. asking around.. but im really interested in the topic.. 'BEING FAT' .. mainly coz its abt me and i was the one who thought of this topic! haha.. so.. yea! lol... i dare not ask mr rm abt this lar.. coz the way he puts it like.. im an expert.. but im not! and tht gives me a lot of pressure! haha i really cant wait till this sunday.. hehe.. or chinese new year time at least.. hehe.. missing someone badly.. =P .. anyway, i actually wanted to write abt someone here.. but i guess i'll do it in another blog.. or in this blog but another time.. ahha.. coz now, i feel like sleeping! ahha.. like a pig.. PIGGYMON i am.. =P

aih~ im confused

sigh~ today house practice started.. kinda fu but tiring.. lol.. then juz finish tuition.. im tired.. nasib today not much homework.. haha mayb after this wanna go sleep.. or go study? haha.. see lar my mood.. hehe seriously, im confused.. my public speaking.. still cant get a suitable topic.. argh! i was thinking the topic abt.. 'BEING FAT" .. what u think? i dunno.. sigh~ or 'PREMARITAL SEX' .. or.. COED AND SINGLE SEX SCHOOL' or.. 'LOVE ENCOURAGES STUDENTS TO STUDY' or.. 'SCHOOL LIFE' .. more ideas yet to come.. haha.. yea.. asking around.. but im really interested in the topic.. 'BEING FAT' .. mainly coz its abt me and i was the one who thought of this topic! haha.. so.. yea! lol... i dare not ask mr rm abt this lar.. coz the way he puts it like.. im an expert.. but im not! and tht gives me a lot of pressure! haha i really cant wait till this sunday.. hehe.. or chinese new year time at least.. hehe.. missing someone badly.. =P .. anyway, i actually wanted to write abt someone here.. but i guess i'll do it in another blog.. or in this blog but another time.. ahha.. coz now, i feel like sleeping! ahha.. like a pig.. PIGGYMON i am.. =P

argh!

argh! sh!T! im pissed!

i cant take it anymore..

i cant take it anymore! i mean, all the agm' are over.. and im filled with sooooooooooooooo many things to do.. kinda lazy wanna list down, but i think i cant take it anymore.. just talked to kim on the fon for 30 mins.. kinda relieved a lil.. and sure he was suffering when he was hearing me talk.. no doubt about that.. sigh~ i mean, the stress has come.. and im feeling it.. i cried juz now.. *paiseh* .. too stressful lar~ i mean, everyone puts high expectation on me.. but what if i fail? i dont wanna dissapoint them, but deep down in my heart, something just tells me that i'll dissapoint them.. especially in PMR.. sigh~ i myself have no confident in scoring even a single A in PMR.. and tat sucks kay.. i mean.. nvm.. mum puts really high expectation on me.. and that worries me A LOT! sigh~ i also dunno lar.. school leh, i hold so many post, i feel so stressed! i mean, yea, i very lebey.. kim agree with me.. ! =/ yaya.. i lebey .. whatever lar.. but then, i didnt noe it'll be this bad kay.. i mean, argh! dunno hwo to explain.. its like, i have soooo much work to do.. that i dont know where to start! really really confusing.. its like, now im sooo busy that i dont have time to miss someone.. ehhehehe.. sigh~ after cny im really gonna piah d.. cannot tahan d.. its better to suffer now ryte.. anyway, gotta do the pengawas carta d.. sigh~ the guru disiplin all nto yet give pictures.. how to do? lee suan wans it on monday.. die lar! =X

urgh! stress!

shI!T man! so stressful~ er.. as in.. i didnt noe it will be this difficult.. sigh~ i mean, we had agm today.. for leo and pandu puteri.. leo agm kinda sucked.. coz i am the tail twister and supposed to jaga their discipline.. but there were 99 members today for goodness sake! and i cant say tht all are the budak rosak type.. but most of them are.. some frm the good classes.. which is thumbs up~! and what more, yuet siang and company keep asking people to join our club! we dont even have place to sit!!! and the noise they are making can actually crack the earth! ish!! frustrated u noe! sigh~~ anyway, pandu puteri meeting was ok.. not enough time only.. kinda organised.. but i need to be more organised! hehe.. okok.. gtg d.. wanna go play squash d! ehhehehe.. squash squash squash! haha.. lepas all my geramm~ ishhh!!!!!

im determined to be a better person!

YEA!!!!!!! as it says.. im determined to be a better person.. hehe today, i asked mr rajendran abt my public speaking and he says im in! woohooo! haha.. yea.. i luv public speaking.. hehe.. but now.. : to find an interesting topic.. hmm.. not easy larr.. last year dunno took so long to think and tat also was with sis n gang's help.. hehe.. however, mr lim chow koon did ask me last year to join debate.. hmm.. btu until now no news fmr him.. so i'll take public speaking first.. but i really really really wana go in debate!!!! i dunno y but i enjoy doing these kinda things.. hehe.. speaking and stuff.. =P.. today we kena the titanus jab.. no comments about it.. wonder when the dentist gonna come and check our teeth~ ? i really wanna get things done faster.. seriously, this year i wanna get everything,a nd i mean EVERYTHING done quickly and in a proper manner.. sigh~ school is great as usual.. hehe.. ntg much to say.. oh, and today those NS people gone back d.. so sad~ last nite couldnt sleep coz was worried abt someone.. not replying my sms.. ehhe.. but now ok d.. juz tat i miss him ni.. ehhehe... =P .. guess i'll stop here now.. wanna go study~ IM DETERMINED TO BE A BETTER PERSON!!! and I CAN DO IT!!! =)

my heart?

hey.. lotsa things happened last nite.. sad things i mean.. being ignored and stuff.. very sad.. but well, im pulling through! cant believe this is the true him.. i never thought he would be like this..mayb i should have never trusted him.. and trusted my sis.. she experienced before ler.. sgh~ nvm.. i'll take this as an important lesson of life.. this has happened to me before many many many times.. -.-" .. anyway, last nite got happy things alsoo.. last nite got lar someone chat to me.. lol. cant believe it.. but sadly, he dunno my name wan.. ish.. haha oh! yea.. my dream.. was terrible.. i dreamt that me, my dad n jae mie went on a ship at er.. dunno where.. then it was like suddenly we remembered the titanic.. then oh yea~ it was the titanic anniversary or smtg.. was on the 24th of december or 14th.. i also not sure.. then idunno why i go and say.. 'something sure happen wan'.. then everyone was like scolding me for talking nonsense.. then again, at er.. 12 noon sharp ar, i say again.. 'something's gonna happen'.. then i heard some sounds like lion roar.. then we look behind, i saw the waves coming up.. i think its more like tsunami than titanic lar.. but anyway, the waves rose and hit our ship.. my dad held me n jae mie tightly and we swam n swam n swam n swam.. till we reached er.. kajang river or smtg.. lol.. funny dream. then after tat we were save.. and i woke up d.. haha.. weird dream huh.. but true la.. the dream so dran true.. oh yea.. then after that in the dream, i felt like calling ck and kell vin to tell him what happened.. weird huh? haha.. yea.. oh yea, another bad news.. tht day i was chattin to kor kor chai weng and dunno how come came up kell vin's name.. then kor kor was like.. 'he kena ns right.. good for him.. let him die there..' huh? i was so blurr and was like.. -.-" then the same conversation, my nick said i need a new squash coach.. then kor kor said ask nicole david to train me n stuff.. i said.. im waiting for kell vin lar, when he come back frm ns then can go play together. or mayb kell vin can train me a bit abit lar.. kor kor was like.. 'train his backside ar!' .. okok.. mayb im writing too much d lar... juz forget the part abt kor kor n kell vin.. =D .. no matter what, i will till love kor kor and kell vin the same! ehhe.. muaks! god bless..

important day

monday is an important day! haha.. im getting installed as a prefect.. not only as a prefect, but the assistant secretary of the prefectorial board.. yahoo! hehe.. to tell d truth, im kinda proud of myself.. hehe.. anyway, dowanna brag about it.. just wanna thank the teachers for putting their trust in me.. and i wont let them down.. hehehehe.. oh yea~ monday we dismiss early.. at 12 noon.. weeee! ahha., but gbs, tun tuah, and smk klebang besar holiday ler.... tuesday holiday also! haha.. public holiday actually.. ehehe anyway, gtg d.. wanna go shopping! hehe.. tata

school

its already the third day of school! weeeee! ahha.. i love school now.. wonder why.. anyway, monday's our installation.. hehe.. kinda proud of myself lar actually.. haha.. oh and monday is er hern's bday as well.. eheh.. anyway, these days kinda hectic.. still cant get used to not sleeping in the afternoon.. hehehee.. and not used to sitting at my study tabel for long.. haha! wendy will b the naib pengerusi 2 pengawas perpustakaan.. means she will b the ketua librarian nex day.. yahoo! happy for her.. heehehe.. so so so, back to school.. this year will be very hectic n busy lar.. no doubt.. just now pn elaine came n told me got pandu puteri camp in march.. ok.. then i hav pmr, and tuitions, sigh~ and all those practices.. squash and stuff.. i wanna find a new squash coach.. any suggestions? ehhe.. but whatever you throw at me, whatever responsibility you give to me, i try as hard as possible, i will try my very very best to not let you down and to carry out the responsibility well.. however if i do fail, please forgive me as no one is perfect.. i am very glad tht the teachers in my school is giving me an opportunity to do something for the school, and i wanna thank them for putting their trust in me.. i will not let them down, i promise.. i noe its gonna be a hectic n tough year, but well, i can make it through the rain!

happy new year!

*phew*.. it already 2006! hehe.. i've got nothing much to say.. er... just tat i feel that i had a bad 2005.. many challenges that i had to go thru.. too many indeed.. had a lot of bitter memories.. but yet i had some sweet memories.. anyway, i hiope to have a great year ahead of me.. especially with all those big examinations and i think i'll have some love problems.. ahha.. so, here are my new year resolutions: i want to: - lose some weight.. get taller as well - be more hardworking - improve in my cocuricular activities - excel in squash and swimming - change my attitude! - put studies as my main priority - spend less money - exercise more to have less pimples and stay healthy - eat less - burn the midnite oil whether it is weekends or weekdays - use less computer - go for more campfires but still dont forget abt my studies - score straight for pmr! - be top in melaka! hahahaha i dont want to : - get into a fight - flirt - be so emotional - use my handphone too often - disturb people as in calling them late at night - get into trouble in school - dress inappropriately - delay all my homework - do last minute work - be so egoistic so, i guess tats all lar.. got more btu i dunno how to write.. i can only keep it in my heart.. hehe.. and lastly, i hope to stick with these resolutions.. unlike year 2005..hehe.. best of luck everyone!